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[lovefr3ak]

Sometimes I’m watching or reading romantic stuff and I get so happy and excited. Then I remember that anyone who even begins to like me will never be able to love me.

I’m just unlovable.

[lovefr3ak]

Yeah my writing is plummeting and also losing meaning. I’m kind of dealing with something and life is busy but I wish you all the best. <3

[lovefr3ak]

But in all honestly,

Obsession hurts like hell.

[lovefr3ak]

Since I’m a general vent account.

It’s hard to not expect maturity from people quite young when you were forced to grow quickly.

Especially when it comes to little brothers who you believe should know better.

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There’s a certain point in some people’s lives where affirmation from their mother becomes terrifying.

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I’ve gotten over them…

My romantic darling did it.

They actually got me to stop wanting them so badly by doing something so disgusting. I’d excuse murder, kidnapping, arson etc. But this?

No way.

Of course I’m still attached in such a way that I don’t think I’ll be the same in relationships again, but I no longer want them to be mine.

I still want to murder that one person in cold blood for flirting with them, but I feel almost free now? In a no purpose anymore kind of way.

[lovefr3ak]

Yes. Yes.

Talk to me darling. Let me know how you feel.

Place your trust in me. Bring me up.

Love me.

If you’ll leave, I’ll break you with me. <3

[lovefr3ak]

When they start letting you meet their friends!❤️

and now you get to be the judge of who gets how close.

[lovefr3ak]

Sorry for being inactive lately, in the period of time I’ve been gone I have:

Found a platonic darling that accepts me

Been taking care of my mental health

Been developing symptoms of bulimia

Taking note of who my romantic daring talks to

“Befriending” my platonic darling’s friends

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When you were dating and they left their Snap Map on >>>>>>>

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[lovefr3ak]

I’ve had some time to think and I’ve come to 2 different realisations.

My romantic darling is losing my affection.

My platonic one is gaining it.

I still want them to be all mine, but maybe they could have a roommate? <3

[lovefr3ak]

When you’re getting obsessed with someone platonically but are still obsessed with them…

I STILL LOVE YOU. I STILL LOVE YOU.

I STILL LOVE YOU. I STILL LOVE YOU.

I STILL LOVE YOU. I STILL LOVE YOU.

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I DREW MY OWN BLOOD TO THAT I LOVE YOU, MY DEAR,tell me…

Do you love me yet?

[lovefr3ak]

Ngl this would be epic ^^ give this person some recognition ✨

If...did comes where I drew you and your darling would...anyone be interested?

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If I died by suicide and left a note for you and that note was sent to you…

Would you feel bad?

Would you feel guilty?

Or

Would you be scared of what would’ve happened to you if I hadn’t died?

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You know, I said I was sooo happy that you made a new friend that’s queer too! I supported your friendship, that’s what I said…

I want you to make friends and be happy, but you left me. You had a chance to be free.

And. You. Ruined. It.

Nevertheless, you are perfect and I love you so it’s alright, but your freedom will be cut short.

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How does someone like you captivate me so much?

You said so yourself that you’re only human and can’t be perfect, but how can a mere human make me love them so much even after destroying my heart?

You must be an angel, not just any angel, but my angel.

Made specifically for me, me and no other <3