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i've had enough of frat boy eren. i need metalhead eren. metalhead eren canon idgaf

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What's the opposite of "fuck my stupid baka life" ?

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i've spoiled myself significantly which is why i can even say this but i do think that one of the major themes of bleach is finding out how to balance your allegiance to multiple communities, many of which are naturally at odds

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The ending of Walpurgisnacht Rising was revealed to me in a dream by Gen Urobuchi himself.

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I just finished my piece on Chi no Wadachi! I put a lot of effort into this one because I love the story so much. I definitely don't discuss all possible angles in this post, but I hope I've provided a basis for further analysis. Enjoy!

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"Oh, that manga seems interesting, I wonder what it might be about–"

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Chi no Wadachi / Blood on the Tracks

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The Root of Evil

“All parents screw up all children”, as Dr. House would say. In some ways, Seiko is not remarkable. There is something that separates her actions from a lot of other parents’ actions, though. See, most parents are trying to do right by their kids. They may fail miserably, but they’re trying the best they can.

What truly separates Seiko from everyone else is that she’s not trying. None of the past later events proved that Seiichi’s abuse started with good intentions. Quite the opposite, in fact. Seiko just confessed that she always planned to use a baby to fulfill her own emotional needs.

“In a way, I felt as if I were the baby soaking up my own mothering. I didn’t feel lonely or abandoned when I was with him. Every moment I spent with him was a convoluted way to mother myself.” What looked to the outside world like devoted parenting was in reality a way to satisfy her own unmet needs for attachment. “I was so blind, so totally blind to what I was doing,” she cried in anguish. “Where were the warning signs?”

This is a quote from a book called The Emotional Incest Syndrome, although could’ve come from Seiko’s lips. It never will, though, because she’ll never take responsibility for her actions, for destroying her son’s life.

Here’s another quote from the same book:

“All parents derive some degree of comfort and satisfaction from their children. Parenting is never a totally thankless task. If it were, the human race would have vanished long ago. No one could put up with the late-night feedings, the dirty diapers, the incessant crying, and the constant need for attention if there was nothing to gain from the relationship. […] Some of the hidden joys of parenting are: increased physical contact; is increased intimacy, and unconditional love. Children love their parents regardless of what they do. Their need for attachment is so great that they can make a banquet out of crumbs. Imagine this typical scene: A man drags himself home after a hard day at work. He’s lost a key client, and his frantic efforts to contain the damage have made him an hour late for dinner. When he gets home, his wife gives him a peck on the cheek and chides him for ruining supper. His 4-year-old daughter, however, gives him a much warmer reception. She vaults across the room, leaps into his arms, and smothers him with kisses. “Daddy’s home! Daddy’s home!” His late arrival has only heightened her anticipation. Who can blame a parent for reveling in this devotion?”

She spent three years reveling in the glory of unconditional love, and then she tried to kill her only son. How do you justify that?!  

And no, postpartum depression - one of my earlier suspicions - is no longer an option. There’s absolutely no evidence she suffered from postpartum depression. The pregnancy was not traumatic in any way, heck, the marriage was not traumatic in any way, even though these two people were never in love with each other to begin with. In spite of this, they agreed to get married. I always thought that the marriage had to be traumatic enough because she seemed desperate to get out of it. But I was wrong! 

Was unconditional love suddenly not enough for her? Was it the fact that she doesn’t understand unconditional love enough to feel it when her son hugs her? Or was it the fact that Seiichi wanted to achieve little bits of independence (like tying his own shoes) that made her give up on him? Maybe it was the fact that you cannot use other people to make yourself feel better for too long. Eventually, you’ll realize that it doesn’t work that way. 

And are we really going to forget that she thought about abortion? She conveniently left that out in her little ‘walk down memory lane’, although she had said it before in the court of law. 

Many questions are still unanswered: why did she try to kill Seiichi the first time around? Why didn’t she finish him off when he could barely move? Why did she return home with him? Why can’t she just pack her bags and leave, if she’s so unbearably miserable? Why does she have to wait for police intervention? This bitch is so weird… She was the adult, she had an obligation to take responsibility for her own needs and her own happiness.

One thing is true, though: she destroyed the life of an innocent child for nothing, and none of this was accidental, and that’s why Seiko is a real monster.

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Okarun x Momo

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Paint over of Gustav Klimt's Death and Life.

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Happy dazai day or wateva

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Blue hair is my favorite thing to shade! This sticker page style is also super fun to draw in.

(Also included: my personal headcanon that Noritoshi likes to be a good senpai by lecturing his juniors, but they all think he's too longwinded and as a result, they don't listen and end up screwing up all over again. )

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the funniest thing about reiner and bertholdt's reveal in season two was that reiner basically outed the both of them even before the whole "I'm the armoured titan, he's the colossal."

when eren was helping armin up over the ledge, reiner turns to him with frustration and clearly says, in the dub, "armin, go ahead and tell eren about that time when annie nearly crushed me like an insect!" to which it then shows us a flashback from when the female titan had reiner in its grasp, about to crush him before he broke free at the last second.

reiner and bertholdt were never supposed to know about annie being the female titan—none of the scouts were told to inform them about her reveal in stohess. this is why we hear armin go quiet for a split moment before quickly whispering a small "yeah" under his breath—he had caught onto this slight mistake that reiner included in his rant, although reiner himself hadn’t noticed. more reasons as to why armin arlert should be in everyone’s top ten aot characters.

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For a body in the garden