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message for me bc i just binged after a good week LMAO:

look at you fat pig. all you did was eat and eat and ruin a perfectly good week over food that doesn't even taste good. now your stomach hurts and youre bloated and you feel like throwing up over something that you cant even remember the taste of. how does it feel to lose your perfect figure in two seconds over some carbs and cake? he's gonna leave you at this rate if you continue eating like such a pig. do better than this, you're better than this, you really are gonna let some sugar control your life? such a hoax, if you really wanted to be skinny you wouldn't put yourself in such a situation.

go to sleep, start again, and do better. don't let such childish urges control you. do you think it was worth it? do you think all that was worth the bloating you feel and dizziness after eating? no

lets do better than this love, remember why we're doing this, you deserve to be skinny and happy

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i always feel like the fattest in the room, doesn’t matter what size i am

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i wish i hated food

i wish i got nauseous just thinking of eating

i wish the sight of food made me want to claw my stomach out

i hate constantly fighting myself

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simultaneously taking care of your skin and hair but also starving>>>

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‘‘enchanting mood’‘ photographed by peter lindbergh for vogue italia, september 1997

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“Yes, books are dangerous. They should be dangerous—they contain ideas.”

— Pete Hautman (via quotemadness)

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real

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Christy Turlington, Paris, 1998

© Gavin Bond

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no cause literally I meant a snack not my daily intake

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me, somehow, after eating the entire kitchen:

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I’m worried that no matter how much weight I lose my bone structure will always make me look fat

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Stolen from edtwt but rel

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Kitty cat

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making a list of my reasons to keep going so i don’t chicken out this time

jawline

cheekbones

collarbones

getting piggyback rides

people being able to lift you

being able to share clothes

boys will finally look at me

the lack of face fat will make my nose look skinnier and my eyes/lips look bigger

not being embarrassed to go shopping with my friends

being able to wear makeup and cute clothes without looking like a failure that’s trying too hard

finally suiting my height so i’ll be seen as short and cute instead of stubby and chubby

being prettier than all the other girls in my family

sex

not being scared of yearly doctor’s appointments

bikinis

crop tops

shorts

form fitting clothing in general

jewelry finally looking cute instead of awkward on me

rings fitting without looking like they’re stuck

shaving taking half the time

showers overall being less stressful

being able to look in a mirror

finally being one of the pretty ones at school

being hot by the time i get to college

the idea of people wanting to see me naked

being fucked instead of killed in fuck marry kill for once

or even just married

anything but killed honestly

being able to eat in front of people without looking like a fat pig

people thinking i’m cutely awkward when i’m uncoordinated and bad at sports instead of thinking i’m a lazy fat bitch

getting genuine compliments instead of desperate straight-up-lie compliments girls say to you to be nice when you compliment them

people finally wanting to be my friend instead of being ashamed to be near the ugly fat bitch

finally knowing my clothing size

not getting marks on my stomach from my jeans being too tight

being able to be in photos without looking ugly and disgusting

skinny hands

nail polish actually looking good on me bc my hands won’t be gross looking

going into dressing rooms with friends

not being embarrassed of telling my friends my bra size bc the band number won’t be fucking huge

will be adding to this whenever i think of something new lol