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little sad ending i’m sorry 😭😭

Alora's eyes widened as she stared at the pregnancy test, her heart racing with fear and excitement as she and CJ have been trying for a while spending thousands of dollars on IVF. She turned to CJ, who was sitting on the couch beside her, looking equally nervous.

"CJ, it says 'pregnant'!" Alora yelled, waving the test in the air.

CJ’s facial expression quickly changed to a smile as she yelled. "Oh my god, we're going to be moms!"

They both quickly get up to hug one another as tears start to fall.

As time went past Cj and Alora became more aware that this was happening. They both started attending parenting classes, reading parenting books, and decorating the nursery for the little one. As Alora's pregnancy advanced CJ started to tend to her even more than before even if that meant driving an hour away just to buy something she was craving or giving her massages doing everything she could could to make the pregnancy experience more pleasant.She would do anything for alora. But they also couldn’t shake the nerves that they weren’t fully prepared for this.

Late at night, while they were lying in bed thoughts roaming both of their heads, CJ turned to Alora with a worried expression. "I’m scared," she whispered. "I'm not sure I'm ready."

Alora wrapped her arms around CJ, holding her close. "I'm scared too but we’ll get through this," she said softly.

As CJ laid there taking in what Alora said, CJ knew that Alora was right. They would get through this.

Nine months later, Alora gave birth to a beautiful baby girl named Gracelyn. As they held her in their arms for the first time, they both felt an overwhelming sense of happiness not worrying about anything else going on.

The first few weeks with Gracelyn were a blur of diaper changes, feeding sessions, and sleepless nights. CJ and Alora were exhausted, but they wouldn't have traded it for anything.

They took turns changing diapers, rocking Gracelyn to sleep, and singing songs to her. They marveled at the tiny fingers and toes, the soft curls on her head, and the way she snuggled into their chests.

One morning, while Alora was getting dressed, Gracelyn let out a loud cry from her crib. CJ rushed over to hold her, bouncing up and down while reciting nursery rhymes. Gracelyn's cries slowly subsided, replaced by small giggles.

When Alora returned, she found CJ covered in spit-up and rocking gracelyn to sleep after her feeding. "You’re good at this," she said, chuckling.

CJ grinned, wiping her forehead with a dirty cloth. "I try, I feel like I need an award honestly."

As time went on, CJ and Alora's parenting became more defined picking up on more of Gracelyn’s traits. They discovered Gracelyn loved music, hated being swaddled, and could fall asleep anywhere, at any time. They laughed at her silly antics, like kicking her legs wildly during tummy time, and cried when she reached out to touch their faces.

At night, after the baby was asleep, they'd sit on the couch, cuddling , and talk about their day. "Did you see how she smiled today?" CJ would ask, eyes shining .

"Yeah, and did you see how cute she was when she curled up in your shoulder?" Alora would reply, smiling.

One day during tummy time, with Gracelyn, CJ suddenly stopped and looked at her with excitement. "ALORA! Did you hear that? She said 'Mama'!"

Alora's head snapped up, a skeptical expression on her face. "Nahhhhh, I'm sure it was 'Mommy'," she said, grinning.

CJ's eyes widened. "You're losing your mind! She 100% said 'Mama'!"

The two began to bicker playfully, each one trying to convince the other of their interpretation. Gracelyn, sensing something happening babbled along, as if she could fully understand what they were saying.

As they continued to pester one another, their voices grew louder and more exaggerated. CJ threw her hands up in the air. Look let’s do a contest If she says 'Mama' again, I win!"

Alora chuckled and nodded. "Bet!"

For the next hour, they took turns calling out words, trying to get Gracelyn to repeat them. "Mommy! Mama! Mama! Mommy!" Gracelyn giggled and chattered, enjoying wherever her parents were doing.

Just as CJ and Alora were getting into the game, they heard the sound of footsteps coming from upstairs. Cj twin sister, Luce, walked into the room, a big smile on her face.

"What are you both doing?" she asked, eyeing the ridiculous argument between the two.

CJ and Alora stopped mid-sentence, looking surprised . "Uh, just a little debate about Gracelyn's first word," CJ said, trying to save face.

Luce burst out laughing. "You both are insane you know that?"

Gracelyn, sensing the commotion, started babbling excitedly, and to everyone's surprise, she said "Luce!"

The room fell silent, except for Luce's uncontrollable laughter. CJ and Alora exchanged a look and rolled their eyes.

"Luce, that's her second word doesn’t even count for real," CJ said, trying to hide a grin.

Alora added, "Yeah, we're still waiting for her to say 'Mommy' correctly."

Luce wiped tears from her eyes, still dying laughing. "Okay, okay, I won't rub it in your faces... yet."

Time went by, and before they knew it, Gracelyn was starting kindergarten. As they dressed her in her new backpack and lunchbox, they couldn't help but feel a little sad.

"Are you sure she's ready for this?" Alora asked, sniffing back a tear as they strapped on her new sneakers.

CJ wrapped her arms around Alora, giving her a reassuring hug. "We’re all ready”

With Gracelyn safely buckled into her car seat, they pulled up to the entrance of her school. They watched her take her first steps into the classroom.

The three of them stood outside the classroom door, finally letting go. "bye bye" Gracelyn called out, waving goodbye.

CJ and Alora's faces crumpled, and they both dissolved into tears. They hugged each other tightly, sobbing as they watched their little girl get escorted by the teacher into class.

"You wanna know something?" CJ whispered, her voice shaking.

"What?" Alora replied, her voice trembling.

"I wasn't ready at all," CJ whispered, her voice breaking.

Alora's eyes welled up with tears as well. "Me neither," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.

Together, they stood there, overcome with emotion, as they watched their daughter grow up. The realization hit them hard: their baby was gone, and they were left with only memories and tears.

As the minutes went by, they remained still, lost in their sadness. But eventually, they managed to compose themselves, wiping away their tears and forcing smiles onto their faces.

"It gonna be okay," Alora said, trying to reassure herself as much as CJ.

just dropping this from last night 😇😇

ok wait this one’s cuteeee

someone write me and alora as moms again

LUCE I SWEEAAAAARRRR

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