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"Monochrome"

Hindi ito ang unang beses na naranasan ko ang ganitong pangyayari... ang maglakad ng matiwasay then all of a sudden, my vision goes black and white— stunned because there was a dead body infront of my eyes. Bathed with their own blood and after that, my vision will be back to normal.

Not only I see dead bodies. I saw lots of lost souls as well.

I know, it's indeed scary. It's sickening... pero hindi pa roon natatapos ang lahat.

Noong una, ayos lang sa akin na makakita ng mga ganung eksena. Pero ngayon, hindi ko na alam.

Sa sobrang bilis ng mga nangyari, sa iisang bagay na lang nakasentro ang mga mata ko.

Did I just witness my own death? Yes.

When did I cross the road and experienced a hit-and-run? Maybe now.

Please tell me, am I still normal? Because I don't think so.

[littleferim]

Masterlist

Mystic Messenger

The Man Who Can't Be Moved (ENG | Jihyun x MC)

Shorties

Kung bakit ba kasi ang hirap para sa akin na umamin? (FIL)

Monochrome (FIL)

[littleferim]

"Kung bakit ba kasi ang hirap para sa akin na umamin?"

Mag-aala una na pero mulat na mulat pa rin ako. Parang kanina lang, ang sabi ko pa sa sarili ko. Bago mag 12:30 ng umaga ay magtutulog na ako para magpahinga. Pero heto ako, patuloy na nakatanga sa higaan ko. Nakikipagtitigan sa kisame na para bang may mapapala ako sa pagpupuyat ko.

Pero paano ba naman kasi ako makakatulog kung hindi ka maalis sa isip ko, diba?

Ewan ko ba kung bakit nagpapakaduwag ako. Pwede naman kitang padalhan ng mensahe. Isang text lang, isang tawag lang. Alam kong sasagot ka.

Pero natatakot akong gawin. Kasi baka mahirapan din ako sa huli na itigil ang pakikipagusap sayo.

Nakakatakot na baka sa huli, gusto mo ng huminto kahit hindi pa ako handang bumitaw. Gusto kasi kita.

Sobrang gustong gusto kita...

Kung bakit ba naman kasi napakahirap sa akin na aminin yan sayo eh. Pero baka ganito lang talaga, nakakapanghina.

Sa ngayon, isa lang naman ang gusto ko bukod sa gustuhin ka.

Isang mahimbing na tulog. Tama, isang mahimbing na tulog lang ang kailangan ko.

Para bukas may lakas ulit ako ng loob na itago sayo kung gaano kita ka gusto.

Eme, night!!! HHAHAAHAHHAH.

[littleferim]

The One Who Can't Be Moved

Mystic Messenger V / Jihyun Kim x Reader /MC

Not so long ago when someone asked for your help. Still baffled but you gave that person a hand that leads you to a certain apartment without knowing that your phone was hacked and an intriguing messenger suddenly popped on your screen out of nowhere. There you found a fundraising association, the RFA.

Each members has distinctive personalities with different life stories full of pain and a never-ending secrets. But you never regret joining the RFA. It was the biggest turning point of your life. It brought up a lot of changes that makes who you are today and how you deal with every person that you are encountering inside or outside the association.

Despite your sudden involvement with the RFA, since you have no choice or maybe you have but you blew it away just because of someone. You accepted the trust of the members even though it is uncertain. You helped them and replaced Rika's position— the former host and the one who made the association together with her fiancee, Jihyun Kim. The main reason why you chose to stay and accept being a replacement. Maybe, that's how love really works...

You successfully hosted your first party that proved your good intention and made them satisfied. Later on, Saeyoung rescued his twin brother Saeran and they are doing fine now. Unfortunately, the so-called-savior managed to escape it's punishment. But what's important is the decision of Saeran to join RFA. Jaehee opened a coffee shop after retiring being Jumin's assistant and in a secret relationship with Zen, still an actor with flourishing career. Jumin is still Jumin, but more successful and amusingly sociable than he was before.

While you.... you are with him, Jihyun. Three normal months passed by. Somehow, you manage to handle Jihyun's nightmare attacks and longing for Rika's presence that crushes your heart. You consciously wonder, what in world is wrong with you? No, he never said that he misses her and he still loves her. But being in a relationship with him, it is only his eyes that are damaged, definitely not yours. You are not stupid. You are not numb, how you wish you were. 

Slowly, you're starting to ask yourself...

Aren't you kind enough?

Aren't you beautiful and desirable?

Aren't you smart?

Aren't you doing your job and replacing her position enough?

Aren't you just... enough? Your presence and support isn't enough, is it?

Currently, you're in the balcony of Jihyun's apartment. You love his place... it smells just like him. His apartment is calming your mind and soul. Staring at the clear bluish sky while the wind is brushing on your not-so-perfect skin making you feel minty. Reminds you to a specific person with minty eyes and hair. You cannot help but to hug yourself with your eyes closed. A smile stretches your lips as you imagine Jihyun's faces as if he's just infront of you...

How you miss that guy... you miss his hugs and kisses. You miss everything about him. He is perfect for someone like you. While you are normal looking... too far from her ex-fiancèe's beauty. But hey! You are with him now. 

He's currently out of town. Disregarding his eyes' condition, he still wanted to take pictures for future auctions. At times, you can't control your mind thinking that maybe, he doesn't want to take the offered surgery or eye therapy by his bestfriend Jumin because he just don't care. Because it's Rika who gave him the pain and he wanted to hold it... and because he simply don't care about you since you are not Rika. How you wish you are Rika...

Your phone rings and you run for your phone as if you are running for your life. Your smile becomes a grin when you saw that it is Jihyun who is calling.

Maybe it's not only you who misses him? Hmm? You told yourself, how powerful Jihyun is... one call is enough to take out all the insecurities that you have in your mind.

—

"Let's go to that place." Jihyun said. You look up to him with wide-open eyes.

"What?" You asked... oh God!

Please, I hope that I heard it right... he took a glance at you before speaking up again.

"I said let's go to that place, Love. The place you are always asking me to go to." He said then turned his face in a different direction. His face is red as tomatoes that made you hugs him tightly because of excitement.

"Really?! You promise?" You almost jump when you saw him nodded.

"I promise, Love..." You planted a kiss on his right cheek because of too much happiness that is filling your heart.

It has been two days after his trip. You wonder what makes him ask you out to go to that place. You have been nagging him to come with you but he refused a lot of times.

You shrugged off the thoughts. You don't want to ruin the moment. What's important is you are going to that place with him and spend some time him.

—

You're standing in front of the train station. Waiting for Jihyun. This is the day where the both of you decided to go to that place. It's just a park but it is so beautiful and refreshing. It will definitely clear someone's mind when they go to that park. That's the reason why you are nagging him to come along. You know that it will help his mind.

It's 11 am in the morning, an hour before your said meet up. You waited for this day. You wear light make ups just to make yourself a little bit different from your usual get up... you wanted to look dazzling in his eyes since it is been a long time ever since the two of you go out on a date.

You waited patiently. Jihyun pay Jumin a home visit first. Since the whole RFA excluding you is in Jumin's apartment. They are having a meeting for the next party. You have done your part and it is time for you and Jihyun to take some rest for being stressed out over finding guests and the RFA gladly approved it.

You sat on the concrete bench and wait for your man with a smile on your face...

—

Meanwhile...

Jihyun is infront of Jumin's house. Eyes were wide and hands are shaking... did he just heard her voice? His fiancée's voice?

He was shocked, completely forgotten that there is someone waiting for him with high hopes. Because he promise and a promise is promise, or not?

Jihyun opened the door, the RFA is inside with smiles plastered on their face. He heard that voice again... his one and only Rika.

He walks inside slowly... still amused that his woman is standing infront of him.

"Rika..." finally, he managed to speak up. Rika run towards Jihyun and wraps her arms around the waist of the man. The two of them were too indulged. Unaware of Saeyoung's gaze full of confusion and rage... Saeyoung cannot help himself but to remember someone.

The one who helped them when Rika was nowhere to be found and sacrificed her own safety with bombs and danger... you.

—

It's already 12:30, your neck is starting to feel pain because of your continuous look at the crowd of people. Hoping that you find that minty hair of your man...

"Maybe there is a traffic since it's lunch time." You smiled while shaking your head. You sat on the bench and wait for him while staring at the bluish sky...

You can't wait to see him.

—

It's already 4 in the afternoon. Everyone was already on their own houses... Jumin is sleeping because of drunkness. Zen and Jaehee sent Yoosung home because the guy feels tipsy.

...and Jihyun is with Rika at his own apartment. Tongue were tied, disheveled hair. Tops were on the floor, half naked on the sofa.

"I love you Rika... I only love you." The man said as he starts pulling down the woman's skirt and lacy underwear, completely naked at the moment.

He starts licking the woman's neck... completely forgotten that there is still someone waiting for him to come at their meeting place.

—

It's 3 pm already, people are getting fewer... and there is no Jihyun Kim came in front of you. You're still sitting at the concrete bench that you were sitting 11 am up until now. Face facing the floor, tears starting to wet your cheeks. You cannot help but to feel disappointed. No Jihyun came, no calls or message that something important came up.

...trust me, you will surely understand whatever reason he has. But there is no one who's with you.

You wiped off your tears and smiled. Maybe he will still come. Right?

3 pm became 3:15.

3:15 became 3:30.

3:30 became 3:45.

"I trust you, Jihyun... I am still here, I am still waiting... I know you will come, you promised right?" You whispered, talking to yourself, comforting yourself...

4:00 pm

Bags were on your shoulder, starting to walk away from the station, heading home because your man did not come... maybe, there's still a lot of next time.

—

Moans were getting louder because of the unbearable pleasure, enough to fill the whole living room of the apartment.

Legs were spread wide as Jihyun's face were in between Rika's inner thighs... pleasuring each other, neglecting the mess...

Things were getting hotter... moans became groans. Slow thrust became fast and deeper...

Too consumed by their bodies' heat to pay attention to someone who's standing at the doorway... enough to see them, enough to hear their lies... enough to feel disgusted... enough to break someone's heart into pieces...

 You were stunned and pain was too much for you to handle, making you unable to hold the bags on your shoulder. The bags dropped on the floor making loud noises. That is the moment when they stop their dirty doings and once again, have a glance at your man's eyes when he looks at you...

Maybe you're just the one who's thinking that this whole damned relationship will work, because it seems like it will never be...

"I love you Rika... only you..."  you remembered as it echoes inside your head... then how about you? Still a replacement? 

I'm so fucking stupid for trusting and for holding onto that fucking promise...

"MC..." Jihyun called with wide eyes and starts dressing up. Neglecting the woman's naked body, he rushes towards you, planning to hold your hands when someone speaks behind you.

"Stop.." You heard a man's voice behind you. You feel his body's heat and the tension that becomes stronger the moment Jihyun called the man's name.

"Luciel..." Jihyun said with eyes furrowing. He does not feel good about it. He knows, he's gonna take his woman. But he will not let Saeyoung do that. What's his is only his, whether it is Rika... or you.

"I am taking her with me..." Saeyoung said. Glad that he is here... atleast, there is someone you can lean on. Someone who will protect you because damn... your man just cheated on you with his ex-fiancee.

"No! We need to talk. I will explai—" you stopped him from talking... you have no energy left. You just wanted to cry and leave. You wanted to be alone.

"You can do whatever you wanted to do... you know what? I am tired... we're done." You said trying your best not to cry in front of him. You were about to go outside when he stops you.

"No... you're not leaving. You're mine right? You promised me that." Jihyun said in a pleading voice. Wow? Now, he is an asshole for saying that. 

Using a promise in a situation like this will never work again. Not on you.

"Watch me leave..." you hold Saeyoung's hand and starts dragging him out of the apartment. Running away from the nightmare as if you are running for your life. Because yeah, if you stay still, you will definitely die because of the pain... and you don't want that to happen.

At least, not now...

Note: I don't know if I am going to write the part 2. Sorry if there is a lot of wrong use of terms and grammatical errors. It's not my first language so please bear with meeee chu chu~ thanks for reading!