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I'm bored so... Time to talk about why I identify as Scourge.

(Feel free to scroll to the bottom for a quick summary/tl;dr)

So at around age 6, I stumbled across the Warriors books.

I really loved the first chapter, so I looked it up on YouTube, and from that point on my childhood was completely consumed by Warriors

During 2017, when I was I think 9? I discovered a "therian cringe comp" and instead of finding it cringe, I was like "PEOPLE WHO ARE ANIMALS??? SIGN ME UP!"

So I immediately did some research snd got involved in the Therian community.

I instantly was like "Hm. Cat." But something felt off, I was a cat, 100% but there was more.

Later on, I met someone who was fictionkin, and that changed everything

And so I was like "cat? Fiction? Fiction + cat.... Warriors??? S c o u r g e."

Now onto why it's Scourge specifically

I never had a steady childhood. Easier then most, but not perfect.

Warriors came around almost the exact same time I was at my most vulnerable. It was my escape from the real world, especially as home life got worse.

I always enjoyed Scourges manga more then other warrior books, I guess it was a subconscious thing as a kid, or I just liked it *shrug*, but Scourge is alot like me.

I have a genetic disorder, turners syndrome, that causes one of my chromosomes to basically just... not exist. In my case, it was a male chromosome.

As a result, I'm very short (4'9) and even then I've never been strong, skilled or really good at anything.

I've been treated like a useless kid, teased and pitied all because of my hight or lack of physical strength.

I've always been overlooked or underestimated. Just like Scourge.

Difference between me and Scourge? People like him. Maybe it's more fear or general respect bookwise, but it's something I've never had, or ever will have.

I have friends, yes, but it's because I am social. Maybe one or two of my friends actually respect me. Otherwise, they see me just as the "small child friend" or a person they can get away with teasing if they are my friend.

I guess the idea of someone who was underestimated and teased, rising above those who doubted him and becoming someone important... well that's basically what I've always wanted.

Call me edgy or cringe, but I've always fantasized about having an "I'll prove them all wrong" moment. Mainly something like turning into a powerful animal and getting revenge. Always ended in them regretting there ways and being nice for the rest of there life.

Did I always believe it's a past life thing? Yeah. But in retrospect, this seems to make more sense in my eyes...

Tl;dr

I am very short, weak and overall untalented. I was the target for teasing and overall no one really liked me, alot like Scourge at first. I met a fictionkin not long after learning about therians, where I realized I was 100% Scourge. Used to believe it was past life, but now I realize it's largely due to heavily relating and connecting to him, and a desire to prove those who doubted me wrong, like Scourge did.

Sorry for posting twice on the same tags in a short amount of time, but I just wanted to talk about it.

#alterhuman #otherkin #therian #warrior catskin #fictionkin

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