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Thinking about Mydei's hair.

It's softer than you might think. Mydei's hair is surprisingly well-kempt, although it still gets a couple knots every now and then; that’s inevitable. Due to how thick his hair is, Mydei’s hair tends to get matted easily while fighting, and it can be a pain for him to untangle. And so, in true warrior fashion, Mydei has slowly taken it upon himself to adopt and familiarise himself with the art of self care.

Mydei didn't grow up learning how to take care of himself properly; survival came first. It was only natural that his interests would align in things like cooking and exercise, however, it wasn’t until much later did he start to take up a formal interest in his appearance.

Even before he first came to Okhema, Mydei had always tried to stay clean. If he didn't, he'd be walking around day-to-day permeated by the stench of blood and sweat— so he was a frequent bather. But he didn’t do much else other than that, and he definitely used to look even more rugged than he does now.

Despite his efforts, it was Aglaea who first told him that he should try putting more care into his appearance. Tribbie chimes in agreement. However, Mydei didn't seem too affected by their griping. Then, a bit later into the day, Hyacine invites Mydei out to an all-girl's spa day at the bathhouse. Begrudgingly, Mydei accepts with a sigh. However, he soon begins to reflect again on his decision as the girls conspiratorially turn towards one another and begin to whisper a little too eagerly among themselves.

Mydei realises regret is a fickle thing. When he later asks what they were talking about, Castorice would only give Mydei an awkward smile. And so, he pushed the event out of his mind and distracted himself with his commitments and training, waiting it out to the point he forgot all about his dread— up until the moment they started to drag him in there. However, it was also there that Mydei learned just how popular this practice was for the denizens of Okhema. One that enlightened him on a previously unknown holistic approach towards self-improvement.  

And ever since then, Mydei hasn't turned back.

While the smell of sweat never really leaves Mydei, there’s also another scent that clings to him like fire. It’s tangy, spicy��� like nutmeg and saffron mixed together, but not quite. Underneath those fragrance notes is a tarty scent that reminds you of the lingering aftertaste of pomegranate juice coated with citrus. It's something you don't really get to smell very often unless you're around him. Because it’s his.

Mydei has a distinct smell, yes, but you are the only person he will let close enough to play with his hair whenever you want.

Mydei’s scalp is sensitive. Don’t tug or pull on his hair too much, even if you’re only trying to comb out a knot in his hair. Mydei becomes slightly more reactive when it comes to do with anything involving his hair, and he sees you pulling at it as a means to try and rile him up. But if that’s your intention— trust me. It works.

He likes it when people play with his hair, and yet, only a few people have ever really touched it. If you so desire, he’ll even let you play with his hair in public... With exception. He still has an image to upkeep as the crown prince of Kremnos, after all. But if Mydei is in a down or bad mood, let Mydei collapse into your arms. Then, run your fingernails through his hair, and let them lightly graze his scalp. He will melt.

Please tie up his hair. Please braid it. Please touch it!

Sniff his hair, and he might just die. While he won’t say anything about it, he will shoot you a look if you try it again. But there’s a noticeable pink hue now dusting his cheeks, one that would only continue to bloom and saturate in colour should your attempts persist. So please, be kind to him.

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OH, TO BE IN LOVE! ♪ Kate Bush is currently playing...

What are their love languages?

Featuring... Phainon, Anaxa, and Mydei!

AUTHOR'S NOTE Hi guys :D This is my first official writing debut on Tumblr wow?! This took me a while to write, but I'm glad to finally get it done! I hope to make this a mini-series or something lol so feel free to req charas in my asks or with other prompts hehe, I'd really appreciate it! <3

Phainon

Quality Time. Are you kidding me?

No— he's not the type of guy to believe in things such as love at first sight. That's what he's always told himself, until he first met you.

Phainon was always undeterred no matter what the Flame-Chase Journey sent his way. Endless trials and ordeals simply came with the role of being the Deliverer, that much he had learned. But a job like his also came with more worldly, mundane responsibilities that laid a notch below fighting the everlasting onslaught of the Black Tide.

Phainon was good with his words. He's always had a natural wit and charm about him that he carried as effortlessly as breathing air. But it's not like he wasn't aware of his effect on others. It's exactly because he's so aware, that it amplified his ability to meditate conflict and settle disputes and between the residents of Okhema tenfold.

Phainon's princely, boyish nature was the main reason as to why he was so popular among the people. But being popular also came with the problem of having people interested.

Phainon had no time for love. He was a hero. One that had to deal with the burden of his world's weight on his shoulders at every waking moment. Phainon never could truly let his guard down, and at the same time, he was tackling a lot of issues that only he would ever know about. That was how he had always lived, after all.

Fighting. Losing. Failing.

So how is it, that Phainon had fallen in love?

He had felt bad about shooting down people's advances before. Even those that he felt he could reciprocate their feelings a little, he had managed to turn down. And yet, the feeling in his chest everytime he saw you? It had been that way since the day you first met, but he was quick to brush it off. But then, you two met again. And again. And again.

To no one's surprise, Phainon falls quickly.

Dealing with the strife of war and the pain of loneliness on top of a destiny as harrowing as his— left him with a chasm in his heart that led him yearning for connection. For understanding. For his desires to be fulfilled and intimacy. To be wanted.

Phainon is painfully self-aware. But, at the same time, he's also someone who takes action. He's quick to befriend you, and if you let him, you two will slowly start to spend time together— not on the grounds for anything else but spending time together, of course. Phainon has no ulterior motives, not yet.

It'll start off as menial chats, ones that could easily be passed off for small talk. Then, it'll slowly turn into banter. The kind you make when you don't know someone very well yet, but you can tell there's a spark there. And as you slowly grow more comfortable with each other, your conversations turn from minutes to hours. From up to chance to daily. From guarded and shallow, to philosophical and raw.

No matter how long it's been since you've seen him, Phainon always came back with something new to tell. Anecdotes about his day, musings he wants to share with you, maybe even the occasional insight into his past. And yet, it always seems like a small part of his mind is always somewhere else. You think it could be his hometown he sometimes speaks about, Aedes Elysiae, that he wishes he could bring you to.

There are layers to Phainon. A depth to him that remains unseen from the surface. He puts up a meticulous front, one that makes him seem like an indestructible man with grit, capable of taking on any adversary that comes his way and come out unscathed. He could be the hero and saviour that everyone needed if it meant he could save Okhema and avenge every life stolen.

But he was only a human.

Even if he struggled to accept his own flaws, the company you provided him grew to become enough to ease him into a quiet acceptance. One that helped him drown out those negative thoughts every time they came back. One that gave him another reason to never lose sight of what he had always believed in.

One that reminded him, it was okay to be vulnerable. That it was okay to slow down and be uncertain. And that maybe, he deserves to be loved too.

Time spent with you isn't just a pastime to him. Even in utmost silence, even in loud, boisterous moments, Phainon will always choose you. In times of ups and downs, he's loyal to a fault, and the one way he will always prefer to show it is by being able to stay at your side as much as he can.

If you choose to want him in your life, please excuse him if he gets way too excited being in your presence all the sudden. Or if he tries to keep you to himself for hours, only to end up falling asleep in your lap after chatting for so long. You should also expect a lot of puppy dog eying from him every time you try to go anywhere without him while you're hanging out or if things don't go his way.

Will you take him later to that new antique stall at the markets he said he wanted to go to?

Anaxa

Words of Affirmation.

Anaxagoras is an impassive man. It should come as no surprise that his every deduction is backed up by logic and his comprehensive expanse of knowledge.

No, it's not that Anaxa is incapable of feeling emotion. But Anaxa's life journey has always been dedicated to studying alchemy; understanding the soul and its properties, and how to reverse engineer the very composition of life itself. Quite literally, his mind is always focused on the matter of pursuing the truth of life.

So, unless you're also someone who shares a major interest in the topics of study by the Nousporists, please take no offense when I say Anaxa is probably not going to take much notice of you initially.

Anaxa has always been a hot topic. His insistence on being referred to as Anaxagoras, his unusual manner of speech and cadence and arrogant demeanour. Anaxa is renowned for his oddity, and yet the respect and reverence that is tethered to his name is not something that can be overlooked. Because despite his eccentric nature, Anaxa has a tenacious desire to understand the world around him. One so insatiable; that he has always succeeded in.

Well… At the cost of his social skills.

No— it's not that Anaxa doesn't feel emotions. It's just that anytime he talks to someone who isn't either his students, mentors, or other like-minded people, his sharp tongue gets even worse. Anaxa does not like people who hold minimal regard for the structure of the world and won't question anything at the expense of maintaining their own belief system. And trust me, he really has no qualms when it comes to disproving someone’s beliefs should it be for their own enlightenment.

So; what's so different about you?

Well, if there's one thing he's noticed, he feels different around you. Not in a good way.

Every time he steps into your vicinity, he feels a sudden tightness in his chest. And when he manages to catch your attention, his guts suddenly feel like they’re twisting into all sorts of formations. He even notes increased perspiration forming on his skin, causing his palms to go clammy and his notable steely focus to waver.

Whatever this strange affliction was, he had only started happening around you. And after the first time, he was already head-deep in scrolls at the Grove as he tried to figure out what was going on.

Well, he had an inkling on what was happening anyways. But as a scholar, he wouldn't jump to any conclusions until he had every plausible piece of information at his disposal.

So, when all the pieces set into place, what was his reaction?

...Love?

No. Anaxa could feel emotion, and he knew that very well. But he's uncertain if this is the most definite answer. He knows he is capable of love, considering how much he cares for his sister. But romantic love? He's a scholar, an educator, and demi-god. Apart from having all those responsibilities, he really isn't interested in pursuing a relationship. Besides, romantic interests directly conflict with his lifelong purpose.

Here's a tip: refer to him by Anaxagoras, and he'll warm up to you a lot faster.

Now, the biggest hurdle to overcome when it comes to Anaxa is trying to wiggle your way into his life. After that, it’s trying to get him to accept you into it.There's a myriad of ways this could happen, but the most likely main denominator is by slow burn. Anaxa does not fall fast. You will have to be patient for him and wait for him to recognise the signs and watch his every move— because his responses are subtle.

And when you do, you’ll be rewarded by discovering a side of Anaxa that he seldom shows.

Yes. Anaxa is kind. He is an unusual man, with unconventional methods of doing things. And while he doesn't like to overtly display his fondness for you, he makes do with the little things.

We all know well that Anaxa is one to speak his mind freely, and around you, that fact is no different. However, due to Anaxa's growing affection for you, should you ever mention things to him that were to warrant guidance from him, Anaxa will always spare words of wisdom or insight. Bided time or not, as a teacher, it is in Anaxa’s duty to extend knowledge to everyone he can reach. Yes, that includes you too.

The man is a diagnosed yapper. If you don’t let him talk your ear off, he’ll slip away in a blink of an eye. So; listen to him or learn how to admire him while looking like you’re listening.

Another tip: provide him with stimulating conversation. Are you a yapper too? Well. Just maybe, it’s fate! Try getting a little smart with him too if you want. Just keep that for private moments, because trust me, he will always level your attitude. And don’t act too idiotic. If you’re a listener, that’s okay too. Just don’t interrupt him until he’s done talking, otherwise he will get snappy.

As you slowly start to grow even more close to him, Anaxa will continue to offer you much needed advice and enlightening philosophical debates and discussion. And when he starts to feel more comfortable around you, his partiality towards you grows even more pronounced. If a certain snowy-haired student were to ask Anaxa if he’s taken a liking to anyone recently, he would first reprimand the asker for prying into his personal life, before answering the question afterwards calmly with your name.

Anaxa speaks highly of you whether you’re present or not. You can bet that if someone talks ill about you while he's around, he will be quick to shoot a side-eye towards that person and will speak to them only through thinly veiled hostile remarks until they leave. No, Anaxa is not being too irrational, he’d say if you caught wind of this. They were talking poorly about you. His passive-aggression is unremarkable, in comparison to how he can be when he doesn’t hold back.

Anaxa is a very well-spoken and confident man, and he's also good at magnifying your strengths to people who may not understand you like he does. If someone brings up your flaws, he's already prepared to immediately shut down their entire argument. When you and Anaxa are later in private, you might be surprised for Anaxa to suddenly drop a compliment. And if you ask him to repeat what he just said, he'll quickly change topics or shift his attention elsewhere.

Is Anaxa capable of getting flustered? That’s up to you to decide.

Subtlety is key in Anaxa's love. He needs quiet moments more than other people, albeit his desire for reclusiveness can be a bit excessive at times. Simply pull him out of his shell every once and in a while and remind him to breathe. Your presence is grounding enough for him whether he’ll ever admit it, and he finds that it’s easiest to appreciate you through his own little covert acts of gratitude.

Anaxagoras is a man of truth. He only opposes the unconstitutional belief in the Titans as he wishes for humanity to take back their agency and defy the prophecy. He's not heartless, no matter how chiding he can be. And it is difficult to win a spot in a life of a man as lofty and standoffish as Anaxa.

So— if you do win that position, be glad. And please love and appreciate him, blasphemy and all.

Mydei

Now this one? This guy is such a green flag, that he's a little bit of everything. He likes to give compliments, he likes to get handsy sometimes, and he likes spending time with his loved ones.

But I'm going to say Acts of Service.

Mydei, at his heart, is surprisingly quite the romantic. The crown prince of Castum Kremnos— it might be a little hard to believe, but it’s true. Mydei may have a hardened disposition and proclivity for speaking in a clipped tone, but underneath all those abrasive layers lies pure, untouched gold. Literally.

Mydei’s plight and turmoil is so unfathomable and grand in scale that it cannot be comprehended by the average mortal. And yet, what choice this undying, ineffable man continues to make is even more puzzling than his past shrouded in mystery.

Gentleness.

Mydei is gentle. He cares, and he will always be frank and upfront about what he thinks. No matter how brief or pointed his words may be, Mydei always carries himself with a rigid air of dignity and power. Considering his Kremnos’ heritage, Mydei’s assertive nature is derived highly by that and his own brutal upbringing.

And yet; it is exactly because of his troubled upbringing that Mydei likes food. Nutrition is important to keep your body healthy and in tip-top shape, after all. As a child, being raised in the Sea of Souls left him severely malnourished and his body brittle as bones. But nowadays, for a warrior like Mydei, his biggest priority was keeping up his physique in the best condition possible, which also required a sufficient intake of food daily to maintain. Therefore, when he’s not attending to duties, you will probably see Mydei busying himself with a biteful of something in his mouth.

How highly Mydei sees food extends into his own ability to cook. Since nourishment is such an integral skill to him, those expectations extand out to others around him as well. So, while you might not see him around the stove thatoften, rest assured that Mydei’s cooking is good. It could honestly even be considered a delicacy if you asked, since he’d be willing to cook you a Kremonan meal if you asked.

Ah. You.

Mydei was raised into a cycle of violence. One that he himself has never been able to truly break free from the shackles of. However, in saying that, that does not mean Mydei treats others with the same attitudes thrown at him during his life. And while he could be seen as a stoic, menacing man, Mydei chooses integrity above all. And he certainly appreciates people who share that same sentiment.  

That’s how he falls for you.

Mydei is surprisingly quite the romantic. But not in the natural sense. He’s not charming and domestic like Phainon, or a sardonic erudite like Anaxa. Mydei is open, curt, and operates in a way that he expects others to reciprocate. But when people don’t, Mydei doesn’t let disappointment or burden tie him down. Mydei was a warrior, and so long as he was kicking, he would always get back up. He had nothing to worry about with his resilience and utmost confidence in his abilities.

A man so mature and capable, and yet; the moment you enter his life, he can’t help but begin to dote on you.

Maybe it’s because nobody cared for him before. With all the tragedies he’s been through, Mydei finds his peace in mundanity. Trivial things, that won’t matter in the long run against his constant battle against strife. Something that made his chest stir, in a way that felt almost foreign to him, and led to him cooking for others. And then, he starts to cook for you.

Small meals, big meals, snacks. Anything you want. He just wants to make sure you eat well. While Mydei might not share any intentionally ‘flirty’ words of affirmation or physical affection towards you, Mydei’s actions speak louder than any words.

He can tell when you’re sick before you even realise you’re sick. And then, you’re getting thrown over his shoulder like a potato sack should you try and dismiss his concerns and immediately being taken somewhere private. Mydei would not tolerate his favourite person being sick of all things and working, of all things considered. When you had a luxury of such a ordinary life, why would you work when he could just take care of you?

…

Favourite person? Don’t tell him he said that out loud. He’ll tell you there’s no such thing in the Kremnoan language.

He’ll fix your bed before tucking you in and stick down a spoon full of chicken noodle soup down your throat should it mean you know that he cares. Even if he has duties on that day, he’ll pop in and out of your room and check up on you when he can, even outmanoeuvring Aglaea’s orders so that he ends up by your bedside and nurses you back into good health until you get better.

If you need anything, you might be surprised at just how eager the prince seems to fulfill your any whim. Should you let him, he wouldn’t be against doing your laundry or cleaning your residence of choice as well. Do note, that he will take back any clothing you’ve stolen from him during this time though.

Mydei is a survivalist. And he is also intense. In an ideal world, Mydei is most likely to fall for someone who is just as enamoured with him as he is with them. Someone who isn’t turned away even by the ugly, solemn parts of his life. Someone who can look past his reservations and recognise Mydei for the indomitable fighter he is and remind him that he can be loved too.

And in turn, he will provide you with his undying devotion. Mydei worships you despite the blazing inferno he’s trapped in. Regardless of the cruel destiny imposed on him, the respite you bring to his days remind him every day to uphold his unwavering strength and continue to fight for the valour of Kremnos, and the people of Okhema.

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