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I've experienced this level of grief and it resonated. What happened to me after a loved one died: one person was furious, outburst of deep anger, me I was half catatonic/depressed with grief, another was in utter denial.

The aggressive finger pointing is followed by utter devastation and loneliness of not being there for his family. It tracks with how Eddie is coping with his grief journey

It fucking pisses me off that people keep trying to paint Eddie as abusive, even though he’s proven over and over again that, no matter how angry he gets, he would never actually hurt anyone. Even at the peak of his grief — completely furious — he still held back his emotions. And still, people label him as abusive, while other characters have acted out and didn’t get nearly the same backlash.

No one called Bobby abusive when he shoved Buck.

No one called Buck abusive when he sprained Eddie's ankle.

So why is it different when Eddie puts a hand on his shoulder and points at him? Why are those considered less intense than a hand on the shoulder and a finger?

And no — even though he was grieving, I don’t think Eddie was right to take it out on Buck like that. He doesn’t think so either. That’s why later he says, “I heard some dick (he) was pissing you off.” He knows he crossed a line with Buck.

In my opinion, the problem at that moment was that Eddie needed Buck — he needed them to share their grief, to support each other. But Buck was so focused on trying to “fix things” that he didn’t realize grief isn’t something you fix — it’s something you feel. And that frustrated Eddie because all he really wanted was to be with his partner. (It honestly reminded me of when the same thing happened with Hen and Karen.)

Every single fight they had has come down to a lack of communication, a lack of expressing their feelings — and the explosion that follows.

Were Eddie actions okay? In my opinion, no. But it doesn't mean he's abusive. He’s grieving. Just like Buck. Just like everyone else. People grieve in different ways.

Honestly, if you consider him abusive while thinking other characters’ actions were justifiable, then I have news for you — it’s kinda clear why you think that.

And I can’t deal with people using such a serious issue just because of a ship war.

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eddie flirting with buck 😉

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I raise you the SASSY Sip Saga

Eddie Diaz: The Sip Saga

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I am once again baffled by the misinterpretation of and hate directed towards Eddie, and equally baffled by the people who feel the need to position Buck as the 'bad guy' to defend Eddie. Like, y'all do know that people can fight without someone being the villain? Because it's important to me that you know this...

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i can’t stop thinking about how intentional it felt that buck’s big grief moment—his most open, honest reflection about bobby with someone in his life—was with tía pepa. not eddie. not maddie. but eddie’s aunt—eddie’s family.

it’s soft, intimate; a conversation underlaid by years of something we haven’t seen on screen, but that exists all the same—an undercurrent of familiarity, of care, of a relationship built quietly in the background.

and the thing is, pepa doesn’t speak to him like a guest, doesn’t treat him as her nephew’s coworker (or old coworker, i guess): she calls him evancito, later cariño—terms you don’t just throw around. those names come from genuine affection, closeness—love.

and then there’s the moment she calls him our eddie. not my nephew. not eddie. our eddie. buck is already part of the ‘our’—already included, inherently.

all of this tell us everything the show doesn’t say out loud: that this isn’t new. that buck is already hers. already family.

and that line in the episode description? buck contemplates where he’s supposed to be.

yeah. it’s here!!!

in this home. in this kitchen. with this family—the family and life he and eddie have been building together for the past 7 years.

this is where he belongs, the people he belongs to.

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this was such a fleeting moment in the scene, but eddie crying in the dark, suppressing his cries and completely alone will haunt me forever

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Oh no. No, can people not say the kitchen scene was 'abusive' please? It's so distasteful and honestly disrespectful to survivors of actual DV to twist a moment of human frailty into fuel for your dislike of a character/ship.

That scene was raw and desperate and driven by grief. Eddie let his frustrations boil over, and Buck immediately made it about himself and twisted it into a personal attack ("You think I didn't do everything I could to save him?").

Neither of them was dealing with their grief in a healthy way and they ended up taking it out on each other. Unfortunately that's what often happens when your emotions are in a bad place. It's why people keep a professional smile on their face all day at work and then rant at their partner the minute they get home. It's why children are perfect angels at school and then throw tantrums when they're back with their parents. Because they know that person is a safe space and will always forgive them. And guess what? They did forgive each other. Easily and without judgement or grudges. Because they are a family.

People are messy, life is hard and love is imperfect.

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This scene was like straight out of a fanfic 😭😭😭

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Or I-I need you to give me a sign. 'Cause… uh… 9-1-1, S08E17

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I'm - I'm sorry. I know he was important to you, too.

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Gooey Almond Croissant Cinnamon Rolls

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Sic

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Pistachio and Blackberry Olive Oil Cake

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Strawberry Macarons

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The fight should always include this part of the outburst.

The heartache alone 800 miles away. The raw grief, the realisation you should have been home, but your kid is here… so many conflicting emotions.

Above all pain, grief, isolation.

He was a dick to Buck but he is also processing

We all lost him. And we’re just trying to do our damn best to get through it. Yeah, I know. Really?

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3 times Buck watched Eddie and Chris reunite + one time Eddie watched Buck and Chris reunite.