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[londonblossom]

At the end it's the person we think about when we are half asleep, wishing they were there to hold you

[londonblossom]

Hey guys,

Sorry that I am not active here but

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[londonblossom]

I kinda regret meeting you

Talking with you

Because you gave me the feeling that you don't like me

I feel so lonely

Standing here with nothing to offer

At some point I blamed you

And now I know

It was my all fault

I am sorry.

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

It's so painful. The thoughts are hunting me. Here I am. Awake km the middle of the night. Crying. Trying to cut of my sobers so my roommate wouldn't wake up. All the thoughts in my head. I feel like I am drowning. I can't breath anymore.

What is happening?

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

I hope you gonna be happy

My beautiful artist

I hope you find your way

I hope you find someone special

I hope you will always love yourself

And at that times

You feel lost

Or lonely

Look up in the sky

And tell it anything that's going on in your mind

I will hear you

My soul will find its way to you

I will sit next to you and listen to you

Because I know how it feels like

When no one listen

But Darling

I will always listen to you.

[londonblossom]

And here I am... Even 6 weeks in Spain and the virus couldn't change the I still think about you all the time

Every time I see something beautiful, I want to show you. Every time I am exited, I want to tell you. Every time I am sad, I want you to hold me.

Guess this will never happen.. Lost love

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

I wish I were good enough for you. You never talked to me... Maybe that was the sign that you didn't like me in any kinda way.

Lost love part I don't know

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

I thought about you

You are still on my mind

Even if we haven't seen us for a long time

You're the only boy I think about

I know it is not good for me to only think about you

But still I can't help it

Can someone please help me to forget you? To stop loving you?

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

It's getting hard again

I feel like I can't breath while breathing

I don't know where I should go

What I should think

What I should do

Everything is moving so fast

I am just laying in bed

Going to school when I have to

Laying in bed again

Sleeping

My anxiety hits me at night

Because I can't walk the way I wanted to go

I am sitting here in my shattered pieces

Trying to solve the jigsaw

Trying to breath in

Trying to breath out

It feels like I am drowning

Is there anyone else having this problems? Probably just me

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

Playlist and favourite song for today

[londonblossom]

How can I tell you that you were the person that healed me but also broke me at the same time?

I tried my best to be a better person for you but you didn't talked to me... Isn't it sad?

You were the knight I didn't asked for

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

Why is everything so hard right now? Why do I feel so tried all the time?

[londonblossom]

You laught while you pulled the trigger

Again and again

You shoot me down

There shouldn't be any girls in science

It hurt so much

The pain deep inside

Voices crawling their way up in my head

You shouldn't be here

We told you

Stupid girl why don't you listen to us

Another shoot

Here I am

Laying in the dirt

Covered with my own blood

Not knowing where I belong to

Not knowing where I should go now

The broken pieces of myself laying around

My mind is broken, my soul is shattered, my heart is dead

Maybe you where the person I needed but I didn't asked for

I need a new start, a fresh mind, a repaired soul and a reborn heart

The question everybody asks me

What are you going to do now?

Where are you going now?

What is your plan?

Please stop asking

My plan died like one week ago

I am still covered with the blood of my fights

I am still crying about it

The way of life I imagined is now faded

I am screaming in pain

Everything I worked for

Everything I believed in

Is gone now

And there are you smiling

Congratulating yourself for shooting me

But believe me

When I healed my wounds

When I re-built my soul

When I awoke my heart

It's your time to die

Because you brought me hell

I will built

out of the broken parts I don't need anymore

A gun

Out of my own blood

I will make some red paint

I am going to wear it as my war paint

There you are flying in the sky

Thinking you are okay

I am lying on the ground

3,2,1

Pulling the trigger

The bullet hits you

You fall and there you are

Next to me

Both of us looking at the sky

And then the grounds open

You fall even deeper

Because there is a special place in hell for people like you

I smile

Karma is something that will gets you any time

Time to get up

Taking the gun with me

The only thing you thought me

Most mans are seeing you as their prey

Next time I am prepared for shooting them right then and there

I am the warrior

You will remember my name

~LondonBlossom

[londonblossom]

Ohh my God what is happening???!!!!

That's me right there omfg what is happening?!

[londonblossom]

Welcome to Málaga. Let's leave all the crazy things that happend at home and live our best life for 6 weeks

[londonblossom]

I am finally on Instagram

Please check it out, like & follow :)

Have a beautiful day ❤️

[londonblossom]

At the end of this chapter I will leave the battlefield with a broken mind, a lost heart and a shattered soul

Knowing I tried everything but the system is constructed to make you like everyone else but I will never be like everyone

Voices I tried to shot out for 2 years are coming back

"we told you that you are nothing and you won't make it!"

The last question on this exam will be

Are you going to write the next chapter or will you close the book?

~LondonBlossom