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Some of y’all have never experienced the freedom of eating at a restaurant alone and it shows

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She down on my cis til I bus

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Y'all have no idea how shitty the wifi is in my gothic castle

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normal ways to text my father

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i love these two characters. i need to trap them in a collapsed building so they can talk about their feelings as one of them slowly bleeds out.

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every day of my life i scream and cry and throw up bc i dont have this jumper

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Some lyrics from “Ghost Quartet″ that make me go absolutely feral because yes:

and the dead girl leapt upon her mother / and her sister, and her daughter, and her lover / with the rage of four generations

where’s my ghost in the mirror? / i want one too

last night i dreamed / i met myself at a tango 

I’M CONFOUNDED BY MUSIC / AND BABIES AND LAUGHTER / AND STORIES AND GOODNESS / INFINITY AND LUCK / I’M CONFUSED BY THE NOTION / THAT SOMEBODY LOVES ME / AND DRUGS MAKE ME CRAZY / AND A CLAIRVOYANT TOLD ME ONCE I’VE GOT AN OLD SOUL / OH LORD I WISH I COULD SING LIKE THAT / BUT I DON’T PRACTICE ENOUGH

and the starlight i see / is a billion light years old / a ghost just like the rest of us / nothing i see is there anymore

and i don’t know if this is me at all / or just some ghost of me that i dreamed up / just to sing myself to sleep

i love the way you see the world / i love the way your soul sings / i wish that i could sing like you / i wish that i could feel things

if you can lose your temper / then i can lose my mind

oh roxie, why did you have to die? / i forgive you / oh roxie, oh roxie, oh rose

when i was a child i used to play / play with all the voices in my head 

but i guess it’s time to put that to bed / i guess it’s time to let the dead be dead

and i’m haunted by that memory / of who i used to be / so gleeful, so blank, so ready

it’s ok my dear / this is a circular story

this has all happened before

I WILL TRY TO FORGIVE MYSELF / FOR LIVING IN THE DARK / FOR MY LOSS OF WONDER / FOR FORGETTING HOW TO PLAY // I WILL TRY TO FORGIVE MYSELF / FOR BEING ABSENT IN PUBLIC / AND BORED BEFORE STARS // FOR NOT REMEMBERING / FOR NOT BEING IN MY BODY / FOR NOT STARTING RIGHT NOW // I WILL TRY / TO SEE MYSELF AS I AM

she sees her eyes when she closes her eyes / her eyes looking back at her / her eyes underneath her eyelids / she is always screaming

if i told you this is special / and love is more than chemicals / that it’s me and you / and angels too / and time will end / and we’ll transcend / and rise above the ash and dirt / and baby i could never hurt you / ‘cause you’re me

but when he tuck me in / with that sad little grin / i’d think maybe i don’t wanna know

there is blood upon my robes

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Just a few of my favorite inktober pieces I’ve done so far :)

I’m using my own prompts based off of ghost quartet

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I definitely believe listening to Dave Malloy's work religiously has changed my outlook on life. It's the "I will try to forgive myself for being absent in public and bored before stars" it's the "this song's not over just yet, stars and moons rise and set and rise again" it's the "oh you fool, you fool, it's all within yourself" it's the "my life will get better than this, my life will get worse than this, but right now is just right now" it's the "I am fragile and ephemeral, so love me while I'm here" it's the "what a wonder to me, such a wonder to me" it's seeing god under the keys of the piano, "god on stage in this little jazz club" and the "true god i see when im sitting at home, eating an apple, wondering what mecca must feel like, and suddenly i remember to taste, right there at home and not so many miles away and empty."

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back on ghost quartet life-support

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The 4th of July can be fun but fireworks are the W O R S T. I hope everyone who struggles with the sounds and lights of it all (like me :/) can hopefully have a not terrible night. Same goes for folks with ptsd that is triggered by the fireworks!

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she shake on my grimace til I