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when two musicians sing into the same microphone and lean in very close to each other… like omg are you guys gonna kiss now to relieve the homoerotic tension?😳

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put those big brown eyes away dude now is NOT the time

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omgggg I just had the thought of doing Chimera Falin after the episode and your stuff looks like it will be so helpful!! 😭😭😭

awesome!! im glad to have been of help ^^ if you ever need help with it further or specifics dont be afraid to dm or send another ask!!!

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band recommendations from a black punk !!

tl has been discussing poc in alternative scenes specifically punk scenes recently. punk has been a big spintrest for me for a while so id thought id share some bands with poc members that deserve love!!

im more into hxc punk so most of these bands will be hxc subgenres. i will be adding genre’s and country of orgin!! not adding any links for now, look out for any edits.

hong kong fuck you , grindviolence from tijuana, mexico. a project of christian hell, has latino and black members

zulu , powerviolence from los angeles, california, usa. originally a solo project of anaiah lei, all members are black

zyanose , noisy hardcore punk from osaka prefecture, japan. all members are japanese

g.i.s.m. , hardcore punk / heavy metal band from tokyo, japan. all members are japanese

limp wrist , queer hardcore punk from albany, new york, usa. martin sorrondeguy is latino (also apart of los crudos)

los crudos , hardcore punk band from chicago, illinois, usa. all members are latino

despise you , powerviolence band from californa, usa. some if not all members are latino

bad brains , hardcore punk band from washington, d.c, usa. all members are black (probably the most well known band on this list)

gorepot , stoner brutal / slam death metal / grindcore band from taiwan. solo project. their genre is complicated and they aren’t exactly punk but they deserve some love

sebum excess production , deathgrind band from from brazil. solo project (?)

c.a.r.ne , pornogrind band from mexico city, mexico. all members are latino

bodily stew , goregrind band from california, usa. ive heard that eddie and david are latino but i may be wrong

mxmxm , mincegore band from coachella, california, usa. might be a solo project but but ive heard they are latino

chulo , grindviolence band from bogatá, colombia. all members are latino

soul glo , hardcore punk band from philadelphia, pennsylvania, usa. 2 of the current members are black

taqbir , post-punk band. moroccan but based somewhere in europe. all members of the band are anonymous (?)

ill be adding onto this list as i go (im a little tired now) but please recommend bands for this list!!

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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eminem is trans masc to some, trans fem to others, and an enemy to all

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The shirt now has snaps to be unsnapped! For the performance part. You can probably guess what's gonna happen lol

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rough day for marcille

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Sorry for tagging your art with just # oogh or # oh. Just know this means im profoundly moved

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I just finished reading dungeon meshi and yknow. when people talked about laois doing things like getting on the ground and barking I was like yeah “haha so true” but no he literally does that. there was no amount of irony in those statements he really said “mind if I get on all fours and start barking and snarling and growling” and he did not wait for answer

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[RUINING THE LIVES OF PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT REAL] i am playing. With my touys

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Babygirl I know fandom history that you wouldn’t even care about

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As a person of colour, Toshiro is so unbelievably relatable once you realize the reasons and emotions behind his actions. He's been microaggressed upon p much all the time down to the name people call him, but he continues to be silent about it because of the cultural pressure he was raised on of having to be polite and kind and not to speak his true thoughts.

I can relate so hard to his jealousy about laios being able to be more open and confident and speak his mind. I can never bring myself to dislike him at all esp during the laios/toshiro fight because both of them are coming from very real relatable places to me. Its a nuanced conflict. Toshiro has a lot of pent up emotions he needed to get out for all the reasons i said before. And laios was rightfully upset about Toshiro not seeing him the same way he sees him and hiding all of this from him. Both of these guys are in the wrong in this situation. It's not a good guy / bad guy thing.

They both are different kinds of autistic people under different circumstances and I can honestly relate to them both on different things.

Also the scene right after dude gives him the bell and gives them a way out if things were to get bad. And with that we see he obviously cares for laios and the rest of the party despite everything.

All in all. Love u Toshiro they could never make me hate u !!