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I know you

I walked with you

Once upon a dream

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Ok so

It's been..uhh...Two months???

I finally finished most of my exams and I don't have to go to college because I'm having a practice.

And I'm finally on vacation and I don't have to work for a week.

Today I was at ballet, ”Swan Lake”, with my partner. I feel like I cried my heart out and ballerina was also almost crying after the ballet and it was so beautiful so here's photo.

My dad is finally visiting me after a year we didn't see each other and I'm living at our rented apartments and it's fancy. I also dyed my hair but I don't really like the results so I'm probably gonna change it. And I had a really funny dnd play. And I'm overstim so yeah that's all for today byeee

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Why is it so hard to sleep

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Omg, guys, today I watched Batman (2022)

Well, first, Riddler is autism coded I don’t make the rules

Second, Robert did such a great job 😭. I have problems to describe all of my impression from this movies since English is not my first language, but…

I really like soundtracks and camera work, especially the diner scene and church(?) scene. Also Robert, from my view, is very canon as Batman. He’s just…dull, but not as dull to be empty completely. He shows so much emotion even if he’s looking emotionless.

I still feel a bit disappointed at Riddler himself. It was interesting to observe him at the beginning, but for me he got too weak in the end. I feel like I expected more from him, I don’t know. It’s also feels like his motivation to destroy Gotham and kill people isn’t big enough, but maybe I just got used to villains that I can idolize. Riddler isn’t one of them even if he’s having a sad background and some sort of motivation .But the movie is still fine. Catwoman herself is perfect, but for me there wasn’t much of a chemistry, maybe it’s because I prefer slowburn more than…well, what the movie gave me. So yeah

Also, there are some of my outfits from the previous days. I bought eye earrings because the magnus archives vibe and my friend gave me glasses chain. I also thrifted outfits and it only costed me 680 russian roubles. For your understanding, its about 7 dollars for ALL. The dress also has apple buttons. The first one outfit gives off female horror protag or coraline lol

Won’t use stickers for the photo because I’m to eepy, sorry 😭

Also my boyfriend @le00o0 and I remembered how I got a meltdown only because we missed the train(we didn’t have tickets, so it wasn’t bad for us but it was unplanned) so he did the video about that but with Riddler’s screams because he’s so me fr 😭

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Today's outfit inspired by American McGee's Alice!.｡.:*♡

My friends dressed up in balletcore style and didn't say...(´ . .̫ . `)

I've found out only when we met.

But we still want to try dress up in the same style together, so I'm waiting....

My tattoo is aching. It feels like I have a big scratch. I had a dream in which I had a big scratch from my cat. Thanks god it's just a dream. I think this pain makes sense, especially after being poked with three needles at the same time for 5 hours. It feels better ij cold, so I'll try to use ice with tattoo, the internet says that it won't cause any damage

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A little bit late, but happy valentine's day for me and everyone here ^^

Yesterday was my and my boyfriend's 6th anniversary. We've celebrated it today with eating junk food and watching ”my bloody valentine”(such a great movie tho...)

I'm so happy to have him

@hun-nuh thank you for being here for 6 years, my love 🤍

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I got a tattoo!

It took 5 hours, I'm tired and happy

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took a little break because I had a mock exam

Well...It seems like I have atleast some kind of knowledge because I got the highest score. I thought I failed completely, but...no ^^

Also, I bought a few new clothes. Now I look like Bella Swan cosplayer.......It's the first time I bought jeans on my own, because I usually feel uncomfortable in them.

I'm also slowly healing from my gastritis. Since I can't eat any junk food, I've tried Vietnamese kitchen because most of dishes are steamed and not fried...But even in that case I ordered fried food :,)

It's called com nem, at least that's what menu says.

But I feel good, so...ok?

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Thinking about getting a tattoo on my ribs

I love the symbolism between of dead and alive

Like...we live even after out death, it's an everlasting cycle and I love everything about it being so poetic

I think I'll get this sketch cleaner to get my tattoo and I'll show you results when it's done.

Also I switched a bit between aesthetics so don't get confused about me getting a little more into dollette or morute 😭

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How does it feel to achieve something you've been working for so long? It should be awesome shouldn't it?

Then why I'm not feeling anything?

Then why I'm not feeling anything?

Then why I'm not feeling anything?

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I finally bought a new jirai kei skirt!!!

And Kangel keychain

It's hard for me to find a perfect-length jirai kei skirt since most of them are long and I have a really short body so I might look a bit chubby in them. But I found it!!! And It is so adorable （ ＾ν＾）

Also bought Boba tea. I didn't add sugar and my friend is working there so she made sure that I can drink it even with gastritis. Internet also says that it's fine and bubbles themselves are good for health. I hope it's true and I won't die (´ . .̫ . `)

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TW: blood, ED, hospital (?)

This morning I had a bad stomachache. It was so unbearable, so I asked the teacher for help. Of course she called the ambulance (ಥ﹏ಥ). The doctor in the ambulance was really nice, he immediately took me to the hospital, talking to me all the road.

But a hospital...ugh, it was a living nightmare. I was in a hospital for 4 hours. The doctor checked me up to find what was the problem, took my blood and i was scanned with ultrasound. He was really rude, but I understand, that with this job you can use rudeness as a coping mechanism, so I guess it's fine. I also think that my blood was taken by a student, because she struggled to find my veins, did everything too quick and let me go before I got better. So, I was standing in the corridor when I realised, that the cotton wool is soaked with blood and the blood is still dripping down my arm. I got all my shirt and my coat stained with blood, and I have no idea how I'll wash off my clothes...I won't post the photo of my bloody shirt, I don't know if it's ok for tumblr so yeah. But I have a photo from a hospital. It also took me 20 minutes to find an exit, like, why the hell a hospital should be such a maze? I also seen other doctors wheeling dead bodies somewhere right in the corridors not even covering it like is it normal for a hospital???

So, after all this nightmare I got recommendations. Guess no more soda and choco pie for me, now I can eat only children's food, soups and an oatmeal.(´ . .̫ . `)

I think that I got gastritis because of my neverending diets. I have an anorexia, so it's hard to eat properly. Seems like it finally ended up badly for me, but atleast I'm fine now (´；ω；｀)ｳｯ…

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Yipee the new post.

I was with my boyfriend the whole day. He made me the best breakfast and we were playing LiS all the day (• ε •)

Just finished the 4th episode. I'm till shaking a bit. I'm a big fan since the game came out, and I'm so happy that my love and I can share the same experience. We're still thinking about ”this action will have consequences” tattoos (｡>﹏<｡)

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survival horror protagonists

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Ah yes, ”studying”

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Just got home

A little bit sad since I didn't really seen musical because me and my friend got here too late.

But I am at home rn

Took a picture in Ena's card style. Now I'm thinking about playing genshin or pjsk...

Also, I wanted to show you my shelves with merch. Especially this Miku. My best friend got her for me on a New Year (ಥ﹏ಥ)

She's so sweet, her hair actually look like a cotton candy (´ . .̫ . `)

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I think it's time to introduce myself.

My name is Lily, but you can call me April if you want. I'm Russian, usually go by she/they, I'm 19 y.o. , I study graphic design in college, I have three cats and I'm trying blogging for the first time, so don't be rude. If you want to say something rude, please just ignore my blog and don't interact with it, thank you.

(*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

I like styles like jirai kei, coquette (especially dollette), horror female protagonist (?), yami kawaii.

DNI: homophobes, transphobes, racists, nazists

I have a secondary blog where I post my arts. I'm also thinking about getting an Ao3, since I like to write stories.

Fandoms: Life is Strange, Call of Duty, Silent Hill, Cry of Fear, Needy Streamer Overload, Corpse Party, Oyasumi Punpun(I also really like other manga of Inio Asano), Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica, pjsk, Love Live, Panty & Stocking, Portal, Eddsworld, Evangelion, SCP, Serial Experiments Lain.

There's also my kinlist ( I can explain, don't cringe, girlhood is a spectrum, ok?)

That's all, I guess. Nice to meet you all, dear readers ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ