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Please pray for the repose of the soul of my grandma. She passed away today.

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Could I please get some prayers for my fiancé's mom. She is having tests tomorrow to see if her cancer has spread.

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drake?

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Just shut up and watch

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I haven’t seen a single 420 joke at all this month we’re really not ok huh

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My dad just told us his last biopsy came back as melanoma. Please, pray for us.

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TODAY IT’S A GREAT DAY BECAUSE IT’S MARCH 15th THE DAY WHEN DENZEL CROCKER LOST HIS HAPPINESS AND IT’S ALSO ANNOY SQUIDWARD DAY

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being interested in serial killers and their motives and what drove them to kill but understanding that they were awful people who did awful things and not normalizing/romanticizing them

romanticizing/being attracted to/admiring/shipping serial killers

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Can you please pray for my mom and my family. She got the call that there is a heart available. If all goes well she should be going into surgery at 3am

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Can you please pray for my 92 year old grandma. She’s in a really bad hospital in another state and is having trouble breathing. It’s not looking good.

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I just need to get my thoughts out

It’s gonna be a long post...

So, almost two years ago, my parents and I moved from the state that we lived in for, pretty much our whole lives, to a new state. The reason was, to get my mom better care and to be closer to the hospital where she will have her heart transplant. Leaving my elderly grandparents and all of our friends behind.  The move wasn’t easy, and the two years that have followed have been worse.

The first year, my mom was still healthy enough to live in the apartment with me and my dad. During which I struggled to find a job, after leaving the job I previously had for five years. On top of that, my elderly cat, that we had had since I was five years old, passed away.

While living here, I have struggled to make friends as well and have honestly been extremely unhappy.

Early spring last year, my dad was diagnosed with diverticulitis and eventually had to have surgery and then had to have surgery again a few months later. During which, my mom’s health was getting worse, and she ended up moving into the hospital in the summer.

Adjusting to not having my mom around all the time was hard. My dad has clinical depression and I’m an only child with ADHD and an anxiety disorder. It hasn’t been great to say the least. My fiance comes out as often as he can and helps, but he lives four hours away so it’s difficult for him too( not to mention that his parents also have medical issues).

So. Mid December, I go out and visit with my fiance and his family, taking a week from work( I had a week of vacation from work) It was fun and nice to escape the stress at home.

on the way back, my mom lets me know my grandpa is in the hospital. He had, basically a heart attack. Obviously I was really worried, and the next day my mom told me he needed a pacemaker and that someone needed to go out there and help him after his surgery. She tried getting the help of some family in New York but the wouldn’t help at all. So me and my fiance had to go.

Now up until this point I had only called off work if I was extremely sick, or if the weather was so bad I couldn’t leave the house. Needless to say. They were not happy, but I had to go. My grandpa is 89 and his wife is 92.

So we went. We arrived on Christmas Eve and stayed in a family friend’s basement for the whole time. We ended up being there for 2 weeks. Both of us being away from our parents on Christmas for the first time in our lives. During this time we missed one of my fiance’s friend’s funeral, a concert that was pretty important to both of us and I missed my work’s big semi-annual sale.  

My grandpa recovered really well thankfully, so we went back home. Ever since I got back my work has been treating me pretty poorly, and the environment has become a lot more negative. On top of that after a week of being back. My dad got the stomach bug, then I got it, and my fiance got it. I had to go to the ER it was so bad, so I again had to miss work. and my fiance had to stay in a hotel when he went back home because his mom has a weakened immune system and his dad was having surgery.

While that was happening my mom was having heart issues as well, and she’ll probably be getting a transplant very soon.

Once I got back to work, I had my one year review and up until this point I had only been told I was doing great, my assistant manager even told me they had put my name in for employee of the month. I was expecting criticism for missing so much work, though it was really out of my control, but not a bad review. It went terrible, to the point where I started crying in front of my manager. I was told I wasn’t doing my job correctly and how I wasn’t meeting expectations.She suggested that I switch departments because they needed someone dependable. It was awful.

Yesterday I went in already pretty anxious about my terrible review, and spend most of the first half of my shift trying to make up for my bad review by working harder. Then on my lunch I found out that my 92 year old grandma was found naked and confused by my grandpa, and he called an ambulance and she’s now in the hospital... I pretty much had a panic attack at work and could barely function,thankfully it was a slow day so no one noticed how bad I was.

I’m just kind of at my limit. It feels like my life is like a bad comedy skit, where things just keep getting worse.

TL;DR: My life is full of really stressful stuff and it shows no sign of stopping.

Please pray for me if you can.

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okay but seriously

when i want a hug what i really want is a Ghibli hug.

because i mean-

Ghibli

Hugs

Look

Like

The 

Greatest

Hugs

in the WORld

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Please pray for my best friend’s brother-in-law. He is incredibly sick and may not pull through, he had a stroke, and yesterday he went into cardiac arrest but he was resuscitated. He’s a father to 5 young kids, the oldest, barely in their teens.

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Please pray for my best friend’s brother-in-law. He is incredibly sick and may not pull through, he had a stroke, and yesterday he went into cardiac arrest but he was resuscitated. He’s a father to 5 young kids, the oldest, barely in their teens.

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So, the wedding planning has still not improved. My mom and I got into a disagreement about planning the wedding and both of us are frustrated and hurt. I tried to put forth a plan for finding a way to have a legal wedding in MN and a catholic wedding in MI, and that was shut down immediately( granted, it may have not been the best idea, but I don’t really know what to do at this point) Me and my fiance are very much against the idea of having the wedding in MN since most of my friends and family are in MI and I know most of them would not be able to make the about 10 hour drive to MN or pay for a flight here especially my very elderly grandparents. Plus we would be getting married at the chapel in the hospital if we got married here. While the chapel is absolutely beautiful, it’s still the chapel in a hospital. I don’t like MN for obvious reasons, as just being moved here without really having a say, and dealing with my mom getting sicker, I have no fond memories of here. My fiance also dislikes it because he’s had painful experiences here as well. We discussed it, and neither of us can willingly get married in this state. We both want a MI wedding but with my mom being sick, we can’t plan for that.  Waiting longer for the wedding would not be good for us either, as not having a date or plan in motion is making temptation quite a bit more difficult. I have a feeling that mom thinks it would be best for us to get married in MN but the idea of that is just not something I can do. I’ve been so torn up about all this and it just feels impossible to figure out. My mom is very difficult to talk to when she’s made her mind up about something, so even trying to tell my mom that I don’t want the wedding here in MN did not go over well. So I’m kinda stuck, and at a loss of what to do.

Please keep praying, and if you have any ideas or advice let me know.

I could use some prayers.

Hang in there, it’s kind of a long read…

So it’s a really long story. My mom has had a heart condition her whole life and we knew that someday she would need a heart transplant. About a year ago we moved to MN to be close to the Mayo Clinic as my mom’s health had declined. During this time I have gotten engaged to a wonderful man who has been here for me through so much, including my elderly cat passing away and getting my driver’s license. Along with my mom getting sicker, my dad ended up getting sick, and needing two surgeries in the past few months. During the time my dad was sick, my mom ended up being moved into the hospital to wait for a new heart. Also, we originally thought it would only be a few weeks to maybe 2-3 months for my mom to get a new heart, due to her trying a procedure called a balloon-pump. Unfortunately her heart couldn’t handle it, so that bumped her back down the waiting list. Now, she could be in the hospital for months, even over a year, since my mom has an uncommon blood type. My mom has a friend who has been waiting for over two years, and is not doing well. So that’s incredibly stressful.  Also me and my fiance were planning on getting married in the fall of next year, but due to all that has been going on, we have no idea what to do. We were planning on having it in my home state, at the church we met at. Unfortunately, since we can’t set a date, due to the condition of my mom, we can’t start planning and everything is at a standstill. It’s frustrating for both of us, because we know that we want to spend the rest of our lives together, but we can’t start really even planning for that. We’ve thought about having our wedding here in MN but neither of us really like this state for various reasons. It’s just been difficult on us with all the other stress that’s been going on. 

It’s been really rough, and I just needed to get this out there.