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[loubrairyofthedead]

Skullclub when they’re held accountable for their own actions

Edit; any k9 moderatore. Or k9 houndself wilk be blocked. I do not want a response from this, i am sharing *my side*.

Addressing allegations made against me.

Hello, i am skullclub on discord. Recently, allegations have come out about me.

Recently, i was banned from k9 Cave for cocsa, lying about consent, romantisizing sh and a few more.

Lets start with lying about consent!

On call with mutt, i was asked in. i was comfortable with him drawing me without my mask. Never once mentioned my shirt. My mask ≠ my shirt.

I drew mutt without a shirt and was told i had sexual intent with that drawing. Keep in mind this art didnt have nipples. Nothing to be sexual, just a small art piece that i deemed cute- so i showed mutt. Soapy and mutt told me i had sexual intent with this, which from my mouth was not the case.

Now lets move onto romantisizing sh!

I am a ramcoa didsystem. I have been religiously abused, sexually abused, mentally abused, and physically abused.

My alter 2719 (konig) was the subject of sexual religious abuse. Konig was told that the only way he would be loved was to cut his partner(s) name into him. Konig was triggered by soapy status. "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God with my righteous right hand." Soapy understood konig had religious trauma yet still made it her status, thus leading konig to be triggered and snap back into his ram headspace and ask mutt if he coukd as in konigs words "carve your name into me sir". Konig was forced to call our abuser 'sir' when the full abuse would happen.

Lets go to the cocsa (child on child sabuse)

Again, i have sexual trauma. While this isn't an excuse for any abuse i put mutt and soapy through, it does help you see why it happened. Soapy and mutt had freewill to tell me to stop, i respected when soapy said they felt asexual and i didn't bring them into it.

My side.

I was with soapy first, for about 2 weeks, give or take. Wade / mutt came in around the 2.5week mark, saying he has feelings for konig despite never meeting him. I felt weirded out, but said fine because soapy truly seemed like she wanted the polyamourus relationship. Yes, soapy said it could just be her and him, but i am difficult and i get jealous easily so i said that id be with him too- also wanting wade/mutt to be happy since he expressed his joy and attraction for me.

Lets move to butcher / jester / puppy. For this i will be using butcher.

Butcher came into our life about 2 weeks ago as well. First, it was friendly, kind, nice, then it slowly turned sexual, then it became a full relationship with my alters; 001-P, soap, nikto, and keegan. Jester was constantly "needy," aka horny. Always saying "needy" when he was needy, even when there was a random alter. 71 is an angel, an angelic being forced into heavy christian beliefs by my abuser. 71 didn't like that Jester would kiss it because to 71, it's a sin.

Any screenshot or thing said to you from k9cave or soapy, butcher, or mutt is out of context. Not given any and just awful. No one ever asked for my side, so i am saying it here.

Edit;

If i said, "My mum didn't feed me," you'd like oh etf? Your mum is horrible. But if i say, "My mum didn't feed me cause i was asleep, so she put food away," you think, ohhh, okay.

Same with this. No context was ever given. My side was never asked. Screens shots without context are meant to look bad. Always.

[loubrairyofthedead]

Tw: syscourse ,

Endos DNI with this post.

Hot take; I shouldn’t have to be terrified to read / like posts. I should have to read the tags to make sure it’s not posted by an endo trying to infiltrate our spaces. I shouldn’t have to fear that the thing I’m gonna read is going to send me into a spiral because it’s gonna be some stupid ass shit about how “traumagenic systems are losers” or whatever the other stuff endos say about us is.

WE SHOULD NOT HAVE TO HAVE AN ALTER WHO SITS OVER MY SHOULDER EVERY TIME I OPEN THIS APP THAT CAN PULL ME AWAY INCASE SOMETHING GETS BAD.

THAT SHOULD NOT BE A THING I, A TRAUMATIZED SYSTEM, SHOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH WHEN LOOKING FOR COMFORT OR SILLY CONTENT TO CHEER ME UP REGARDING THE TRAUMA FORMED DISORDER THAT WILL FOREVER MAKE MY LIFE DIFFICULT.

“Endos don’t hurt anyone🥺🥺🥺”

yes they fucking do.

- Sharkbite

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THIS HAS ME ROLLING THATS SO FUNNYYYY You’re so fucking real for that

a quote from punks and about punks

"to be punk is to be kind"

endos are not kind. they are ableist and spread misinformation and actively harm real systems.

endos are not kind. they steal resources from real systems.

endos are not kind.

endos are not punk.

[loubrairyofthedead]

Bye brother thinks they can change the definition of endo and think i wont care

Your daily reminder that Endos wouldn’t get fakeclaimed if they were fucking real

Pls use context clues, you’re not ‘non traumagenic’ you’re either in denial or you’re fucking delusional please seek help

[loubrairyofthedead]

I have no intention of discovering whose true and whose not, its a tumblr post, if its about someone they know who they are, but if you ID as endo but have trauma you dont remember then you’re not an endo, thats literally the definition, this post isnt abt those people and careful throwing around that ‘ableist’ word then because if being endo is non disordered I can’t be ableist towards them as its aimed towards their fake systemhood and not any other disorders they may have.

Also calling me trying to rid my blog of endos and their supporters by voicing my own opinion where you dont HAVE to see ‘abuse’ and ‘nazi rhetoric’ proves to me that people like you dont deserve a platform.

Your daily reminder that Endos wouldn’t get fakeclaimed if they were fucking real

Pls use context clues, you’re not ‘non traumagenic’ you’re either in denial or you’re fucking delusional please seek help

[loubrairyofthedead]

Also I took one look at your page and gathered ur a fucking NIBBLER SOOT SUPPORTER 😟😟😟 please listen to my dni, Get the fuck off my page, i didnt break yours, don’t break mine

Your daily reminder that Endos wouldn’t get fakeclaimed if they were fucking real

Pls use context clues, you’re not ‘non traumagenic’ you’re either in denial or you’re fucking delusional please seek help

[loubrairyofthedead]

Someone has NOT understood that post.

If you do not remember your trauma you’re not an endo. You’re not non-traumagenic if you HAVE TRAUMA. Use your context clues.

I’m all for people who think they’re an endo remembering their trauma and becoming educated

But if they have trauma.. this post ISNT ABOUT THEM.

What part of me bashing non traumagenic systems makes you think im bashing people with trauma ?? Are you daft ?

Your daily reminder that Endos wouldn’t get fakeclaimed if they were fucking real

Pls use context clues, you’re not ‘non traumagenic’ you’re either in denial or you’re fucking delusional please seek help

[loubrairyofthedead]

When u politely ask endos to not interact... so they dm you telling u ur a horrible person. I just want systems to have a safe space away from endos if that's what they want/need.

[loubrairyofthedead]

“why does that character have to be queer?”

why not?

“why does that character have to be trans?”

why not?

“why does that character have to be a poc?”

why not?

[loubrairyofthedead]

endos piss me off. If you stayed in your little corner of the internet I literally wouldnt give a shit. roleplay all you want. but when you start stealing terms for Actual Systems then I do give a shit. just leave us alone and we will leave you alone.

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Endos, can you normalize NOT taking over our tags? Thanks.

Nobody would care what you do, if you just stayed away from real systems, and didn't cause problems. Things like this;

"Oh, that was my evil alter!"

"Syspunk is by endos for endos!"

Are problematic. Just shut up, please leave us alone. Syspunk is NOT made by you, and is NOT for you.

"You're invading our tags!" YOU DON'T HAVE THE DISORDER. YOU'RE INVADING OUR SPACE. YOU'RE FAKECLAIMING US, HARMING THE COMMUNITY AND GIVING IT A BAD REPUTATION, AND YET YOU WHINE ABOUT US "TAKING YOUR TAGS".

[loubrairyofthedead]

I already have her blocked and at least ten of my buddies have reported this ‘filter’ account, I come back here to check if shes replied simply because arguing with ableist assholes gives me a spring in my step 😈

Welcome to Sophie's Filter

What are you doing here? You really shouldn't be here. It's not safe here.

See, I've gotten a number of potentially-triggering asks from sysmeds and I thought long and hard about how to handle them? Do I report them for harassment? Yes. Definitely.

But I also want people to see the hate I've been getting. At the same time, just replying to them risks triggering followers who are good people and don't deserve to it.

So, I made this blog to respond to my hate asks... in the tags of the people who do deserve to see them on a blog that my followers aren't watching.

If you send me an ask telling me to slit my wrists...

I'm going to post it on this blog.

If you send me an ask saying you want me to be raped by an elephant and die (I don't even understand how that's possible)...

I'm posting it here...

And I know the rape and death thing is the biggest deal here... but whose boot am I licking?

How does this even make sense as an insult in the context of syscourse?

And if you send psychosis-triggering posts like the one-below, which won't affect me but might affect other people who read it...

(You've been warned. Because yeah, I'll be just merciful enough to give a warning before posting this one...)

Yup, posting that here too.

If you send me hate asks and suibait, I'm going to make sure that the only people who see them, the only people who you end up harming, are your own community.

I will make sure that your words aren't wasted. That they won't simply disappear into the void.

Let me make this clear...

If sysmeds send me hate...

I will make sure that you are only harming your friends and your community.

[loubrairyofthedead]

Not as much as a positive post like previous one but !!

To those who have read Sophie's (the tulpa/endo account) post, just remember:

They cannot hurt you, they will not hurt you, nobody is going out to get you. Your therapist is not going to be pro endo or try to backstab you for being anti endo. Your family and friends do love you. Syspunk and any other system safespace will not be taken over by endos.

I'm sure I'm forgetting other things they said, but the bottom line is: You are safe, no one is out to get you, the endos will not win, and most importantly: you are loved, and it's going to be okay <3

Try to get comfortable, maybe wrap yourself up in a blanket, and just take deep breaths. You are safe, I promise.

[loubrairyofthedead]

I feel like I shouldn't need to say this after everything going on in the emoji community.

DONT TELL PEOPLE TO COMMIT SUICIDE

it's not edgy. It's not cool. It's not even a good way to support another creator.

I don't care who's in the right or in the wrong in any situations it is never appropriate to tell this to someone, for any reason.

If you do this, don't EVER interact with me or any of my blogs.

[loubrairyofthedead]

Calling traumagenic system tumblr users a hate group is fucking crazy, and how is the plural label coined by ‘non disordered systems’ if you can’t be a non disordered system. I said it before, I’ll say it again, I don’t condone open hate and violence towards anyone, you’re preaching to the choir, here, Bud, But in turn, if you want people to leave you alone, if you claim to be a system without trauma, then you at least need to be nicer to those of us who DO have trauma, and aren’t harrassing you in your anons. Im sorry that’s happening, but triggering people with trauma on purpose because of a select few individuals makes me thing you’re ragebaiting, and targeting traumatised individuals for fun.

Welcome to Sophie's Filter

What are you doing here? You really shouldn't be here. It's not safe here.

See, I've gotten a number of potentially-triggering asks from sysmeds and I thought long and hard about how to handle them? Do I report them for harassment? Yes. Definitely.

But I also want people to see the hate I've been getting. At the same time, just replying to them risks triggering followers who are good people and don't deserve to it.

So, I made this blog to respond to my hate asks... in the tags of the people who do deserve to see them on a blog that my followers aren't watching.

If you send me an ask telling me to slit my wrists...

I'm going to post it on this blog.

If you send me an ask saying you want me to be raped by an elephant and die (I don't even understand how that's possible)...

I'm posting it here...

And I know the rape and death thing is the biggest deal here... but whose boot am I licking?

How does this even make sense as an insult in the context of syscourse?

And if you send psychosis-triggering posts like the one-below, which won't affect me but might affect other people who read it...

(You've been warned. Because yeah, I'll be just merciful enough to give a warning before posting this one...)

Yup, posting that here too.

If you send me hate asks and suibait, I'm going to make sure that the only people who see them, the only people who you end up harming, are your own community.

I will make sure that your words aren't wasted. That they won't simply disappear into the void.

Let me make this clear...

If sysmeds send me hate...

I will make sure that you are only harming your friends and your community.

[loubrairyofthedead]

I’m sorry this is happening to you, I don’t agree with your views on endos, But I’m not here to argue with you because NOBODY deserves that.

What IS fucked up though, is being endogenic and posting shit like this on traumagenic dominated tags with the intent of hurting traumagenic systems. Let me repeat that TRAUMAgenic systema.. that you are TARGETTING.. because of Online messages. Imagine all the systems you are harming who have never been hateful towards endos and their supporters, imagine the little alters who saw this post, the persecutors, the trauma holders, the young, newly discovered systems who will no longer consider the traumagenic community on tumblr safe because of people like you.

The INNOCENT PEOPLE you could have just caused to spiral

You aren’t innocent, you are pro endo, or maybe an endo yourself, that means you spread medical misinfo, and while you don’t deserve the hate, you can simply turn your anons/asks off, instead you have decided to actively target people with complex childhood trauma because you are petty, you have swept the traumagenic community with the same brush, you have assumed we all actively hate on you, which will make us all actively hate on you. Nothing about those messages was right, nothing about them was moral, they were all disgusting, but one thing was correct, you ARE scum, and on top of those messages being disgusting, the way you handled them was equally as such, you have targeted innocent people, You have triggered innocent people, you have broken a serious boundary that was there to keep endos and traumagens separate in the first place, you made hate you got from a few people everyones fault.

You are a disgraceful human being, not only do you need educated for the cause of systemhood and multiplicity as a whole, but you need help for doing this to random people online who don’t even fucking know you.

Stop using our tags, you’ve stolen , harmed , and lied enough, stop using our fucking tags

Welcome to Sophie's Filter

What are you doing here? You really shouldn't be here. It's not safe here.

See, I've gotten a number of potentially-triggering asks from sysmeds and I thought long and hard about how to handle them? Do I report them for harassment? Yes. Definitely.

But I also want people to see the hate I've been getting. At the same time, just replying to them risks triggering followers who are good people and don't deserve to it.

So, I made this blog to respond to my hate asks... in the tags of the people who do deserve to see them on a blog that my followers aren't watching.

If you send me an ask telling me to slit my wrists...

I'm going to post it on this blog.

If you send me an ask saying you want me to be raped by an elephant and die (I don't even understand how that's possible)...

I'm posting it here...

And I know the rape and death thing is the biggest deal here... but whose boot am I licking?

How does this even make sense as an insult in the context of syscourse?

And if you send psychosis-triggering posts like the one-below, which won't affect me but might affect other people who read it...

(You've been warned. Because yeah, I'll be just merciful enough to give a warning before posting this one...)

Yup, posting that here too.

If you send me hate asks and suibait, I'm going to make sure that the only people who see them, the only people who you end up harming, are your own community.

I will make sure that your words aren't wasted. That they won't simply disappear into the void.

Let me make this clear...

If sysmeds send me hate...

I will make sure that you are only harming your friends and your community.

[loubrairyofthedead]

I hate endos and endos supporters that don't care about boundaries. I hate them in general but we put the anti endo and endo DNI tag for one reason only. So they wouldn't interact. If someone puts in there bio/tags anti endo DNI we do one thing. Block them. It's much easier and takes few seconds then to write a comment and the get blocked. So dear endos and endos supporters: PLEASE DNI WITH PEOPLE THAT PUT THE ENDO DNI TAG SOMEWHERE. Thanks for listening

~luna𖤐 and lunette