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Oop

I met a boy and for nearly the first time the general consensus of my paracosm is that they like him and DO NOT constantly try and convince me he’s not as good as them.

What does it mean???? IS THIS WHAT LOVE IS??

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So, nearly all of my paras are based off of people I’ve seen in real life, but have not actually met, (walked past them on the street, saw their face on a dating app or on social media, they’re a friend of a friend that I’ve seen in a picture but haven’t met, etc) and if I know a little bit about that person and I think it’s cool, sometimes I will even keep elements of their real life for their para.

Just last year, when I was 25 years old, I went to a men’s rugby match and saw the person playing the fly half position. He looked JUST LIKE one of my main paras who ALSO IS A FLYHALF IN MY PARACOSM. I had a full freak out moment, like “omg am I dreaming??? Am I psychic????? Am I fucking insane???????”

Anyway, THEN I saw a person in the crowd who I played rugby with in high school and eventually realized the flyhalf playing was her brother.

Basically, I created the para TEN YEARS PRIOR based on my teammate’s brother, COMPLETELY FORGOT he was based on a real person, and nearly decided I must be Jesus. Surreal.

The end.

DO YOU EVER SEE SOMEONE IN PUBLIC WHO LOOKS LIKE ONE OF YOUR PARAS AND YOU JUST ???/?-!/?/?:!;(@;@;&

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I called it “dancing, spinning and thinking” because it seemed absolutely inappropriate to call it “daydreaming”, but I also had absolutely no language to describe it.

Daydreams

Before I knew what MaDD was, I used to call my daydreams ‘mindfiction’ because I knew they weren’t like normal daydreams, they were more like writing fan fiction or stories in my head.

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MATCH with you on tinder??? oh no, no, no. I’m just going to use your face and create a character for you in my head that you could never possibly live up to.

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Me: I use daydreaming to escape stressful situations

Also me: *daydreams about the literal worst case scenario in agonizing detail*

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trying to look normal when you’re walking around in public daydreaming

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you can never forget that moment when it clicked that you’re not the only one who daydreams excessively and there’s actually a name for it

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When you’re pacing/jumping around and someone walks in

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*does 30 minutes of responsibilities in life* Good work me!!!! I have earned a 3 hour daydream session as a reward *grabs my earbuds*

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As always, incredibly hard to put into words, but we all live within the real world but no one knows about us because we built a giant city sized mansion in the woods (which woods?? Idk. Why hasn’t anyone found this place?? Idk!!!) and it’s just a collection of all of the most interesting, smart, kind/unkind, unique, talented and/or rejected people in the world.

Everyone both lives there and simultaneously has a life outside of that society. Within the society, though, it’s also kind of a business with all of these departments that all have different purposes. The society even has its own news broadcasting.

My parame is part of the Manipulation Department which are all the people who are really good at understanding who people are, why they do what they do, and have a special knack for getting those people to do what they want. My parame is also part of a select group of people with especially interesting brains that are regularly studied, tracked, monitored, sometimes controlled and followed 24/7 by paras from the Psychological Research Department. Some of my oldest/closest paras are part of this select group and most of us share some type of unexplainable connection to each other’s emotions and feelings, which, when activated, changes our eye color, hence my icon.

The society also has “houses”, kind of like fraternities. I’m part of Eyrie House which is stereotypically where all of the “most fucked up” people are placed, generally people with really, really, intense trauma histories. But also ALL of the trans people, because way back when Eyrie House was first founded, being transgender was considered to be one of the worst things possible. While times have fully changed, for whatever reason trans people advocated to remain always in Eyrie House.

I’m also in the mafia?? Idk it’s a lot.

And, as many paracosms go, everyone loves me and I’ve been voted Man of the Year.... Every year! Wow. What an honor!!

How would you describe your paracosm? (Daydream world)

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I realised madd is preventing me from finding love. I've been trying to date now and i keep wanting to compare my dates to my parame's partner. It's like i'm cheating on them and i'm leaving them somehow. I'm too emotionally invested.

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Of all time?

Mr. Brightside - The Killers

Honorable mention:

Indian Summer - Jai Wolf

Rb this with ur fav daydreaming song

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Questions somebody with MaDD fears the most:

So what are your hobbies?

What are you doing all day?

Why didn't you do [any kind of activity]

What are you doing right now?

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do your paras have a default look? like occasionally they'll wear other outfits but they have that ONE look?

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Someone else in the house: *knocks on the door* are you okay?? sounds like a stampede in there

Me: yes.. just... exercising

Me immediately after shutting the door:

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Hoo boy

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Para: I speak German

Me: wait I do not know German

Para: *aggressive not real words*