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Work hour, Keep the positive energy 🤘

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Only the Lord keeps me going♥️🙏

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10 posts!

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Cheers to my fellow horror buffs and let's all toast to Jason Voorhees, shall we?

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All Black And So Pretty

MEGAN THEE STALLION GQ Men of the Year (November 16, 2023)

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Life is just messy and we gotta make the best out of it when it comes in a way we do not appreciate

Gentle reminder that you cannot control and make others behave the way you want or the way that would make you feel better or that you think it's better. You can suggest something, give your opinion ofc, but in the end it's their life, they have the last decision and are not responsible of making your well-being/obeying to you while they take it. They need to act the way they rather and feel it's better for them to. They also need to make their own mistakes, if it's the case. And you cannot do anything about it. You just need to trust them, let them be and support them (if you can/agree ofc -it depends on the situation). And you also need to take care of yourself and your codependency and/or eventual triggers related to this. It's a long path, but you can make it. Separate your worth and deservance from how well you do for others or you suggest/help them, from how much they see you or listen to you. Your worth doesn't depend on any of these things.

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5 posts!

Okay, I'm progressive 🥳🎂🤘

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Face of Revenge

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Beautiful...

Hidden Narcissist, Hi Mom

Pack in tow off to work I go. My pain is also my relief. I remind myself of my father in this way. He would never allow himself to be happy. Just sit and stew not growing or changing. Living in the island he created. Seeing him and wondering maybe he was never his true self. He just denied himself and blamed others for his choices. As he withered in his pity party he threw so gallantly every day my mom grew. She loved to dance in the pity and loved the sympathy it created. As he withered she saw freedom. She gave him more when he needed less. She ignored what could grow and goodness with in him. Which I pointed out with only empty eyes looking back. She let to party go on and on until it was my fathers swan song. He moved to his island and she sailed away but not far enough to let others think she played her game. She’s so sweet look at poor her. Others exclaim. If they only knew how vapid and empty she is. Narcissist sailing at sea, there she be!

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True

If you find yourself stuck in a loop of doing something that you usually enjoy but find yourself indifferent to, try shifting to something new. You may usually enjoy your comfort game, but if you find you’re doing it out of habit then take a break and do something different. Push yourself to spend five minutes drawing, writing, walking, listening to music with your eyes closed. Break your mind out of its monotony, I promise it makes it easier.

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and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

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