loverface8989-blog

[loverface8989-blog]

Vvvvcc

[loverface8989-blog]

Happy nights 🌸

[loverface8989-blog]

My brain is fucked

I wish I could just melt into fucking nothing and it’s not fare to gavin but I feel like I’m drowning and my mental is shot

[loverface8989-blog]

Plz just let me rest easy

BECAUSE IM OFFICALLY FUCKING NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR A SINGLE PERSON. ....... man this is different then ever before how I’m i this low

[loverface8989-blog]

God gavin I hope my crazy fucking didn’t ruin shit I’m sorry I’m fuckin mental I should have never became close. Ugh I hope to god you stay and see I really am a cool person I’m just struggling

[loverface8989-blog]

I just stop wasting these people’s times I’m to fucking worthless to make anyone happy

[loverface8989-blog]

I can’t let my mental health ruin another relationship fuck I suck

[loverface8989-blog]

I’m clean?

Yes I am but what a weird way for it happen thanks gavin for being the distraction I needed from that life but what do I do now I can’t get close to you because everyone who does leaves and I can’t do that to myself anymore but I like you what a sick game and what a risky situation I have found myself in let go of my heart it will be better for everyone

[loverface8989-blog]

Don’t even bother asking

LIFES GAY BUT WATCH ME MAKE IT MY BITCH:/

[loverface8989-blog]

June 8th

[loverface8989-blog]

Gavin

What an interesting soul I can’t wait to discover all of it💛

[loverface8989-blog]

Kinda hate who I am lol

[loverface8989-blog]

Well shit

Long time no fuckin talk

May 8th and my life is wtf

Me and Justin fell off really fast which blows because I think if we both wouldn’t have just gotten out of a relationship we would have been great but at the same time he did it in a fucked way so maybe just fuck him

I worked a full week and kicked ass at my new job so that’s going well. I’m for once 1000 percent just trying to make it for myself and so me and it’s nice.

Nate my long time best friend confessed his love for me after him and his lady broke off so that’s something and skyler still being weird not understanding that I just need to focus on me. As harsh as it sounds. I’ve never done it and I need to or I might just lose my shit.

I kick ass at work and then die. I don’t need a friends or guys. Not now at least and I think for once I’m okay with that. B

[loverface8989-blog]

Help

Soooo lostttty

[loverface8989-blog]

Once again there was someone better

[loverface8989-blog]

New starts

New job

New place let’s go 💛

[loverface8989-blog]

4/23/19

I didn’t realize how much I hold back tell the chest pain just won’t go away. My heart hurts and I feel like it’s never going to stop. I hope I look back and say I made it but I have a feeling I’ll be watching people put flowers down out my funeral