losing2mybody

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Backpacking near Mammoth Lakes, California

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I feel like such a wannarexic.

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I'd really like to end my life but I'm scared. My family would be heartbroken but I'm tired of living this life and I hate having to wake up every morning and work this bullshit, nowhere job. I'm ready to fucking go.

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At 196lbs now. Not losing fast enough for my liking.

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instead of calling the pride and prejudice heteros lesbian coded you should read actual books with lesbian leads. instead of calling hozier lesbian coded you should listen to actual songs by lesbian artists. lesbian creators deserve more than solely lesbian audiences. do you actually respect lesbians or are you just ally coded 🤨🤨🤨

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This year's off to such a shit start and I have no hope for how the rest of it will go.

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I'm down to 216lbs. 50 lbs lost since December. If I'm not at 140 by July, I'm throwing myself out the window.

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My dog died on Feb 1st and every morning since then when I wake up and remember he's not here for me to walk anymore, I start feeling so shitty. Not a day goes by where I'm not thinking about him.

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This day ended on a somewhat positive note. At least there's some hope for next week. Not as much as I'd like but beggers can't be choosers I guess.

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I can't wait for today to end. A crap day for me and my sister.

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I thought I got some good luck recently but I blew it. I'm hoping for some new good luck but I won't get my hopes up.

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Living in these times is a hassle and it feels worthless. I try to be hopeful for the future but I struggle with it. I try to have faith in a higher being but sometimes it feels futile. I'm just over it all.

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Today was such a shitty day. I honestly don't feel like living anymore. I wish I could do drugs and not feel or think shit.