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now that I'm older than blitz, I'm fine with blitzstone not being made explicitly canon. They're two twenty yr olds with a fuck ton of childhood trauma who've been outcasts from their respective societies for their entire lives. An intense situationship that can't be reliably described as platonic or romantic is the most logical outcome for them at that point in their lives. It's not the vibe that Riordan was going for at all, but this is my house now

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lives were changed

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who are these DIVAS 🩷💚

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I rarely do personal posts on here anymore but I once again have dyed my hair green so here’s a hair update

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Swagness Chase

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I SHOULD BE OVER ALL THE BUTTERFLIES💗💜💙

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hello mcga community

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sketches & stuff

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transgendah swagness

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hi i finally made some art

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So Percy Jackson trailer has me brainrotting again so I decided it is once again time for me to throw my Riordanverse playlists out onto the aether because like,,, I think about them too much they consume so much of my brain at all times-

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pink haired magnus btw. if u even care

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i’m like actually addicted to this now

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i think there’s an interesting bit about how magnus vs alex are perceived with the way alex is often perceived as more cold and closed off despite both of them displaying a similar level of bitterness (which is only natural, both of them are homeless kids who die brutal deaths).

part of this, of course, is that the narration is told from magnus’ pov, fundamentally he doesn’t read as closed off as alex because the readers have direct access to all his thoughts and backstory without him having to say it out loud to another character, but i think there’s an interesting bit of difference between them: alex is trans. any trans person will tell you that telling anyone you’re trans leads to this awkward bit where you’re expected to explain yourself, share a bit of highly personal information and disclose the intricacies of your identity even if you don’t want to. and alex has to state her transness in order to be respected, she can’t go stealth because she’s not a binary trans person. he has to yield some sort of explanation, even if it’s as simple as “use she/her until i tell you otherwise”. even when he presents as different genders he doesn’t do so in a cisnormative way, there is no way for you to not misgender him without him fundamentally disclosing a personal bit of information about himself.

and, combined with her homelessness, this creates a kind of inherent disclosing of information about that, as well. once you know she’s homeless and trans there’s already a mental link between those two events regardless of whether that’s fully accurate or not. even magnus himself makes this link, saying that yes, plenty of homeless queer kids are homeless because their parents kicked them out. for magnus, it’s relatively simple to keep the reasons, realities and traumas of his situation private: it’s considered generally bad social practice to casually inquire about the specifics of the traumatic experiences of one’s life, so he has relative control over the information he discloses to other people.

alex, fundamentally, does not have that privilege. she has to tell people she’s trans to not be misgendered, and she understands fully this will not only lead to further questions about her identity but also an inherent disclosures of her trauma. her entire introduction is about how everyone around her makes assumptions about her based on the little information they get, and how much she doesn’t like it. i think it’s an important bit to consider that her situation inherently leads to her implicitly having to disclose deeply personal, traumatic information about herself and there’s nothing she can do about it.

alex reads as more closed off because she’s closed off in a different way to magnus. she has less control over how much information about herself she keeps private than him because her existing comfortably in a space means she has to disclose information about her that will lead people to knowing more than she probably wants people to know upon them just meeting her. she is forced to provide explanation of herself almost immediately after meeting a person in order for them to have the ability to engage with her basic personhood.

so, of course she’s more ‘cold’ and ‘brash’ than magnus. while magnus can relatively successfully keep from commenting on or disclosing certain topics, alex has to, and so she does it in the most pragmatic, authoritative way possible. while magnus can tactfully avoid talking about himself (regardless of whether he chooses to do it tactfully or not), alex has no such ability, as doing so would only lead to more questioning. she has to do it curtly and directly because that’s the only way she can cling onto her privacy and retain some control over how much of herself she discloses to people. and of course that makes her come off as more bitter, anyone would be bitter if the only way to avoid being hurt by other people was to almost immediately disclose personal information about oneself, regardless of whether you want to keep it private or not.

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Of all my WIPs, I finish the one where they’re just playing video games.