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i shan't lie i'm missing papyrus like a motherfucker . where is that guy

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figured i would post this here too….. Love this dialogue so much. Top 1 transgender protagonists

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kris loves like a dog and its terrifying. anything could happen to them and they'll crawl back to you

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When will it be my turn to be put down like a sick dog

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if i were polyamorous id individually message everybody in my polycule saying i needed gas money

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[ SLUMBER ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver because they're so sound asleep that they won't easily wake up. ( she huffs about it but it's all a front ... we KNOW this )

     *     LATELY,  YOUR  RESTLESSNESS   HAS   BEEN  AT  ITS     all-time high.     you have not been able to get proper rest,  always tossing    &    turning if not downright waking up out of breath from     NIGHTMARES     that managed to manifest itself upon an hour of shutting your eyes.     it is a challenge.    your body yearns for respite that your mind cannot give you.    too many thoughts are running through your mind.     none of them are remotely     PLEASANT.     you know you have gotten worse when your mother had to shake you awake,  when you started being unable to sleep during lunch but managed to nap during the entirety of the lecture.    you feel a little bad.    susie keeps trying her best to figure out what is wrong with you but you cannot     PROVIDE     her an answer that would quell every concern.

as such,  you have been mindlessly following her around after school.    you    WANT    to hangout with her but you cannot seem to shrug off the drowsiness that floods your system.     you feel afraid of closing your eyes as you not do not want to make it seem like her company is boring you.     at the same time,  you are    FRIGHTENED    by your dreams that only feel like it is becoming more and more real.   

yet as she allows you to lean on her arm,  you feel like you are being lulled into a serene place.    the familiar scent of her jacket alongside this natural    WARMTH    which she exudes should not feel so tender.    you do not notice the way how your eyes flit shut or how your breathing turns    CALM.    your heart has never felt more at peace.    you would be embarrassed about the way that she picks you up,  how you nestle your face toward to rest more along her chest,  how you clutch on to her and mumble softly     ———    your     VOICE    stable and clear    ———     about how you want her to stay if you were awake.   

curled in her arms,  your body recognizes something that is     FUNDAMENTALLY    dangerous.     you treasure her like she is life,  herself.    susie is solace.

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❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜ // from ralsei! <3 he loves castle town dearly, but also. oh my god. asdfghjkl

     *     YOUR  HANDS   FIRMLY   PLANT   ON   RALSEI'S  SHOULDERS.     slowly    &    carefully,  you advance forward,  pushing him back until he meets something soft.    your gaze is intense,  near unreadable as you    CORNER     him.    then,  you put some strength in your grasp,  forcing the hardworking darkner down on the nearest couch with an almost     STERN    expression on your face.    although you admire his constant desire to look out for castletown,  he is clearly stressing himself out by micromanaging everything.    sure,  the people that you have recruited around do try their best to    HELP    him,  but not everyone agrees on the same ideas.    it is why a construction is being done inside of lancer's room,  why queen has an    EXTENSION    of the city within her quarters,  and why the poor guy seems to be so troubled.

although lively,  you can only    THINK    of how grating it must be to deal with everyone like this at a constant without breaks.    alongside managing construction within your own abode with every individual that you all bring in within the other dark worlds.    folding your arms,  you    NARROW    your gaze as if assessing him.    perhaps you should have brought susie along with you today    ———     she and you would have been discussing    INTENSELY    by now about plans of getting ralsei to settle down.    but for now,  it is your task to look out for him.    tilting your head,  you decide to tread slowly.

"  when was the last time you    TOOK    some time for yourself  ?  "      you would assume never.    he always had this bad habit of considering everyone else before himself.     you worry for him.     he always seemed to be so deeply     IMMERSED    in other people's lives that he seems to forget to consider just how much fatigue he is piling up on himself.    "  your fur is practically frazzled now.  "

you scold,  tutting softly.    you remember being gently     REPRIMANDED     like this before by your brother.    you had trouble with self-indulgence before,  either constantly doing so or forgetting to even think for yourself that you had to be told off.    seems like you do have to repeat the same lessons to another even if you are    STILL    having trouble with following suit to it.    

"  sit down and breathe for a moment,  shut down your mind.    leave the work to    ME     for the time being.  "     a favour that you are willing to offer because it is ralsei.    maybe you could learn how to do cauldron cooking so you could    BAKE    him something in place.     perhaps a pie would    SUFFICE.   for now you get him a glass of water,  hoping that he finds a sense of rejuvenation from doing so much like everyone else from the light world whenever everything feels like too much.

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i forgot i posted this ??????

i need to go to bed bc its ab to be 4am but interact w this if u wanna talk ab dynamics hehe

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thinking about the beauty of this screencap

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i'm awake once again

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i need to go to bed bc its ab to be 4am but interact w this if u wanna talk ab dynamics hehe

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*You act like you're fine, but I can tell you're not. ((rare actual perceptive berdly moments, wahoo. I tried to copy/paste from the prompt, but paste machine broke))

     *     YOUR   HURT   HAS   ALWAYS  BEEN  YOURS     &    YOURS  ALONE.      your heart is filled with agony and as such,  you carry the weight of the world.     you hold secrets that you can never disclose to anyone.    angels know the    DISAPPOINTMENT    that will fill the world should you ever open up to anything that you are carrying.    you think that you can live like this forever,  trudging forward with bags beneath your eyes and your skin paler than before.    you could pass as a    CORPSE.     your mind is numb.     at this point,  you feel no different from one.     

you slept through your class again.     your head had sunk on to your desk,  your arms numb with your hair a mess.    still,  you do not feel any    LESS    tired.     this exhaustion is draining.     some day it will kill them.    yet as they assume absence,  there remains someone else in the room.    berdly had come back in.    whether its because he forgot something or was tasked to     ESCORT     you out of the room,  you do not want to draw attention to yourself.    sluggishly,  you rise from your seat and tuck it back to where it belongs.    your head is ducked as you attempt to quietly sneak past but his voice reverberates like an echo that shatters every wall that you have     METICULOUSLY     built. 

not that it was anything    IMPRESSIVE    anyway.    not when it was born from finnicky self-confidence.    berdly is a smart kid     ———      he is perceptive when he wants to be.    in spite of his purposeful ignorance,  he is one of the most     EMPATHETIC     person you know.    berdly is not the type to provide sudden sentimentalities without snark so you resolve that you must look worse for wear.    you in your washed, off-coloured pants and your haphazardly zipped jacket.     him,  in his well-kept button up    &    polished glasses.     you know that you are a     MESS.     you want to shrug him off but you know that this is coming from a place of genuine concern.    can you truly brush away something that he,  of all people,  no longer considers as     TRIVIAL     ?

[  ❤︎  it's none of your business      ,      h̶̜̼̲̪͎̹̊̍͆̌ͅè̷̗̖̍̌̃͘͝͝l̴̪̠̥̭̦͙̇͛̂̉̊p̵͇̲̩͆͐͆̏͂ͅ ̶̩̯͙̯̰̃̌̐m̴̢̛͎̙̠̪̖͆͘ẻ̷̡͕̙̭̺̼̩͂͛̎̈  ]

clearing your throat,  you turn your face     AWAY    from him.     "  i'm going home.  "

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REASONS TO CARRY SOMEONE. ( A PROMPT LIST! )

listen, i'm back home now, i'm thinking about things, and i saw the maxton hall gifset floating around and i was like. yk what. carrying people is elite content, and gdi y'all deserve elite content! as always, DO NOT ADD OR EDIT THIS LIST! and there's a lil spicy addition under the readmore, but i left it there just in case people prefer to have a not-so-spicy version.

[ SLUMBER ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver because they're so sound asleep that they won't easily wake up.

[ INTERCEPT ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver out of the room because they're angry and on the brink of engaging in a fight with someone.

[ ASSIST ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver away for medical attention because they've been injured and can't walk easily.

[ HELP ]: sender picks up and carries the badly wounded receiver as fast as possible to the nearest hospital or the nearest place to administer urgent first-aid.

[ ELATION ]: sender scoops up the receiver and carries them away after a mutual victory, or having just received very good news (or maybe they're both just very happy for some reason!)

[ HOME ]: sender picks up the receiver to carry them over the threshold of their new home.

[ AID ]: sender finds the receiver too weak to move, and scoops them up to carry them to get some help.

[ UP ]: sender finds the receiver and picks them up to carry them a distance after learning they're unable to get up.

[ BAREFOOT ]: the sender picks up the receiver and carries them inside because they're not wearing any shoes.

[ WEARY ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall asleep during a task, and picks them up to carry them to bed so that they can actually sleep properly for once.

[ TWIRL ]: sender catches the receiver in their arms and spins them in a neat twirl just because they want to.

[ HERO ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall from a height, and manages to intervene just in time, catching them before they get hurt.

[ FLASH ]: the sender and receiver are part of a photoshoot, and in order to finish the last of the photos, the sender scoops up the receiver in their arms for the final pose.

[ TRAIN ]: during a training session (for a fight or a performance, dealer's choice!) the sender ends up holding the receiver in their arms during their session together.

[ URGENCY ]: sender carries the receiver away from danger after the receiver is revealed to be unable to move, either due to panic or injury.

[ OUT ]: sender grabs the receiver and lifts them into their arms after noticing them swaying and beginning to lose consciousness.

[ SCREAM ]: sender spots the receiver in a terrified or considerably panicked state, and picks them up to carry them to a less terrifying place to calm down.

[ LAZY ]: sender concedes to receiver's requests for a piggy-back ride home because they don't want to walk anymore, and carries them the rest of the distance home.

[ CAREFUL ]: sender gently lifts the receiver out of their seat and carries them carefully to bed after noticing they fell asleep and not wanting to waken them.

[ HASTE ]: in urgent need of getting to safety as fast as possible, the sender scoops up the receiver and starts running because it's quicker and easier to just carry them than expect them to keep pace.

[ FURTHER ]: sender, during an increasingly passionate make-out session with the receiver, suddenly takes them in their arms and carries them towards the bedroom to continue their evening in private.

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kris cannot do "casual" you either let them die for you or the world ends.

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krusie conversation on the tl made me think of this video again that i crashed out to likr. 5hrs ago

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thinking of ........ kris' loneliness and how their general love for their family comes to a conflict when two of the adults fail them at certain aspects of their life even when they do not mean to

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      *    FATHER   ALVIN   IS   A  KIND  MAN,     virtuous in all of his ways and sticks true to his father's legacy.     although he insists that he does not have the same touch,  you know best that he only needs a kind    PUSH     to unveil the talents that lay beneath.     "  the juice tasted a little off today.  "     which is strange because the fruit punch that they offer almost always tastes the same.    it did not taste    BAD,    but it was a change that they did not anticipate.    

it is not unpleasant.    in fact, it feels like everything falling into place despite everything.    "  did someone else handle it for the day  ?     it's a lot more     REFRESHING    than usual.  "     as if freed from a limbo that it was been running on for the past several years.    "  or did you try a new technique  ?  "

❝ do you ... have something on your mind? ❞ a look of gentle concern crosses over the pastor's face as he looks at the other, boney hands gently shutting church doors behind him before clasping behind his back. not a particularly uncommon expression for alvin to wear, all things considered -- but in this moment, he just can't seem to help it.

❝ i do not mean to pry, ❞ he begins carefully, ❝ but if you have anything you need to get off your chest, please. i am always willing to lend an ear. ❞