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one like and i draw drdi ranboo getting high on Weed

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Technoblade grief is hitting again and I just wanna talk about it a bit somewhere so if you don’t wanna read about it, please scroll away. I’m not really writing this with the intention of anyone to read it anyways but I want it to be out there somewhere and just get it out.

I guess I just came to the realization that all this time I only mostly became ok with it because subconsciously it’s like I’m waiting for him and I am fine with waiting but it really just hit me to know that no matter what, he’s never coming back.

There are so many possibilities and so many variables and there’s so many chances for all the little things— like there’s a certain probability that my towel will fall to the floor when I close the door or there’s a certain probability that I’ll get a Rubik’s cube right if I keep twisting it around eventually or even a probability that I’ll get hit by lightning. The world is full of so many probabilities even if they are minuscule but never once in all of those probabilities is there a chance for him to be back even just once.

I always thought about how large infinity is but I thought about it in the sense of immortality or how big something would be— now I am thinking about it in the sense that I could wait and live for eternity and he still would never exist again. I could freeze myself and be thawed out in hundreds or thousands of years in the future and still he will be gone.

In my head things that were everlasting were always fictional. I associated it with things like vampires or hypotheticals like a hotel with infinite rooms that could never exist because infinity like that could never be real. It’s just hard to comprehend that death is the one thing that is everlasting and Technoblade is and will forever be dead. It still just doesn’t feel real.

It doesn’t matter what I do or how much I accomplish or change or what happens in the world, nothing will ever bring him back. I’m used to nothing really being permanent and it’s just taking a lot of time to swallow and come to terms with just how permanent death is.

I don’t know if I’ll ever fully process it.

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oh god

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boy stop chewing so goddamn loud they're gonna hear you

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You ever look at the rest of tumblr and go "they dont know about how tommyinnit (who at the time said he was straight) tricked his friend (who is a gay man) into marrying him and when his friend/husband found out (months later when he was joking about having a Vegas wedding with another friend and then Realised) he tried to get a divorce but tommy said no even though he has had a girlfriend the entire time and that then he wrote wattpad rpf fanfic about him and his friend/husband kissing (specifically with tongue) and his girlfriend dying and all the wrongs of the world being fixed. Now the divorce may be going to court and the friend/husband wants to try and stream the whole court case. Not only that but Tommy subsequently recorded an I'm just Ken parody about this marriage and most recently while Tommy was on a trip around America, back in England, his friend/husband started streaming more with Tommy's girlfriend (while in the midst of a 24/7 subathon stream he is currently over 45 days into) and bought her a new iphone so Tommy joked that he was being cucked. And now he's just come out as bicurious after his friend/husband tried to get him to say the f-slur on stream and his response was that he could only say a 1/5th of it before calling his husband a " 'ggott"." And this is all (probably) real. This is a real thing that happened.

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May have girlbossed a little too close to the sun but yay! Backgrounds!

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So the thing about c!Technoblade (I say, as if there is only one thing) but one thing about him that always sticks with me is the choice of his codename in the Syndicate.

Because at first glance, Protesilaus was the first bloodthirsty stab-happy warrior off the boat in the Trojan War, eager for battle, unheeding of death, which is one way to view c!Techno's character (how many times did characters view him as a resource or a weapon before or even after Doomsday, where he was literally screaming, "I'M A PERSON!").

And at second glance, he’s a willing martyr, who knew about the prophecy that the first man to land at Troy would be the first to die, and would rather it was him than his friends, which is another way to view him, one that seems closer to who he actually is ("leave Phil alone, just take me!", anyone?).

But c!Technoblade chose his name without ever abandoning his catchphrase of "Technoblade never dies", which is what sticks with me -- because he didn't just state that he'd die for his friends and leave it at that. He promised to protect them and to live for them.

Protesilaus is destined to be the first of his comrades to die by immovable fate, but also Technoblade never dies, which means that none of his comrades will, either.

He made it a promise. "I won’t die, therefore the gods will have no choice but to let all my friends live."

By something as simple as choosing a name, c!Technoblade (who for months was wary of identifying who his friends even were, especially after what the Butcher Army did to Philza, whose only crime was being his friend) told everyone in the Syndicate that if harm came to them, it would be because he was already dead, and that he never intended to let either of those things happen.

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I said this before but yes!!!!!! c!Tommy is just. Peak main character material. You can do whatever you want to the little guy, and it's amazing.

I don't think fanfics or fandoms will ever get the absolute insanity that was sbi ever again like you could put tommyinnit in any situation with his little found family and it would work

Like you want superhero/supervillain fics? You got em

You want space fics? Right over here

Mermaid fics? Yep

Zombie apocalypse? Don't even have to ask twice

You could have a random thought of the wildest au and he would fit right in and I dont believe anything will ever come close to what that was

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Bad is talking about DSMP eggpire lore and the original DSMP ending and OH MY GOD

Basically to sum it up, the characters within the DSMP were pulled in from different places to be DreamXD's "play things"

The DSMP universe was supposed to be in control of DreamXD. Everytime some big catastrophic event would happen, he would reset the cycle.

The original ending would've had everyone go to the end and try to kill DreamXD but before they could, he would've reset the cycle.

The egg was a product of that never ending cycle, trapped inside of it getting re-buried and having to get rediscovered every time.

This is not helping the dsmp relapse...

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while going through my photos I realized I never posted this so um have benchtrio stack

I don’t think I will ever escape dsmp (defeated)

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So I just saw a post by a random personal blog that said “don’t follow me if we never even had a conversation before” and?????? Not to be rude but literally what the fuck??????????

I’ve had people (non-pornbots) try to strike conversation out of nowhere in my DMs recently, and now I’m wondering if they were doing that because they wanted to follow me and thought they needed to interact first. I feel compelled to say, just in case, that it’s totally okay to follow this blog (or my side blog, for that matter) even if we’ve never talked before.

Also, I’m legit confused. Is this how follow culture works right now? It was worded like it’s common sense but is that really a thing?

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one day I’ll finally write that ridiculously elaborate fanfiction that I’ve been carefully constructing in my daydreams for months and then you’ll be sorry. you’ll all be sorry.

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hello?

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Honestly bro we don’t talk about how Wilbur thought doomsday was his explosion enough… like bro came back like “damn I really did a number on this place huh 😎” and then no one corrected him because like what would you say in that situation? “Oh hey sorry bro no ur massively important suicide bombing that you’ve defined your entire sense of self around was like fixed on a week. That hole was some other bitches sorry” literally c!tubbo deserves an award for not pushing him into the hole

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bedrock bros; YOU NEVER HAD A BROTHER. YOU HAD A PROTECTOR THAT NEVER GAVE YOU THE STARS. BUT HE LOVES YOU, MAYBE THAT WILL BE ENOUGH. (you still die anyways)

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The story itself and the execution could get a little scuffed, but it was a very enjoyable experience all throughout. I'm saying this as someone who primarily watched bedrockboys' povs.

I wished that they got to finish what they started. Ranboo never fully fleshed out his story line. The Syndicate never really got more than like two or three 4/4 lore streams. Technoblade never got to do the cyberknife plot. And a lot more that I haven't mentioned, and a lot more that I don't even know about.

I wished that everything was a lot more interconnected. The eggpire, I don't think, never really got too much screen time from the big streamers. Las Nevadas and the Syndicate members never really interacted. Dream kinda disappeared for a while after his prison break. Especially near the end, it seemed like everyone was off doing their own thing, not really interacting outside their little groups.

And I get why; I would never take this against the DSMP. People have other time commitments, spending less time gaming, Techno with his cancer.

The DSMP wasn't perfect, but it was a hell of an experience. I can't really feel anything but love towards the three or so years it's been alive.