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The best advice i can give any creator is do it before you're good at it, do it BEFORE you're happy, do it while you suck, do it while you're doubting yourself and get stuck the fuck in, because waiting around to be "good enough" is a motherfucking trap of the highest degree. You'll get good along the way and better after ever project is complete. Remember, this is the greatest thing you've ever created, and then you'll do something else. You're only ever gonna get better, but not if you stand still.

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New video is up! Doze off or just hang out or clean or whatever while I speak softly about anything and everything in my head

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*becomes a vtuber and does nothing but play solitaire on stream for 5 hours straight without winning a single game*

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New video is out! It's me bitching about the rose of versailles movie lmao

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love when stories inflict unspeakable horrors onto a person for no real reason. its not karma. its not payback. its not a lesson. its not your fault. no ones even out to get you in particular. youre not the chosen one or special or anything. it just sorta happened and you were there. sorry man

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I forgor to post lmao but

YURI BE UPON YE

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New video up! Talking about the freaky vampire movie!

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New video is UP its just me going over the stuff I loved/hated last year :))

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Something I found on Twitter that really puts things in perspective as a creator.

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Choose your date! 💖

Was inspired by dating sim “Swooning Over Stans”! This game cured my anxiety fr!

And for the bonus! Ford in the swimming pool! 💖

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Lore for the Halloween special that Idk if I'll ever be able to talk about on stream or in videos:

The vampire me at the end is an alt version of me, her lore is v diff from the main lore.

The random guy in the video is basically just my generic boy that I draw just with spiky sideburns.

I named him Kyle bc I kept hearing Kyle in cartmans voice bouncing in my head when I was drawing him.

Vampire!Luci started out normal, she was a normal uni student who was invited to the club by her roommate, and decided to go bc she had never been there before.

Turns out her roommate was a vampire, and was part of a group of vampires who ran the club.

They drugged her and told her she was "drunk" and brought her back to an abandoned building to feed off of her and turn her.

She was knocked out after getting bitten and woke up in a car with them.

She had no idea she had been turned and thought they were going to finish her off, and got into a scuffle trying to escape the car.

The driver swerved the car bc of the commotion, resulting in her head being lobbed off by a telephone pole a la hereditary.

She then died, however because she had been turned she wasn't fully dead her soul was stuck in an inbetween place and her memories prior to the night she died were completely wiped.

Even then the night she died is repressed she can't remember it unless something triggers her to remember it.

Her soul returned to her grave after all the memories were wiped so approximately a week after the funeral, she attached herself to the first person who went to visit her grave.

Enter Kyle lmao

Kyle was a childhood friend of hers, they were very close and he was secretly in love with her.

Kyle moved far away to go to a different school from her in the hopes that with the distance he could grow into someone who she could fall for.

He ended up getting a well paying job almost right off the bat and was planning to reach out when his family called to tell him she had died.

He was unable to make it to the funeral bc of the distance but he was able to convince his job to let him work remote and rushed to move back to their hometown at least to comfort her mother as her mother had no one else to rely on.

He moved into the first apartment he could in the city and almost as soon as he moved in her visited her grave.

Meets her ghost and decides he'll bring her back to life bc he can't deal with the grief.

Problem is that she doesn't remember him or anyone or anything.

She's living entirely off vampiric instinct.

She sees photos of herself in his apartment and assumes it's a doppelganger, and does not recognize old pictures of herself as "her".

He realizes too late what she is and that she isn't "her", that she's not the girl he was in love with she just looks, sounds, and acts like her.

A monster in the shape of the woman he loved but missing the heart that he wanted in the first place.

Things spiral from there, as Kyle goes through the horrors, both emotionally and physically unable to get rid of what's essentially a ghost living in his apartment with him.

Meanwhile she just wants to figure out what this nagging feeling is that she's forgetting something important.

He let's her feed off him in the beginning because he's terrified of her going out and people recognizing her, but it gets to be too much and he doesn't have enough blood.

He's forced to either steal blood for her, bring people back for her to feed off of, or kill people for her to feed if he doesn't want her going out.

Naturally she gets restless and wants out, she's bored and hungry and just wants to try to figure out why her ghost was stuck there.

She has no intention of killing him as she feels she owes him for bringing her back.

She will not regain any of her memories with him back.

She will never fall in love with him.

He is stuck in his own personal hell that he made to try to escape from the original pain he had

He struggles with being overjoyed that she's there but also the knowledge that it's not "her".

When she shows "affection" its not genuine, it's either for her to get something she wants, or to manipulate him into staying bc she knows she isn't strong enough to be alone yet.

He accepts all that she gives him and tries to tell himself it's because she's remembering herself, it's because deep inside she's still in there. That if he tries hard enough she'll remember and that the real "her" will be back.

She not in there, and she's never coming back.

He beats himself up for wanting to get rid of her and kill her again but he also just can't bring himself to do it, and he knows he never will, that whether he likes it or not he's stuck with her until either he dies, gets turned, or she eats him.

Anyway that's all the ideas for the lore I had lmao. I'm planning to tell the story over the course of various halloween specials. This is like an alternate timeline of events. It's not canon to any of my main stuff or self it's just like a mini movie sidequest lmao.

Anyways thanks for reading all this mess it was just me throwing up all the stuff knocking in my head :)) lololol

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"They both pretended to other folks that neither of them was that important because they wanted to feel important, but they made each other feel important which made them important to each other"

So. How we feeling

cr for the video: @spacepancakes24

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FINALLY FINISHED THIS VIDEO IVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR THE PAST COUPLE MONTHS

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Valuable tip. Don't cater to your followers. You're not trapped in here with them, they are trapped in here with you.

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ways how to support small streamers:

reblog live notifications so more people see it!!!

even if you're not watching, leave the stream open to lurk :O

tell your friends about your favorite small streamers ^-^

give me 10000€

create clips and share them in chat :3

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