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I don't overshare for attention. I overshare because I have no impulse control and poor boundaries ♡

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BPD culture is legitimately being an introvert/extrovert but never knowing how to find a healthy middle ground so you're always either socialising because you're too afraid to be alone or self isolating because you're severely depressed

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why do you get to move on but i dont

why do you get to heal after you destroyed me

why do you get to be happy after you left me miserable

why do you get to act like nothing ever happened

why do you get to act like there was never anything between us

its not fair its not fucking fair

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“I’ve found that growing up means being honest. About what I want. What I need. What I feel. Who I am.”

— Epiphany

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Being bored almost feels like being burned alive when you have bpd

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Because if I met my little self,

I would hug her SO tightly.

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"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

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Emotions aren’t “right” or “wrong.” Your specific emotional reaction (or lack of reaction) doesn’t make you “good” or “strong” or “mature.”

Your emotions are a part of you, a way to help you interpret and understand things. They might be powerful, or difficult to bear, or even overwhelming - but they should be listened to, and never seen as shameful or embarrassing.

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I hate explaining myself to people or, explaining how I feel. I always immediately regret it afterwards.

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do i wait for them to hurt me or do i just push them away before they can?

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bpd culture is being unable to stop arguing despite just wanting to be held and loved and comforted because youve still got anger and the part of you that never got to be angry

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Wild things I have learnt in therapy:

When a child cries, parents are supposed to comfort them, not punish them

Parents are, in fact, supposed to want to spend time with their children

Children too have a right to privacy, meaning parents are not allowed to read their diaries etc and then punish them for the thoughts they found about

Children are allowed to be upset and cry

Children don't have to earn the love and attention from their parents by performing various things

Children are not supposed to be scared of going home and/or their parents

Children are not supposed to be physically abused and even a little bit of hitting is actually physical abuse

Parents are not supposed to expect that children are mentally as mature as other adults

Children are not supposed to be told that they're an accident, a burden, or something the parents regret

Children are not supposed to be scared and ashamed of themselves or feel like failures because of their parents

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attention whore with social anxiety <3

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Wishing all undiagnosed/partially diagnosed people a very doctors listening to you and providing you with more testing than a blood draw and even possibly providing treatment 2024

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shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ♡

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every single day there is something to do & i am sick of it