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Joan of Arc by jinglin Xu

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TW: Heavily implied Child Abuse

Stowaway AU where Pacifica becomes a stowaway on the Stan-O-War 2 after trying to run away from home to California. Things don’t exactly work out as planned, but at least she’s got a “Summer Internship” away from her parents now!

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I think I'm at the point with both 'You were saying?' and "The sun, the moon, and a shitty bit of Latin" that I might need to ask around for some beta/ advanced readers. Links are embedded but if anyone is at all interested, please reach out. I've started to doubt a lot of the next few chapters and I'm at a bit of a block until it gets sorted.

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other people have said this before but I just received a message along these lines so it bears repeating: it is NOT AT ALL WEIRD for readers to comment on every chapter of a WIP fic!! in fact it is HUGELY ENCOURAGING to the author! PLEASE do so! you are being the OPPOSITE of annoying!!

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Art by Chloe’s arts

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Progress not perfection

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Another Momokarun piece because I'm normal about them

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Pacifica and dipper getting sucked into Wikipedia for hours at a time instead of sleeping is important to me

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Dipper and Pacifica being childhood sweethearts throughout the childhood/teenhood years

Been super busy with work and my project, but decided to take a break and ended up with all of this! Enjoy!

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pacifica northwest…. i love you…

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It only took me two months to get this together but I'm stoked to talk about Pacifica Elise Northwest again.

(Please note, as we're discussing the bell, I do talk about physical and emotional abuse, the former quite briefly.)

Previous posts: Entitlement and Expectations. Pacifica is fucking angry all the time.

Okay.

Let's conquer The Bell ™

Now. Word of God says the bell is a warning that credit cards will be cancelled and that she gets grounded and that's all nice and good. I disagree and I think a lot of us read a lot more into it, but I'm going to first address the things that don't contradict this and still have a massive impact on what the bell means outside of punishments.

This is a youtube video discussing 'Still face' and a lack of parental interaction and feedback. And let's be clear, surely Pacifica had a nanny/ child wrangler of some kind because Preston and Priscilla will not even consider dirty diapers, let alone change one. There's the family portrait in Northwest Manor Mystery that shows a pink, silly, smiling Pacifica. So she got some interaction and nurturing as a child from a member of staff who was presumably dismissed eventually.

And even as a child her parents were emotionally distant, Pacifica was a thing they owned, another mark of their affluence and position in society. A well behaved, pretty, obedient, impressive daughter.

So even if we believe there was no emotional abuse or physical abuse (I'm very iffy on physical though I know people can and will headcanon whatever resonates for them) just the fact that her parents will withdraw what little attention and affection she's getting at the first sign of her exercising autonomy, getting dirty, acting incorrectly, disobeying, that's already enough. Pacifica is incredibly isolated, she doesn't have real friends. All the people she is connected to remain connected on the condition of her good behavior or her being rich or mean enough to keep them around.

Not to mention, we know that she gets sent to her room if she disobeys, presumably for a long enough time to be a deterrent so misbehavior also results in literal isolation. Not great for any kid but particularly not one who is already under-socialized (As in, she is very much shoved into society and she's the most popular girl in Gravity Falls, but like, is she?)

So, let's say that's all it is. Her emotionally negligent and unavailable parents withdraw what little they give her. Maybe they're cold or ignore her. That's enough. That's enough to keep her on track.

But then there's the need to win, the drive, the sense that there are very real consequences to not being the best. Her parents forget to pick her up, they don't care about her competitions, only that she wins, they've built her insecurity about her looks to the point that she, at twelve, is desperate to avoid any sort of physical imperfection and prides herself on her appearance. You're telling me her mother never told her, "You look washed out when you forget blush," "Oh, Pacifica, a pimple? Disgusting." "Did you even bother to brush your hair?" "If you can't dress correctly, you'll stay home. I won't be seen at a party with you like that."

"Only a B, Pacifica? What's next, you go to public school?", "Second place is embarrassing, Pacifica, everyone at that game couldn't look at you without laughing." Yawning and interrupting her stories. Pretending they can't see her cry. Pacifica has only known the things she did wrong and the things she did 'good enough'.

Perfection or nothing.

I'm tentative about physical abuse and don't feel educated enough to speak on it other than to say we see minimal evidence for that. I can definitely understand where people might draw that conclusion or relate to it. I would consider perhaps physical shaming. A slap if she talks for too long, a hard grip dragging her to her room when she was reluctant. A pinch to stand up straight. I'm not sure those interact with the bell specifically but that's only my reading of it.

The bell is a warning, a reminder that they can and will remove her from a situation if she makes herself difficult or they will pull away and truly let her know she is below attention. For the Northwests the line from fine to difficult is a millimeter. Pacifica is always on edge and very alert. Looking at her family for cues, only her discovery of real connection with Mabel and Dipper start to draw her out of this obedience. She realizes she doesn't need to rely on her parents to fulfill her emotional needs and there are people out there that don't need her to be perfect to find her worthwhile. She can overcome some of her isolation by relying on people outside her cold social circle and circumstances. If her parents can't control her by denying her personhood and agency, then their power is significantly diminished.

A much shorter analysis for this one, I'll maybe make a poll for the next one, but if you have any ideas, opinions or asks send them my way :)

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Dipcifica Starter Pack!

What if Dipper and Pacifica had to relive the events of the Mansion Mystery but a year later and with all their memories of the prior events!

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Take a seat

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AUGGH THERES SOMETHING ABOUT THE PARALLELS BETWEEN THE OKDER TWINS AND THE YOUNGER TWINS

Like how the younger twins have parallels between each of the older twins, but are still not them and super different just as much as they are similar!!

Like,

Stanford & Dipper (Dippers birthmark parallels Fords six fingers, they’re both nerdy and were bullied, etc.)

This one’s obvious, along with Stanley & Mabel (being the twin that feels ‘lesser’ or ‘dumber’ than the other, fear of being abandoned, etc.)

But people don’t notice and/or talk about the parallels between Stanley & Dipper and Ford & Mabel!!

Stanley & Dipper (Being weak and kinda wimpy as children, Stan related to him with that, both of them being stubborn and reckless, etc.)

Stanford & Mabel (They both can get way too absorbed in their own things that they forget about other peoples feelings, etc. I love Ford and Mabel so much and this isn’t meant to be mean.)

But then we see that the younger twins are still very much themselves, and not direct copies of the older twins, and I love that so much!!

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That explains the torn feelings that Momo and Okarun felt in their hearts when they are sleeping.

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a redraw of my 10 years old Dipcifica comic, that went pretty viral here on tumblr back then🌚💅 I still love it a lot, and wanted to give it second life with my current skills ~

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DANDADAN By Gabriel Picolo