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Not what she meant but.

I mean it couldn’t hurt

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Sixteen years ago, phistory was made

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Shout-out to the 0.5 seconds where Ralsei makes direct eye contact with you as if to ask "are you possessing Susie too??"

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Me @me, dead in coffin, buried: "Come on, you arent that dead. You could totally get up if you tried a little harder! See, that femur isn't even all the way rotted through! Are you even trying? Maybe you're just pretending to be dead for attention. Weak."

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No one really tells you that when you're disabled, visibly or not, you'll have to get over feeling the need to apologize for everything.

You'll apologize for

Not being able to move quickly through small doors and walkways

Not being able to eat foods your friends like, make, or want you to try.

Having to ask for help.

Asking for space and to not be touched.

Needing accommodations

Being passionate about something

Being tired

Being tired when you weren't an hour ago

Being in pain

Being in pain when you weren't an hour ago

Going outside

Not going outside

Being on disability

Having brain fog

Needing medication

Not being "nice"

Using mobility aides

Asking people to simply do their jobs

Wanting to be treated like a human

And so much more

I know I shouldn't apologize for these things. It's not my fault. But, when you've been raised in a world where your very presence is an inconvenience and worth apology, it's hard to not break out of that cycle.

Don't even get me started on the underlying feeling that your partner, family, and friends are saints for "putting up with you."

I know it's a thing I have to work though myself. It's internalized ableism that I need to fix. But it sucks that it was instilled in me and now I have to deal with it.

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So I actually like how Blitz’s and Stolas’ prejudices are written. It feels a lot more real and like something they have to work on and overcome.

Too many stories have their protagonists just completely unaffected by the world around them. “Damn, racism is a problem? Well that’s bad! Someone as good as me can’t be racist!”

Which…oh my god. Now that I’m typing it out, does explain so many antis. Literal child shit.

But anyone of a marginalized status can tell you that’s not how it works? Even the bestest best boy will internalize racism, classism, sexism, homophobia, antisemitism, Islamophobia, ableism…all the -isms. You can’t “good person” your way out of being affected by your culture.

As an autistic person, I still get annoyed when people don’t make eye contact. Because I’m making the effort to mask, damn it, why aren’t you putting in the effort to hide something shameful like I am? And then I have to take a moment to remind myself that autism isn’t shameful and eye contact (or lack of it) is morally neutral and culturally relevant.

And when media portrays bigotry and prejudice as The Thing Only the Bad People Do and not a series of systems, behaviors, and thoughts that divide people based on arbitrary characteristics, it feels disingenuous. People that may have some unfortunate opinions on things, like “rap music is bad��� and “gay people are fine when they’re not being cringey about it” and “men shouldn’t cry” (*coughStellaStanscough*) will never look inside themselves if they think of these systems as “The Good” and “The Bad”

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I am not broken. I have been wounded.

I am not damaged. I have been hurt.

I am not useless. I am making the best of my limited capacity.

I am not lazy. I need rest to heal.

I am not unreliable. I live an unpredictable life.

I am not irresponsible. I have limitations.

I am not incompetent. I am learning at my own pace.

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could you forgive yourself, seeing what you’ve become?

Close up and alt background color bc I’m indecisive

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if you die in the game you die for reaslslies 😔

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my headcanon for gwaine finding out about merlin’s magic is that it happens at the same time as for the rest of the knights. like there’s some Catastrophic Event that forces merlin to reveal he has powers and all of the knights are there for it. gwaine included.

the thing about gwaine, however, is that he is the first to notice merlin’s eyes glowing and therefore has 0.1 seconds more than everyone else to process this information. and when he does process what this means and the danger merlin is now in, he doubles down. no ‘oh arthur but he meant no harm :((!!’ no. gwaine uses those extra 0.1 seconds to feel betrayal and outrage and re-direct all of it at arthur.

arthur is like ‘i don’t believe it’ and gwaine is like well tough😤😤 yeah my friend is a sorcerer and so WHAT. no, and so WHAT? is that a CRIME? (‘yes, it is, gwaine’ ‘mind your business leon’) stop staring at him like that. who CARES if he is a mastermind here to end your kingdom?? (‘i’m not’ ‘oh ok cool’) i have considered doing the same myself a few times?? you gonna burn me? stab me right here and now?? come at me, COME AT ME

arthur is not even looking at him, he is having the world’s most intense silent conversation with merlin. by the time arthur decides that okay, we need to have a talk, possibly one of the hardest talks of his life, gwaine has thrown a gauntlet at arthur 3 times (he keeps picking it up and throwing it again)

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hey uh new type of ao3 spam comment just dropped. (I know it's spam because the fic they left this comment on . doesn't have chapters. lmfao). Report this kinda comment as spam and don't take it personally it is literally recycled bullshit

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i kissed the brick before i threw it dw

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wanted to talk ab this little detail in this scene that i find Sad

ragatha’s first instinct here was to panic and brace herself for some kind of verbal backlash because of the outburst earlier. pomni didn’t even sound mad or irritated in her delivery, but ragatha’s expression still 100% reads “she must be upset with me for yelling”

whoever said that her feigned optimism is a fawn response instead of toxic positivity hit the nail Right on the head i think.

her mom must have been pretty awful

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Girl calm down she don’t even want that fuckass man😭😭😭😭

God it’s been so LONG since I’ve drawn them UEGAGAJAOQOKQ THAT EPISODE WAS SO GOOODDDDDD

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gee! i sure do love this complex female character with COMPLEX thoughts and COMPLEX feelings and COMPLEX reasons for her actions. surely the fandom wont villainize her and make her into a irredeemable monster for doing something even slightly unkind! (male character has done something a 100x worse.) looks at social media oh! well surely they wont water down her character into a single trait and/or only examine her at surface level and then proceed to misunderstand her entire personality, motives, and values! looks at social media again oh.

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Ragatha is the one who makes Jax react the most seriously throughout the episode.