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Lothar Wolleh - Lucio Fontana at work, 1967

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covered up my tracks again gave it all away you said isn’t it strange how you rely on finding new ways to numb it out

go a spend another night getting your dick all desiccated keep on standing there all intact so secure, so torpefied

you’re so secure, so torpefied you’re so secure.

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can’t have nothing in america.

cultfriends,

i have a crush on you, what’s your social security number?

thanks,

magnus ligon

i no american

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i love playing doctor pimple popper

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Hi Magnus! I normally wouldn't do this, so I sincerely hope it won't come off as weird but I wanted to tell you something. More like, thank you. Since losing my fiance, I've been feeling the kind of heavy things I've never felt before and your music has become the closest thing to consolation I could find. I often feel as if I've lost myself to my grief, as if everything that used to matter to me no longer does, but your music (and your presence here on Tumblr) have reminded me that I can still return to some of the things that used to matter to me, such as making art. I can't say I'm healing yet, but I can say that there have been days when your music has been the only source of stillness in the storm, if I can put it that way. I can't begin to express how much I value you and your music, so thank you for creating it. Thank you for being the person you are and for pouring as much of yourself into your art as you have. You're incredible.

firstly, i would like to say I’m so sorry for your loss. i know a sorry doesn’t do much, but i truly feel for you. secondly, i’m beyond humbled that my music has managed to help you in some way. grief is such an overwhelming emotion, so if these songs allow you to surface even for a moment to catch your breath, i could not ask for anything more. music has such incredible power to allow us to process even our most complex emotions, at least for me. thank you for sharing your feelings, and thank you for feeling comfortable enough to be vulnerable. thank you again for your humbling words, ily and i wish you the best with your healing :)

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uh oh

been so unbelievably happy lately what could possibly go wrong

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been so unbelievably happy lately what could possibly go wrong

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dear god,

please let me leave my retail job asap. i sometimes see visions of myself standing behind that counter with grey hair and hearing aids. if this is not preventable, please give me a heads up.

thanks,

magnus ligon

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i’m tapering off fluoxetine and i don’t think i realized how much it was suppressing my emotion and expression. i’ve cried more today than i have in a long long time and it feels so good. i feel like songwriting is going to feel much more natural again and not like i’m trying to plant a seed in the middle of a desert

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i started writing this right when i started reading "dancer from the dance" by andrew holleran. i've only read two of his books so far, the other being "the beauty of men," but i love seeing this side of queer culture from the 70s that was so tumoltuous.

(i also interpolated a small part of two-headed mother by ethel cain into this because the riffs in that song are just something else)

lyrics:

and i wanted the worst of you

but i wouldn't think worse of you no

did what i was supposed to do

to get a piece of the problem

cause baby you were close enough

and i was barely holding on

but i still need something to grab and someone to dote on

(i do i do i do i do)

but you know

you know

you know

you know

my problem's letting go

tangled in the rope

i don't need to prove a single thing to you

when i know that i don't really need it

(i need i need i need i-)

said i wouldn't choke

with hands around my throat

had a view of heaven revoked

now i can't read the room anymore

took too much and fell to the floor

dazed and strung along

waiting to belong here

cause i can't leave the room anymore

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i’m actually at a complete loss for words for nettles. like when the drums came in i literally experienced something i genuinely cannot put into words. oh my god.

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How are you doing lately, honestly? Now that the EP has been released for a while, are you working on any new projects?

i’ve been very tired but yes i’m playing around with a bunch of new stuff lately!

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Finnish Soldiers

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i have no idea what the fuck the cocteau twins are saying but it really speaks to me

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top books i’ve read so far this year

1. the lamb by lucy rose

2. the charioteer by mary renault

3. the lamb by lucy rose

4. the antidote by karen russel

5. the lamb by lucy rose