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I fuckin hate being autistic sometimes. Literally cannot shut the fuck up abt one thing i like. I try so hard but it always will come up no matter how hard i try to stfu. I dont catch myself till its too late either. So tired of being like this yall I just wanna shut the fuck up finally.

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Thinking about. Franco and his relationship with his gender.

How masculinity is about performance, seeking not love from other men but validation, and how his defensive and fragile ego stemmed from growing up in a hyper-masculine environment that constantly belittled and undermined him in a time when gender roles were strictly enforced. "Being a man" so often means capability: sexual prowess, physical ability, emotional control.

Franco is not sexually capable. He has difficultly performing and can only do so when humiliated, submitting to a woman in a way not typically accepted in ideal forms of masculinity. Franco is not physically capable. He is short, fat, physically disabled, and relies on a gun for all his disputes. Franco does not know how to control his emotions. He has a fragile ego, a terrible trigger finger, and cries very often.

To "be a man" you cannot cry ever, you cannot be weak ever, you cannot be vulnerable ever, ask for help, give up, or be in certain submissive positions, especially in relation to women. If you're caught not being able to perform any of the skills required of a man, then it becomes a permanent wound on your masculinity. No one let's you live it down, especially other men.

His immediately antagonism with Leland, assuming Phyllis has a boyfriend and that he needs to kill this assumed boyfriend to "prove" himself; his childhood taught him there is no camaraderie among men, just ridicule, and it's better to hurt them first before they hurt you. He gets in a room with one and suddenly he's rearing his head and huffing like a bronco, ready to bolt. Anything can be a threat to his ego, even if he pretends it can't.

Franco feels the need to perform this idea of a hyper-masculine, aggressive, capable figure to prove (more to himself than anything) that nothing is wrong with him, no one can touch him, no one can hurt him. His father taught him that the way to gain respect and validation is to kill, so whenever his capibility is threatened his first reaction is to resort to violence to prove he IS capable, and don't you fucking forget it.

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I'm transmasc but I wanna be Franco's mommy so bad--

Hes so cuuute 😩💞

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Need him moaning while latching onto my t!t

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Sorry for the Franco spam (not really sorry)

Lil man won me over during my uhhh episode.

One tiktok can change a person. And i just mean dragging me back into Outlast

I love him. Freaky lil gangster ♡

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Men will say "Hear me out" and show you either a minor or a furry. Women will say "Hear me out" and show you this guy

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hi it’s skully i can’t believe you like franco :,) would franco in some proper mob attire that fits him instead of his oversized stuff be possible? maybe a zoot suit in a dark red/black or whatever you want ^^

tried my best ;u;

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he is very gorgeous to me 🫶

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Oh no here we go again 🫦🧡

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Losing my mind!! Need to pause the world so i can breathe. So i can calm myself down and not spiral. My anxiety has been peaking for like 2 or 3 hours and id really really like it to stop now !!!

I hate that it doesnt matter how much logic and thinking i apply, i will still be so anxious.

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mmhh

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Liquid Chris was so fine fr

this is my favorite type of man

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Yall ever get visited by k!nks you dont jerk it to often? Like suddenly ALL i want is: priest, combat boots, feminization, +call me sister or little lamb

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If you're ever worried about your kinks, just remember...

You're trapped

You'll always want this

You're disgusting for liking this

You're only going to get worse over time

Your pussy isn't lying to you, this is who you are 💕

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Astral Observatory Koji Kondo The Legend of Zelda: Majora's Mask (Nintendo EAD, 2000) Soundtrack [Disc 1]

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Its been a year daddy, i really really miss you

Stupid gay vampire demo redraw because i love comparing my art . okay shutup you cant judge I am not anyways the best with ideas. Whatever. Check out the og. Yes its actually been a year and yes I am slow. Be nice . the design just got complicated and maximalist asf because of course it did.

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always getting into trouble

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life will be like this in november