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finally posting my full piece for the hsr masquerade zine!! leftover sales are open link down below !!! (also i just added the print to my etsy shop, link in carrd) crazy posting the full piece on schedule and not 5 years later

i had a lot of fun with these designs

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preview of my piece for the penacony fashion zine featuring 13 characters in an office au!! this officially marks my retirement from doing fanzines (at least for hyv content) 🫡 wanted to do another unnecessary complicated piece to wrap it up

link to preorders here!! https://penaconyfashionzine.bigcartel.com/

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after 3 years, i can finally post the full piece i did for the eulamber zine 😮‍💨 leftover sales are closing in two days, be sure to check it out if you haven’t!! link down below!! also [edit] i forgot to say but the print of this illustration is also available on my etsy, link in my carrd, which is in my bio!!

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it’s kinda crazy posting the full piece now, 3 years after i made it. this was the first illustration i did with more than 5 people in an image and i was so proud of it at the time, but ive improved so much since then and now theres a lot i don’t like about it 💀 i wish i can move this post back to late 2022 or early 2023

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finally, part 10/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 9

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 8: INTEGRITY VS. DESPAIR (65-DEATH)

VIRTUE: WISDOM

The last stage of our lives, where we reflect on the way we lived and the choices we made. Depending on how we feel about our life, we may be accepting or fearful about the thought of death. During this stage, we may revisit much of our past except this time, as an individual with total control. (e.g. old hobbies, reconnecting with people, etc.)

Relationships: Humanity, Self

Events: Retirement, Slowing Down, Self-reflection, Facing Mortality

Outcome: Satisfied and fulfilled with ourselves, the ability to accept death without fear, knowing that our life had a purpose

and there you have it, all 10 pieces posted. been working on this series for the past year and its downright the most taxing project i’ve ever done, partly because of some not-so-good things that happened in my life, partly because I was extremely harsh on myself and wanted everything to be perfect, and partly because i lost nearly all my drive to create for the past 2 years (unfortunately its due to being bombarded with ai and seeing the state of the art industry). but somehow, i pushed through it right before the deadline and i’m happy with most of the pieces.

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit it would be really cool🥹

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part 9/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 8

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 8: INTEGRITY VS. DESPAIR (65-DEATH)

VIRTUE: WISDOM

The last stage of our lives, where we reflect on the way we lived and the choices we made. Depending on how we feel about our life, we may be accepting or fearful about the thought of death. During this stage, we may revisit much of our past except this time, as an individual with total control. (e.g. old hobbies, reconnecting with people, etc.)

Relationships: Humanity, Self

Events: Retirement, Slowing Down, Self-reflection, Facing Mortality

Outcome: Deep regret, dissatisfaction, bitterness, hopelessness and a fear of death

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part 8/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 7

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 7: GENERATIVITY VS. STAGNATION (40-65 YEARS)

VIRTUE: CARE

As we grow older, we start to focus on giving back to our community and/or nurturing the next generation. We want to leave our mark and change things for the better. Contribution leads to a sense of productivity and accomplishment; by helping others grow, we also grow alongside them.

Relationships: Family, Colleagues, Community, The Younger Generation

Events: Career Developments, Raising Children, Community Work, Creating a Home

Outcome: A feeling of productivity and accomplishment. Actively being a valuable member of society and creating a positive impact on others, possibly even making revolutionary changes that may help pave the way for future generations

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part 7/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 6

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 7: GENERATIVITY VS. STAGNATION (40-65 YEARS)

VIRTUE: CARE

As we grow older, we start to focus on giving back to our community and/or nurturing the next generation. We want to leave our mark and change things for the better. Contribution leads to a sense of productivity and accomplishment; by helping others grow, we also grow alongside them.

Relationships: Family, Colleagues, Community, The Younger Generation

Events: Career Developments, Raising Children, Community Work, Creating a Home

Outcome: A feeling of disconnect, emptiness, and being unproductive. Slowing personal growth and a mid-life crisis due to a lack of purpose

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part 6/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 5

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 6: INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION (19-40 YEARS)

VIRTUE: LOVE

During this stage, we start to develop lifelong, well-meaning and mutual relationships with others: platonic and romantic. This requires vulnerability, trust, respect, and commitment.

Relationships: Friends, Partners

Events: Romantic Relationships, Friendships

Outcome: Meaningful long-lasting relationships, intimacy, the ability to be vulnerable, and mutual dependence

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part 6/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 5

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION (19-40 YEARS)

VIRTUE: LOVE

During this stage, we start to develop lifelong, well-meaning and mutual relationships with others: platonic and romantic. This requires vulnerability, trust, respect, and commitment.

Relationships: Friends, Partners

Events: Romantic Relationships, Friendships

Outcome: Meaningful long-lasting relationships, intimacy, the ability to be vulnerable, and mutual dependence

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part 5/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 4

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 6: INTIMACY VS. ISOLATION (19-40 YEARS)

VIRTUE: LOVE

During this stage, we start to develop lifelong, well-meaning and mutual relationships with others: platonic and romantic. This requires vulnerability, trust, respect, and commitment.

Relationships: Friends, Partners

Events: Romantic Relationships, Friendships

Outcome: A lack of close relationships, struggle with committment, loneliness, isolation, depression.

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part 4/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 3

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 5: IDENTITY VS. CONFUSION (12-18 YEARS)

VIRTUE: FIDELITY

This stage takes place during what is arguably the most confusing and volatile time of our lives: our teenage years.

We begin to look to role models, experiment with self-expression, and form personal opinions. We start to question the world around us and our place in it, and this can mean coming face-to-face with past mistreatment and faults. Sometimes this leads to rebellion, which Erikson describes as the most important part of this stage. For those who were unable to develop properly earlier on, this stage is the bridge between childhood and adulthood; it gives us a chance to revisit and come to terms with the past and thus look toward a different future.

Relationships:

Peers, Role Models, Caregivers

Events: Experimentation, Peer Influence, Rebellion, Self-reflection

Outcomes: A strong sense of identity and ability to remain true to yourself. Or, confusion and a weak sense of self, which can stunt growth far into the future.

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part 3/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 2

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life, based on Erik Erikson’s theory

STAGE 4: INDUSTRY VS. INFERIORITY (7-11 YEARS)

VIRTUE: COMPETENCE/CONFIDENCE

We start going to school regularly and spend a lot of time with peers of the same age. As we compare ourselves with them, we develop pride or shame about our abilities and accomplishments. Under the stress of social and academic demands, we need to learn how to regulate our emotions and self-esteem when met with defeat and rejection.

Relationships: Caregivers, Teachers, Peers

Events: School, Examinations, Competitions, Failures, Successes

Outcomes: Confidence in our abilities. A healthy balance between feeling proud or inferior, helping us achieve our goals and get through setbacks. Or, a deep sense of inferiority that may hold us back from opportunities and growth.

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Part 2/10 of my senior thesis project !! part 1

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life

STAGE 2: AUTONOMY VS. SHAME/DOUBT (2-3 YEARS)

VIRTUE: WILL

STAGE 3: INITIATIVE VS. GUILT (3-6 YEARS)

VIRTUE: PURPOSE

During these stages, we begin interacting with our environment. In Stage 2, we test our body's ability and limits. We start practicing self-care and taking personal responsibility for our actions. In Stage 3, we start executing our thoughts and ideas and learn about boundaries in the process. This is also the stage where we form our first non-familial relationships. Adulf criticism and encouragement during this time affect our behavior immensely, and we require a balance of both.

Relationships: Caregivers, Teachers, Peers

Events: Toilet Training, Clothing Ourselves, Playing and Exploring Ideas and Creativity

Stage 2 Outcomes: A sense of control over ourselves and the ability to act independently. Or, excessive shame in making mistakes, leading to over-dependence and low self-esteem. Bad sense of boundaries for self and others.

Stage 3 Outcomes: A willingness to try new things, face challenges, and be curious, all while respecting boundaries. Or, guilt about desires, leading to a lack of initiative

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit, i plan on going there on the 4th 🥹

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Part 1/10 of my senior thesis project which i’ve been working on for the past year !! part 2

The pieces in this series explore the different stages of psychological development that a person may go through in their life.

STAGE 1: TRUST VS. MISTRUST (0-1 YEARS)

VIRTUE: HOPE

At this stage, we are completely dependant on our caregivers for survival. We learn to trust and distrust the world around us depending on if we receive adequate and consistent food, love, warmth, and safety. A balance of knowing when to trust and when to be cautious should be achieved.

Relationships: Caregivers, Adults

Events: Feeding, Caregiving and Abandonment

Outcomes: Develop attachment style to caregivers. Faith that basic needs can be met and that we are safe. Or, anxiety and fear that we are alone and unloved

This project will be displayed at the SVA senior show exhibition, located at the SVA Chelsea Gallery, 601 West 26th Street, 15th floor, New York, NY, 10001 from April 2nd to April 12th !! (open 10am-6pm, closed on Sundays and Mondays). It’s at a really confusing location but if anyone is in the area and would like to go visit, i plan on going there on the 4th 🥹

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hello hello im excited to finally post the preview of my fu xuan design for @hsrfashionzine !! PREORDERS ARE OPEN link down below !!

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you know what’s crazy?

Gay Holographic Vinyl Stickers Available In My Etsy Now.

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you know what’s crazy?

Gay Holographic Vinyl Stickers Available In My Etsy Now.