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lundenloves · 22 hours ago
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A Clean Shave | Pairing: Arthur Morgan x Reader
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She was watchin’ him again.
Arthur could feel it—same as feelin’ the sun on his back or the breeze off the river. She thought she was bein’ sneaky, standin’ there with that damn laundry basket like she wasn’t burnin’ holes clean through him with her eyes.
He sighed low, dragging the razor slow down his jaw, careful and steady. No hurry. Couldn’t be, not with a blade this sharp near his throat. And not with her there—lookin’ at him like that.
Christ. She had no business lookin’ at him like that.
Too young. Too soft. Too full of foolish dreams and trouble he wasn’t about to reach for.
But God, if he didn’t notice every time she hovered near. Or sat by the fire just to be close. Or glanced sideways at him when she thought he wasn’t payin’ attention.
He was always payin’ attention.
The razor scraped clean, smooth down his cheek. He dipped it in the basin, shaking off the soap.
"Enjoyin’ the show there, little miss?" he drawled without lookin’, eyes flickin’ sideways to catch the way she stiffened—caught good and proper.
Her mouth opened, stammering something about restin’ her arms. Poor damn excuse. Cute, though. Sweet. Made his chest twist the way it hadn’t in years.
He kept on shaving, hiding the smile that tugged at the corner of his mouth.
"Gotta be careful starin’ at a man while he’s holdin’ somethin’ sharp, y’know."
"I ain’t scared of you," she shot back, brave as ever.
Brave. Foolish. Beautiful.
Arthur rinsed the blade again, watched the sun catch in her hair as she shifted her weight—feet nervous, but eyes bold.
"You're too young for me anyway. Oughta keep your pretty eyes on somethin’ else."
He meant it. Mostly. But it sounded weaker every time he said it. Like maybe he was tryin’ to remind himself more than her.
And then she said it. Soft, like it didn’t matter. Like she wasn’t wreckin’ him without even tryin’:
"I don’t care how old you are. Ain’t my fault you look like that."
Arthur nearly cut himself.
Christ.
His throat worked slow. Careful. The razor dragging clean along the curve, but his hand wasn’t as steady anymore. Not when she said things like that. Not when she meant it.
"Careful, girl," he muttered rough, the words low like warning and wish all at once. "You keep lookin’ at me like that and you’ll get ideas you got no business havin’."
I’ll get ideas I got no business havin’.
But she only smiled—damn trouble in that smile—and backed away slow, hips swinging like she knew exactly what she was doing. Like she wanted him lookin’.
"Guess I’ll have to get real good at hidin’ ‘em, then."
Arthur watched her go. And for the life of him, he wanted her to stay. But he didn’t call her back. Didn’t trust himself to. Not yet.
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lundenloves · 1 day ago
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lundenloves · 5 days ago
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I... I don't think the patient's weight got entered correctly. Just a hunch
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lundenloves · 8 days ago
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in a sea of ceremonial berets there’s a black cue ball somewhere in the back
one of these things is not like the other
Simon catches heat for it but he’s off in another land
somewhere that has to do with the back porch and a cig
i would honestly cum seeing him in all that rig or even full camos and a beret
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lundenloves · 9 days ago
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lundenloves · 9 days ago
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consider lezzing out when the moment arrives
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lundenloves · 9 days ago
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simons girls (the eldest) found his tac vest and stuck it on the family dog and he comes home to this:
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and its probably like 9 at night
youngest wants a dachshund so she can put it in a hot dog costume like this:
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simon took one look at that and I'm sure you can guess what his answer was
not the infamous beret of fear anxiety and parade 💀 my guy does NAWT ever wear that, and will honestly go to the highest lengths to avoid it. ceremonial rig? stood at the fucking back mate.
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lundenloves · 11 days ago
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〝 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐘 𝐒𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 〞¹
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≔ mandatory therapy on base, simon is not for it. originally a two part collab with @mistydeyes look to her for the second (medicines and diagnoses, doctor etc rather than a second therapy sit down)
⤷ i wanted to write something of the sort, so here we are. i’ll gesture to this piece of work lacklustrely and let you form your own like or dislike. we’re almost at 2k so i’ll be back and active (writing-wise) for that.
∷ no warnings, primarily angst and lack of cooperation. 2.5k
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“It’s not a question, Simon.” Price dotted his pen, leaning back in the chair and spinning to pull a file from the cabinet beside him. “These files. These evaluations, they’re not changing.” His eyes flicked to the red stamped folder, laying it out on the desk after sliding a sheet from within.
Simon’s tongue ran along his inner cheek, watching his superior closely. “What evaluations?” The question was flat, said without inflection and more venom. His palms flat on the edge of Price’s desk, each finger tapping in succession of the one before. 
“The psych, Simon.” A beat. “You’re still hitting subpar levels.” Price shuffled the papers together in his hands, brow lifted at a few of the concerning results. “It’s not good.”
“I’m hardly failing them.” Simon replied curtly. 
The captain sat back in his chair with a finger sliding across the page. “Overkill. Aggression. Isolation. Sadistic.” He paused to look up at his lieutenant before continuing. “I quote: ‘I didn’t want to update Lieutenant Riley over the comms, none of us do. We’ll choose Sergeant MacTavish instead.’ Do you know why?”
“That’s not my problem.” He crossed his arms over his chest, widening his stance. 
“It’s exactly your problem. It’s among a few other reasons we can’t progress you to be a Captain.” Price held his palm face up, leaning forward and pushing the papers back into the file. “We need to sort it out, Simon.” His tone was that of a disappointed parent, yet still firm enough to land. 
“I’ve excelled in every physical, John.” 
“There’s zero doubt in physicality.” He cleared his throat, taking a short moment before continuing. “I’m re-enlisting you back into therapy.” 
“What the fuck, Captain.” Simon’s eyes bored solemnly into the man before him, as if this was an extended form of betrayal. 
“It’s necessary you work out these knotholes, they’re now holding you back.” Price spoke slowly, as ever aware of Simon’s reluctance over his past. “It’s no longer an option. Three times a week, you’ll sit down with Dr. Kaufman. I can’t have recruits feeling unsure around you, Simon.” 
“I already had therapy.” His own voice was low, leant close to his superior and practically growling.
“Years ago.” Price stood, silently telling Simon to back up through the action. “The colonel is asking why you’re unable to rank up after five years. What do you suppose I reply?” 
“That he hasn’t given me the fucking points.” 
The captain sighed, pushing the file back into his cabinet and sitting down to scribble something on a post-it. “It would likely be a formal document stating you’re not mentally fit for the step. Past psych evaluations attached as evidence.“ 
The small post-it was slid across the desk, Simon’s eyes dropping to the uniformed writing. “I expect you to attend, yeah?” The note read thirteen hundred hours, room eleven. 
“Fucking hell.” He said to himself after swiping the note, taking steps backward until reaching the door. “This is for today?” The paper held up between his pointer and fore fingers. 
“Today.” Price confirmed. 
Simon said no more, walking out with a nod and head hung low like he’d just been kicked in the gut. Passing soldiers ducked their own heads to avoid his habitual glares, angling their shoulders inward to not encourage his barging against them. The halls fell silent as he walked, each conversation seemingly pausing until he was out of earshot. 
A breath of annoyance was taken, heavy footsteps taking a handful of lefts — a direction he was never inclined to go, considering everything medical resided within the left side of the barracks — before reaching the rehabilitation wing. An egotistical side of him was embarrassed to be seen standing even anywhere near. And a harsh grunt came with his step toward room eleven, begrudgingly wandering down the ever winding corridor before finding his fate. 
“Fuck this.” He muttered, two hard knocks battering on the door. 
“It’s open!” Came an answer.
Simon pushed the door open, immediately under imagined scrutiny of the doctor before him. He didn’t speak, not one word, hands anxiously busying themselves by gripping the back of a soft chair. “Simon, Simon Riley.” She confirmed with a warm smile, gesturing he take a seat. “I’m Dr. Kaufman. Lily, Kaufman.”
His stare felt hostile, eyes narrowing at her false show of friendliness. “How are you?” She began typing on her laptop, eyes only briefly meeting his and he couldn’t help to assume she was writing about him. Each key tapped to create a jarring noise against her acrylic nail, Simon’s jaw tightened. 
“How long will this take.” His curt words weren’t asked in a question, but rather a mumble of inconvenience. 
“It’s an hour long session.” She flipped a sheet of paper, eyes skimming across it. “As set by a— captain John Price.” Simon grumbled at the thought, pointedly kicking his boot against the floor before taking a seat.
His silence was deafening, although Kaufman had grown accustomed to such. He did nothing but stare, arms crossed over his chest, legs in a wide manspread — one recognised to be a subconscious attempt to gain control of the situation, the room even. “What brought you to therapy, Simon.”
“Price.” 
She nodded, clasping her palms together over her desk. “And why do you think he did so?” 
“You have notes.” He sighed, resting his neck on the back of the sofa and looking to the ceiling. 
“Yes, I have formal notes,” She paused, almost for effect until Simon had craned his neck to look at her. “But I'm asking you. Why do you think he did so?” Her question provoked a shrug from him, broad shoulders lifting only briefly 
“Psychs.” He mumbled, sticking two thumbs into his eyes before sitting up. “Fucking— the things, the evaluations.” Words strung out impatiently, each one punctuated by a tap to his thigh.
“You failed them?”
“No. I’m just not at the standard they would…” Simon’s eyes skimmed across the room, merely decorated in order for less distraction. A bright looking plant in the corner almost mocked his lack of life. “Prefer.” 
“Why is that?”
“I’m angry.” His gaze then dropped to hers, the instant words seemed like a jab. “I get angry.” 
Kaufman nodded, her silence was a signal for him to continue although he didn’t take the bait. “Is that the only reason?” She asked, taking pen to paper on the way his leg had begun bouncing anxiously. 
“How many fucking questions?” 
“This is trust based. Whatever is said here, stays here.” His jaw tightened at her words, boot impatiently stomping into the floor once more. “And we need to get to know one another to start building that trust.”
His stare dropped to the floor, “We’ll take our time.” She continued, pulling her lips inward and smiling once he had looked back up. “You’re in control here.” 
The room fell to silence once again, the only sounds being the cracking of his knuckles and the scribbling of her pen. It wasn’t awkward however, Simon’s breakage in eye contact was new — his finger grazed over the only sliver of skin he had on show, his exposed forearm between sleeve and glove. “What do you know.” 
“Whatever you’re happy to share with me. This is a clean slate, your session.” He sighed though it came out as a grumble, pulling his arms back across his chest. Kaufman noticed his shifting, “Aren’t you overheating in that mask?” She spoke softly.
“I’m used to it.”
“How long have you worn it?”  
His eyes narrowed ever so slightly, almost judging her question before shrugging. “Years.” She eyed the intricacies of the stitching, how almost every thread was uneven and needled with different shades of grey. It was a handmade job. 
“Did you make it?”
“Why.” He bit, his heel kicking against the floor to create a thump sound. 
“It’s clear it has a lot of meaning for you.” 
Simon nodded slowly, fidgeting with the seam of his pocket before looking back up to her. Eyes dead and fixed to her own, it was beyond obvious he would rather be anywhere else. “I don’t ever take it off.” Kaufman had caught onto the subtle change in his tone, one that warned her not to venture further. 
“We don’t have to talk about it. Remember, you’re in control.” She reasserted and Simon rolled his sleeves up, exposing a tattoo on his left forearm. “I’m just going to ask you a few questions. You don’t need to go into any detail, it’s just to help me understand you better.” 
“Right.” 
“Tell me about your tattoo.” She began, nodding toward the ink and watching as he lifted his arm to look at it himself. “What does it mean?”
He shook his head, “Nothing. It’s a bit shit, I got it when I was young as a cover up.” Sullen face lifting only briefly. 
“Covering other tattoos?”
“Mh-hm.” 
“Do you regret doing so?” Kaufman asked, playing the field to see if he was an impulsive person. Simon was surprisingly unaware of her techniques despite seeing right through his last therapist. 
He laughed a dry laugh, one that lacked humor. “No.” Eyes squinted at her smile. 
“Would you get more?” 
Simon shook his head once more, this time accompanied by a frown to further his point. Eyes naturally narrowing with the action. “Any particular reason?”
“Getting older.” 
Kaufman smiled with a tilt of her head, flipping a few pages backward in her notes. “You’re still young.” She pressed her finger to the paper with his basic information. 
His mask made it difficult for Kaufman to distinguish his feelings. It was a complete distancing tool, one that worked well. She figured it was worn to separate himself from the job. “On base, you go by—“
“Ghost.” 
“How did you come about that?” 
“Long story.” He shrugged, picking at threads by his pockets with an unnerving nonchalance to his tone and Kaufman nodded. It wasn’t difficult to see his reluctance, she pushed backward in the conversation, watching as he rubbed his opposite hand against his arm. 
The tattoo was stretched to the crease of his elbow, old ink faded to a dark grey rather than black and many scars adorned the space, creating gaps of blank skin in the artwork. “Do you enjoy your job?” She asked, gaining a slow blink in her direction, one that begged for reason.
“Would you enjoy it?” He mumbled, looking up at her with a drawn out sigh. 
“I’d imagine it takes a toll.” She sucked her lips inward, allowing the silence to settle and to create a landing pad for her pending words. “It’s intense.” 
Simon grumbled to himself, landing his boots to the floor abruptly one more time after shifting positions. Arms crossed over his chest in subconscious self pacification while pointedly staring at her — a complete and natural embedded military tactic of control. He didn’t want to speak, so stared. Stared to show acknowledgment and active dismissal, Kaufman took note. 
“Do you have a family, Simon?” She clicked her pen once more, beginning a fresh page. 
“Mh-hm.”
“Kids?”
“Two.”
“Girls, boys—“
“Girls.”
“Young?”
“Six and eleven.” 
“And am I fair to assume they know you as Simon, rather than Ghost, yes?” She was slow with her wording, deliberate in the pacing of each and every syllable as opposed to the quickfire questions prior. 
He sat back, pushing a stiff hand across the back of his mask before dropping his arm like it weighed a tonne. “Yes.” Lip pulled up as if he was uncertain in his own answer, eyes absently directed to the plant in the corner of the room. 
“You seem unsure.” 
He shook his head. “It’s different.” Although his voice hadn’t quite grasped confidence, instantly clearing his throat before sitting up precipitously to cement his statement. Kaufman’s silence invited more words from him, suddenly at a point of talkativeness to jump at his own defense of fatherhood. “I don’t take any of this home with me.” He gestured toward his gear, “It’s different.”
“Do they know the mask?” 
“They’ve seen it.” His sudden leer was one that assumed he had been tripped up, falling right into her fucking verbal minefield. 
“So Ghost does come home with you?” 
Bastard, Simon thought. “No.” A bite. 
Kaufman took a minute to think of her next question, one that would simultaneously calm him down while also wedging the door to his openness ajar just enough for her foot. “Do you look forward to taking the mask off?”
He shrugged, retreating back into a slouch. A short note was made of his action. “Possibly for the burden it carries?” She offered and Simon let out an audible groan, one that cut her short. 
“There isn’t a fucking burden.”
She observed as his hands clenched into fists under crossed arms, the impatient tapping of his heel against the vinyl flooring was something of another warning. “Are we okay to circle back to your family?” 
“Hmmh.” He mumbled an affirmative noise though his body language was completely closed off.
“Would you like to tell me about them?”
His foot stopped moving, leg stretching outward to cross his ankles over one another. “Depends what you ask me.” 
It was evident that Simon relied on guidance and instruction. Kaufman had gathered that much in the first ten minutes she had spent with him. The constant need for grounding and clarification was the first thing she noticed bar his body language, even when he had tried his best to seem contained.
“You can tell me as much or as little as you’d like.” She put it plainly, watching his eyes narrow and chewed down fingernails fidget against his belt loops. A flurry of thoughts intruded her mind at that, was he anxious at home? The bitten down nails said as much, evidently picked at without his mask on. 
“How are your kids?” 
“They’re fine.” He shrugged, setting his hand across the sofa edge. 
“Yeah?” Kaufman smiled, dotting her pen and Simon nodded, rubbing his brow momentarily before blinking at her lamely. “That’s good.”
Her wrist raised to check the time, an action Simon shifted at, eyes running to the door instantly. 
Though Kaufman took no eye to his impatience, writing a few notes before closing her book over, all at her own pace. “Time?” He asked readily, eagerly, bitten nails fidgeting with the loose seams of his jeans once again.
With a brief glance to her wrist, Kaufman gave him the go-ahead. “Yeah. Yeah, that’ll do us for today.” She was left watching pointedly as his shoulders dropped at her dismissal. “May I ask you one final question?” Her pen was placed back on the desk, in perfect adjacency to the mentioned notebook. 
“Hm.” A grumble. 
“Do you believe in therapy.”
His brows furrowed under the mask, already standing with a hand on the door to solidify her point. “No.” And with that came a nod of departure,  the words landing like an opinionated knife  — easy to slot in, hard to take out. 
Kaufman had her work cut out. 
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≔ dude i want him. i want to fucking hug him and tell him everything will be ok wtf, this man being emotionally inept is my roman empire.
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lundenloves · 15 days ago
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Gatekeeping is so good and important
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lundenloves · 15 days ago
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Whatever *sticks my dick in the gap between who you are and who you portray yourself as*
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lundenloves · 15 days ago
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everyone get unemployed. i will provide for us.
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lundenloves · 15 days ago
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just got a photo of me and glen powell’s dog taken BY glen powell 😭😭😭😭
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orgasm
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lundenloves · 16 days ago
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cried at work for the first time today
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lundenloves · 16 days ago
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Walking around the city and punching people til they die cus its fridayyy
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lundenloves · 17 days ago
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#employed
NO WAY
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lundenloves · 22 days ago
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What I look like at the function knowing I should be in bed reading a reader insert rn
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lundenloves · 22 days ago
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i wish some of you lived down the street so i could go to your house and bother you in person every single day
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