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literally what is his problem

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Is “other half” an another term for boyfriend?

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oh. maybe i just kin one of those fuckers LOL

(upon further thought its probably a "yes and" situation where there is in fact potentially a new alter splitting off from me due to me going "haha mood" at at least one of the characters we are hyperfixating on. and also ficto dating all three of the characters we are hyperfixating on. life is a fuck. plus ptsd stress WE DO TEND TO SPLIT AROUND THIS TIME OF YEAR......)

which tbf. at least it seems to be only one or two (?) splits this year. thats progress!

dont know which yet but hey! it really do just be like that sometimes.

also to be fair. INCREDIBLY funny that its a split off of me, as resident "formed bc we wanted to be loved by abuser" introject. and us fictodating this character(s) so hard for both attraction reasons and also comfort reasons (theyd be able to understand our issues! bc we also relate! and also they r pretty and we love them. and also we match eachothers freak. and theyd be really nice to us/me and wed be nice to them also. good happy feelings all around. etc.)

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my reclusefount au is just who can out depressed the other

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This idea popped up in my head

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Hey positivity post for abuser introjects time, coming from an abuser introject

It’s fine if you have similar interests and preferences as your source. Plenty of people also like sports, or fruit salad, or rock and roll, or that one show. No one person has claim to specific interests and preferences.

It’s fine if you aren’t or aren’t working towards being a happy go lucky, positive person. People don’t need to do things out of the goodness of their hearts to be ethical or moral people. Personally, I do things that aren’t harmful because in the end, it makes my life better, and that’s fine if that’s your only motivation.

It’s fine if you look like your source. It’s fine if you like how you look, if you don’t like how you look, or if you want to change how you look. You’re still going to be you no matter how you look, and even if your appearance matches that of your source person.

It’s fine if you struggle with guilt or shame or whatever over things you did in the past, or things your source person did in the past. Guilt and shame serve to make sure people make better choices in the future, and even though those can be really heavy emotions, it’s definitely possible to process them.

It’s fine if you want to or have moved on from the sort of person you started as. You aren’t bound to being exactly like who you started as, or who your source person is. You can be whoever you want, and your aren’t being false to yourself or betraying anyone by being who you are.

It’s fine if you don’t have perfect coping strategies yet and you still lash out at others. The results of that still need to be dealt with and processed, and hopefully you’re working on redirecting that in less harmful directions, but no one can adjust that sort of thing like pressing a button.

It’s fine if you struggle not to hurt others. It’s probably worth working on, if for nothing else than just so you have the time and energy to do other things, but that struggle is part of processing things, just like a singlet with self worth issues learning to take care of themselves.

You were created to help cope with things, whether it was a convoluted way of keeping the system or another alter safe, the result of internalizing abuse, whatever. These are not things to be ashamed of, and you deserve the same level of accountability and respect as any other alter.

Feel free to add on, or address any of these if you feel they’re not correctly addressing something, or are misrepresenting things.

—Ari

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[Text: This user has multiple factive introjects of an abuser.] Like/Reblog if you save or use!

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new fav song tbh

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me, fighting my demons: i want to make a suicide joke SOOO BADDDD but its bad for my mental health... BUT ITS SO FUNNYYYYY.........

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thinking of an animatic (only exists in my brain) of siffrin and/or loop to the song "fine, ill isekai myself". because it is VERY funny to me

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Sighhhhhhhgghhhhhhhhhh

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hey google why wont my friends laugh at my jokes anymore

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Waitress: here you go--enjoy your food!

Mira: thank you!

Isabeau: thank you, ma'am!

Siffrin: you too

Waitress: (smiles and walks off)

Siffrin:

Siffrin:

Mira + Isa: Siffrin no SIFFRIN NO

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im normal about ISAT why do you ask

[MAJOR SPOILERS!]

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oh, you ate a star when you crashed out? that's cute

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Well at least they're not at each other's throats

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at the insane stage of character obsession where i start getting the urge to post pngs of them every five seconds like im showing ppl a picture of my stupid ass boyfriend that nobody likes but me