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Hey guys. Would really appreciate if you could all rb!

Am open for commissions, each one is only 40 usd.

I can draw mostly anything- absolutely would love to draw your ocs, dnd characters, baldurs gate, final fantasy characters.. etc. My special fields of interest are fantasy ocs, but I can also draw your cats and puppies.

My only rules are that I cannot draw furry and mech and real people, as it is beyond my capabilities. No nfts, and please be kind. I try to draw as hard and as fast as I possibly can.

In desperate need of more funding. I am the only one in my family who can work, all three of my family members are disabled, one of which are completely unable to move independently. A lot of my funds and such go to their Healthcare. I also price down comms as low as I can, because of the state of the world. I only made 350 usd last month, and yesterday they cut out our power, trying to get some means to get the power back up as philippine weather is so humid that wet bulb levels of heat are possible, and we have some food in the fridge still in I really do not want to spoil

Please purchase a commission through ko-fi! I'm more than happy to work for you!

LINK to purchase a portrait on my ko-fi! < you can submit both payment and info there. Thank you everyone. Stay safe out there.

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who wants to send my ass $212 bucks for indigenous peoples day

come on you knbow you wanna alleviate some sins and taibo guilt

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A lot of them deeply move me, actually, though sometimes it's the beautiful and unique visual style, and sometimes it's that the characters resonate with me (and also the art). It's one of your less visually complicated pieces, but the one where "I grew old, and you got what you always wanted: to be a boy, and a ghost story." Something about that, and its related pieces, hits really deep for me.

Which of my drawings is you guys favorite? I want to see what you guys like, if you’ve ever felt moved, ever used any of my ocs as inspiration for your own, any of my stuff for a dnd setting or smth.. I’m just really curious and a bit artblocked.

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Discord is officially blocked in Russia

anti-DPI programs can handle Discord here's Goodbye DPI w/ GUI here's ByeDPI, possibly nicest solution for Android other variants can be found here

regarding VPNs - Windscribe is still the real one, w/ non-standard protocols and special "hostile network" switch, one problem though - limited traffic, so you most likely have to juggle it w/ some noname VPN apps or proxy add-ons

note that it's illegal in Russia to talk about blocks circumvention, so if you don't live in Russia, please share this post, so your followers, who live there could see it and use it

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This is how many bullets they shot on a fucking kid.

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Mako Moments

In light of recent news I wanted to draw some of my favourite Mako moments from the show.

Makoto is a character with clear outer and inner personas. She has a tough exterior, formed mostly from the perception of other people, but has a more genuine tendency towards calmness and sweetness. Emi Shinohara perfectly voiced both these aspects, giving Mako a seriousness the other sailor soldiers never had (consider episodes 45, R12, Stars5), yet was able to embody Mako's true nature of gentleness (R3, SuperS7). Though Mako is less exaggerated than some of the other soldiers, Shinohara also shined in Mako's more comedic aspects, namely her over-romantic tendencies and senpai obsession.

I find it nearly impossible to separate Emi Shinohara's vocal performance from my favourite aspect of Makoto's character — that everything she does is touched with a twinge of loneliness. She lives alone, only plants to care for, she picks up cooking and cleaning (among other reasons) in an attempt to counter her overwhelming physicality, and, of course, she's obsessed with a guy that turned her down. Neither the show nor the manga (though slightly in the live-action show) ever feel the need to have Mako "get over" these issues, it's allowed to just be. Realistically, no one from the ages of 14-16 is just going to get over deep-seated problems stemming from childhood that affect every single aspect of their personality and life. It basically forms the core of her being. It's very sad, and very real.

I imagine that somewhen in the infinite utopia of Crystal Tokyo, Mako eventually dismantles the gender-influenced insecurities that wracks her so. That she'll be able to engage in masculine presentation or feminine activities away from the gender binary, so she can cook, skate, and fight without thinking of the opinions of others. I don't think she will ever lose that sense of longing, but at the very least she'll learn to live without the constant need to attract. After all, she'll be running her bakery-flower shop with a (probably) wife that she loves very much. She'll always be lonely when alone, but she's never alone.

Redrawn moments are from:

Sailor Moon episode 25: Jupiter, the Powerful Girl in Love

Sailor Moon episode 29: Total Chaos: the Messy Love Rectangle

Sailor Moon R episode 9: Is Seijuro the Moonlight Knight? Mako on Fire

Sailor Moon R episode 10: Steal a Kiss From Mamoru! An's Project Snow White

Sailor Moon S episode 5: Protect the Pure Heart! A Three-way Battle

Sailor Moon S episode 7: Cold-hearted Uranus? Makoto in Trouble

Sailor Moon S The Movie

Sailor Moon SuperS episode 20: The Fated Partner? Makoto's Innocence

Sailor Moon Stars episode 5: Hell Demon Battle! Love Will Prevail

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Am caught in a death spiral my lieges. I don't feel entitled to anyone's time, effort or resources but I feel so beat down. I am disabled, I am working so much I genuinely developed a hunched back. I am alone responsible for my autistic sister, her parentified sibling, and my two parents who are disabled with extremely limited movement. I have three jobs. I can't ask for help on twitter because people I work for follow me there. My work requires me to draw every day, without a day off, ever. I have a "morality clause" which means if I or the author I work with are deemed to be acting in any way the company thinks inappropriate, we are immediately fired and would have to return every single cent we have made. I feel at my wits end. My employers are american- but I am not. I live in the global south- government assistance in the Philippines is *nonexistent*

Last week I asked for help to pay for electricity. The other week I asked for help with my sister who had to be rushed to the ER.

I doxxed myself and posted medical info to this blog, so many strangers know my address, my legal name, everything just for me to be able to seek mutual aid- Wallah I do not want to be this person, but if anyone could please, pick up a print from my inprnt, or subscribe to my patreon, I already have 300+ drawings up there and I upload thrice to four times a month, or if you could send direct tips it would make a world's difference. I will try to open commissions next week but as the world is being plunged into wherever it is we are headed, it's getting harder and harder to get clients.

Currently myself dealing with housing insecurity- we only have a year or two to fix our traditional filipino house as it is falling apart due to the philippine storms and termites- *please* help me and my disabled family of three. I feel I am rambling now bc there's so much on my mind, on my plate, I've asked friends and my partner for help, my sister and my cousins and my friends are all I have. My mom's side of the family cannot help as they are all extremely poor themselves, and my paternal side of the family have emotionally abused me and have members that committed routine csa on me. I do not take any of the help I receive here for granted, and I'm sorry. Reblogs are off as I am asking for help from followers as I feel very ashamed / embarrassed/ humiliated to still be stuck in this dark place . Sorry and thank you again

Inprnt is having a sale rn, everything is like at 40% off!

And my tipping jars:

Sorry and thank you again. If you can't donate or purchase its OK, just please please please include me in your prayers, make mi shebeirach for my health so I csn continue to work, or any prayers at all for me. Thank you

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Grief. Not a simple grief, either, not just for a person, though there's people passed enough, and relationships destroyed enough, to mourn for in this. It feels like an earnest story of pains and injustices which can't lie easy in part because that which they were pinned to has been stripped for parts and sold, callously. As a Murrican, it feels like a narrative of colonialism, of alienating people through destructive commodification. It's not a simple or straightforward story, it feels more like a cross-section of a thing, each part of it abstracted from its other contexts, like coring, like layers of earth, of a place over time, itself stripped of contexts and alienated. Sorry if that didn't make a lot of sense. My feelings on this are hard to pin down. It makes me sad and angry and troubles me. I've probably thought about this for a few years now off and on, and is one of your works I think about more than others. Not more than most, not most of all; that'd be the boys who never got to be boys, in part because it strikes chords with a trans friend of mine and his own art.

my mom’s childhood town

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Am caught in a death spiral my lieges. I don't feel entitled to anyone's time, effort or resources but I feel so beat down. I am disabled, I am working so much I genuinely developed a hunched back. I am alone responsible for my autistic sister, her parentified sibling, and my two parents who are disabled with extremely limited movement. I have three jobs. I can't ask for help on twitter because people I work for follow me there. My work requires me to draw every day, without a day off, ever. I have a "morality clause" which means if I or the author I work with are deemed to be acting in any way the company thinks inappropriate, we are immediately fired and would have to return every single cent we have made. I feel at my wits end. My employers are american- but I am not. I live in the global south- government assistance in the Philippines is *nonexistent*

Last week I asked for help to pay for electricity. The other week I asked for help with my sister who had to be rushed to the ER.

I doxxed myself and posted medical info to this blog, so many strangers know my address, my legal name, everything just for me to be able to seek mutual aid- Wallah I do not want to be this person, but if anyone could please, pick up a print from my inprnt, or subscribe to my patreon, I already have 300+ drawings up there and I upload thrice to four times a month, or if you could send direct tips it would make a world's difference. I will try to open commissions next week but as the world is being plunged into wherever it is we are headed, it's getting harder and harder to get clients.

Currently myself dealing with housing insecurity- we only have a year or two to fix our traditional filipino house as it is falling apart due to the philippine storms and termites- *please* help me and my disabled family of three. I feel I am rambling now bc there's so much on my mind, on my plate, I've asked friends and my partner for help, my sister and my cousins and my friends are all I have. My mom's side of the family cannot help as they are all extremely poor themselves, and my paternal side of the family have emotionally abused me and have members that committed routine csa on me. I do not take any of the help I receive here for granted, and I'm sorry. Reblogs are off as I am asking for help from followers as I feel very ashamed / embarrassed/ humiliated to still be stuck in this dark place . Sorry and thank you again

Inprnt is having a sale rn, everything is like at 40% off!

And my tipping jars:

Sorry and thank you again. If you can't donate or purchase its OK, just please please please include me in your prayers, make mi shebeirach for my health so I csn continue to work, or any prayers at all for me. Thank you

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Sonya Massey's family asked that the video not be shared on social media. You do not "have to watch to know this stuff still happens." Black death is not your education tool. You should not have to see us gunned down in our homes to see our humanity. If you truly care about Sonya Massey's story, donate to her family's gofund me, and don't use her death as your intro to police brutality course.

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Opening commissions again for the first time in ages, sketches like the first pic are fifteen bucks, painted pfps twenty, dm me or send an ask if you want to commission me and do forgive the unprofessional look of this post, I'm an indie whore and a half

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chronically ill black women get so left behind, yall only allow black women 2 options: completely invalidating our pain and suffering by saying black women are just lazy anyway or completely invalidating our pain and suffering by not believing that black women feel pain to begin with.

After 15 years of pain I finally have a doctor who is like wow yeah there's a lot going on with your body and your labs and physicals all corroborate that but for so long I was just told I'm dramatic or unmotivated.

Black women feel pain, black women are fucking human beings, black women can have chronic illnesses, black women can be disabled. We just do not get the care and validation we deserve. We don't get any excuse at all to not perform. I've constantly worked thru all this, constantly had to care for others thru all this, constantly had to survive thru all this bc I don't want to be labeled lazy but I'm not lazy, I am ILL and have nothing to fall back on bc black women aren't allowed to even be that. Ive known the term for years, but when my doctor told me flat out "Serena, you have multiple chronic illnesses" i almost told her my damn self "i dont think black folks have those" Because we aren't ALLOWED TO. I'm so exhausted by 15 years of health issues that I've powered thru that it has made my health EVEN WORSE. And now that I finally have a team that is advocating for my health and helping me get treatment I can't afford it bc I'm so sick that I have to take intermittent leaves from work.

Please listen to black women abt their bodies.

Please advocate for healthcare for black women.

Please unlearn your biases abt the bodies of black women.

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[ID: Star Ocean screenshot. A battle commences; one of the fighters, a bipedal rabbit, is labeled "Pretty Bunny." /end ID]

pretty bun boy

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I don't post on here much, but I see that Twitter thread keeps making the rounds (thank heck) and hope to use that visibility to help an artist I'm fond of. I linked one of his latest posted works here so you can get an idea of some of his style, he's kind of amazing and I hope he doesn't mind me saying so.

Unfortunately, shit's been rough for him for a while, so if you have a spare buck, maybe toss it his way. (I don't, my family is homeless, but my artistic output isn't a very compelling argument for throwing me money, and I hope his is, regardless of neither of us theoretically having to justify our existence by entertaining others.)

We are a big, extended family (asian). But I have opened up about a recently deceased family member who routinely did csa on me for years and years, ans the reaction of my family was very misogynistic (I am a transgender man who is not out) and callous. I am heartbroken, and in danger of homelessness again. I have recently escaped homelessness 5 years ago after being homeless ever since I was 15 (numbers are blurry). And my greatest fear is being homeless again.

I am very sorry for the upsetting post. If anyone with the right resources could please help me have some footing, I'd deeply appreciate it.

I have around 300 + exclusive drawings on patreon, it's only a dollar a month, and I post 3-7 new drawings to it every month

I have a print shop here, come and pick some up, please

And I have a tipping jar here, where you can send me direct tips if you guys would like / I also occasionally open commissions.

Thank you.. I have three jobs atm.. and trying to focus has been hard, I feel like I am moving mountains just trying to stay afloat. I just want to live.

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[ID: Panel crop from O Human Star. A hacked billboard says, This is not how it must always be. /end ID]

I'm gonna try to find other places my favorite people here are, that are not X or Tumblr. I'm gonna try to retain my contacts here. But I'm leaving again. I don't feel a need to get myself banned to make some point, and it looks like that's easy to do for now. He wants us off this site? Fine, I'll go. There's better places to be anyway.

But before I go.

I apologize in advance to any Christians who feel unfairly hurt by what I'm about to say, but: I don't hate Christianity, but I hate being unable to escape it anywhere I go. In the same way that a Christian atheist may still have a rabid hatred of Muslims, I find Christian and ex-Christian trans women still want our suffering to be holy, to be martyrs. Mostly they don't go running into the mouth of hell to suffer, if nothing else because that'd hurt and most of them aren't that devoted to this mindset; and some of us fly too close to the sun not out of masochistic death cultism but out of just being at heart a bunch of pains in the ass, so I ain't talking about that either. I'm talking about needing to be seen as suffering, as more suffering than others, as a kind of social oneupsmanship. And it's not better to do so in some kind of communion or solidarity or whatever, it's still ridiculous no matter how you do it.

We should be learning about the means of each other's oppressions, to better understand our own, not turning it into a fucking pissing contest.

And I cannot escape these mindsets. I see these baffling crab-bucket behaviors in these shitty online spaces that I almost never see in real life, with real world groups and people, because... iunno, maybe because I live in the PNW and a lot of folks didn't grow up being told that suffering is the highest form of virtue and therefore that if you are not suffering enough then you are not virtuous enough, and since real suffering sucks, it's best to just make people accept that the level of suffering you're going through, which is bad, is superior and unique and untouchably awful.

My friend Michael says it's also kind of a white thing. By creating a hierarchy of who is most oppressed and placing yourself on top, you can make yourself feel immune to criticism, and apparently this is just something a lot of white folks feel they need. Myself, iunno, I'm white too, I hope I don't do that, but I suspect my particular brand of OCD means my anxieties in that regard can't be alleviated without significant therapy and medication, which is not better but it does seem to make me a little less likely to try to put myself on top of hierarchies out of sheer terror of myself.

I seriously cannot escape this shit. I dunno how much I've got to go dismantling my own bullshit, but at least I wasn't raised Christian. It must be so exhausting. If you see me posting something positive that's happening, believe me, it's not intended as toxic positivity. It's intended as a radical statement that a better world is possible. It's radically asserting that life is not pain, and that our pain has causes that can be dealt with. And I dearly do hope it pisses someone off to see someone living their best life in spite of the horrors. A car outside our homeless shelter says, "Birds sing after the storm, so shall we," along with countless Christian statements scrawled all over it, and I am not waiting for some storm to pass. It won't pass in my lifetime. I'm singing now. And some of those songs are happy, and some of those songs are angry, and some are both.

If all you want is the aesthetics of suffering or the aesthetics of social justice, fuck off. I don't need more Christendom. I'm trapped in this place, and I am so fucking tired of it. I feel like Shrek yelling at Donkey, "can you please stop being yourself for five minutes!"

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From the reblogs: official-boyfriend: #i met peter s beagle too and he is truly so kind and lovely #i was dressed as molly grue and he pointed to me and said Molly Grue! and i said Yes! She's my favorite character! and he said#She's mine too#the last unicorn is so good samiholloway: #my stoey is not this important or joyous but i met him in a con in orlando and he was lovely there too#its always a little iffy meeting the people who write your favorite books but i love last unicorn so much more since he was nice to us#like we were real people and not just part of a massive crowd at a big con; its a rare gift juniperandmoonlight (https://www.tumblr.com/juniperandmoonlight/751493233117446144/hopping-on-here-to-make-sure-everyone-knows-that?source=share) Hopping on here to make sure everyone knows that Peter Beagle has a new book out as of this month, "I'm Afraid You've Got Dragons" and it is a delight. Lovely and sweet and funny and heartfelt as you would expect from his writing.

duamuteffe: I met him a number of years back while he was on tour with a remastered copy of the film, and it's one of my favorite memories. He was kind and fascinating and genuinely interested in everyone he spoke with, and an endless fount of anecdotes. We had driven a couple of hours to Pittsburgh to see him and the film and it started snowing pretty hard and we had to reassure him that we had four wheel drive and were used to the weather and would be careful the whole way home.

hanamiyama-basketball-club: #I should really read all those books again#his writing meant a lot to me when I was young so hearing that he's a kind person is not surprising perhaps but a relief

emblazonet: #Tlu#Peter S Beagle#He wrote TLU when he was like 19 or 20?!#HOW?!!!#I met him once#And he was so so so exhausted#But he was trying to connect with everyone in that line#And signed all my books#Genuinely a treasure of a person

freyalorelei: (https://www.tumblr.com/freyalorelei/749244972835962880/my-husband-and-i-met-him-at-a-book-signing-several?source=share) My husband and I met him at a book signing several years ago. He took at least five straight minutes to chat with each and every person he met. When it was my turn, I had him sign two copies of The Last Unicorn--one for myself and one for my niece, who was two years old at the time. He signed her name (Eliza), and when I told him she was named after the main character in My Fair Lady, he told us that he played Colonel Pickering on stage, and sang a bit for us. Such a dear, lovely gentleman. He has my adoration for life. <3

pinkusponkus: #I met him at a showing of his movie and have a print that he signed for me#when he learned my name he sang me Hard-Hearted Hannah#I love him

augustdementhe: #I had the pleasure once#He told me I reminded him of his first girlfriend because she also had a sick ass afro (his sentiment my description)#I need to get the book

ravencromwell: #GOD. god this is just such a magnificent example of#humans being awesome#and yes. yes in a world which so often feels drowned in its own horror. in the refusal to bridge gaps across shared humanity. the refusal#to be kind. it is so fucking important to amplify the good. [I love this thread especially viscerally because it was sparked by one of my#fav authors: Kingfisher is a person whose books are infused with so much kindness and humor.while refusing to look away from the violence.#very much to me following in Beagle's footsteps. and so that she helped make this feels fated and perfect]#queer stuff#Peter S. Beagle#book babbling#lit geekery

alchemyarchetype: #i met him and told him i wanted to be a writer#his response was along the lines of#“then you're a writer!”

bibliomancer7: #He's come to Dragoncon several times#and I go to every panel he's on because he's ALWAYS worth listening to#and his readings; he's an AMAZING reader#and I am deeply sad that the audiobook of him reading The Last Unicorn apparently has rights problems#I would pay SO MUCH money for that

labradorduck #i meet him when he came to Toronto#he was very nice#we were properly warned though that the signing line was long and slow because he is going to tell each and every person a story#and he did

crittymonster: (https://www.tumblr.com/crittymonster/748633483608571904/got-the-chance-to-meet-him-at-a-qa-film-showing?source=share) Got the chance to meet him at a Q&A + film showing at a small, local theater. He was wonderfully witty & very warm with the audience. Glad to hear that's just who he is.

tea42: #i love his writing so much#i met him at a con#his is lovely#he sang to me#charming charming man

khealywu: if you like The Last Unicorn, or Peter S Beagle, i strongly recommend ‘Tamsin’! it’s one of my favorite books.

#definitely one that would have formed min. 45% of my personality if i’d read it as a teenager#instead i read it in my twenties and it formed 13% of my personality#it’s so good#there’s a ghost and the protagonist falls in love with her#after moving to somerset from manhattan#and the wild hunt and a bunch of other fey creatures#and the bloody azzizes and the ghost of judge lord jeffery’s#it’s amazing n7calibrations: Close to 10 years ago, there was a limited run of The Last Unicorn in theaters, and he made an appearance to introduce the film and sign autographs after. My mom got us tickets. He told a little story at the beginning about how he wasn't originally a fan of the band chosen to write the theme song for the movie. I forget the specific phrasing he led up to it with, but I'll always recall him joking about how if he wasn't careful the newspapers were going to have a field day running the headline "Peter S Beagle Hates America!". Also, if you havent, you should also read his 'The Innkeepers Song'.

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I've met him in person btw and he's a fucking sweetheart

[ID: Text-intensive Twitter thread from the Shapeshifters chest binders Twitter account in reply to a post by artist and author Ursula Vernon. Vernon says, A non-zero number of you apparently did not know that The Last Unicorn was a book before it was a movie. It is by Peter S. Beagle. It is made of spun glass and fairytales and iron knives and there are individual lines that I would give my lungs to have written. Shapechangers replies, I saw him every year at NYCC for several years straight, bought something at his table, asked him to sign it, and we spoke. He remembered me from year to year, no small feat at that con. He remembered which stories he'd told me. One year I came back with a different gender on. He squinted at me a bit and said thoughtfully, "I've seen you before in this place." All I had to say was, "last year you told me the story about the inoshishi." And his face cleared, and he leaned in with a grin and told me about a German guitarist who he traveled with, twice. Who transitioned between the first and second time, so he'd gotten to meet this person all over again on the second round. It was a wonderfully kind way to let me know that everything was fine. I was fresh out of the closet and I needed that, and maybe he could see it. The Last Unicorn is the best book in the world and I will defend it and its author til I die. the end. /end ID]

I don't usually talk about celebrities; artists, when I do, and I'm keenly aware that one needn't be a good person to be a hell of a heartwrenching artist. But Peter S. Beagle has written a few of my favorite things in the world, he's an excellent singer and filker, and this Twitter thread was dreadfully important to me. I don't want it going away as Twitter becomes Shitter, because it's so often bad news, isn't it? It's important to me to share trans joy.

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