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I wanna look like this so bad 

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I’ve decided that starting tomorrow I’m going to be serious about this and not cheat myself. I will lose the weight and I’m not going to lie to myself anymore and say that 1 snack doesn’t matter because it does and that 1 snack always turns into 10. Loosing weight isn’t something I can cheat, I either put in the work and do it or give in to my binge impulses. I know that the reason I’m not seeing any changes is because I’m still eating more than I need even when I really don’t have to and I hate myself for it. If I want to be skinny and beautiful I have to stop eating as much and there is nothing I can do to change that. But from now on I’m going to try my absolute hardest to stop eating as much and finally see the body I have always wanted to have.

Sorry this was something I just needed to write so I can look back later and remind myself on what I need to do :)

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how to stop binging and successfully lose weight once and for all

i think the biggest takeaway i’ve gotten from all these endless diets is that the ‘restriction mentality’ is the inevitable downfall of basically all of my weight loss plans.

i define this 'restriction mentality’ as that feeling of dissatisfaction when dieting, and that dissatisfaction is what eventually leads to binging or just giving up entirely.

when you’re on a diet, you will eventually end up facing a time where you look at that bar of chocolate and say fuck it. then your brain tells you “hey, you never know when you can have this again. better eat all of it… along with that bag of chips… and a couple of donuts…and how about pizza for dinner?”. you later regret that binge so you discipline yourself even further, which leads to more binging.

this is the inevitable cycle a 'restriction mentality’ will bring you.

so how exactly can we still successfully diet if dieting is an inevitable cycle of restrict and binge?

quite simply, we must satisfy that 'restriction mentality’.

when i had an ed, i had plans upon plans of detailed meals, calculating calories to the fucking tenth decimal. these were all healthy meal plans like salad, or smoothies, or those disgusting shirataki noodles.

what i failed to include however, was planned satisfaction.

i was so strict with myself, i never planned to indulge in anything that wasn’t conventionally considered diet food.

this. this was my downfall.

now, i know i cannot successfully diet without planning meals that allow me indulge. so instead, i have planned indulgent dinners and planned desserts.

yup. you heard me right. this is a diet where i can have dessert.

personally, i am a person who can fast all day but will fail once it hits dinner. i am an unfortunate individual who refuses to sleep if i am still hungry.

so that’s what i do. i planned indulgent savoury dinners alongside indulgent sweet desserts every single night. through the day i basically fast until noon and have a health smoothie for lunch.

this isn’t a specific schedule you have to follow by. if you are a person who can live without dinner but dies without a good breakfast, then just change it up. 

have a full stack of pancakes with a side of bacon. hell, throw in a glass of orange juice too. then later you can diet with restricting health food while feeling satisfied.

another important thing to note to beat that 'restriction mentality’ is whenever that voice comes up and says “i want to eat that. when will i ever get to eat that again” ..you now have that planned indulgent meal so you can respond… “tomorrow. i can have that chocolate cake or spicy ramen or ice cream. i can have all that tomorrow during my time of planned satisfaction”.

and this is basically how i ended up losing 17lbs. sure it took me over 6 months to achieve this. but after losing and regaining those same 10lbs for 3 years alongside an ed…this was godsend.

i’m still on my weight loss journey, i’m nowhere near the end. but for the first time, i no longer have to worry about binging and i’m constantly satisfied.

i know eds tell you that you have to lose weight as fast as you can so you can be skinny af by the next day. but slap yourself back into reality for a moment and realise that’s never gonna happen. those 'ed success stories’ you keep hearing about? yeah well… they’ve either all binged themselves back or are fucking miserable.

do you want to have a maintainable weight loss while feeling happy and satisfied or be skinny and fucking miserable for it?

i know which one i’m choosing. trust me as someone whose suffered through this for 3 years, it never gets better. even when you’ve hit your gw and you look snatched af, you’re constantly moody and irritable with hunger… it’s just not worth it.

…didn’t really mean for this to be a get help or fucking rest in peace post but you get the idea. just be happy. diet while satisfied and happy = skinny while satisfied and happy. 

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ig: BABYINEPT

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reminder: you can be anyone you want to be when you’re skinny.

you could be the nice girl

the popular girl

the girl that every guy/girl/whatever they identify as wants

you could be the fucking nerdy girl that everyone wants on the down low

or the stoner chick

You could be anyone.. and be hot as fuck while doing it. But first, you have to get skinny.

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my goals and rewards:

once i fit into my bikini bottoms:

•dr*gs

•dlck

•bangs!

•tattoo

•nails done

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i’ve just been stuck in the cycle of binging can someone please give me meanspo

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hit that mf reblog if ur fat, lgbtq+, trans, poc, male/nonbinary and/or poor and have an ed

i wanna prove its not just straight skinny cis white rich girls who have eds

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sooo shocked at my side profile transformation😦

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😳 i’m literally not gonna eat anything and just drink this for two weeks starting sunday bc i’m outta town rn. i’ll tell y’all how it goes. if you do this too lmk how it goes 🙈

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Small waist workout

-Mountainclimbers 30 sec

-Plank twist 40 sec

-Leg pull-ins 30 sec

-Russain twists 40 sec

-Side plank 40 sec (20 sec on each side)

This is a really short workout it only takes 3 minutes, if u dont know what an excersise is just google it or ask me💕 Btw ive been doing this everyday 1-2 times for a week and i already notice a small difference.

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sooo shocked at my side profile transformation😦

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Please, don't report me. If you don't want to see my posts, block me.

This is my ana journal.

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Success in starving is bittersweet.

The look of concern etching itself into the creases of my boyfriends countenance as he realises I’ve been pushing my food around for 20 minutes and not taken a single bite.

The feel of him wrapping his hands around my waist and hearing the melancholy in his voice when he sighs;

“𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌, 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒗𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏."

The way he lifts me and my head spins and I feel as though I could faint.

Why does it feel so romantic to let myself fade away?

I don’t do it for him. He hates what I’m doing.

I starve because I want to look just as small and breakable as I feel. I starve because I want to look as tired as I feel.

I starve because I want to excell.