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So lately I've been depressed.

I have not been more than normal but apparently I'm showing it more than normal.

(I also want to say I do have diagnosed clinical depression and I'm not using the term loosely to mean sad. I mean depressed)

So some of my friends noticed and my roommate and I have kind of gotten into an argument and by that I mean she told my RA that I was suicidal (I'm not anymore so it was completely uncalled for) and blamed me for not wanting to be in the room because she feels uncomfortable and then hasn't acknowledged me since.

Regarding my roommate I would have loved to talk about it and have her tell me first before she told the ra (which means now she has to come in my room every day and check on me) and also have her tell me why she doesn't want to be in the room (other than "there's tension" like you act like I don't exist idk what you expect) so we could have worked it out.

On a completely related topic: I lost all of my friend in one night because my depression was too hard for them to handle (?)

Losing my friends didn't make me happier but thanks for the try guys.

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I'm pretty sure I just lost all my friends in one night and I literally did nothing wrong except for being myself.

It's fine it was toxic anyway.

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A story: February 17th

Update: my parents yelled at me like it was my fault even though I clearly had my bike locked which was all that I could do

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So I applied for a job at the student rec center and it has two rounds of interviews; general interviews and program specific interviews (I applied to be a rock wall attendant). Well I got a first interview and did that the 11 and they were deciding from there about who gets a second (the program specific) interview. I'm really scared because they go from the 14-5 which is like 2 1/2 weeks but I haven't heard anything yet and it's the 16. It did say second interviews were scheduled by the program so maybe the rock wall just hasn't gotten around to it but also what if I didn't get a second interview? Anyway... It was a good day

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I shouldn't have insulted rocks. I'm sorry

It's 2020 and people are still dumber than rocks. Just saying.

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It's 2020 and people are still dumber than rocks. Just saying.

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Lol cool thing about having anxiety and being a rock climber:

It's really easy to peel the skin off of your hands when you have a panic attack

Whoops

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