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“Masculinity is always rewarded in girls/vagina holders”

I wanna tell you all about my mom. I know this is a sentence used against transmascs, and im a transman, so I wanna use my voice to tell you about my mom.

My mom is a cis woman, a gender nonconforming woman. (I had to teach her gnc recently actually, because she couldn’t find a term that she felt accurate.)

My mom has always hung out with mostly guys, she can fix cars, we half-joke (because its true) that every time she breaks up with a man they steal her toolbox (they do). We’re going to negate her current relationship because my stepdad is a feminist who adores her, but not all of her exes where like that.

My mom has faced SO MUCH misogyny over her clothing, her makeup, her hobbies. When she was building her tiny model car, her ex would drunkly rant how thats a “boys hobby” and “she shouldn’t be doing that”. Her and my dad used to renovate houses when they were married, Dad would plaster, and mom would plaster alongside him. While also fixing doors and windows, and floors, and ceilings, and painting the damn thing. When she goes to autoparts stores, or car lots, they always talk to her like shes stupid. Recently shes been bringing her husband, so the associate will ramble his ear off, and when theyre finally done, her husband turns to her and goes “babe I don’t know a thing hes talking about, what do you suggest?” because theyre both just so pissed off about it.

Don’t get me wrong, my moms for the girls too! She’ll give her enemy a tampon type of person. But the girls turn their backs on her, quite frequently. Mom used to have a friend, a male friend, who would go to the bar with her. I knew him well. They’re not friends anymore because he used her hobbies and interests to try to sleep with her. He would always try to change her too. Mom likes cooking, so he would try to push her away from things like watching fantasy TV (he thought that was a more ‘male’ genre) or fixing up the house for things like cooking and cleaning.

And so when I came out as trans, it was a really hard time for my mom. She understands now, and shes a HUGE HUGE ally and advocate for me, and I couldn’t fathom having a more supportive mother, but she was really confused. Mom was worried I wanted to transition because the misogyny gnc/masculine women face. I didn’t shave, I liked playing with knives and multitools, when I did makeup it was always more Kiss/Marilyn Manson style, when my sisters did a Marilyn Monroe.

I remember her driving us home from the clothing shop I came out to her in, and the talk we had. She asked me if I was confused, and I said I was sure. She said that I could just be a tomboy, like her. That it didn’t matter what everyone else said about being a masculine woman. Having talked later as adults, she thought I thought the only option for the type of masculinity I have was to be a man. She was so scared for me and my safety because of how punished masculinity is in women.

So now, as I’m 23, and its 2025, Mom is still the gender nonconforming woman she always has been. Mom taught me how to fish, how to use a hatchet, knife safety, and how to cook and sew. I’m a man who picks up heavy things for her now that shes too disabled too, who wears makeup and nail polish with my denim cutoffs and binder, who still has to call my mommy when I can’t get this screw to screw in right mom, I dont know your tips and tricks.

And masculine women can exist alongside trans men. My mom goes to my hormone appointments with me to make sure these doctors are listening to me, she yells at me when I take my shots late, she picks up my hormones if I’m at work. Mom takes me to Pride every year, and god rest the soul of any transphobes that cross my mothers path. My moms for the girls and the gays, the he’s and the they’s, the its and the lesbians and everyone between. Mom will fix you dinner and your car, and we give her gifts on fathers day too because she was Mom and Dad growing up.

So no. Masculinity isn’t always rewarded in female-presenting people or people with vaginas. My very cis mother could tell you that much.

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eat #them monday

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If you noticed, most of the updates coming from Gaza the past few days and especially today have been about the famine.

People in Gaza aren’t reporting the massacres because they are starving.

Literally everyone I follow from Gaza has been pleading for food today, mostly flour.

It’s truly unbearable to witness this manufactured starvation plan, imposed by Israel and its allies against besieged Gaza, especially when you know that there is enough food to feed all of Gaza for the next 3 months, stockpiled at a warehouse awaiting entry but being blocked by Israel, according to UNRWA.

I feel immense pain and shame, and I know many of you do as well. Speaking about this is no longer viable, we need to scream.

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I want to tell you a bit about Nader. He is a young man from Gaza, living with his family. Unfortunately, the last year has been horrible for them, as they have been suffering from Israel's genocide attempt.

Recently, his father has been sent to the hospital, as he is fighting both cancer and a hemmoragy. As such, he is to be waiting on an operation, and needs expensive medication.

That is not all, still, as the armies of Israel and the USA work hand in hand, and have stopped incoming humanitarian aid, and shot at people waiting for aid.

The situation in Gaza, and for Nader's family is a thing of horror, and I ask that you help him survive these times. Please donate.

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we passed a sign in boring that said their sister city is dull, scotland

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there’s this extremely kind soul of a woman on instagram that makes accessible recipes that don’t require standing, chopping, or a stove and she might just have a permanent place in my heart

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Theres a problem. See, there's an active yet treacherous and dangerous fight to expand the view of womanhood. Right? Trans women, women of color, all fighting to be included when you think of the word "woman".

There is not, though, space being made with the label "men" or "man". Instead trans men, butches, dykes, affected intersex people, who are being shoved into the narrowly defined "men" category. People arent expanding their definition of man. They are packing us up and shoving us into a mold that frankly, barely holds cis men. Men of color, queer men, trans men, are left out, or forced to contort into a very specific mold.

Like- yes. The struggle with womanhood is continuous and hard as fuck. But there IS an effort made by allies to go "hey, so trans women exist. Women without the ability to have children. Women of color who this doesnt apply to. Please consider this when talking about this subject?"

But. When a trans guy says this about trans men. Transmasculine individuals. Or others- well. "Lol okay, 'not all men' MRA over here. Suck it up and stop being a whiny crybaby oh my god!"

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All you need in life is a color picker willing to expose you to the unbounded madness we call color vision.

me, absolutely clueless: "I want a color just like this one, but in red" color picker: Fuck you think you are, a Mantis Shrimp? Don't talk to me again until you can afford a wide gamut monitor.

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Congrats Dreemurr household for producing the first ever rpg protagonist with species dysmorphia

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Something I think about sometimes as a transmasc is the contrast between the stereotype of how transmascs and trans men are so often viewed through the lens of “girls (or ‘girls’) who want to be boys”, and my experience growing up of feeling like a boy who wished desperately that he could be a girl. But, knowing deep down on some level that I wasn’t one and couldn’t be one, no matter how much I wanted to be. And perhaps my experience is complicated by growing up intersex, and not really going through what people think of as a complete “normal girl puberty”, so that’s something to consider when looking back on my experiences with gender.

But, I’ve seen a lot of people, transmascs and (occasionally) non transmascs alike talk about the transmasc experience of Wishing You Were A Boy and rarely seen anyone else talk about the transmasc experience of Wishing You Were A Girl, and frankly, I feel like a lot of cis allies are unaware that this is a thing for some transmascs. I’ve seen people talk about internalized transphobia broadly a bit more often, sure, but this is a slightly more distinct feeling than simply wishing I was “normal” and able to blend in, and therefore not trans, and therefore a cis girl by default. I’m not really sure how to describe it. Like, before I even knew that being trans was a concept that existed at all, before I consciously ever thought “I feel like a boy” or knew that was something I could be, I remember thinking often “I wish I could be a Real Girl” but knowing that I felt like an imposter. There was an intense yearning for Girlhood, but a knowledge that Girlhood was on a shelf just out of my reach- despite not having any idea whatsoever as to why, at the time.

Maybe this doesn’t make a lot of sense, I only slept 4 hours and my head isn’t exactly screwed on straight. But I’m sharing this anyway, hoping that someone else out there will see it and resonate and know that they aren’t alone. I also think it’s worth mentioning that I find it interesting how gender dysphoria can manifest so differently for everyone who is affected by it.

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turning him into a marketable keychain

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Friendship Bracelet competition

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Friendship Bracelet competition