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ORIGINAL WORK, PLEASE DON'T STEAL.

Credit me if used elsewhere.

Not quite as much as I used to.

I look at you, waiting eagerly for that wave of love and emotion I always feel when I see you.

But.

It doesn't wash over me.

I look into myself, confused.

"Why?! Why after so long, why is THIS the time we let go?!"

Why.

I love him still, I do.

But.

Not quite as much as I used to.

I sigh, heavily, sadly, angrily.

Why!? Why NOW, why must NOW be the time I lose that little piece of my heart that I've spent so fucking long taking care of and nurturing and tending to and loving, WHY?!

why.

It's been nine months since these feelings started, NINE MONTHS I've been in HOPELESS love with you and it's stops just like that?! It's not fair! I want to love you longer, I want to love you more, I want to love you deeper than I ever have before.

Please! Please why won't my feelings come back?! Have they died, are they on sabbatical? Where have the gone?!

My sweet loving feelings have left and I CANT FIND THEM.

I miss them.

Nine months I've devoted my heart to you and ONLY YOU, but NOW IS THE time it chooses to let go? I WAS JUST GETTING YOU BACK INTO MY LIFE.

Dear me WHY.

Why am I losing my feelings for someone I never even dated.

4/29/25

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(via Pin on Inuyasha)

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ORIGINAL WORK, DONT STEAL. IF USED ELSEWHERE PLEASE CREDIT ME.

About you.

If you were me, and saw how I see you, I wonder, would you think yourself perfect as I do? Would you think yourself as flawless as I do? Because if you saw the way I see you, you may be shocked, for I see you as the perfect one for me, the perfect person for me, I see you as the only one I need to survive in this cruel world, the one I trust, the one I love, the one I crave.

Your eyes draw me in like a siren, your voice something I could never tire of hearing, your hands something Id love to hold, if you let me.

I could look at you for weeks, converse with you for months, and be with you for years, and still need... More...

I would do anything for you, if I was able I would be there for you in a heartbeat if you ever asked for me, I would go through the trenches for you, worried solely about you.

You could be hidden in a room full of people I love, and I would look for you, and I wouldn't stop looking for you until I've found you.

If I thought I'd lost you, but I didn't, and I had your accompanyment, I would hold you in my arms, inhaling your oddly familiar scent, running my hands through your perfect hair, muttering lovely, heart melting things to you, until I knew I had you back.

When I look at you, I feel inexplicable joy attempting to claw its way out of my mouth and make itself known through my words, my actions. When I look at you, all I think is "I need you, I love you, I want you, I've missed you dearly." I wonder, will you ever feel that way about me? Will you ever look at me and think I'm perfect? Think that I'm the one for you?

will you get happy when you see me? Will you talk to me for hours on end and still crave more? More conversation? More of... Me?

Like I do for you? I can never fully explain how much I love you, but I hope you can understand it someday, understand it through my actions, my words, my gifts, and the pure radiance of love that surrounds me when I'm near you.

4/4/25

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I’ve never related to anything so strongly in life before as this meme.

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mom, am i still young? can i dream for a few months more?

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Me, wearing my Rick Prime tshirt, writing Rick and Morty fanfiction on my computer that has a Rick and Morty wallpaper:

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has anyone figured out how to be a real person yet

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hello hello, old friends, fans and readers!

god its been AGES. hi im alive ish-we’ll touch on that in a minute, but hi!

i miss writing so much, so much has happened, and i wish i could say im coming back, but i truly dont see a future for this blog, as much as it means the world to me, it wouldnt feel right coming back when i havent watched mha in years.

for starters, i wanna say thank you for the continued love and appreciation of my works, i know they’re not the best, but they’re what i considered some of my best work, for the time being lol. im 21 now, and its crazy to think about how long ago it really feels to look back at this stuff. i still love writing, i still love to read, i havent written anything worth posting in my opinion but if i do, this blog will be the first to know about it!

onto the health side of things, tw for cancer

i was diagnosed with stage 4 hodgkin’s lymphoma around the end of 2023, and have been undergoing chemotherapy for the past few months. my last scheduled treatment is the beginning of april but things are looking good. im hoping to make a decent recovery or at least have hair by the end of this year. i truly truly want to write again when im done with chemo. i keep telling myself i need to write again, work has kicked back into full gear after taking three months off, which i thought would’ve been the perfect time to stage some sort of writing come back, but life has been so utterly utterly busy. i hate that even with every fibre of my being, most of my ideas trickle down and out of my brain before i can even write them down on a piece of paper or a sticky note.

i miss the connection that writing brought me with like-minded readers and artists, and enjoyers. i miss the bliss of publishing something that felt ready to be published. i miss it all, and im so so so looking forward to that breath of fresh air again when i can calm down and write something that truly feels worth reading. and again, i want all of you to be the first to know about it.

i sound a little silly im sure, i havent posted in ages, and i know this account lays dormant for the most part but i still think about it all the time. this account is truly something special and i hope it is for someone else out there too.

no matter what you face, or what you’re going through, you’re not alone. you are loved. take care of yourselves!!

i shall be plotting a return of some kind, for now one battle at a time, oh yeah and fuck cancer.

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Some poetry, please don't steal, my art is everything to me.

Love me?

I wonder if you knew how much I really love you, if you would understand.

My need to be close to you.

My affinity for giving you gifts.

My desire to spend time with you.

I wonder if you knew, if you would feel the same way, if you would feel embarrassed, if you would feel happy, or if you would feel neutral.

I wonder if you needed me even a fraction of my need for you, if you would find a way to make things happen.

I suppose if you wanted to, you would, but I hope, and I hope, because hope is all I have for us right now, I'm running on nothing but pure hope and love.

I love you.

Do you love me?

Could you love me?

Will you love me?

Please, love me.

I love you.

3/23/25.

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can’t believe I wrote this

”glad it was you.”

read on ao3

You were practically bent in half for the boy, hands against a tree to support yourself, trying to stay quiet as to not wake the others only 20 feet away from the area you had decided to use to give into your impulses. But the ways his length was opening you up in ways you didn't even know were possible was just oh, so *delicious*... A string of whispered curses and a moan of his name fell out of your mouth, just quiet enough for him to hear. "..ahh! Sokka..." You can feel his upper half lean down to you so he can listen, somehow still keeping his pace all the while... "Yes Y/N?", he answered. "...mm, nothing... You just feel so good...". You managed to whisper back, turning your head to nuzzle your face against his. God this was a phenomenal feeling, finally fucking him after all those traveling days with lingering touches and sneakily hidden kisses, hugs that lasted longer than they should've. Your right hand reached back to grab his hair, pulling his upper half closer to kiss him, the kiss is something that feels like a dream, something wondrous finally happening to you after months of hoping, praying, begging for it, when it breaks, you feel satiated. You can feel his hands on your upper hips grip you harder, though keeping his slow pace of thrusting into your dripping, throbbing, and achingly aroused heat. You can feel yourself getting closer and closer to climax, and you can feel him getting closer and closer as well, his thrusts becoming erratic, jerky, and rougher. His hand reaches down and begins to rub your clit, the movement almost causes you to cry out in pleasure, but you hold it in, you bite your lip in an effort to stay quiet enough to not wake the other members of camp and have them go investigate only to find their newest recruit, and their water tribe boy going at it like a pair of rabbits. You can start to feel as though your legs are gonna fail you, yet you persevere and just grip the tree tighter. Sokka groans lowly and you hurry to shush him so he doesn't wake the camp. You can feel your walls start to flutter in anticipation of the orgasm to come, his controlled pace ever more erratic at the feeling of your velvety smooth heat clamping around him, and then you feel the painful pleasure of your orgasm finally taking over your body, your mind. You feel like if you breath it'll all stop, so you wait, you wait until you can feel him pull out to restart the world, your legs shake as you stand to your full height, all you can think about is how good sleep sounds right now, but you both clean up first, walking with him to the small stream by the campsite, you rinse off and then dry, putting your clothes back on when finished. As you walk back to the campsite, you give sokka a hug, burying your face in the crook of his neck. Just before you go to lay down, the words "im glad it was you." make it out of your mouth. "Im glad it was you too, Y/N..." He said, just before crawling in his sleeping bag. For the first time in a long time, you go to bed actually happy.

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I deman you to do it ?

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Favorite white haired anime bae?

😵‍💫sesshomaru😩

OMG JUST LOOK AT HIMMMM😩😩😩😩

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i like working at plant store. sometimes you ring up someone and there's a slug on their plant and so you're like "Oh haha you've got a friend there let me get that for you" and you put the slug on your hand for safekeeping but then its really busy and you dont have time to take the slug outside before the next customer in line so you just have a slug chilling on your hand for 15 minutes. really makes you feel at peace with nature. also it means sometimes i get to say my favorite line which is "would you like this free slug with your purchase"

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