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RESTLESS

7th may 2018, 3:28am

pairing: choi mari x kim seokjin

genre: fluff, angst

warnings: mentions of anxiety

description: mari finds herself unable to sleep.

word count: 712 (give or take)

mari had been staring at her ceiling for what felt like hours. she refused to touch her phone which was currently hiding on her pillow, she didn’t want to know what ungodly hour of the morning it was as her body refused to relax finally sleep. the idol always became an insomniac before a comeback, it was just over a week until the group would be back to promoting. the pit of anxiety sat in her stomach, her thoughts running at a hundred miles an hour.

she huffed loudly as she turned over once again, bringing her covers up to her chin as she closed her eyes and tried to slow down her breathing. sometimes this worked, but this was not one of those nights. the group had a full day of practice ahead of them and mari knew that she wouldn’t handle it if she didn’t fall asleep soon.

mari didn’t vocalise her anxiety often to the boys, she didn’t want to burden them which was usually the root of most arguments between her and the boys. them usually begging her just to talk to them but she would rather suffer in silence than admit she was struggling. tears stung her eyes, frustrated she groaned feeling helpless at the situation.

eventually the girl got up and threw on one of yoongi’s hoodies that he had left in her room. she quietly made her way through their dorm into the kitchen. mari worked quickly, filling up the kettle to make herself some tea in hopes to settle her anxiety. she leaned over the counter, her head resting on her arms as the noise of the kettle boiling filled the quiet kitchen.

“mari?” a tired voice called out. she turned round to see seokjin standing looking confused, with his eyes barely open. “sorry did i wake you?” she whispered. jin shook his head no before coming closer into the kitchen. “what are you doing up? it’s like three am,” he murmured. mari sighed shrugging her shoulders, focusing on pouring the hot water rather than eldest members concerned look.

“couldn’t sleep,” she murmured, cradling the hot drink in her hands. jin frowned slightly, moving next to the girl, he wrapped his arm around her shoulder rubbing her forearm comfortingly. mari sighed, her head rested against his shoulder as they leaned against the countertop. “i’ll be fine, go back to bed,” she said as she moved away. jin shook his head, he grabbed her hand and wordlessly dragged her towards his shared room.

yoongi was sleeping soundly on his side of the room when they entered. mari didn’t say anything, she just set down her half drunk mug and slid under the duvet of jin’s bed. he took the spot next to her, mari was quick to wrap her arms around his waist and let her head rest against his chest. one of his hands ran through her hair soothingly as they lay in bed.

“do you want to talk about it?” the eldest member whispered. mari grimaced, the lack of light hiding it from jin. “i’ve.. had this pit in the bottom of my stomach for a few days,” she hummed before continuing - “i’m just feeling the pressure now, and i think it’s finally caught up,” jin listened intently, letting the girl talk slowly as she went through her thoughts. he knew how she felt, they all did but jin and mari had another level of understanding one another.

both didn’t feel as if they belonged in the group when they debuted, they found themselves finding comfort in each other’s presence. she often found herself sharing a bed with jin when her anxiety got bad. yoongi was very understanding of course and encouraged her to come into their room whenever she needed.

“you know i’ll let you sleep here whenever you want,” he whispered. mari hummed, finally feeling the exhaustion catch up to her. “thank you,” she murmured before letting her eyes flutter shut and let herself switch off. the soothing feeling of jin running his hand through her hair kept her mind from creating disastrous scenarios.

jin waited till mari was fast asleep in his arms before finally letting himself drift off. he kept his arms around her, as she nudged her head closer into the crook of his neck. the pair stayed wrapped in each others arms for the rest of the night, mari finally getting a good nights sleep.

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CONFESSIONS

november 12th 2022 10:48pm

pairing: millie kim x code kunst, millie kim x aomg

genre: angst, fluff

warnings: swearing, smoking

description: millie and sungwoo finally acknowledged how they feel

word count: 1.4k

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“HONESTLY ITS AS IF I HAVE ANOTHER DAD sometimes” millie laughed loudly nodding her head sideways towards kiseok who just wrapped his arm around her shoulders squeezing her tightly. the others stood around the high table laughed with them, however, sungwoo could only smile. he watched millie and kiseok interact, the constant bumping shoulders or the small inside jokes they had. he couldn’t help but feel a pit of jealousy in his stomach.

sungwoo knew that the pair were not remotely romantically interested in each other which annoyed him even more that he was so jealous. millie and kiseok were joint at the hip at these sort of events ever since he signed the girl to aomg. she was alone in korea when she joined the hiphop agency with her family still living in canada, so kiseok took it upon himself to take of the young artist and make sure she was living well.

the venue they were currently at was slowly becoming more busy as the party began, the atmosphere becoming busy and hectic whereas before it was calm. sunghwa stood across from millie and next to sungwoo, who had noticed his friend looking like a lovesick puppy when he watched millie talk. she was a quiet person usually but when she was around company that she felt comfortable with, she could talk for days, which was another thing that code kunst attracted millie to him.

sunghwa and wonjae knew all about the little workplace romance that was blooming between the producer and rapper. millie had drunkenly confessed to sunghwa of her attraction to cokun and wonjae had to sit and listen to his friend complain about how they will always be stuck as friends. as much as the pair wanted to interfere and make the oblivious friends realise that they share the same feelings they were both apprehensive of meddling.

millie took a small sip of her drink, her eyes meeting sungwoo’s. her heart felt as if it skipped a beat which she tried to ignore. he quickly averted his eyes and her heart dropped but she did well to hide the disappointment. “i’m gonna get another drink,” she muttered towards kiseok, he smiled rubbing her back slightly before she walked away. sungwoo’s gaze was now back on her, this time he was the disappointed one.

sungwoo stood watching her sadly causing wonjae to scoff and nudge him with his elbow. “you gotta talk to her hyung, before she gets with someone else,” he muttered. sungwoo sighed, at war with himself on what to do.

after squeezing her way through the crowd she made it to the busy bar. she waited, tapping her fingers against the table to the beat of the music. however her attention was soon on a familiar face standing a few feet away from her. junhoe was standing, scrolling through his phone, her stomach twisted the sight of her her ex-boyfriend. he was the last person she wanted to see tonight, especially since sungwoo was here.

unfortunately for millie, junhoe noticed her and smiled before walking over to meet her at the bar. “hey millie, didn’t know you’d be here,” he said awkwardly. millie laughed a little, “yeah i’m here with some of the guys,” she replied nodding towards where she was previously standing. junhoe looked over seeing some of the aomg guys at the table and how code kunst was watching the pair carefully. “ah i see,” he muttered. there was an awkward pause, the old couple hadn’t seen each other since the breakup which is what mille wanted but now here he was.

the pair spoke for a few more minutes with junhoe even offering to pay for her drink once she had finally ordered but millie declined. the conversation was strained and millie found herself laughing awkwardly most of the time trying to ignore the suffocating feeling. “i’m gonna get some air for a few minutes,” she told him not letting him reply as she left to quickly to hear it, but his attention quickly moved to someone else thankfully.

she made her way through the drunk crowd towards the front door - grabbing her jacket on the way out, in need of some fresh air and a cigarette. she wasn’t a big smoker but after she had a few drinks or felt overwhelmed with stress she would usually have a few. it was bad habit that she had been trying to kick since she was a teen, but to no avail yet.

outside the bar was quiet thankfully, a little group stood to one side of the door all smoking and laughing together. millie stood on the other side leaning against the brick wall while she began to rummage through her bag for her own pack. unfortunately she only found her lighter, “fuck,” she muttered, before checking her jacket pockets, she looked towards the door debating whether just to go back inside. as she continued to search of her pack, a hand appeared in front her offering a cigarette.

millie stopped a few seconds after registering what it was, her gaze lifted from the ground to meet sungwoo’s. “thanks,” she mumbled taking the stick out of his hand and placing it in between her lips. cokunst leaned on the wall next to the shorter girl, a silence settling between them. she quickly lit her cigarette and took a long draw, before exhaling the thick smoke. sungwoo stole a quick glance of millie who was staring at the nights sky admiring the stars she could see.

“i thought you were quitting,” he finally spoke, millie hummed at his words taking another puff. “i remember using the word trying,” she murmured, tapping off the ash. the silence came back.

“done ignoring me now i take it?” millie asked trying to sound as nonchalant as possible but there was still a hard edge to her voice. the words came out before she had realised what she had actually said, the rapper was usually quite good at hiding her jealousy or annoyance towards code kunst but the tension between them was becoming increasingly more apparent. millie was sick of feeling like a lovesick teenager around sungwoo, constantly overthinking every little detail of their relationship.

sungwoo cleared his throat awkwardly, “i.. i wasn’t ignoring you,” he stuttered out. millie rolled her eyes in annoyance, finally turning to look directly at him. “you have sungwoo, every time i looked at you you’d look away or if i came up to you in there you’d find an excuse to leave, what have i done?” millie rambled angrily suddenly she was thankful that the group who was next to them had gone back inside a few minutes earlier leaving the pair alone. “i’ve been trying all night to talk to you, but you’ve been with that ass for the past half hour,” sungwoo argued back and millie scoffed loudly.

of course that was why sungwoo had all of a sudden decided to leave her alone. it angered the girl more that sungwoo thought she wanted to be talking to junhoe for the full night. that he hadn’t made the effort with her. sungwoo had watched the two exes together at the bar, laughing and to him looked like millie talking excitedly while junhoe grasped her hand. they looked very happy to see each other and sungwoo was jealous to put it plainly. “so what? we we’re catching up. it’s what people do,” she exclaimed. sungwoo’s gaze hardened as the argument became more heated between the two.

“sorry for not wanting to interrupt you with someone you clearly still like,” he huffed pushing himself off the wall. millie scoffed in disbelief watching the taller guy with her eyebrows furrowed, muttering “you’ve got to be kidding me,” to herself. she stomped out the end on her cigarette with her boots, taking a moment to reply. without thinking her words left her mouth quickly. “i don’t fucking like him like that anymore we ended it… it’s you i fucking like,” suddenly it went very quiet between the pair. the only noise that could be heard was the loud music coming from the bar.

the tension could be cut by a knife as the pair stared into each others eyes, millie breathing heavily after her sudden confession. “please just say something,” she said just above a whisper, feeling like she could cry at any moment. instead of replying, sungwoo cupped her face and brought her in for a deep kiss. startled by the kiss, it took millie a second to register what was happening but soon relaxed. her eyes fluttered shut, her arms hanging around sungwoo’s neck.

sungwoo grasped her waist gently while they moved in sync. millie pulled away, smiling to herself as she tried to hide her face in his chest. “i like you too by the way,” he murmured softly.

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GAEUN’S LOVE LIFE

song mino x lee gaeun

september 2015 - august 2018

mino and gaeun quickly became close after a few months of knowing each other which led to their relationship. gaeun was head over heels for mino and we’re in a very supportive couple of each others success.

a year into their relationship dispatch captured photos of them on a date and exposed them to the public, but many fans supported the couple. the couple called it quits due the distance as was exo on tour.

(minnie) x lee gaeun

march 2019 - october 2019

minnie and gaeun began dating after meeting at music bank. gaeun was a guest mc while (g)i-dle was promoting. though their relationship only lasted a few months it was filled with cute dates and good memories.

they broke up due to (g)i-dle becoming more busy and gaeun being asked to do more schedules but they remain good friends.

christian yu (dpr ian) x lee gaeun

october 2021 - january 2022

gaeun and christian started off as a casual thing but soon developed feelings for each other after meeting a few times. it was a whirlwind romance for the pair, but gaeun wasn’t looking for anything serious.

she broke it off due to her freaking out about how serious they were becoming and how quickly it had developed. they’ve stayed friends however, and are seen together hanging out with their friends.

min yoongi (suga) x lee gaeun

april 2023 -

gaeun and yoongi met when exo and bts were promoting at the same time years back, they quickly became close friends but lost contact once both groups had began to gain more popularity.

they reconnected recently at a mutual friends party and have been almost inseparable since. they’ve kept their relationship secret to the public and have only told their close friends and family.

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profile !

birth name . nadine zhou

stage name . nadine

position . lead vocals, lead dancer, visual

unit . vocal unit

representative emoji . 🦁

birthday . august 17th 1998

age . 25 years old

star sign . leo

sexuality . straight

mbti . isfp

hometown . san francisco, usa

nationality . chinese-american

height . 5 foot 4, 162 cm

languages . korean, mandarin, english

claims !

visual . he.hui.xiang (instagram)

vocal . ningning (aespa)

rap . yeeun (clc)

dance . kim lip (loona)

family !

mother . maggie zhou

trivia !

she moved to korea when she was 13 years old and became a trainee in pledis around the same time as seokmin

her mum still lives in the states with nadine’s step dad

she is an only child

she lives with mingyu and wonwoo and is the messiest roommate out of the three

she loves sports and was on the captain of the her schools soccer team

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nadine zhou profile, hiphop unit, performance unit, vocal unit, friendships, love life

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discography coming soon

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MET GALA 2023

the carpet

inspired by the chanel brides, mari went for an elegant bridal look. dressed in vivienne westwood couture and accessorising by using the iconic necklace and statement earrings.

she chose jimmy choo for her shoes as it matched well with the overall vibe and look of the dress.

her makeup and hair was kept simple to enhance the beauty of the dress.

the after party

for her after party look mari changed into the trousers and blazer from the same collection, keeping with the bridal theme.

she took hair down now and changed the earrings to the smaller vivienne westwood ones to keep the look more laidback and simple.

mari wanted to be homage to vivienne and her work despite the theme being about karl lagerfeld.

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ARTICLE: mari of bts has been confirmed by multiple sources to be an attendee at the annual met gala. the bts singer will be the first of her group to attend the event with this years theme being ‘karl lagerfeld: a line of beauty’. The event takes place on the first monday in may and attracts the top designers and stars from all over the world.

this will be the idol’s first met gala appearance, and is one of the few korean celebs to be invited. as well as mari, blackpink member jennie will also be attending the event. her band mate jimin is also rumoured to be appearing but is yet to confirm.

we are very excited to see what the star will be wearing on the night!

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GAEUN’S FRIENDSHIPS

krystal jung x lee gaeun

gaeun and krystal are the epitome of golden retriever and black cat friendship when they’re together. they became close during their trainee years and have been best friends ever since. they go to events together and fans constantly spot them on dinner dates whenever they are both free.

red velvet x lee gaeun

since they were meant to debut together, gaeun and the red velvet girls are very close despite being in different groups. gaeun is red velvets biggest supporter and always posts about them on her instagram. whenever they are at the same schedule gaeun will happily ignore exo for a little bit to spend time with her girls.

park jimin x lee gaeun

bts and exo have been close since they have been active together since bts debuted. they were always at the same music shows and so gaeun finally plucked up the courage to talk to them. her jimin found themselves becoming very close and are each others secret best friends in the industry. fans love the small interactions they get every now and then. jimin is the person gaeun goes to for any sort of advice or if she just needs a good pep talk.

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