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i am unwell and in so much pain moment to moment, but not even that will stop me from doing what i love

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I can't stand not being able to do what I enjoy. It pains me greatly and I don't know how to handle the grief of it all properly without making it someone else's problem. I'm so tired.

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putting freshevator au thoughts onto a page.

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Final Daily Doodle! Happy Halloween!

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Doodles Day 2. An assortment of various parts.

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Daily Doodle Day 27. That one fuckass image

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Some art I did back when I didn't understand my feelings. I honestly still enjoy this drawing...

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I've been questioning my orientation...

I had gotten very attached to a friend in the past to the point of wanting to be extremely close physically and emotionally. My emotions were so intense, I had thought maybe I had a crush.

Upon much needed self reflection, I realized I was not romantically infatuated. Infatuated? Yes, most definitely, but as I thought about it more, I just intensely and platonically loved, admired and deeply cherished my friend. I wasn't comfortable with the idea with being romantic partners nor having a serious romantic relationship, but why else would I feel so strongly that I want to be by his side for the rest of my life or feel comfortable letting him be close to me in ways I wouldnt let anyone else be?

As moronic of me it is to realize so late considering I understand the concept of strong platonic love, I finally understand my feelings. I don't believe I only prefer masculine presentation either after giving it some thought. My friend happens to be masc and another friend of mine was simular, and because I admired them both, haven't felt attached to feminine presenting people and hadnt understood my feelings, I had thought perhaps I was into masculine people. I don't believe I have a particular preference nor do I feel romantic attraction to any particular gender. Being Queer in general is much more accurate.

In conclusion with my current understanding, I have heavily intense feelings of wanting to be close, even to the point of getting intimate if intense enough, but the more I honestly think about being in a romantic relationship I feel wildly uncomfortable. I am more built toward qprs and best friends, and finally understanding that feels so wonderful. I feel so free. :)

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lampert sends infected a text on his phone

(og:)

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there was a lot of stuff to think actually

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**Don't tag wallmark pls

Can't stop laughing at it

Remembered old meme and decided to reincarnate it

Divorced parents are fighting over the son's career but they don't know..

P.S. I know it's ROKEA but I wanted to keep it like that

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Would Unpleasant play games on Infecteds computer and Infected would get mad about it and want it back.

unpleasant would pirate TERABYTES of music that infected dislikes onto his pc while he's away

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I had to get this out of my head.

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ooo please draw ur favorite regretevator ship!

Infected does not like her.

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Where does lampert fit into all of this? he seems rather absent...

[ Lampert is around, but it's complicated when your friend often needs a lot of space. Not ignoring you, just... Busy with other things. It's worrying, but ultimately normal. Kasper will contact him when he's ready. . . At least he hopes so. ]

💡: Maybe I should go check in on him...

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I wish I had my wings so I could fly away from it all. I could go anywhere I want, when I want. Maybe even make some friends. I wish I wasn't like this.

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CAN WE GET MOAR LOVEBUG SHIPPING PLZZZ I LUV DIS SM SM SM -INFECTED ALTR

Deathmatch or DIE for Unpleasant Gradient