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[lilxsturniolo1xx]

Not Going Anywhere

pairing: gf! y/n & bf!Matt

summary: where reader has a condition where she faints when she gets stressed, anxious, angry or agitated. what will happen when her and matt get into their biggest argument yet?

contains: use of y/n, arguments, angst, sad, fluff.

Today i woke up surpisingly early to a wave of sickness going through my body. I grabbed the water off my night stand and had a few gulps, hoping to supress this feeling so i could go back to sleep. After eventually drifting into another deep sleep, i eventually awoke again a few hours later to the same sickening feeling. Looking to the left of me i got greeted by the sight of my favourite human, clinging to me like his life depended on it. Being slow with my movements as to not wake him, i tip-toed to the main bathroom of our house. As soon as i got there, my mouth was filling up with the sour liquid that was begging to be freed from my mouth. After what felt like an hour in the bathroom, i decided to go downstairs for a sick bowl to keep at the side of my bed incase it happened again. Whilst i was down there i decided to call in sick to work today as i knew this feeling would not go away anytime soon.

After doing what i needed to do i crawled back into mine and Matts shared bed and tried to go back to sleep. As i was doing so i felt Matts arm wrap around my waist as i heard him try to say something against my back.

"What was that baby?" I asked, whispering just incase he was still asleep.

"I asked if you were okay, youve been up and down all morning princess. whats wrong?" he replies, his morning voice and the volume in which he was speaking making him sound almost inaudible.

"Oh im sorry handsome, i woke up feeling really sick so i had to call in work sick." I said sympathetically, upset knowing i woke him up.

As soon as i said i felt sick he shot up to face me, worry spreading across his face.

" Oh sweetheart, why didnt you wake me up the first time? do you want me to stay with you today? i have things to do but they can wait if you want me to stay with you, i can look after you if you want." The words rushed out of his mouth as though if he talked any slower i would wither away, the words coming out of his mouth melted my heart. Knowing that he was willing to drop everything just to look after me and make sure im okay. I couldnt do that to him though, especially with how busy he is.

After him being reluctant about leaving me, he eventually left the house and went to meet his brothers and start the working day.

After a painful day for you, from being sound asleep to rushing to the bathroom again and again, you were slowly drifting off as Matt got home. You didn't hear him come in as you were nearly asleep, but you heard his annoyed sigh as he walked into your shared bedroom to see you in bed. Hearing this, you rolled to your side to face him, just to be met with a disgusted look. Confused, you asked " are you okay baby? you sound annoyed."

As you said this Matt rolled his eyes and began walking to his dresser to get changed.

" Matt? Whats wrong why are you ignoring me?" You asked again. This time, he turned around to face you and began speaking.

" Nothing, just had a long day, you know because i actually went to work today and was productive and didnt stay jn bed all day like someone else."

"What do you mean? I woke up and rang work this morning because i have been throwing up all day, sorry me falling ill has put a damper on your day. It seriously was not my intention!" you replied, a tinge of anger laced within your voice. All Matt did was scoff and mutter something under his breath.

"What was that?" you asked, anger slowly rising from within you.

"I said your lazy!" He shouted, " You've been in bed all day when i have been out working to earn money when your sat here doing nothing! You cant expect me to be fine with you when you've done nothing all day, you've not even done anything around the house! Oh but you expect me to get home and drop everything just to pick up after you!" my jaw dropped, after hearing what he had just said i stood up and walked over to him, anger and frustration now covering my entire expression.

"What the fuck Matt?!" you began, upset and hurt that he felt that way about you being ill, " I literally told you this morning that i was ill and you offered to stay with me! I get that you might've had a shitty day but so have i and there's no reason for you to take it out on me!" i stare into his eyes, fuming as i see his jaw clench, idicating that i hit a nerve.

"Youve had a shitty day? You've been in bed all day how can that be so bad for you huh? Oh wait i forgot nothings ever good enough for you is it y/n."

Hearing them words come out of his mouth struck something in me. I wanted to cry, be sick, walk out and slap him around the face all at once.

"Fuck you."

Is all i said as i walk out of our bedroom and downstairs to make some dinner. Hopefully cooking something will take my mind off of the argument.

It doesn't. If anything it makes it worse, i keep messing it up because im overthinking.

What if he meant it?

What if he wants to break up?

that was our biggest argument yet the end results cant be good.

Slowly but surely, anxiety began to creep into my brain and the fight was all that i could think about. Stressing about the fight and the food i was making i forgot to get another pan. Walking over to the pan cabinet a wave of all the emotions ive been holding in since the argument crashed over me all at once and before i knew it the world had turned black.

Matts POV:

its been about 20 minutes after the biggest argument me and y/n have ever had, and it was all my fault. I started the whole thing by taking my shitty mood out on her for no reason, shes done nothing wrong. Ive managed to calm myself down a bit but im now im riddled with so much anxiety from the fight.

What if she doesn't want to talk to me again?

What if this is it for us?

I need to talk things out with her before it escalates.

As i was building up the courage to go and speak to her and think of what i was going to say, all thought process stopped as i heard a loud bang come from downstairs. i jumped out of bed and practically flew down the stairs, missing nearly every step to get down there faster and once i got down there all i saw was y/n. Face down on the floor.

"What the fuck?" i say panicked, "Y/n! Y/n baby can you hear me?"

No response.

At that point the only thing i could think of doing is just sitting with her until she wakes up, so thats exactly what i do. I rushed over to the freezer and get an ice pack and flip her onto her back so i can see if shes injured. Theres nothing that i can see so i sit there with her head in my lap, bawling my eyes out and stroking her hair and face until she wakes up.

Y/N POV:

As i begin to re-gain consciousness, i hear faint sobs coming from someone above me. Matt?? My eyes flutter open weakly to see Matt bawling whilst holding an ice pack to my head. I try to sit up to see him better but he stops me.

"Dont try and sit up yet baby, you could have a concussion." He says trying to sound normal but fails as his voice cracks through the tears at nearly every word he forms, i silently agree, lowering myself back down to his lap.

After hes done making sure im not concussed he picks me up bridal style and walks me over to the couch and sets me down to face him.

"Baby, im so so sorry. I didn't mean anything of what i said earlier it's just been such a bad day and i wanted to get back as soon as i could to spend the rest of the night with you but i couldn't even get that right. And i get it if you don't want to-"

"Matt," I stop him, not wanting to hear what comes out of his mouth next and i couldn't bare the sound of him apologising whilst sobbing in front of me, " I know you didn't mean it baby and i know you wouldn't treat me like that on purpose, we all have bad days and its okay." I shoot him a reassuring smile that he doesn't see because hes looking down picking at his nails anxiously.

I grab his face to make his eyes meet mine, " Matt, what happened with me earlier is not your fault, if anything it was my fault because i was making myself more stressed over nothing. Im sorry baby, i love you so much."

He stares at me as his tears slowly come to a stop, he grabs both sides of my face and kisses my forehead " I love you more than you know princess, and i always will."

He then picks me up and takes me to our bedroom and gets us both in bed, wrapped tightly around each other as he strokes my back and were both about to drift off to sleep, i speak up

" im not going anywhere handsome, you know that right?"

His tired eyes look down to meet mine,

" i know sweetheart, it was never an option." He smiles and i let out a slight giggle as he lowers his face for his lips to meet mine, kissing me softly as if i'd shatter if he wasn't careful. As we both pull away he stares at me,

" I'm not going anywhere princess, i promise."

A/N: Heyyyy guyssss!! Ive not wrote in so long im sorry i just have had no motivation and literally no ideas😭 if you want to request anything plsplspls do im practically begging🙏😭 hope you like this one thooo!!😁😁

[lilxsturniolo1xx]

Its what i do. pt2

pairing - matt x reader

that was until i heard a rattle of my bedroom door handle.

"y/n?" Matt was walking towards me and all i could do is stare at him, looking emotionless even though i was sure my emotions were going to make me explode.

"y/n are you okay? you havent messaged me back in what feels like forever, i was worried." The brunette boy was walking over to me, his voice quiet and low.

"Matt, why are you here?" i replied, trying my best not to let my emotions get the best of me.

"Ive already told you that, do you wanna tell me why you havent been answering me?" His sweet demeanour foreshadowing is saddend and worried thoughts.

i cant. i thought to myself. I was just looking straight up at him at this point. Hes looking down at me, not in a dictating way, more of a way that if i even said one word hed just break down. He asked me the same question again and this time i spoke up.

"you really wanna know why ive been ignoring you?" I began, his facial expressions changing in a way that meant he want me to carry on, and before i could even comprehend it was happening, my mouth then began moving again. "ive been ignoring you because im falling for you Matt. Ive never felt this way about someone in my whole life and to be honest, it terrifies me to know that i have feelings this strong. So to stop these feelings ive pushed you away because its what i do, i push people away before they can get too close and use my feelings against me. But im in love with you Matt, i have been since we met."

What the fuck have i done. once i realised what i had just said my hands flew to my mouth. Matt was just stood there, an expression on his face that i couldn't read. Fuck.

I open my mouth to apologise to him and almost immediately he picks me up and hugs me the tightest ive ever been held. We stay there for a while until he begins talking,

"I dont think you understand how long ive been waiting for you to say that y/n"

"What do you mean?" I look up at him, puzzled.

"I mean, ive been head over heels since the day you walked into my life but i was too scared to say anything because i didnt want to mess up what we had. But i love you y/n."

"I love you too Matt, i always have."

He puts me down back onto my bed and crawls under the sheets next to me, holding me tight as he plays with my hair until we both fall asleep.

I could stay like this forever.

a/n ~ Pt2 of "Its what i do" i hope you like it and please send me requests if you have any😁xx

[lilxsturniolo1xx]

Its what i do.

pairing: Matt x Reader

Ive been ignoring matt for a few days now, not because hes done anything wrong or im annoyed at him, its actually the complete opposite. i found myself falling for him, but he cant know that, itll ruin him. ill ruin him. He doesnt deserve that, hence why ive ignored him, im pushing him away. Since i was a child i grew up in a rough household, one of which no one knew how to communicate, ending in screaming matches to get your point across. From a young age i have been degraded by my own family.

"no one wants you, not even us!" My dad used to say, his stone-cold eyes peircing deep into my soul as the venom of his words seep into my brain. replaying over and over again.

"your just not good enough." My mother would say, shrugging her shoulders and flicking the ash from her cigarette into my dads empty beer can.

After hearing that day in, day out, on repeat it does something to you. Well, it did something to me. It made me hate myself. Whenever someone tried to get close to me id shut them down, thinking it was a sick joke, as my mother said ' im just not good enough'.

So when i found out i had feelings for matt, i locked myself away. Scared of me slipping up infront of him just for him to tell me what ive been hearing my whole life, because with matt it felt different. I felt safe. So hearing them words come out of his mouth would've broke me. This is how i made sure i would never have to hear them.

Ive been hearing my phone go crazy all day, every time i check it, i see matts message popping up on my screen, i then shut my phone off to ignore him, somewhat scared of messaging him. until i finally have the courage to open the messages, and by this time, ive had 13 notifications. All from him.

Fuck.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!

Hes coming here, now! what do i do. panicked, i rushed and put some half-decent clothes on, and a slight bit of makeup to make me look less dead. As i sat on my bed, thoughts rushing through my brain as i twiddled my thumbs somewhat scared of even going on my phone, i heard three knocks on my front door. Matts here. Frozen, i just sat there and ignored the door hoping hed give up and go away. Then i remembered, hes got a fucking key!

i hear the twist of my lock and footsteps coming into my house, followed by my name being called. Once again, i ignore him.

Maybe he'll think no ones home and leave. i thought to myself, asif i didnt know Matt Sturniolo like the back of my hand.

He began walking up the stairs and i was still sat there, like a statue. I dont even know why i didnt just tell him to go away or something, my body wasnt moving despite how much i tried, i was stuck In some sort of trance, that was until i heard a rattle of my bedroom door handle.

a/n: Hey! sorry leaving you on a cliffhanger like this but it was getting way too long but pt2 will be out soon, i hope you like this one anyway😊xx

[lilxsturniolo1xx]

Hey! so basically idk if anyone liked my last fic or not but i wanna write again but i have no idea what to write or to even carry on writing bc idk if anyone likes it ik it sounds stupid but its just nagging me😭i have no other way to put it other than that but if anyone liked my last fic please lmk and please please PLEASE send me some ideas of what to write next😭 xx

[lilxsturniolo1xx]

Look after you - Matt Sturniolo

pairing: fem! reader & soft dom! matt

summary: where the reader (y/n) is a dancer and goes home after a long day with a strong ache flowing across her body until her boyfriend matt shows up unexpectedly.

warnings: none! just pure fluff and use of y/n

After a long day of dress rehearsals, stressful last minute changes of choreography and painful falls y/n finally finds herself dragging herself up her stairs straight to her bedroom and practically collapsing onto her bed. As soon as she gets comfortable her whole body begins to ache, worse than shes ever felt before. She turns onto her side trying her hardest to sleep the pain off until she hears her front door open. Confused as she didnt know anyone was coming over and had no idea who was in her house right now she tried to move to go and see who it was but it was like her limbs were pinned down by weights forcing her to not move. A few seconds of struggling went by before she gave up and just as she did that her bedroom door swung open and there stood her beautiful boyfriend with multiple bags in his hands as he guided the door closed with his foot.

"Matt!" She said excitedly but unable to move due to the pain she was in. "What are you doing here? and whats witth all the bags?" you questioned whilst a quiet chuckle escaped you until you realised how much it hurt to just laugh.

"Hey pretty girl, i just wanted to see you and make sure you were okay after the stressful day you had today." Matt replied with a cheesy grin on his face, his words melting your heart.

He was so sweet it hurt. He began walking over to you placing the bags down beside your bed.

"Are you hurting baby?" He questioned realising you couldnt move.

"Yeah a little bit, today took it out of me." You replied quietly, the pain making you not want to talk much.

As soon as he heard those words he began rummaging around in the multiple bags he had brought with him. You looked at him with a confused look plastered to your face as you had no idea what he was doing until he pulled multiple different types of meditation out of the bag as well as snacks for you. Your heart began to melt as he handed you the medicine and your favourite drink to take them with then walked to the other side of your bed and crawled in next to you, wrapping his arms around you cautiously and embracing you into a long comfortable hug. Your head resting on his chest as your eyes began to close and you drifted off into a deep sleep as his hands were running through your hair.

"ill look after you princess." He whispered as he placed a soft kiss upon your forehead.

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A/N - Hi! this is my first time writing anything like this so im really sorry if its bad🫣 lmk if you like it and if you have any requests please send them to me🫶🏼