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Came Back Wrong from the gocey store

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i achieve body neutrality in the mosh pit

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my beloved does not care if i live or die

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Christ just give each other handjobs at this point

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Put me back in the water right now or ill die

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I don't know how to deal with the person that I am. Selfish and arrogant. I am sad but I used to be better at forgetting it. I want to be better at running away from things but I wish I didn't love the urge so much. I want bliss and peace but I don't think they go together. I get my heart broken by wise people people I believe to be wise. They seem to have figured out something I don't yet know how to touch. I keep hurting people over whom I did not believe I had that power. I fear myself more than anything and I hate how much I crave greatness. It feels like all I do is yearn. I miss when I knew how to feel the oneness. I can't seem to escape attachment and I don't really know how I feel until it's too late. Life is much longer than I gambled for and I never seem to be the right age. Nothing I do ever looks good until it is over and behind me. The bad is the very same.

It just keeps getting colder here and I can't tell if the water is rising. I wish I had more faith in the moon. When it blinks at me I seem to forget myself. I wake up shivering.

I will never live up to myself. I am not all that I think I am. I wish I didn't feel so special. I wish the people I love would stop taking my side. I wish the people who didn't take my side cared less. I am so sick of explaining myself. I don't know how to think less hard. Or more rigorously. I don't know how to let go of people. But I can't stop losing them. I am in love with everyone I have ever failed. Or hurt. Or betrayed. I don't think I ever cried for my mother and I feel guilty about it. I wish I needed her more. An old lover told me I had a great deal of reckoning to do with myself.

Some people are born emptier than others.

I choose to keep believing what they tell me.

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wait....there's baby bok choy? but that means....my man 🤝 😂

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Had to unfollow this one person on here cause they just would not stop making posts about how transfems on e getting periods is just made up symptoms and like, I don't have definitive proof I only have my and others experience but like how do you, as someone who is not on e, who has access to the same amount of studies looking into this with decent sample sizes as I do (none), feel so confident to say it's all just placebo and made up ? What makes you so confident ? Cause I gotta say after almost two years of nearly right on the dot once a month suddenly feeling nausea all week, taking the most unbelievable shits, feeling all my organs cramp, and having mood swings out the ass which always just so happens to line up with when the two people with uteruses in my house also get their periods, I feel like I have more data to work off of than you do

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Mahmoud Darwish, Journal of an Ordinary Grief (يـومـيـات الـحـزن الـعـادي), 1973

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will it hurt this bad forever? asking for a friend

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this emdr shit hurts so bad wow what the fuck was that

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rest in peace SOPHIE <\3

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putting my hand up during sex to ask a clarifying question about the order you just gave me

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8am wake up

10am tell someone you don’t love that you love them

12pm full English

2pm fuck someone who disgusts you

6pm start drinking

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you should be able to plug cables and shit into a basketball for no reason

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(with hearts in my eyes) i hate him. he sucks so bad

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i think all philosophers would agree that logic is like a worm: it writhes and wriggles in the metaphysical soil of your mind like a sine wave. let me into the acropolis please it's so cold