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What I want to say is that I didn’t mean to fall this hard for this guy I work with.

I’ve been attracted to him since he was hired on over a year and a half ago, and there’s always been an exchanging of glances between us. I knew it, I felt it, and there was always juvenile attempts at flirting like him pulling my hair and teasing me. He was lowkey a dick sometimes but I liked it. It felt way more real and way less slimy than every other guy’s attempt at flirting with me in the shop.

But it happened. I was feeling confident that day and I guess he was too. I gave him my number and we started texting, hanging out literally that day, and it pretty much every single day and night after that.

I didn’t mean to fall this hard for him but I really liked who he is. He offered to do things around my place. He mounted my tv, cleaned, and was really sweet and I was comfortable with his silence. Nothing felt weird and things always feel weird.

Whatever.

So this 6’1” tall beautiful man is also my bestfiends brother. Lolllllll. She warned me before not to date him like 4/5 months ago because he cheats and has a record for domestic violence. Although she didn’t say that, she said I’m not good enough for him so that’s weird.

This guy was really sweet to me though, and I didn’t get weird vibes apart from things moving way too fast. The guy basically moved into my place a week into it and didn’t want to go home. Little did I know his ex was and pretty sure still is currently living at his parents house. He said his mom invited her to live there because she’s going through it.

Long story short, I ended it because he guy didn’t tell me and I had to hear it from my best friend; his sister.

I figured I’d cut him loose before I get way too invested. I’m pretty damn upset though lmao

I wanted him for so long, but at least I had him lmaofkdjbebs.

I’m having trouble understanding if it’s better to feel the pain of ending something way too soon, or feeling the pain of being completely heart broken.

Did this dude actually like me or what? It’s kind of driving me mad, and now work sucks because the person I liked to look at the most is now avoiding me.

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Jaguars diving to catch food by photographer Herbert van der Beek. Via @41Strange

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Joaquin Phoenix as Arthur Fleck/Joker in Joker (2019)

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Triumph

https://www.instagram.com/p/7qIz5tE0dz/

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5/28/19

I currently weigh 201.6. Not bad considering the last time I checked I was 210... however I’m back at the gym and I plan on losing a bit more than 9 pounds.

I think I’m capable of losing 1.6 by next Tuesday, but nutrition has always been the hardest part for me.

Lezzzz do this. 😼

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this so funny to me

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Another video demonstrating inertia. From here

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Anubis God-Mecha Cosplay by Polygon Forge

Source

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Freddie Mercury interview in Japan, 1985.

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on the road in the ozarks

the only bad thing about road trips + camping by motorcycle is not being able to bring bandit with me. but still. every time i think about selling this old bike, moments like this make me realize it’s not going anywhere unless i’m going there, too.

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