lucysdragneel

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anyways I'm gonna use this acc to look for sims 4 cc heheh

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wow reading back on this is incredible, I started this blog when I was freshly 15 and the teenage angst was insaneee.

at 21, I feel lots more confident in myself, and although I still have trouble regulating my emotions, I am a lot better at it. it's going to be a continuous exercise, but I am relieved to know I changed much more than I thought.

I am happy at where I am in my life now and I hope when I look back on this when I remember it, I am happy

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am i just being dramatic?

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man i don’t know if coming back was a good idea

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cries so hard lol

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i stumble upon her every now and then but for the most part, i wonder what would happen if we would reconnect? and she’s reached out multiple times i just rejected those occasions. i think i’m better off. something in my gut says that. sometimes i do wish things were different, i would still have her, but some things don’t work out and that’s okay. i think the friendship just grew really unhappy for the both of us towards the end and for us to revive it now? i can’t see it happening. i feel like i’d revert back into my old shell, filled of spider webs and dust, to let her talk me down. and right now, i’m growing and i can’t let her cause my progress plateau. i’m somewhat happy with where i am and i don’t want to disrupt my journey

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also reading back on this blog is crazy! i wish i recorded my development here but i’ve learned so much in the past two years and i truly love myself now. it’s crazy to think that i didn’t think i could exist without my ex best friend three or four years ago and now i’m doing so much better. i’m so happy i made that decision for me; we were both changing, anyways

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using this as my personal diary but god i am so in love :( i don’t know if it’s just. im in love with the feeling? or the idea of him? or him for realsies? agh its so complicated but i wish i wasn’t so affection starved or clingy that i was confident enough he feels the same way you know?

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hi if anyone sees this i’m really happy and i hope you are too

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i wish my best friend was more considerate of my feelings .

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me: knows comparing myself to others is bad and will only damage & hurt myself

also, me: does it anyways

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feeling unloved and unwanted lol

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in grade 11 i was on the phone w this boy i wanted and i owed him a favour or something so i was like “it can be anything you want” and he was like “anything?” and im like ya thats what i fuckin said and he goes “can you explain to me how a fridge works? like how does it stay cold”

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im crying

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“Is he flirting or being nice” moodboard

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Damn, save some for the rest of us

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