lilliekitty

[lilliekitty]

i had a dream about deltarune and through the process of documenting it I forgot most of it but it was... an experience

so I boot up the game and load a save file I forgot about to this new message

cutscene. by the way lancer is saying something really funny but I forgot

so I go into the room

why

by the way this happens like 4 times and I overheard a little bit of what they said

I don't remember how it segmented into this but it went into me facing a boss in a 3d room kinda star fox style

so after all at I think about playing it again but streaming to my friends but then I just think this

??????? I'm on Xbox??????????

by the way, still 3d, on my way to do whatever I was going to do I stumble upon this

it's kind of beachy with the waves of the ocean crashing down on the... I can't say it was sand because it was mint colored. also the left side is not waves, it's plastic??????????? like deep blue plastic??????

I don't remember anything else and I promise there was more to this. I have a strange thing where a LOT of my dreams come true in real life, but I just wanted to share this because it had funny moments in it but then I realized I forgot all the funny moments

[lilliekitty]

uh... cut for my stupid thing... I'm proud of... it might be cringe but I worked hard on it

uh I've got the main message of what exactly the story in my little world could possibly be. despite the fact this might never release, and despite the act that without context this won't make sense (at least the sense I want to give off), I am genetically programmed not to spoil anything.

[lilliekitty]

how demented can you be? how can I continue living and discovering the truth and living by it and living with the pain it carries to be true to yourself when you, a person I love... I love you so much but what are you doing. what are you doing? I can't understand anything you do anymore because I used to know the truth about you but now you don't even know the truth to yourself. everything you do is a lie, everything you live by, everything you love. is temporary. I love you so, so much, but what is wrong with you? I know the answer, but I just want to hear your voice one more time.

[lilliekitty]

[lilliekitty]

I think I'm right-handed today

which sucks because I'm left-handed

[lilliekitty]

Draw your OC in their current design, then draw how they looked in their original design!

[lilliekitty]

it's the morning. I realize now that this is... not... fire writing.

I'm just writing and I stop to look at what I've done??????? the heck??????? "as your silence judges me like a thousand eyes"???????????? who wrote this?????????

[lilliekitty]

keep u happy

[lilliekitty]

sometimes the dark still gets to me. I love it, but it's also terrifying. I'll arrange stuff in my house so that it doesn't scare me in the dark.

when it gets to be too much, I make sure to remember that it's just another secret boss smiling at me.

[lilliekitty]

you know what's really weird about writing for me?

I know specifically what type of fabric his jacket is made out of, but I don't know the name of the fabric. and nor can I decide on his character motivations, that too.

[lilliekitty]

I'm just writing and I stop to look at what I've done??????? the heck??????? "as your silence judges me like a thousand eyes"???????????? who wrote this?????????

[lilliekitty]

"You can't just give up."

"Why not? You do it all the time."

"That's what I do! You're not supposed to be like me. You're supposed to be the one who kicks ass and saves the day and makes everything better just by showing the fuck up."

[lilliekitty]

tissues in the trash dotted with spotty bloodstains

calloused handshakes

abhorred hand sanitizer

burning lipstain

bruises that only seem to get worse

[lilliekitty]

bro characters with fangs man I need to get myself one next time I stop by the OC store

[lilliekitty]

I don't think you can repay God for your creation.

Your parents for nurturing you.

Your friends for supporting you.

But I also don't think life is a price to pay off.

I think the gift isn't just our lives, but what we can do with them.

We are loved to love others.

"Some favors once owed can never be payed in a lifetime."

[lilliekitty]

☀️💝ꙮ🤠🥰🩷

🌕📄🍳❓😰❤️

🏢🧹🌙🧂💔❤️

🤤👅💀🔞🖋️🧡

🐺🌑💻🍕🔒🖤

this is the only time I'm ever using emojis the way they're supposed to be used

🔪🍷🌆❤️

What emojis would show what your oc is like?

[lilliekitty]

i need to stop discovering new parts of the internet

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