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Inspired by this post, here’s a graphic and a link roundup:

No new content Sept 1 2017, in protest of Tumblr @staff‘s complete lack of effort to take any action to control rampant white-supremacist hate speech on this platform.

If GoDaddy and Google, Discord, and even OKCupid  (and even Facebook and GoFundMe) can take steps to curb hate, why can’t Tumblr? (Users have been complaining for years, it’s not like this is a new problem.) Tumblr consistently refuses to enforce its own no-hate-speech policy in this matter.

(There’s even a lovely write-up of it from this very month: Nazis On Tumblr Are Attempting To Make White Supremacy Hip.) (There’s a change.org petition about it too, which has a nice write-up of exactly how much absolutely-nothing Tumblr @staff are willing to do about egregious hate speech.) (No, I’m not involved with either of those links, nor the original post I’m referecing above, I just thought I’d Google it before I made a graphic. I know very little about this but it all seems pretty gross, now doesn’t it.)

I’m posting this now, then I’ll put it in my queue on the 1st and have that be the only thing that posts on that day (for those of us who can’t shut our queues down easily, that’s a solution). And then, no posts, no replies, no chats, no inbox, no messages, no visits to the site for the duration of the 1st in my timezone.

[Image description: On a blue background, white bold text says: “9/1/17 Tumblr Strike: This blog is posting no new content to protest Tumblr’s unwillingness to take action against white nationalist hate speech”]

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i dont know why im bothering to make this post other than hoping two things will come from it. 1) that ill start to feel better about the situation and 2) that the people it’s about will creep my blog and eventually see it. under the read more for feelings

so, for one, im not going to lie about my actions. yes, i messaged erika and told her i know shes her. i absolutely did. should i have? probably not. did i anyway? you’re damn right. and you know why? i did it because i cared about the game i was in. i cared. had i not cared, i would have just been like “lol fuck this” and left when i realized and nothing was done. let me just repeat for the hundredth time that she shut uproar down and did so through her role as a gossip mod. i was trying to protect the game and my friends, i wasn’t doing it to be a bully or harass her. i just wanted her to know that i know. after i sent the message i logged back out because i wasnt trying to fight or harass her. i just needed her to know someone knew and was watching her. let me reiterate that, while im not saying it was completely her fault bc im the one in control of my own feelings and i understand that, she played a huge role in me almost killing myself and had it not been for a call from my grandmother, i would have. i would be dead right now. i would have died in 2013 if my grandma hadn’t called me that morning. i dont feel bad for sending her the message. i will never allow myself to feel bad for doing what i thought was right and i still think i was right in trying to protect that game and my friends who modded it. i know they dont agree and that’s fine but what i did was a gesture of love, no matter how ugly it was. sometimes to protect the people you love you have to be ugly to the ones you don’t.

on the flip side of that, its been said i was a bully and making people uncomfortable. with the exception of erika (bc as i said, i will never ever feel bad for exposing her), i do want to sincerely apologize to anyone who i made feel that way. it’s never been said of me before in my life so im not sure who felt that way or why but if it was anyone besides her, then from the bottom of my heart; i am so sorry. i wish something had been said to me so that i could have known and stopped doing whatever it was i was doing. the last thing i want is to make someone feel those things. im not making excuses here, nor am i justifying myself to make myself look better but the god’s honest truth is that im not always the best with understanding how someone else feels unless im directly told. so again, im sorry. and i want anyone reading this to know that had i been told that i was making people feel that way, i would have done everything in my power to correct it. but if im not told an issue exists and i think everything is fine, how am i ever supposed to fix it let alone know about it?

now that ive covered how others felt and done my fair share of apologizing for my actions, i want to cover my own feelings. 

i dont know how either of you can say what you did to me wasn’t bullying me out. i dont understand how you can think me going from zero warnings, and neither of you telling me the accusations against me to being kicked out because i stepped down as a mod is not bullying me out. maybe bullying isn’t really the right word but that’s how it felt. it felt like i was targeted and it was purely retaliation for me saying i wouldn’t mod anymore because no action was ever taken. i know it was because b literally came back with “you said we never take action so we took action” so you literally kicked me out because i stepped down. that’s what it boils down to. you kicked me out because i sent that message to mod teo and i stepped down but i dont think that the time you even knew the message had been sent. maybe you did. that’s still bullshit when other writers should have been gone a long long time ago and are still there, forcing plots on people and making them feel uncomfortable purely because they want a certain plot, purely because you’re afraid of backlash from roleplayers everyone hates and wants gone anyway. even if i had been put on like a final warning i would have accepted it and not caused a fuss bc for the erika thing, i probably deserved it. no matter what you say or do to justify yourselves, you both know you did me wrong. you don’t ever have to admit it and its fine if you don’t but between the three of us, we all know what you really did to me and how shitty it was after how close we had all become. i truly thought our friendship would be good, i thought we would all continue to be best pals and without the stress of the game, we wouldn’t be torn apart. but, i was wrong. that stupid game tore us apart. and it was just a game. its not even real. our friendship was real. it still hurts and i miss you both. it will pass. it always does. but i miss you.

and now i want to move on to your feelings. like i said before i dont know who i made uncomfortable or what i did to make them feel that way, but if it was ever either of you, im sorry. ive looked back and realized how much i hate erika and how insistent i was she is there and gossip modding and going to ruin blush may have made you guys feel negative things. im sorry for that. i didn’t want to upset either of you. i really didn’t. i could have gone about things in a better way even though tact isn’t always my strong suit. i still realize the situation could have been handled better and i shouldn’t have let my own feelings cloud my regard for yours. i know this is past repairing, and im not trying to make amends and us be friends again but i do want you to know that im sorry it ended this way and im sorry for any negative things you experienced that were my fault. i loved you both dearly and considering i dont want to make anyone feel bad ever, i especially didn’t want that for two of who i considered to be my closest friends. i hope for your sake you’re able to let go of whatever resentment you have for me and not carry that anger with you.

thats it. thats all i have to say and i really hope that writing this down and putting it out there for you to see helps me let go of the situation and move on. regardless of how things ended, i wish you both the best with your game and everything else you do in your future.

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Hey it's 6 in the morning I only slept two hours and I feel like fucking garbage.

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I’m back with the themes after a long time! this is basically my last theme but with some more features and some little changes!

THEME 09 HAS: 

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I used laurenbudorick code to let spotify’s player smaller & font awesome icons (tutorial on how to use it here). 

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Reblog or Like or let me know you like it and if you’re using it!

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what do you mean “fucker” isn’t a term of endearment

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I want to radiate love. I want to pursue happiness and peace in every aspect of my life. That’s all I ask of myself.

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Im just gonna say if you don't want your friends shit talking your ugly ass girlfriend maybe you should listen to said friends when they tell you your ugly ass girlfriend is a fucking snake.