littlelydia143

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So let me get this straight. If im unhappy about 1 part of our relationship, that means I'm unhappy about every part of it? I bring up 1 issue I'd like to talk about and suddenly you tell me I'm unhappy with everything. I had no idea I was so unhappy... thanks for letting me know. 🤔

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Ilya Kaminsky, from “A City Like a Guillotine Shivers on Its Way to the Neck”, Deaf Republic

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mark s. acrylic on paper (had to play with the colors a bit to get the scan to look like the original)

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I deserve this. I'm an awful person. I should just die. Many people would go on to live better off without me.

I'm sorry to the ones i love. ❤️

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I've always been made to feel like my feelings are no big deal. My problems shouldn't even be problems. I hear others talk about their feelings/situations and people seem to feel for them, sympathize with them. When all I hear about mine are "oh that's no big deal" or a solution to my "problem" I'm not looking for someone to save me. I'm looking for someone to listen and let me feel my feelings. Why is that so hard?

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We've been together for 9 years. NINE. I've mentioned marriage once and I'm pressuring you? Leave me alone.

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I don't want to know why. But I'll always wonder

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Grammy please send Papa to come get me. I want to come home now.

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Grammy please send Papa to come get me. I want to come home now.

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How come I no longer feel safe with you?

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Searching for something to quiet my mind. Any suggestions?