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"The Pilots"

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unfortunately my ex boyfriend is driving 3 hours to my house tomorrow to drop off my stuff i left at his place. and he wants to "talk" too. dskfja;sldjfalksdjf.

it's giving me anxiety. i feel like i'm going to get sucked back into shit with him. i'm stuck between moving tf on with my life but also kinda hoping he shows up and apologizes and misses me. but also.... when i'm away from him i feel totally fine. i really don't need him. but it would be nice if he acted right :/

i wish i knew what i wanted. i guess i'll see how tomorrow goes. i'm scared!!!!!!

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i went out to the bar with all of my coworkers after work last night and had so much fun as i was leaving, this guy i work with, we'll call him T, was walking me out to my car, and my manager was pretty drunk and said that we looked good together. i think he was kidding and it was pretty funny but i agree with him lol so my coworker T walked me to my car and gave me a big hug and asked me on a date!!!! the thing is, T is soo cute. he's hot even. but he is like, 21 years old??? i'm 26. i just feel like he's way too young for me. i've been trying to manifest an older man but for some reason the universe keeps sending me these young boys!!! what the hell. i'm gonna go on the date. i told him we should get tacos or margaritas. i'm freshly single so like, fuck it? i deserve free dinner with a hot young guy i guesssssss

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You still have onlyfans?

not anymore </3 i quit sw

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Journey into the Surreal: Virgil Finlay’s Illustration for ‘Famous Fantastic Mysteries’, 1943

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You still have time to change!

(Words sewn into a leaf)

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Leonard Tsuguharu Foujita - The Dream (ca. 1947)

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my ex wants to meet up and talk next weekend and i'm not even sure what to say to him. i just want my stuff back.

even tho i miss him and i'm lonely, i have no desire to be with him at this point.

the way things ended left such a bad taste in my mouth. and it'd be hard for us to come back from that.

he wants to be "friends" but that just makes me think about all of the girls he told me he was "just friends" with and it makes me sick to my stomach tbh. his ex/friend? started watching my ig stories (she doesn't follow me) right after we split, and he started liking her ig posts again.

it's all so predictable.

he texted me a week ago saying he missed me and wished i was with him (he was drunk)

i do miss him and the times we had. but ignorance is bliss and i wish i never saw that side of him. i can't help but see him as a thirsty, immature boy now. i feel like he's playing games with me and i can't stand it.

in a perfect world, he would show up at my house apologizing profusely with a bouquet of flowers and try to make things right. but that's just not going to happen so i need to move on. if only he cared like, just a littleee bit. lol.

luckily i've been grieving our relationship since before it ended, and us being long-distance makes detaching even easier.

my feelings are fucking hurt, and i want this to all be over so i can move the fuck on with my life.

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here are some flower people

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we got a bead curtain today

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It’s hard dealing with that kind of thing after a relationship, but you gotta look out for yourself and remember why you did it. I kept contact with one of my exes for wayyyy too long and it destroyed me emotionally for literal years, but once I went no contact I finally started to heal. Not saying you need to do that because everyone processes things differently, but just look after and prioritize yourself first <3

:'( idk what to do. i appreciate this message <3

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Weiner dog wearing armor at the Michigan Renaissance Festival (2002)

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a cold one with the boys

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Emilia W. Olsen, “Free Palestine” (2023)