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Tumblrman says everything will be alright.

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"be your best self" and what if my best self is a cunt that can't wake up before noon

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“i’m in kind of a weird mental place right now” i say, as if there are times when i am not in a weird mental place

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Idk if you even still follow me. On the off chance you do I have a few things to say. I never did anything wrong and I still don't understand why you did that to me. After 10 yrs of being everything from lover to best friend I just am really lacking closure.

If you were going through something, why didn't you tell me? If you were having money issues, we paid for all tux rentals. All I needed was your time. I didn't invite anyone who would would've dead named you or even know you. I would've worked around any issue you were having just to have one of my soul mates be a part of the biggest event of my life.

We're trying to have a baby now. I wish you could've been their uncle Rob.

I miss you.

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a blunt never made me feel worthless tho

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me: hey how long is this thing going to last

someone: haha you just want to know when you’re off the hook

me: hah

me: (actually i just need to allocate the right expectations and backlog of energy and make sure the rest of my day falls in good accordance with it so that i don’t feel time-crunched and propel myself into a hysteria because if i don’t know how long this thing lasts or when it ends i can’t possibly know when literally anything else starts and my entire life becomes an unraveled realm of anarchy with no rhyme or reason and how is that not terrifying to you)

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This makes me think of that eos lip balm post that says "because egg"

I’m thinking about her

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Same.

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Having a lot of trouble today. It's the day before my 26th birthday. My brother passed away two years ago four days after his 28th birthday on November 28th. I'm going to be another year closer to being his age and then eventually I'll be older than my older brother. And that breaks my heart in so many ways.

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