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GUT WRENCHING ANGST with ajax please thank uu

anything you ask, darling! @bwitch3d asked for something similar, so i made just one! thanks for the request. this one is a little long, but i hope u guys like it <33

ajax petropolus x fem!reader — forbidden lovers; angst + fluff at the end

NO MATTER THE CONSEQUENCES

You remember exactly how your first year at Nevermore was. Traumatic. You were excited to make friends, since you felt extremely lonely at home. You were an only child and your parents never gave you enough attention. So you wanted to have friends that you could play with. Things that children normally want.

You met wolves, vampires, mermaids and gorgons - a species your parents despised. Although, you wanted to befriend each one of them.

Ajax Petropolus, a gorgon, gave you a huge smile and asked you to sit next to him in your first class. “Is this your first day here?” the boy's thin voice made you crack a smile.

“Yeah! How about you?” the boy nodded and you both spent the whole year together. Having fun, studying together. He became your first and best friend on Nevermore and you made a lot of other friends - but where you were, Ajax was and where Ajax was, you were.

When the holidays arrived, you were dying for your families to meet so you could spend the holidays together, but when your mothers saw each other, it was a disaster.

“You!” the two spoke at the same time. You and Aj looked at each other confused. They already knew each other and it seemed like it hadn't been a good interaction.

“What I said about gorgons, y/n! We despise them” your mother said and you felt the blood rush to your head.

“But mom-“ you tried to speak but Ajax's mom cut you off.

“You two are forbidden to talk-“

“Oh dear, let me give orders to my daughter, you should take care of this boy” your mother interrupted. How could they do this to you?

“Let’s go, Aj” the boy looked at you with no sparkle in his eyes. You could tell he was devastated. And you were too. You could feel your heart being shattered into a thousand pieces.

On vacation, obviously you weren't going to give up on Ajax’s friendship, so you sent him secret letters every day - since your mother had confiscated your cell phone. But he didn't answered.

You thought it might be his mom who wouldn't let him send letters, so when your classes started again, you tried to talk to him.

The boy was in the library, reading a book very concentrated. “We can't do this” he whispered without looking at you. He looked around, like he was embarrassed that someone would see you talking with him.

“Come on, Aj! You gotta be kidding” you nudged him, trying to make the boy laugh.

“I'm serious” he looked into your eyes in a way that broke your heart. It couldn't be true. “You need to get out of here, I'm busy.”

You stood there for a few moments and left. Not even noticing that a few tears were falling from your eye. Your first friend in Nevermore already hated you and haven’t done anything.

In class, Ajax talked to everyone normally, but he refused to look at your face. The rarely looks that he gave you were filled with sadness. He got close to Enid and Xavier - he spoke to them the way he spoke to you and it made your heart break even more.

Even though time passed, every vacation you had, you tried to find out what happened between your families, but you haven’t found anything.

“Mom, but forbidding me to talk to Ajax is surreal! Why so much hate between you and his family?” you insisted on every family dinner.

“Still not over it, y/n? Have you fallen in love with a gorgon?” your mother teased you.

“Of course not!” she smiled satisfied by your answer and it drove you crazy. “But what if I were, what would you do?” your mother gave you a death glare.

“Is this boy trying to make contact with you?”

“No, because you forbade us to talk!” you snapped.

“Honey, if he cared about your friendship, he would’ve gone after you...which didn’t happened.” the woman said like she was deathly sorry for you. If you could, you would leave your house and never come back again.

“You disgraced my life in Nevermore.” you leave the table.

“I think she needs a therapist” you heard your father whisper across the table.

But this year you swore it would be different. As much as you hated to admit it, your mother was right. If Ajax still wanted to be your friend he would at least smile at you. So the best thing you could do for your mental health was to give up trying to find a reason for your ‘breakup’ and enjoy the year in Nevermore.

And so you did, you met a funny girl - Wednesday Addams - she barely smiled, didn't even show much affection, but she shared her thoughts and theories about the monster that was in town with you.

“I think you're the only decent person after Enid in this school” she affirmed and you took it as the best compliment you had ever received in your life.

You also started seeing a boy. His name was Ryan - he was tall, brunette, dark skinned. He was handsome and fun. You were missing so bad to laugh with someone that it turned into something bigger.

“I think we should date, like boyfriend and girlfriend thing” Ryan whispered to you one day while you were studying in the library. Your hand sweated and your heart raced. You felt like you were more scared than excited.

You felt that the boy was strange today, his legs were always shaking. He seemed distant and you didn't want to disturb him. Thought it was a problem with his grades - but now you realized that it could be the nervousness of asking you to be his girlfriend.

“W-what?” you stuttered, not knowing if it was true or not. You thought you didn’t matched in that way, he was nothing like you. “Are you serious?” the boy just smiled but you felt like it wasn’t a honest gesture.

"Great, girlfriend! We're dating now" he yelled for the entire library to hear. Some applauded, others asked for silence and you still didn't know how to react. What just happened here?

The next day, the news had already spread throughout the school. Even Weems came to talk to you. “Congratulations on your relationship, y/n! But I don't want to see him go to your room at night!” she laughed. “I remember my teenage days like it was yesterday.” she threw a wink in your direction and walked away.

But you started to feel uncomfortable when you walked down the hall and everyone started whispering and looking at you. If there was one thing you hated, it was having attention towards you. Something Ryan loved.

“Are you alright?” Enid asked you as soon as you sat in your seat to start class.

“Apart from all those stares, I am” you flashed a smile at her and the girl put a hand on your arm.

“If you need anything I'm here, I ended up not posting this gossip on my blog, but that's because we're friends and I would hate to make you uncomfortable” she said making you confused.

“Thanks… I guess” you whispered the last sentence as soon as Tornhill entered the class

Your gaze met Ajax's who was staring at you as if you had just beaten him in a fencing duel, he was sad and nervous. This minimal interaction had been the only one in years. Your heart sped up and you hated the feeling.

At break, you spotted your boyfriend who was laughing with his friends. When they saw you, the boys moved away and Ryan looked a little nervous. He didn't even kissed you. Maybe it was because there were a lot of people around him still whispering about you.

“Everyone is talking about us!” you whispered to him.

“I know! And I'm so sorry, y/n! I swear it meant nothing to me.” he stammered.

“W-what?” you asked.

“Haven’t you heard?” he seemed relieved.

“Heard of what?” you murmured. Your attention turned to a murmur behind you.

“I can't believe Ryan hooked up with Barbara! I thought he and y/n were dating.”

“Not everything is as it seems, right?”

“He told me he asked Y/n to date just so she wouldn't feel so bad”

What the hell?

To be honest, you didn't feel sad that he had cheated on you, you felt embarrassed that everyone was gossiping about you the whole day and you didn’t even knew about that. You thought talking to Enid and getting the full story before you looked anyone in the face would be a great idea.

You couldn't even look at Ryan’s face again as he grabbed your arm trying to say something you weren’t able to hear. So you ran towards Enid's dorm.

You were so immersed in your own thoughts that you didn't even notice when you bumped into Ajax in the hallway, knocking over all five books the boy was holding in his hands. “I'm sorry” you murmured helping him pick it up. You thought he was going to fight you or ignore you like nothing happened - as he always did.

“You alright?” he asked still gathering some books.

“You know about it?” you asked and the boy answered you with a simple nod. You got mad at him for it. You'd rather he had just ignored you, because he didn't want to know about your life for all these years. Now that you had been 'chetead' he wanted to know how you were?

“Why do you care?” The boy swallowed hard and didn't give you any answers. You handed him the books and got back to what you really intended to do.

Enid told you that they had hooked up the day before Ryan asked you to be his girlfriend. Barbara - a girl you didn’t even know - was jealous and that's why she spread it to the whole school. “You really liked him?” the blonde asked you with a look of comfort. You knew you could trust her.

“To be honest, I don't think so. In fact, I didn't even say ‘yes’ when he asked me. I didn't disagree either... but I was in shock! I just didn't know what to do or what to say." you heard Wednesday snort and you and Enid looked over at the girl who seemed to be concentrated on her book.

“Ryan is the ugliest, dumbest person l've ever seen in my entire life!” you and Enid burst out laughing, Wednesday cracked a small smile.

“It's true, though, y/n, you deserve a person who wants to give you the world…” the blonde said holding your hands. “You and Ajax would be cute together” you felt your heart ache and tears gathered in your eye.

“Ajax and I are barely friends…” you knew that Enid was going to say something, but you chose to interrupt her. “| need to go up to my room, l'm a little tired and hungry! Thanks for everything girls, see you later.”

On the same night, when you got to your dorm, you thanked Bianca for being a girl who stayed in the library studying at midnight, so you would have free time to put your thoughts in order. As soon as you started to think about what happened in your day, all of your thoughts turned to books on the floor and a simple question. “You alright?”

You rolled over in bed trying to think about your boyfriend... ex boyfriend or whatever! And you were stressed for not being able to feel even an ounce of sadness for the cheating. In fact, you didn't even know if you could call it cheating, because it was supposed to be something sad and coming from someone you loved, but you didn't love Ryan.

So your thoughts - these were treacherous indeed - went back to every moment of your childhood that you spent next to Ajax. And how your separation hurt. That was a real feeling, someone you loved couldn’t be with you. And you hated him for not fighting for your friendship.

You hated him for every look he threw your way. Hated it when he didn't look. Hated that he talked with Enid the same way he did with you. You hated yourself for still having such strong feelings for him that you couldn't get over even after all these years.

The tears finally ran down your cheeks, and they became uncontrollable, you started sobbing. It was suffocating. You wanted to scream, you wanted to smack something, but all you did was lie in bed and try to sleep.

When you started to stop crying and feel sleep coming on, someone knocked on your door. “Who is it?” you screamed from your bed. Sometimes it could just be a prank that freshmen girls did, or it could be Bianca who forgot her key.

“It's me.” Ajax. Your heart went into your mouth. You couldn't open the door, your face was red and swollen from crying.

“What do you want?” you asked, getting up from the bed and heading towards the door.

“I just want to talk, okay?” he said quietly. Ok, you would have to open the door, it would be very impolite if you didn't.

You ran to the bathroom and washed your face hoping it wasn't so obvious that you had been crying all night because of him. He would think it was because of Ryan, though.

When you opened the door, you felt your heart beat even faster. He was gorgeous it actually hurts. He carried a box of chocolate in his hand, the box you shared when you were kids. You also noticed that his eyes were black and his nose was bleeding.

You didn’t say a word, you went to your bathroom to clean him.

“Are you crying?” he asked as soon as he entered your dorm.

“I was trying to sleep” you dodged the question.

“I didn't know that trying to sleep you needed to cry” he opened a sarcastic smile, but you remained serious. You weren't going to talk to him like you'd been friends forever. You started to clean the boy’s nose.

“What happened here?” you asked softly, and the boy looked at your eyes and you already knew the answer. He was fighting with Ryan.

“Sorry.” he whispered.

“For what exactly?” you teased and he looked at the floor.

“A lot of things” he whispered. “I don’t know where to start.”

“Ajax, I don't even know if you can explain yourself to me! You didn't want to fight for our friendship. Maybe I wasn't as important to you as you were to me-“

“That's not true and you know it” he interrupted you.

“No, I don't! How am I supposed to know if you started to despise me, you wouldn't even look at me.” you already felt your tears coming back.

“Just answer me one thing” he approached you, your heart was beating too fast. “Were you crying for Ryan?” Ouch. he touched your wound, but you wouldn't lie. You swallowed.

“No.” he closed his eyes for a few seconds, suppressing a smile, murmuring ‘good’. His croaky voice made you weak. Ajax knew he was the reason you were crying for.

“So let me explain” you walked away from him and sat on your bed, waiting for him to start. “Well, you know our moms aren't friends. And I questioned why all vacation that year.” At least it wasn't just you.

“I found a very beautiful knife in my grandfather's office, I asked him what it was and he told me that that knife should only be used to kill people of your species.” What? You started to get nervous. “He told me that a long time ago, a man of your kind had a relationship with a gorgon who was married... it turned out that they fought for their honor and the lover ended up winning... killing a gorgon.” This was looking like a book story, you were outraged. “So to this day our species hate each other.”

“But we could have fought it, that's no reason to-“

“You haven't changed at all, y/n! I'm not done yet…” you held back a laugh and he noticed, opening a shy smile. “I did something I had never done before, I argued with my family. I told you that you were the most special person I had ever known, that tradition could be broken, that we could declare peace.” he swallowed hard before starting. “But then they said that they would put people to observe us, and if anyone saw us together, they would hurt you.” he said. “And you know that Weems is a friend of my parents. Maybe you didn't realize it, but she watched us all day, if it wasn't her, it was Professor Tornhill.” Wow. “And I decided to stay away from you, to protect you, but you don't know how much it hurt me” he sat by your side and put his hand on his head. “And then I saw you with Ryan, like come on? He's an idiot!” you didn't know what to do or what to say.

You spent a few minutes with him in the same position. His nose made a noise and you knew he was crying. Shit. “I was worried that someone would say something to you that would upset you or do something to you and I wouldn't be there to protect you” he finally lifted his head and wiped away the tears. “So I didn't know what to do, if I stayed close, they would hurt you, if I stayed away, I couldn't protect you! I hate this! I hate that we've been put in this situation. I hate that there's no way out of this. But worst of all, I hate that I love you.” What? He loved you? Wow. Your hand began to sweat. Again.

“What made you change your mind?” you asked.

“I know I can't take this anymore. I can't hear your name on everyone's lips, knowing that there are people out to hurt you. I know my life would be so much easier if I wasn't in love with you. I promised to stay away from you, but I can’t. You are the bane of my existence. And I want… need to be with you, no matter the consequences.” he looked into your eyes and held your hand, you smiled, your entire body feeling warm, with a few tears falling from your eyes.

“I’m determined to leave my house if I have to. Let's create our own lives. I honestly don’t give a fuck about people say. We are destined to be together, I've never even thought that I could love someone as hard as i love you.” you walked up to him and wiped away a tear on his face.

You kissed him and it was a little wet due to crying. But it was sweet. It was desperate. You knew you love him. And you loved him so much, that it was killing you.

“I love you” he whispered against your mouth.



[manddor]

ajax x shy!witch!reader

she’s constantly getting her spells wrong & ajax helps her, comforts her<3

omg, yes of course! thanks for the request 🤍

ajax petropolus x shy!witch!reader — fluff

SPELLS AND LOVE <3

The sky was completely cloudy, you could feel the winter coming. Your favorite season of the year. You watched the wind hitting the trees, some leaves falling with the intensity of the wind, a white and furry rabbit jumping fast in the middle of the forest. Every part of your body were almost begging you to go connect with nature. The only problem is that you felt like nature didn't want to connect with you.

"Miss y/l/n..." you heard a low voice in the back of your head. How wonderful it would be to make your spells work again! "Miss y//l/n-" the voice now sounded louder on your left side. You jumped out of your chair when you saw Weems in Professor Tornhill's class. "Is everything okay, miss?"

"Yes" all students were looking directly at you. Oh! How embarassing! "Yes, ma'am."

"Have you solved your little witch problem, dear?" you hated it when she called you dear, because she wanted to call you anything but dear. The woman seemed to feel sorry for you and it sucked.

You were the only witch in Nevermore who had lost all of your gifts and you weren’t sure why. It seemed that your spirituality wasn’t connected with you, making it impossible for you to make potions and spells. You followed every single rule: you didn't eat meat, you always did meditations and rituals with other witches, but it just didn't work!

"I'm in the process" you faked a smile, wanting that class to end soon, to fianlly be alone without anyone looking at you and not asking themselves what your little problem would be.

Weems smiled, apologized to Tornhill for the interruption. “Just wanted to make sure” she whispered and left the class.

As soon as the lesson was over, you ran into the middle of the forest, trying to start with the simplest spell - which witches and wizards learn in childhood. You felt a spark leave your body, but when you opened your eye, nothing had happened. Ughhhh.

You didn't even notice when night came. The stars and the full moon were already illuminating your head and you decided to go back to your dorm again. You thought you were trying so hard and barely resting... so the best way would be to get a good night's sleep and try again in the morning.

But at the door of your dorm, a tall boy with a cap on his head was there. You cracked a smile when his back was still turned. You found Ajax Petropolus so interesting. He was a gorgon, how that wouldn’t be interesting. "Are you looking for Yoko?" you asked taking the key out of your purse. "She's not here today..." the boy gave a shy laugh and scratched his neck.

"Actually, I wanted to talk to you... I just wanted to make sure you're okay." What? "What happened in Tornhill's class today... you seemed very distant."

You and Ajax were friends, but you didn't know you were so close to make him care if you were okay or not. In fact, you had a hard time knowing who your friends really were. Never gave much opening for someone to approach. Not because you have emotional blocks, but because of you getting shy every time someone talked to you. But you felt comfortable with Ajax. He was chill and didn’t force you to do anything. If you two were quiet all day long, it wouldn’t be uncomfortable.

"Oh, I'm fine, yes" you opened the door, left your scarf on the bed, took off your coat and sat at the desk. The boy followed you into the room and closed the door behind him. "Thanks for asking... but you don't have to mind. I'm just running errands..."

"You're not able to do spells, are you? Yoko told me" Thanks, Yoko. "I'm not, but that's fine!” you opened a fake smile, which he clearly noticed. “Well, I'm sure you have more interesting things to do right now" he sat down on your bed.

"I actually have something to give you" the boy put his hand inside his pants pocket and pulled out something very thin and shiny with a pendant. You could recognize any crystal that were in front of you and it was a citrine. "I looked it up in library books and it says that this crystal raises the vibration of the Solar Plexus Chakra, taking away insecurity and fear."

Wow. Just wow. He literally searched for Chakras to give you a crystal? Oh. My. God.

"And I'm fine staying here with you, we can do whatever you want. Just to clear you mind... I mean- If you want, of course." he waited for you to answer, with a shy smile on his face, but you were disoriented. Did Ajax like you? In the same way that you liked him?

“Of course!” the boy smiled.  “Actually, I wanted to cook today... I have a little tradition of baking cookies every time winter comes... I'd love to have your company." he nodded.

“Can I?” he shook the necklace on his hands and you turned your back and tied your hair so he could put it on you. His hands were cold, making your neck shiver at the touch.

The other day, you woke up early and saw Ajax sleeping on Yoko’s bed. He looked like a baby sleeping, hugging a pillow and all shrunken. You smiled with that view and tried to wake him up.

“Oh my god! I feel asleep here. I’m sorry” he looked confused.

“There’s no problem! It was actually really good having your company here” you said holding a glass of tea and giving him the cookies you two baked last night.

“Ready to try again?” you nodded.

You two went to the forest to test another spell. The boy sat next to you, watching you spread out the ingredients you needed to use to prepare yourself for making spells. "If you keep staring at me, I won't be able to concentrate!"

"i'm not staring at you, i'm admiring you." you felt your cheeks burn. "I'm here to support you. I know you can do it" he squeezed your hand and you closed your eyes to concentrate. Ajax didn’t took his hands away from yours and you could feel some kind of peace that you didn’t in years.

When you concentrated on the noise of the trees, the birds whistling around you, and the way Ajax was breathing in a calm way, squeezing your hands a little bit, you felt an incredible energy come over you. The nature was finally connecting with you, a light filled your body, from head to toe.

"Wow" you heard the boy next to you whisper and then you opened your eyes to see that a bright purple light was coming out of you. You had made it.

An uncontrollable laugh came out of your mouth and you hugged Ajax without thinking twice. "Thank you so much, Aj."

"Oh, darling, you did this by yourself."

[manddor]

fluff with ajax? this boy is so 😫 😫

ikr? and i feel he’s a little underrated! btw, thanks for the request <3 this is a little long! but i hope you like!

ajax petropolus x fem!reader — friends fake dating; angst and fluff

YOU BELONG WITH ME !

Rave'N was approaching and you - despite not liking those things - needed a pair. Even Wednesday who had zero manners with people had a date and so your friends started talking about you. 'You swear nobody asked you to go to the ball?' 'Awn, y/n, don't worry, I'm sure someone will call you soon!’

So you went to Ajax's dorm and thank God he was alone. "Please, be my date for the prom-" you begged. "I swear I didn't want to do this with you, but Enid already has a date" you mumbled, glancing to see if he wouldn't get bitter by the statement. When he gave a small smirk you continued "and people started whispering behind my back about how they feel bad for me! And we've always been best friends, so it wouldn't be weird.." He rolled his eyes. "Please, please, please... you owe me! I gave my answers to you on Tornhill's test."

"Cheating on a test and being your fake date is extremily different..." he looked up, because a snake was starting to come out of his hood. "Okay, I'I go with you." he said trying to hide the animal.

You jumped out of his bed and sprinted to give your friend a hug. "Have I mentioned how much I like you?" he started laughing, hugging you back.

"That's enough, y/n, I need to have energy to pretend I can handle dating you to everyone at Nevermore" he said pushing you away with a smile on his face. "I'll be the best boyfriend you've ever had. Although it won't be difficult at all... people will think it's weird that you're dating someone so nice and handsome like me."

"Don't think so, pretty boy. People will be jealous of you for being with me" you said pointing your finger at his chest. "I'll make you some protection charms...” he rolled his eyes again and pointed to the door and muttered for you to leave. "Oh, another thing.." you giggled. "We need to start this as soon as possible to make it feel more real."

"Ugh, okay, y/n! But after prom, I'II try things with Enid again, okay?" you agreed and finally left his room wishing him a 'goodnight, boyfriend.’

The next morning, in your history class - all the lights in the room were turned off, as your professor was showing a slide about the great war - you were almost asleep, your eyes were heavy and you're fighting with the urge to pay attention in class. Suddenly, Bianca who was sitting next to you punched your arm almost making your head hit the table, you looked around without understanding and you noticed the door was open, with an intense light coming towards you. Xavier was standing next to the old man "Sorry about the confusion Professor, but my friend has something to say."

You were still sleepy, but you were fully aware that it was Ajax walking into the room with a huge bouquet of flowers, with Kent's company who had a sign - which Xavier helped him open - that was written ‘Y/n, would you like to go to Rave'N with me?’.

Holy crap.

"Y/n, honey, would you give me the honor and be my date to prom?" he asked and even your professor had a small smile on his face waiting for you to answer.

The whole class started whispering and Bianca shook you to get up at once to answer the boy who had an adorable smile on his face. You were astonished. You had told him to be your fake date, but you had no idea that his head could think of all that.

"Wow" you whispered, then cleared your throat "Y-yes! I'll go with you, Aj."

"Come here, kid." the professor said and you went to Ajax to hug him.

"I can't believe you did that" you whispered into his ear.

"It was what you deserved" he whispered back and you took the bouquet from his hand which almost fell out of your hands as they were sweating. "I'll see you later honey" he placed a kiss on your cheek and left the room. You stood there still without reaction, watching Xavier congratulate Ajax - both with the brightest smiles you ever saw. All your classmates started applauding.

When you sat down, Bianca's jaw dropped. "Why didn't you told me this before? Ajax is so cute and you guys are a match" you blushed.

The next few days were in the same intensity. He spent every meal at your side, giving you hugs and placing kisses on your cheek or in your forehead, getting a lot of questions from your friends. 'When this started?', 'You've always been so close... we should have noticed' and 'You finally decide to get to know each other deeply!'

Ajax took to answering for you, once you commented that you felt embarrassed with so much attention on you. 'Yeah... we didn't even thought about it, but it happened.'

But something strange happened. You two spent a lot of time together to show your cute little relationship, but he started ghosting you. You thought maybe he was trying to figure how he would fix the things with Enid after that.

"Aj" you called him when you were alone in the hall. "Are you mad at me?" he barely looked at your face. "You haven't spoken to me in a while.”

He looked a long time into your eyes and placed a hand on your arm, squeezing a little bit. "No! No way" he cracked a smirk.

"Great! Because tomorrow is Raven'N and we need to be super connected" you said and his smile disappeared.

"Yeah, I know" he paused for a moment. "I have class now, see you later." and he left. You felt a strange feeling, because you knew he didn’t have any class right now.

At Raven'N's day, you were surprised by how excited you were. It was actually a mix of excitement and anxiety and you didn't know why, but you decided to embrace the feeling. You got dressed up with Bianca and a few other friends, dancing and singing together.

You ended up exchanging a few messages with Ajax and even though things were still a little awkward between the two of you, he was still being cute and funny, like he always was.

And when you went to the ball, the hall was amazing, super decorated and with exciting songs. You started looking for some boy who was covering his hair but failed. "Xav, have you seen Aj?" you asked as the tall boy walked past you.

He seemed to think for a while before answering, his cheeks turning red "He... he was talking to Enid." your heart skipped a few beats. "And he's a little drunk." Shit.

You knew that interrupting their conversation would be an embarrassment, so you decided to wait for him to come talk to you. Even if he didn't spend the prom with you, if he had patched things up with Enid, you'd be happy for him. Right? You were supposed to be happy for him. He was your best friend. Just that.

So when you saw Enid come back with a huge smile on her face, you got worried and decided to look for the boy. Ajax was sitting in the hallway and you could see that he was really drunk. "Aj!"

"Oh, Y/n. I'm so sorry... I failed on that fake date thing" he said putting his hand on his face as if he was embarrassed.

"What are you talking about?" you helped him up and his body was heavier than you imagined. He ended up not answering your question and you didn't insisted. Ajax slipped and his forehead met yours. He laughed.

"I really want to kiss you right now." he whispered. Your heart raced.

"You don't know what you're talking about."

"I do, y/n. I'm the dumbest guy in the world... I wish I had told you this a long time ago." he said running his fingers through your hair. Suddenly, all of your body felt warm.

"And the whole thing with Enid?" you knew asking questions to drunk people wasn't a good idea, but you've wanted to ask him for a while.

"Bullshit, she's just a friend.” he started laughing. “Actually she was helping me how to express my feelings" he said looking into your eyes, your heart cheered. "Fuck" he muttered and before you realized it, he had kissed you. God, how you wish he'd done this sober. But you reciprocated. Pulling him closer and feeling his little snakes stroking your hair.

You stopped the kiss and took your friend to his dorm, leaving some water by his side and a medicine that you knew he would need. The moment he laid down, you were going to leave the room, but he pulled your hand. "Y/n... I'm in-"

"Don't" you interrupted him. "Tell me that when you're sober." and then you left.

You couldn't sleep the whole night. Your heart was impatient, it felt like it had just broken, but this time hurting more. It hurt more because you knew what you were missing, you knew your heart was beating for just one person and maybe it had been beating for all this time and you just realized it now. It hurt even more that he had kissed you while he was drunk, probably knowing that it wouldn't happen when he was sober.

It was Sunday, meaning you were free of classes, but your friends were meeting for lunch together as an after-prom celebration. Ajax was waiting for you in front of your dorm's door and you walked to the place without saying a word. You knew he remembered last night, but he sure as hell regretted it.

"Where were the lovebirds yesterday?" Bianca asked as everyone saw you entering the place hand in hand. "We didn't see you the rest of the party"

"We were very busy yesterday" Ajax smirked and squeezed your hand. You pretended to smile and your friends faces were shocked by the answer.

But you started hearing murmurs behind you as the celebration was going. 'Does he really like her?', 'He's too cute for her...', 'Are you kidding? As soon as they're done, I'm going to ask Y/ n to go out with me, she's extremely hot. Aj is the one who's lucky'.

Ajax felt his face boil with anger, pulling you closer and pressing his lips to yours. You felt your heart beat faster and more desperately. You felt his tongue brush your lips and you gave permission to enter. Your breathing was heavy. He placed his hand on your neck and trailed his fingers down your back to the waist, where he pulled you even closer. You broke up when it looked like you were going to pass out from lack of air.

The entire room was silent, but your gaze didn't break Aj's for a second. What was it all about? "That's my bro" Xavier spoke, breaking the silence of your colleagues.

Once everyone was entertained with conversations and gossip from the ball, you left the place and headed towards the forest. It was raining and it didn't take long for your hair to be completely soaked. That was the best way to get your energy renewed and clear your mind.

You sat on a tree, but it didn't take long to hear footsteps behind you and see Ajax's worried face beside you. "Not in the mood for talking right now" you said putting your face on your knee, feeling the raindrops roll down your cheeks.

"But we need to" he said sitting next to you.

"This fake dating thing was a mistake, you know?" you said, feeling his eyes on you.

"I know I confused you about yesterday-"

"No need to explain yourself, Aj." you interrupted him. He shifted his position and sat in front of you taking both of your hands.

"Yes, I need." you looked into his eyes. "It was really a mistake all this" you already felt your eyes watering. "But everything I said and all my actions yesterday were honest" your heart was beating fast again. "Even though I did it in the world's stupidest way, didn't know if it's reciprocate or-"

"It is." you said without elaborating and he smiled.

"Y/n, I'm in love with you. And I'm saying this in the most sober way possible." you got up and the boy followed you.

"I can't imagine a life without you, Aj. I feel like you belong with me. The same way I belong to you" you said running your hand over his face and kissing him. “I love you.”

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i’m doing literally nothing… you can ask requests ab xavier thorpe or ajax! 🤍

[manddor]

no, wednesday addams does not need a boyfriend. she is a strong, independent female character. i, however am not.

oh my god i need him. please let me have him. i need him. i need him so bad.

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ugh i’m obsessing w another fictional character……. xavier thorpe it’s your turn darling

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steven soca fofo. marc soca forte.

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[manddor]

“every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness” and “i’m the problem” and “life is emotionally abusive” and “i wake with your memory all over me” and “you’re on your own kid you always have been” and “lost in the labyrinth of my mind” and “i’ve been scheming like a criminal to make them love me” and “spineless in my tomb of silence” and “now that i’m grown i’m scared of ghosts” and “never take advice from someone who’s falling apart” and

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Halloween costume ideas:

Zombie or Vampire (pretty basic but can be made fun)

Coraline Jones

Jessica Rabbit

Daphne or Velma

A Pirate

Carrie

Sally (from nightmare before Christmas)

Robin Buckley from stranger things

One of the Sanderson sisters from Hocus pocus

An angel or dark angel

The mask

Cruella

Or The queen of hearts

(These are just off the top of my head :)

I LOVED THAT!!!! thank you

i found a really pretty pirate costume, so i think pirate won 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

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GIVE ME SOME HALLOWEEN COSTUMES IDEAS PLEASE 😭😭😭

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i edited my last post! <3 love you all

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five moments (F.H.)

pairing: five hargreeves x fem!reader

wc: 1.8k

spoilers: /

warnings: light swearing, not proofread i cba i'm so tired

synopsis: the 4 moments when five doubted his feelings, and the 5th time when he realised he loved her

a/n: finally a fluff fic for our fav traumatised brellie

•。 ♡ 。•

one

the first time five questioned about how he truly felt happened so quickly, he had thought it was simply his pre-pubescent body’s hormones kicking in again. “here you go,” she smiled, leaning over him and placing a black coffee onto the coaster laid out prior on the table. “cheers.”

they were in the kitchen, five reading the newspaper and her making their breakfast. he lifted his signature, coffee-rimmed mug to his chapped lips, pretending not to hear her clicking her tongue in annoyance over the spilt drops on the wooden surface. “we have coasters, use them,” she muttered, wiping the table with a damp cloth.

five felt his stomach flutter over this simple interaction; his heart pounding in his ears over her hand brushing against his shoulder on accident while drawing back. taking another sip of his coffee, he attempted to hide his trembling hands and swallowed this odd, new urge to grab her face and kiss her.

standing up wobbling, he blinked to his room, along with his mug. five was pretty sure he couldn’t have made it there by walking without seeming like he had broken legs. sighing rather loudly, he placed the mug on his desk, but not before pushing away scattered pieces of paper littered haphazardly to make room. sitting on the edge of his bed, five placed his head in his hands, mumbling, “what the fuck is going on.”

two

five’s window was propped open, her body leaning against the window sill and her legs tucked safely in her arms; her head rested on her knees and she turned to gaze at his fidgeting physique. he squirmed under her focus on him, five suddenly felt the need to look absolutely flawless under her stare.

he brushed non-existent creases from his argyle jumper, the mix of burgundy and navy blue lint sticking out, and concealing crumbs from the biscuits he consumed a few minutes ago. upon hearing her melodic chuckle, five’s lowered head remained to hide his flushing cheeks, busying himself by picking at his clothing.

her footsteps creaked his floorboard, it was as if each one matched his heartbeat. ba-dum. ba-dum. ba-dum. this was a completely new experience for five. in his many years of living, he had never felt such a way towards anyone; five wanted to scream in frustration. he felt like pushing her back, yet he knew one touch of her and all sense would fly out of his fuzzy brain.

feeling her fingers tapping on his chest, every flashing alarm screamed in his ears to avoid her waiting eyes. casting them aside, five melted over the close proximity of the two. they were too close, way too close. with her retreating from him and toward the waste bin to throw the lint picked off away, five concealed his whines — he was already missing her presence. he was thankful she hadn't heard him curse, she would ask tons about it.

three

"so." five mentally complained about his brother's voice, "luther, i'm not in the mood for you now." luther shook his hands, panicked, "no, no, listen to me, listen to me. uh," he faltered. five stared back, unamused, "i'm leaving." "no! uh, klaus! yes, klaus! he's looking for you," luther beamed, cheering silently in relief. "you're both idiots," five stated bluntly, nonetheless standing up from his position to find his other brother.

five’s confidence faltered when he saw klaus chatting away with her. her head was propped up by her interlinked fingers, elbows pressing down onto the table. klaus sat cross-legged on the very surface, blabbing on and on about whatever new booze he has discovered and how indescribable it was. five rolled his eyes, strutting over to the two.

hands in pockets, five glared demeaningly at his brother, “don’t you have elsewhere to be?” klaus had trailed off, stuttering nervously, mentioning something about diego before moving to jump off his seated position. placing a frantic hand on klaus’ knee, stopping him from his movements, she looked up at five, almost pleading, “oh please, let him stay. the story was getting interesting!”

five's cold expression softened; how could he say no to her? "here, you can have my toastie as well," she offered, pushing her plate toward him. pulling out the chair opposite her, five received the toastie and devoured it, he hadn't noticed how hungry he was. "woah there young man! shouldn't you be thanking her?" klaus gaped. she shrugged, "it's alright, i made it for him anyway. i noticed he hasn't been eating much lately."

five paused, focus trained on the ingredients squished in between the two slices of bread. how did he not notice the chunks of peanut butter and tiny marshmallows? "aw, you guys are so sappy. that's my cue to leave," klaus grinned sarcastically, hopping off the table and sauntering elsewhere.

she grumbled, and five had thought she preferred klaus' company over his until she reached for a napkin to collect his crumbs in one swift motion. five mumbled an apology with a full mouth, earning a giggle from her. oh, he could listen to that sound for years. "it's alright, as long as you're enjoying it," her eyes crinkled along with her smile, her fading steps echoing the stairs leading to the living room.

slamming his fists on his thighs, five wanted to rip his thudding heart from his chest, or maybe the stupid nagging voice in his head telling him to confess that sounded oddly like klaus, or even his intellectual brain (or so he claimed) that was the cause of his overthinking. "i'm so confused," he groaned to no one in particular, "where's delores when you need someone to rant to?"

four

it was chilly. five shivered in his bundled-up form, burying his reddening nose in his knitted scarf, a Christmas gift from whoever gave it to him, he could barely remember nor did he really care. he skittered into the supermarket along with her, klaus and diego bantering behind them about an irrelevant topic, five had long ignored them.

"you know what?" five interrupted, "let's split up, okay? you two morons find the lower half of the list and we'll find the top part," before klaus could interject, five continued, "you start from the hot chocolate mix, sound good? perfect," five didn't hesitate to drag her arm with his right hand and a shopping cart with his left. she barely had time to wave goodbye before bumping into five lightly.

"alright, well, we don't have the list since klaus and diego got it," she raised a brow, arms folded. five’s shoulders slumped in exasperation. reaching in his trouser pockets, he held out the piece of paper with the list scribbled on hastily mere minutes ago. “oh. you’re a tad smarter than me, then,” she murmured, eyes trained on the paper. five swallowed thickly. he had craved compliments growing up and here she was, giving them away so casually.

rolling their cart up and down aisles searching intently for the items listed. “ugh,” she huffed. five turned around, “what?” “this dumb cart’s wheel is stuck,” she grouched, rattling it as she spoke. five was aware of how every fibre in his body was warning him to back away, yet he brushed them all away; wrapping his arms around her figure, hands on cart handle, covering hers, he pushed with all his might.

the cart finally moved. five immediately released his grip, pretending as if nothing had happened. she hadn’t noticed his uncomfortable mood, commenting, “bet we looked like an old married couple, you’d be old enough,” chuckling at her own joke, she again failed to catch the way five froze up, not a single inch of his body moving at her remark.

she shuddered, goosebumps rising on her smooth skin, “hey fives, can i borrow your scarf for a second?” five considered it; honestly? he really didn't want to. he was never the sharing type and especially under such cold circumstances? he was quite iffy about it. "come on," she rocked back and forth on her toes, hands placed behind her back innocently. giving in, five carefully unwrapped the warm knitting around his neck, wordlessly placing it on hers.

did she really have to look so pretty as well?

five

she ran up and down the academy halls, her laughter echoing the walls. in her hand held the new camcorder that allison gifted her for her birthday, ever since then, she had never stopped scurrying around filming the umbrellas. five would admit, it was mildly irritating, but the gleam in her eyes and the way her smile was so contagious made him forget why he was even upset in the first place.

she huddled in with five in her room, going through the clips she managed to snatch. one such video stood out; it was them, the footage was taken from a third person's perspective. "huh, wonder who took this," she questioned, clicking into the video. five fiddled with her bedsheets as the loading screen popped up, intrigued at who could have possibly stolen her camcorder, and at the same time nervous about what the unknown person could have captured.

a stifled voice could be heard in the background; it sounded vaguely like diego. her theory was proved to be correct when the camcorder was flipped, lens pointed at his looming face. "luther didn't believe me when i said five's in love. well, here's your proof, dipshit!" spinning the device back onto the oblivious two and zooming into their faces clearly, they resumed their hushed conversation.

a few seconds later, the video ended abruptly, she could only assume that the battery died. "i don't even remember this happening," five said, standing up from his original spot on her bed, drumming his fingers on her messy desk, distracted. that was a lie. he remembered exactly when it happened. she hummed, disbelieving him, "what did diego mean? when he said," she stopped, picking her nails, "what he said."

five scratched the nape of his neck, "well, i thought you'd be clever enough to realise this by now, but i've been developing feelings for you for quite a while," when five didn't continue, she rose to her feet as well, her breath held in anticipation, "i get what you mean. the feeling you just can't look away no matter what, like that person's the sole reason for your existence when it seemed as if nothing in this world mattered except them.

"five, i'm in love with you," she finished quietly, terrified of his reaction. neither spoke for a few moments before five initiated, "me too." he didn't want to say the word 'love' just yet; he grew up so deprived of it, he didn't even know if this could be considered as love. she smiled in understanding, almost like she read his mind, "i know, you're not that subtle," she teased.

rolling his eyes, five huffed, making his way out of the room. "fives! come back!" she called playfully. maybe he was in love after all.

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COWBOY LIKE ME

warnings: inspired by taylor’s song; enemies to lovers; season 3 spoilers; a lot of TENSION

synopses: when your love is so big that you start hating each other

five hargreeves x sparrow!fem!reader

five was the most insufferable person you ever meet. he was so arrogant and a know it all. the first time you met was when his family and yours were trying to kill each other in the living room. 

you were already worried enough that a giant kugelblitz had appeared in the luggage room of the academy mansion. you loved being there beacuse it was quiet and peaceful. the only company was yourself and your thoughts. so, while you were thinking about how you could stop appearing in magazines and outdoors that idealized the sparrow academy, a big explosion gave life to the kugelblitz.

you had already read about it in the thousands of books sir Reginald had in his library. he had this thought that you were the most special of the sparrows, so he made sure you read every book he had. 

it made you a little nervous this pressure that your dad used, because you had no idea why you were special. you controlled the fire and honestly, that was nothing special. your brothers were more powerful than you, so it was nonsense.

then you when you went upstairs and saw your brothers almost killing a weird group, you enjoyed them. 

you started to fight with five, he was with jayme, “go after that big guy, i’ll take care of this one”.

you both were agile and logical, something that was different between your brothers. you liked to fight, it was like you were dancing - full of body movements that required every one of your muscles to work.

"what did you come here for?" you asked as if you were sitting in a bar chatting. that made five furious. he was already pissed because this time line wasn’t what he expected, so he discounted in your fight.

"no bullshit, angel" he said as he punched you in the arm.

"you fight like a little kid" you said smirking, hitting his nose.

"at least I know what I'm doing" he used his powers to appear behind you and kicked your legs, making you lose balance and hitting hard the ground.

"why are you here?" you insisted with your chest rising and falling rapidly, as he put his hands in his pocket.

"we already told your family that, i guess you were busy looking in the mirror just to see how patetic you are.” he rolled his eyes, and you got up. who the hell is this idiot in front of me? “we ran from an apocalypse and just ended up here," he continued.

"didn't calculate correctly?" you asked in a sarcastic tone, making he clench his jaw. "I guess you're not very lucky though, since this timeline is also about to end" you said smoothing your clothes.

"what are you talking about?" he asked frowning.

"there's a fucking kugelblitz down there.” he looked confused, so you decided to explain. “kugelblitz is a-"

"a black hole formed from radiation instead of matter." he completed the sentence, smirking. ugh, arrogant.

you and five were responsible for explaining what was happening to your related brothers.

so you started to study, trying to find something that could destroy the kugelblitz. you became obsessed with that. the thought that your brothers wouldn’t live their biggest dreams in life made your eyes filled up with tears.

with the help of the books, you started to learn about the apocalypse and the historical and scientific accounts of what was a kugelblitz. you were so focused that you didn’t notice that you had company. 

five was drinking his coffee when he made his way to you. without asking, he took the book out of your hands, making you jump in fright. he walked away from you, as if the book were on a shelf and not in a person's hand.

“five! it’s mine! give it to me” you ran after him. you couldn’t lose your dad’s book, otherwise he would notice. you knew that because you loved stealing his books when you were a kid and reading while your brothers were sleeping.

“are you reading about what is a kugelblitz again?!” he sighed.

“i’m trying to see if there’s something we could do with our powers. but i’ll guarantee to you that you’re not going to be included” your cheeks were burning.

“oh, i’m so sad” he said sarcastically and threw the book on the table full of notes. you crossed your arms wanting to threw everything at his stupid head. he turned away, and you looked intensely at his hair.

“what is this smell?” he asked sniffing, trying to look for something. “oh my god” he placed his hand at his hair, seeing that it was on fire. literally.

“y/n! put it out!” he yelled, trying to stop the fire on his hair.

you laughed as he ran to the restroom. at least he was good for something… annoying!

he went to the bathroom running and when his hair was no longer burning, he came back to your room with really loud footsteps. his fingers was pointing to your face and as he walked to you, you walked backwards - didn’t wanted him to be punched - so he ended up pinning you against the wall.

“god, you were going to pay for this” he yelled.

“oh… i’m so scared of you” you said with the biggest smile on your face, trying to piss him.

“you’re a nightmare, y/n!” he was so close to you that you could feel his coffee breathe.

“that’s a compliment, love” five was clenching his jaw, switching his eyes to yours and then your mouth.

“you mean nothing to me” he whispered.

“are you trying to convince yourself or me?” you lowered your tone. whispering the same way he was.

there was a long pause with five still staring at your mouth. he was getting closer and closer, but…

“hey y/n, we need you there” slo suddenly appeared at your room, making five use his powers to jump away from you. thanks god, slo saw nothing.

you suddenly missed his warm body leaning against yours.

the month slipped away and all of your working and studying meant for nothing. you find a way where the kugelblitz would be inside of christopher. but it didn’t worked, and now the fireball was ten times bigger than it was.

you were not sleeping anymore. not only because you knew you were going to die, but because of five. when you needed to be at the same place, you wanted to kill him with your own eyes. and he looked at you the same way. you couldn’t take him out of your mind, cursing his name every goddamn night.

and for the sake of your mind, sloane and luther were going to marry. you couldn’t be happier with your sister finding the love of her life. but it was kind of sad that they wouldn’t have enough time together.

this apocalypse was making you have a mix of feelings. you even caught yourself wondering what would be if you had found the love of your life. but it was bullshit since you had already tried having a relationship with some people, but you knew that you were better alone.

"hey, can you zip my dress?" slo asked making you snap out of your thoughts. she was so beautiful you wanted to cry. you got up from the sofa where you were lying on and your sister turned back.

"slo, i never had the opportunity to talk about my feelings with you, but now that the world is going to end... i love you. you were the best sister i ever had and i couldn't be happier that you met someone who genuinely loves you." you said, making your sister turn around to take your hands.

she smiled the biggest smile, and with her eyes filled with tears, she said “thank you y/n. you deserve that in your life too. even if it is in this timeline…”

you heart raced, what is she talking about? “i know you since we were kids, it’s easy to tell when you really like someone. you should just try it. i think it’s a mutual feeling”

even though she was right, you knew that you wouldn’t be able to love again.

the umbrella academy and ben already were waiting for the bride in the lobby. five was pacing back and forth, biting his nails. diego laughed with lila and said "it looks like it's five who's getting married.”

the boy heard them “shup up. I just want it to be over soon”

“hey! compassion with the groom, please” luther said and suddenly the elevator opened and everyone looked at you and the perfect bride beside you.

five could hear his own heartbeat. his belly was weird and he couldn’t take his eyes off you. you were absolutely gorgeous. with a red dress, red lips and wavy hair. fucking magnetic.

"now it all make sense, huh" lila whispered in five’s ear. his cheek turned red and he closed his mouth that he didn’t even noticed it was open. what have i done?

the ceremony was beautiful and simple. you knew they deserved so much more, but given the conditions they were in, that was the only thing that could be done. and slo and luther looked so happy. they were just thinking about the present, not worrying about the apocalypse that would happen in a few hours. and you guessed they were right. there was nothing to do anymore.

the dinner was served and you sat with klaus. you wished that in another timeline, klaus was your brother. he was so outgoing and he had the best energy you already felt in someone.

five sat in another table and you could feel his eyes on you. the party didn’t even started and he was already in his third glass of whiskey.

the old man that worked at the hotel started to play some songs and klaus took your hand for dancing.

“klaus, I need to go to the bathroom real quick…”

“oh, of course! I'll be waiting” he said, standing up in a funny way and heading to the dance floor.

you took your silver bag and went to the bathroom to touch up your lipstick. while you were walking, you heard his footsteps behind you. suddenly, your heart raced.

“what do you want?” you asked without taking your eyes off the mirror.

“we need to talk. the kugelblitz-”

“the world is going to end, okay? we already tried everything and it didn’t work” you looked at him. and he was smirking with his hands in his pocket. “what?”

“you look cute when you’re trying to save the world” you rolled your eyes.

“really? what are you here for?” he started making his way to you. “are you really going to piss me off when the world is about to end?” he was close enough. he put his hands in your arm and you felt dizzy.

his touch made you lost your focus and you couldn’t think about anything more.

he didn't take his hand off your arm, he didn't take his eyes off your mouth and walked backwards until you hit the wall.

“why are you here, five?” your breathing was getting heavier and heavier. “I hate you” you whispered.

“we have something in common” he said. you didn't know why he had that power over you.

he came even closer, “tell me to leave and i will.” you swallowed.

"i don't want you to" you whispered and placed your hand on the back of his head,

“i’ve been waiting all my life for this moment, even when i didn’t met you. you were made for me and i was made for you” he whispered in your ear, making your whole body feel intensely warm.

he placed his mouth on your neck and you rolled your eyes from pleasure. you pulled his hair as he looked at your eyes. you both smiled and you kissed his mouth.

you felt like your whole body was flying. his hands were exploring your body. the same way as your tongues. the kiss was intense, neither of you wanted to let go. and you knew that it could be love.

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The Actor & I: PART FOURTEEN – A Coworker with a Girlfriend May I add…

This is part FOURTEEN of a very long, SLOW BURN series on Austin Butler and a Production Assistant on set of Elvis (2022).

Masterlist here!

Anything italicized is main character’s thoughts!

Warnings: Fluff, eventual Spoilers for Elvis (2022), mild language (If i missed anything, please comment so i can add!)

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I wake up on Saturday without an alarm, but still pretty early. I lay in bed, going over the events of last night. I was so mad at him for disappearing for a few days and then I just let him hang out and play Scrabble last night? Am I so desperate? Does he think I’m desperate? I just wanted to be there for him… and let him be there for me… I sigh and decide to stop overthinking and head to the gym.

After I work out, I take a long shower and then quickly get ready for the day. I text my best friend, Kelsey, and then head to the kitchen to make a coffee. Kelsey texts back right away wanting all the scoop on my previous night with Austin Butler… at my apartment… alone. She’s headed over so I decide to make a lot of coffee and make us some breakfast.

As soon as Kels comes through the door, I tell her everything and I mean… everything. Every glance, every word exchanged that I can remember. I want her honest opinion on my behavior and what she thinks of the situation.

“Ana, can I be honest with you,” Kels stares at me while sipping her coffee. I glare at her, “Kelsey, I literally told you all that expecting only an honest response…” She laughs, “Ana, he definitely likes you, but I’m not sure if he’s fighting it because he has a girlfriend or because of your work relationship. Which it sounds like is going to on for years… so I’d definitely be careful for both of those reasons….”

I look at her and sigh. She’s right. Not only does he have a very serious girlfriend… You’re going to be working with him. In close proximity. For years. I smile a defeated smile and look down at my coffee, “You’re right, it’s just… difficult. He’s so….” She cuts me off, “Gorgeous, tall, hot, sexy…” I laugh, “Yeah yeah yeah. Are you able to help me with my car now that I’ve supplied you on celebrity insight.” She laughs and nods.

After taking my car into the shop, they actually tell me it’ll only be a few hours before I can come pick it up and I feel relieved. I spend the day with Kels running errands and we go on a hike waiting on my car to be ready. When we get to the top of Runyon Canyon, I feel my phone vibrating with a text and pull it out. I smile and I can feel my cheeks warm. It’s Austin.

Kelsey looks at me and laughs, “it’s him, isn’t it? You can’t blush like that about a coworker!! A coworker with a girlfriend may I add!!” Her face turns serious, and I know she’s right. I look down at my phone and use my hand to block the sun so I can read the text.

“My Scrabble partner never texted me about her car… :(“

My face falls. He was waiting on me to text him? I immediately feel guilty after everything he did for me the previous night and I ignore my instinct of “he has a girlfriend… he’s your coworker…” and lean into he’s my friend.

“Aus, I’m so sorry! My best friend I was supposed to hang out with last night showed up this morning so we could catch up. Good news though, my car will be ready today! It’s not a lost cause…. Like your Scrabble skills :P”

I hope my text makes up for the day of no messages. I cannot believe he spent the day waiting on a text from me? Ana, get a grip. He was definitely busy. As I go to put my phone away, I feel a text notification.

“Oh, Ana, it is SO on you better buy an extra Scrabble board because my new words will burn the board.”

I laugh and Kelsey stares at me. “He isn’t texting back right away, is he,” she asks and I nod. She looks at me and just says, “Be careful… I don’t want this to get in the way of a good move for your career. You just started there.” She’s right as much as I want to tell her to shut up. I mean there’s nothing wrong with being friends… As I go to respond, I get another text from Austin.

“I’m so happy for you your car is fine. Now that I know that you have such an amazing car, I expect a drive somewhere together soon.”

He wants to go somewhere with me? As I’m getting excited about taking a drive with him up the PCH, reality creeps in. He has a girlfriend… of almost ten years… and he’s your coworker… practically your boss… I sigh and look over at my best friend who can clearly see my thoughts on my face.

“Let me answer him and let’s go around again. I need the extra kick in the butt,” I giggle at my best friend, and she smiles. I pull out my phone to send one more text to Austin.

“You got it boss ;)”

As I hit send, I wonder if the wink was too much, but I put my phone back in my small bag and resume our hike. After we finish a second lap on Runyon Canyon, we head back to Kelsey’s car, and I get the call from the auto shop that my car is ready. After a long, fun day, I get back to my apartment and immediately take another shower as that hike got me quite dusty. As I’m getting ready out of the shower and changing into shorts and a tank, I grab my phone and see I have three texts from Austin…

Three texts… I start to wonder if I’m doing anything wrong and usually that means, yes. I sigh and head to the kitchen to get a glass of wine as I open Austin’s texts.

“Oh, after you boss me around about Scrabble, I’m the boss now? Oh, it is on Ana.”

“I actually do wanna talk to you about last night. I feel I owe you an explanation…”

Oh no, he owes ME an explanation? I definitely crossed a line. Oh no.

“If you can, give me a call?”

My heart sinks a bit. What did I do? I take a gulp of my wine and text Austin.

“Are you free now?”

[manddor]

The Actor & I: PART THIRTEEN – Tonight is Exactly What I Needed

This is part THIRTEEN of a very long, SLOW BURN series on Austin Butler and a Production Assistant on set of Elvis (2022).

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As Austin continues his phone call in my bedroom, I start to worry if I’ve been doing anything wrong. You knew he had a girlfriend, Ana. A girlfriend of like a decade… what are you doing? You’re flirting with him and leaning into him. He’s not only dating someone, but he is your colleague… at a new job… at your job in your dream industry. Get it together! I straighten up, finish my glass of wine and decide to get more.

As I’m pouring my glass of wine, I look up and Austin is coming towards the kitchen. He sighs and looks up at me, “Can I have another glass too?” He looks defeated. “Of course, Aus,” I say firmly, and I walk past him to grab his glass from the coffee table. As I’m walking past him, he grabs my arm and pulls me into a hug.

What is this? I feel like there’s something going on. “Hey Aus, is something going on? I’m here for you,” I whisper while leaning into his hug. He sighs and before he can answer, I whisper, “you don’t have to tell me until you’re ready but I’m here when you need me.” He hugs me tighter and lets go, I look up at him and he seems not himself. Not as light and airy as he normally is.

He sits at my kitchen island and just looks down at his feet, appearing deep in thought. I wonder what he’s thinking. I wish he would tell me. He looks over at me and pushes his glass of wine around on the counter. He sighs and then says, “I should probably go, it’s getting late.” He looks kinda sad and I feel bad that he’s going home like this. Do something, Ana. He’s your friend and he was there for you tonight. You look at him and grab his hand, “Not yet. Let’s cheer you up a bit and then you can go home. Grab your wine.”

I tell Austin to sit at the coffee table and I go to my room and grab something from under my bed. I giggle as I make my way back to the living room and hide what I grabbed behind my back as I say, “Now close your eyes, Aus. No peaking!!” I hear him laugh and when I come around the corner, his eyes are closed. I giggle as I sit down across from him and he says, “What is this giggling about? Can I look now?” I giggle again and say, “Ok, open your eyes!” He opens his eyes and laughs, “Scrabble? Your big surprise?” He jokingly says he’s disappointed, but his eyes don’t lie to me.

“Okay the rules of the game,” I start to say as he interrupts me, “Ana, I know how to play Scrabble.” I giggle and say, “Not my way, Mr. Presley.” He smiles at me. There he is! The Austin I know. I continue, “The rules are only not real words are allowed. If you play a real word, you’re out!” I giggle as he smiles up at me. “Okay, I’m in, but what do you mean out? Of the apartment? Do I get a newbie pass?” he asks while smiling at me. I smile at him, “One newbie mistake pass approved, but one strike, Butler!”

We spend the next few hours playing and laughing as I totally dominate him at fake word Scrabble. As we finish another game, I can’t help but yawn and lay my head down on the couch behind me. Austin looks at me and bites down on his bottom lip. What does that mean? He does that a lot and I can’t deny that…it has an effect on me. He quietly says, “I think it’s time we get you to bed, Anastasia.” Why does my whole body tingle when he says my full name? I giggle and whisper, “fine, fineeeee Aus. I might not have it in me to fight you on this. Even though I want to beat you at Scrabble…again.” He looks at me and bites his lower lip. Why do I love when he does that?

He says, “Ana, don’t worry, we’re playing again soon and I’m more prepared with your rules now.” I giggle, “good, I’m bringing it with me to Australia. I’ll beat you at this game internationally too.” He smiles the biggest smile and says, “Bed, Ana. Now” Why is it so hot he’s being demanding? I stand up and can’t catch my balance. Oooo, too much wine. Am I drunk? Keep it together. As I’m yelling at myself in my head to play it cool, I completely lose my balance and start going down. Austin reaches out and catches me, “Got ya.” He smiles at me and I cover my eyes with my hands. “I’m so embarrassing,” I laugh as I stand up, but his hands are still on my back. This feels too nice… Ana, snap out of it. You tell yourself all the time, but this is WORK.

He smiles and bites his lip again, “never embarrassing, Anastasia. Tonight is exactly what I needed.” I smile and look into his eyes as he’s talking to me. He is so gorgeous. I can’t believe I said he wasn’t my type. He looks like he wants to say something, but he pulls me up and let’s go. Why do I feel disappointed? I smile at him and he does it again…his teeth sink into his bottom lip. Ahhh. He smiles and says, “I’m gonna head out, but please keep me updated on your car tomorrow. If you need a ride into the shop or anything, you have my number.” He smiles at me and his eyes light up. I walk with him towards the door and smile, “Thank you for tonight… I really needed to unwind and just relax like that.” He looks back at me and smiles, “Anastasia, you have no idea how much I needed a night like this.” He grabs my chin and heads out.

Oh man, I feel like this job just got so much more complicated.

[manddor]

i haven’t texted you in so long, i hope you’re doing well :(

i missed you so much, love!! <333 hope you’re doing well too