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New Wings

You’re not perfect You just, sort of, Are. And you think that All they see Are your scars. But you breathe And you follow their dreams Like you’re free Like a bird With two wings You get nervous For no reason at all. And they tell you, You’re not allowed to fall. But you sink And before you can blink In too deep, You’re a bird, That’s drowning. You don’t hate yourself Or anybody else. But your mind says You’re lying to yourself Who are you What will you do What will you be Can you even see Your broken wings. Change yourself Your body And your shape. If you were different Then could you relate. Picture perfect Hiding all your flaws. But the filter It cant always stay on. You work harder Than you ever thought you could. In an attempt to Only be seen as ‘good’. But you burn Fall apart at the seems All that’s left Is a bird With no wings Deep down inside you You know. There is a seed that You grow. And though it wilts Your world tilts, You cultivate This self love, No more hate It takes a while You tear yourself down But you smile You’ll figure it out All the while You are learning Always yearning For change. You hope you’ll change. And one day. You’ll look in the mirror and see A new version of you That you’re proud to be. And their opinions don’t matter anymore. And you’ll smile Like you did before Cause you’re healing From all the self-loathing And you don’t even miss that The bad thoughts are gone. Are you free? Can you fly? Finally? And this body of mine It ain’t perfect I needed some kind of sign I was worth it That I didn’t need to change, My body, vibe, or brain Just alter the way I look at myself Everyday But with love and some time I changed perspectives It took patience, understanding, Introspection. It was hard But it was worth it There are still tears I still get nervous Sometimes I fall But now I get up. I finally, Saw a new me One I couldn’t see Buried deep Inside of me Now im free Like a bird With new wings

[littlelavenderlibrary]

Hello fellow humans!

I am a new user on tumblr. My hope is to have a space to post my writing and artwork so I can come back in a few years and see how much I’ve grown, all in one spot. Let’s be honest, I could make this a private account but sometimes you just need to jump off the deep end and go for it. I’ve never shared anything I’ve written or made, any pictures I’ve taken, nothing. So I figured a place where I don’t know anyone would be a great place to start and build confidence.

All I ask, if anyone stumbles upon this blog, is to be kind. We’re all human beings with feelings no matter who we are or what we look like. If you don’t like the posts, then don’t look at them.

Have a blessed day.