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I want to be active but my masters degree does not agree with me. Hopefully will update as soon as possible.

Meanwhile, I will be active for questions and we can have a chat

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I honestly lost all the will to write anything. I feel like anything I write is basically pure sh*t and idk why >:(

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Gone Away ~ Chapter 2

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

Lee Know x Female reader.

Ex Best friend to lovers trope.

TW: slight angst, slow burn, one bed trope, kind of a filler chapter

Word Count: 1.8k words

Note: I am so sorry for being this late but finally chapter 2 is here, hope you all enjoy!

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He was the last person you expected to see. You were not sure on how to approach him, but your assistant introduced us saying his name as Lee Know. He looked older, wiser but still the same. His eyes had the hint of naughtiness that you remember as clear as day.

His strong stance and determined look never changed even with years, when you managed to snap out of my thoughts, you shook his hand and gave him a small smile. ``it is a pleasure to meet you. `` you said, knowing well he knew who you were as well, but you cannot talk to him about it now, not in this setting, so you decided to act like we were strangers. You could say we were after not speaking to each other for years. Although it has been years, he seemed so familiar and distant at the same time. 

It was not a lie that you thought about him over the years, more then you wanted to admit. 

Flashback

A short while after you started to date Felix and he was in a trip with his family, and you were feeling ill. You tried to think about the only thing that was shooting to you, Lee Know and how much you missed him. Your body almost itching to hug him, see him smiling at you, find him and be next to him. Just existing in the same room as him made you feel better. He knew every detail about your life, your dreams, your fears. Everything imaginable. You did as well. He may have looked and acted tough; you knew he had a heart of gold. He both got hurt too many times to let new people in, and it was easy to let people go for him. He was used to the pain; he was used to losing people but not you. 

You remember holding him when he was 10 years old, when his grandfather died, his favourite person in his life. He didn`t even shed a tear, he was simply a stone wall, but you could see the hurt in his eyes. His eyes were almost empty but at the same time full of thought. 

His grandfather was his muse, his biggest supporter. His family was never around, and his grandfather helped him with everything. Every memory he had was with him, in his first football game, his first crush, his first day of elementary school and every milestone he ever had. 

You held him like you never did before, your eyes never left him during the funeral, and it was the first night that you spent together, you sneaked out in the middle of the night. He cried on your chest until he couldn`t breathe. After that you were with him during his first anxiety attack, his first time failing a test, both your first day in your high school. You were there for him, and he was there for you. He thought you how to dance, how to play football, how to drive. 

You were inseparable, or so you thought. 

You loved him with every cell you had in your body, and you knew you could never stop, but he was never good with showing emotions, especially love. 

But you never hold that fact as a bargaining chip. You knew he had a different way of showing love, his own love language. 

He fearlessly protected you, even with the smallest things. 

He knew you were allergic to seafood, and he would check the cafeteria whilst you were grabbing food and would stop you from getting anything related to that.

He knew you would always get emotional in birthdays and would always find you tissues or if it’s your own birthday, he would hug you first and would allow you to collect yourself in his embrace.

When he stopped talking to you, you felt empty. The emptiness never leaving you wherever you go. 

End of flashback

Your heart swelled with the longing, seeing him after years made your eyes almost tear up, but you knew you had to keep yourself composed. 

He shook your hand confused and nodded. Not saying any word at all. 

Even after years, you do not know how he can do that. How can he stay so quiet, not say anything but make you feel everything he`s feeling. 

You knew he was shocked but also not in the mood to talk, especially not in front of an audience.

He was very private and apparently still is. 

Your assistant makes her way around and continues her tour for you, but your mind was focused on him completely. As always, when he entered a room, your body almost got sucked into his energy. You could hardly stop yourself. It happened without you realizing. Your eyes would just be on him. On his every movement. 

You sometimes felt his eyes on you, almost like a ghost around you. 

Your body ached with longing for him, you remember how he used to be around you, almost hovering but you always liked having him around. His presence alone made you feel safe. You remembered how he used to look at your face and watch every mimic to understand what you were feeling, and he would always understand correct. 

After a few weeks in your new work, you were more comfortable in your position. You barely saw Minho after your initial ``meeting``. When your higher up`s gave your team an assignment to travel to Jeju Island and interview and write a story about an up-and-coming star called Yang Jeong-in, your team immediately decided that Lee Know had to take the pictures since he had the closest aesthetic to Mr. Yang. All writers, including senior writers like you all tried to be the one who wrote the story. You were the only one who did not jump to the opportunity. It was not an expected move, but you were intimated by Lee Know and didn’t want to spend the whole travel together. You didn`t want to put salt on old wounds. 

The head editor announced that she will let the writer know today after the meeting and everyone returned to their workload. You returned to your room, continuing your work until you hear your phone ringing. It was the head editor, asking you to her room and you made your way there. She let you know that you were the writer that would accompany Minho and interview/write about Yang Jeong-in. Since you arrived at the company the head editor was a fan of your writing style, and you were becoming friends outside of the workplace as well. You thanked her and left her room, knowing too well that tomorrow you would have to take the trip with Lee Know all alone. 

You woke up early and made your suitcase for the 4-day trip that you were going to take with Minho. You decided to wear a comfortable but casual dress for the plane with your sneakers and made your way to the airport. You liked to be early to your flights since airports in general gives you anxiety. You had some time to kill before the check in counter opened so you decided to get yourself a coffee from one of the stands outside of the airport door. You put your earbuds in and decided to listen to music as you enjoyed your cup of coffee. As you were checking your phone and was unaware of your surroundings, you noticed that Lee Know was seated in front of you and looking at you for you to notice him. You startle yourself as you notice him. 

``Oh my god, what the hell? ``

You stopped the music, and you heard Lee Know laughing hysterically at you. 

``W-what? `` 

He continued laughing as he held his stomach. ``I`ve been waiting for you to notice me for 10 minutes now Princess. `` 

Your mouth felt open as you were dumbfounded of your own lack of attention. 

``I-I’m sorry! It`s too early for me to function properly. ``

He tsked and leaned back on his chair ``It`s okay, baggage claim is open, I`ll grab some coffee too. ``

You nodded and stood up to give your bags and made your way back to the table you were siting before. After you came back, Minho was having a shot of his espresso and he got up when he saw you and you both went inside in silence. 

The silence continued as you strolled in the airport and finally got on the plane. Painfully silent. 

The plane started to move, and you tried to stay as calm as possible as you looked outside of the window. Watching how everything started to get smaller and, in few minutes, they were all gone, covered by the fluffy clouds. All your problems seemed too small at that moment. 

You were as little as a dust in the universe, all the things you think as your problems, they don`t change anything in the world. 

As you were drifting in your own mind, you felt your eyes were getting heavier and you decided to close your eyes and let yourself drift to sleep. 

After you felt the plane touching down to the airport, you opened your eyes. You felt something heavy on your head and you noticed that your head was on Minho`s shoulder, his head on top of yours and there was a blanket placed on both your legs. 

You felt his scent, so familiar yet so foreign. 

You slowly pulled yourself back from him, you felt your cheeks get red. 

When you moved your head, he immediately woke up.

``I`m so sorry and thank you…for the blanket. `` You smiled at him, and he just nodded as he took the blanket back and you took your bag and left the airplane. You still felt his perfume on you as you made your way to the car rental. You two took the car and he made his way to the driver seat and without saying too many words you made your way to the hotel.

Although it was a short travel, you felt tired. You went to the reception, and they only gave you one room key. 

``Wait no, we had a reservation for two rooms. ``

``Ma`am I`m sorry but your company only made one room reservation. And we have no other rooms available. ``

You huffed and Lee Know suddenly appeared next to you. He asked the same questions to the receptionist, but the answer was the same. You both feeling defeated, made your way to the elevator and to the room. When you turned the lights on, there was only one queen sized bed and you looked at Minho as you both said under your breaths:

``Fuck``

You were stuck here. Together. 

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Sorry for being off grid but I`m finally back after a long assignment break. thank you all for still being here

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So sorry for the delay, I`m trying to manage my uni work before I fully give myself to write the next chapter. But while you wait you can check my other work Pandora .

Thank you for the support and patience.

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Gone Away

Lee Know x Female reader.

Ex Best friend to lovers trope

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

Trigger warnings are in every chapter.

Chapter 1

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Gone Away: Chapter 1

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

Lee Know x Female reader.

Ex Best friend to lovers trope.

TW: angst

Word Count:2.5k

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It was the year 2008, where everything smelled like Victoria`s secret perfumes and rhinestones blinging in your eyes. Everyone holding their bedazzled flip phones in their palms, texting each other and taking pictures with their digital cameras posting them on Myspace. Idolizing Paris Hilton and Britney Spears. Covering themselves with Juicy Couture, Brandy Melville, and fake Louis Vuitton bags. Everything smelled sickeningly sweet and artificial.

There you were, not exactly fitting in but covered in different colours and layer of clothing thinking it looked good, adapting to the fashion sense of the year. In your senior year in high school in your neighbourhood, in the suburbs from a high paid middle-class family. You were well of; you were able to afford anything you need but not able to afford anything luxury. 

In your high school there was different friend groups like in any other high school. Yours were just your friends. Some of them were ``cool`` but you wouldn`t say that for yourself. You were pretty much invisible, not having any issues with anyone but not having too many friends outside of your group. Your friend group consisted of 6 people. You were 3 girls and 3 boys, basically all attached at your hips, doing everything together and never spending any day without each other. You were closest with Minho or as everyone called him Lee Know, he was your best friend since you moved into the neighbourhood and for years, he was your everything. Your best friend, your family, your confidant also your neighbour. You two lived few houses away from each other, you having to walk in front of his house whenever you had to leave your street. Since he became a part of the football team in your high school, he was almost always in his garden working out or practicing in some way, which means you always run into him. Your family seeing him as their own son as well.

The rest of your friend group consisted of your friends, Sakura and Ji-min, your girl best friends and Han and Hyunjin, the other boys in the group. You were close friends with all of them, having a great friendship with them, enjoying their company and their presence during your high school years. 

Minho and Hyunjin were a part of the high school football team since their sophomore year and was really into the game itself. You tried to understand how football worked but you could not, you did attend their games regularly to support them. Han was not interested in sports, he mostly spent his time on his computer, gaming or to create music, he would always rap or sing stuff and he became one of your music and art teachers favourite student, giving him a role in any ceremony possible.

Han was very social and was friends with almost everyone in the high school, he mostly spent his time with your group and mostly Hyunjin but somehow always found time to be friends with everyone. Even sometimes against your friend groups requests. 

Lee Know was a stubborn and Mr. Know-it-all person. When he started to get annoyed with someone, no one can turn that back. If he loved you, he loved you too much and protected you at all costs. But for some reason, he did not like other boys from his team. And he was annoyed with all of them but for the most part he would complain about three particular boys. They were very close friends with each other, almost being attached from their hips. Bang Chan, Felix and Changbin. They were typical jocks but were good at heart. Never bullied anyone and would just mind their business. 

Lee Know would get annoyed whenever Han would talk about them or hang out with them, but it never stopped him. Han could be considered as the wild one in your group, and everyone knew that, even Minho, he somehow accepted that fact. 

In the start of your senior year, Han decided to celebrate his birthday in an extravagant party. He was turning 18 and he told your group that he had to go ``all in`` which you all cringed at. Lee Know did not like crowded settings and told you in confidence that he does not want to go but he will since he is a very close friend of theirs.

You grew accustomed to your group and routine. Spending your days with Minho, doing everything you can possibly think of together. You even wait for him during his practice in the library so you two could make the short walk to your neighbourhood together and spend the rest of your day together. It felt natural to be with him, effortless and right. He was everything you dreamed in a person embodied. He was extremely passionate about everything he did, he cared about you, he was thoughtful, an amazing person with a heart of gold and extremely attractive. You knew everyone in your high school had a crush on him or Hyunjin. They were too good looking for their own good. But Lee Know had a different aura, he was like a paradox. Leaving you questioning everything. 

You tried your best to not have a crush on him, you couldn`t afford to lose him. You learned how to live hiding your feelings, not make it obvious to anyone. It was the only secret you never told him, you couldn`t. You never know how he would react if you did. Would he get angry, or would he let you down gently? Although you hated not knowing things, you did not want to see how this plays out. 

You and your friend group helped Han with his party, he invited almost the whole high school, and it was going to be huge. He told your group that, since you were his best friends, you should look your best and have the best time, to set an example. You spent almost a week with the girls trying to find the best outfit and you finally settled on a sparkling silver bodycon mini dress and shoes to go with it. You felt amazing in that outfit, and you kept it a secret from everyone except the girls until the party. 

Before the party, you got ready with Ji-min and Sakura in Ji-min`s house and made it to the party with her car. When you finally were there, you saw Han and waved at him, who came running to hug you and complimented you a thousand times on how good you look. You saw Minho and Hyunjin making themselves a drink and thought about going to them, but Han dragged you next to the three boys your best friend despises the most. Felix, Bang Chan and Changbin making conversation with you making you feel like you were their friend for years and Han leaving as soon as he saw someone else, leaving you with them alone. 

You chatted with them and in a few seconds Bang Chan and Changbin disappeared to get some drinks, leaving you alone with Felix. 

Felix was attractive and nice. He complimented you and asked you for a dance, when you two made it to the dancefloor, he made you feel comfortable since he was an amazing dancer, leading you whilst dancing. You didn`t even notice Lee Know`s stares at you. You were amazed with Felix, his freckles, his cute smile, and his deep voice almost casting a spell on you, making you forget about your friend group who were also at the party. 

After a while, you decided to get some fresh air and that is where Felix kissed you. Your first kiss, under the stars, surrounded by drunk teenagers and loud music but it was perfect. He confessed that he had feelings for you for a while and asked Han to play matchmaker in this situation since you never left Minho`s side. You were oblivious but you agreed to go on a date with him and that is how your relationship started with Felix. 

Your relationship continued with the upcoming months and years. You attended your graduation prom, ceremony with Felix and your new circle that came with him. You spent more and more time with Bang Chan and Changbin as your relationship continued. Whenever you tried to hang out with your original group of friends you sensed the tension from Minho and Hyunjin. You knew that Hyunjin and Minho were close and that was the most probable reason of the tension. You felt uncomfortable and unwanted when you were with them. Feeling like they were just tolerating you for old times sake, they did not want to hang out with you. Except Han, he regularly strung along with your new friends. You had amazing time with them, they were fun to be around and protective of you like a sibling and it was easy to be with them. You choose to stay with them as well. 

Felix and your relationship were great as well, he respected you and treated you well. It was not the most exciting relationship, but it was a part of you now. You both gave each other the space you needed as well as the care. You were in a relationship, but you had a sense of self. You could explore your hobbies and new friends and focus on your education, but he would always be there when you needed him. 

The three years you spent with Felix was great, when you mentioned an opportunity for studying abroad, he encouraged you to pursue it since he knew you could be very successful. You applied and got accepted for it. You were going to continue your education in another country, far away from yours. You know that the money situation was not the best for you, you knew that you would have to find a job to stay there. You decided to give it a try anyways. Since you were living with Felix, you decided to help him find a new roommate and he found a guy from your college, he was okay, very quiet and kept to himself, but it was appreciated from Felix since he enjoyed the quite as well. 

You and Felix had a ``talk`` few days before you left about your relationship. He was honest with you, he told you he would always care about you but he couldn`t do the long-distance relationship and told you it would be best if you stayed as friends and he promised you he was not out of your life, your relationship turned into more of a friendship. You agreed, you spent three years together and it was great times, but you knew that going to the other side of the world and trying to keep the relationship was not going to be easy and it would be better for both of you if you stayed as friends. 

He took you to the airport with Han, Changbin and Bang Chan, all of them almost crying to see you go and promising you that they will keep the regular contact. You promised them as well, wishing you could promise the same for your old friends. You missed them, you saw them hanging out on social media regularly and posting it. You were first envious, but you made peace with it, some people grow apart. But it seems like you were always the one getting left out. 

You tried to focus on your new life in a new country. You made friends, they were not close, but they were there. You found a job and was very successful in your education and the outside. Landing an amazing paying job as soon as you graduated. You had a more stable life now. You kept in regular contact with your friends back in your home country as well as your new ones. When your company approached you with the idea of transferring to your home city in a higher paying position, you jumped to the opportunity. You wanted to be closer to your family and your friends and the pay was amazing. You couldn`t possibly say no to it. Although it has been years since you went back, you were happy to start a new chapter in your hometown. Only letting your newfound friend group known that you will be back to stay, and you found yourself an apartment near your workplace, excited for a new beginning. 

Bang Chan, Changbin, Han and Felix welcome you at the airport, with huge signs and claps, making you embarrassed and they basically tackle you to the ground hugging you and taking your luggage away. You haven`t felt this much attention in a while so you are happy, feeling of home and embrace surrounding you both mentally and physically. 

You stay with your family for a few nights, your house getting ready for you. You feel content being back. Feeling like finally you can breathe. You feel familiar and good for your new position in a well-known fashion magazine. 

You know that it was a huge responsibility, but you were ready for it. 

You have kept in somewhat touch with your old friend group, following them on social media except Lee Know. He never accepted your requests and never reached out to you. Even though you wanted to reach out for a while, you thought maybe you can, since you were back. But you were not hopeful. When you went back to your family’s house, you visited his family, but he was not there. They told you he was busy with his work and had long hours but never gave you any specifics, they never asked you what happened or why did you two had a fall out, but you were sure that they knew because he told them. 

It was a quick visit, you went back to your family’s house and left for your new apartment. It was perfect. Small but perfect. It had two rooms, one was your bedroom and the other was your study room, you a great living room, it was comfortable but modern at the same time. Your kitchen was on the smaller side, but it had everything you needed. 

You spent your first night in your new apartment, excited for your new job and new beginning. 

You got up before then you had your alarm and took a relaxing shower and got ready for your first day. You wore a matching skirt and blazer combination in neutral colour and wore a white shirt, deciding to go basic for your first day. You took your bag and wore your shoes and made your way outside of your apartment to call an uber. You didn`t have a chance to get your company issued car yet and expecting it in few days but you didn`t mind it. 

You were excited as you went to your workplace in your uber and when you arrived at the building, they made sure they welcomed you. You made your walk to your office and settled your bag there and after your new assistant gave you a tour of the workplace.

You entered the photoshoot room and your assistant started to introduce you to everyone and when your eyes land on the photographer you were stunned. It was none other than Lee Minho. 

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Gone Away

Lee Know x Female reader.

Ex Best friend to lovers trope

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

Trigger warnings are in every chapter.

Chapter 1

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PANDORA - Masterlist ~ complete

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader

-Academic rivals au. University setting.

-Trigger warnings are listed in every chapter.

PANDORA ~ Chapter 1: Anti-Romantic (2,4k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 2: Playing With Fire (2,4k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 3: Venom (1,3k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 4: My Pace (1.9k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 5: Love Poem (3.3k words)

PANDORA ~ Epilogue

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Requests are open

Hey everyone! thank you so much for your support on my first series Pandora

I will write an epilogue episode since I loved writing the series too much and did not want to end on a cliffhanger.

Also thank you for voting in my post, 200 votes is amazing! Thank you all so much.

the ex-bestfriend!lee know fic will come soon. I am unsure if it's going to be a one shot or series, but we'll see how it goes.

For the tome being, my requests for drabbles are open, and I`m answering any questions you have or just chatting

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PANDORA ~ Chapter 5: Love Poem

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader (mentions of other members)

-Academic rivals au. University setting. 

-TW: SMUT oral (m and f receive), non-protected sex (wrap it before you tap it), the pulling out method (be smart), aftercare king, nicknames (baby, beautiful, angel), mentions of jealousy, drinking (alcohol), smoking, hint of depression (not directly but implied), 

-Word count: 3.3k 

-Note: Thank you so much for reading my first series here. I will come back soon with new stories. Take care everyone. 

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After your ``interaction`` with Seungmin and you two promising to talk tomorrow, you told Changbin that you didn`t feel like continuing the night and wanted to leave. He was a gentleman, he walked you to your dorm and when you two reached the door, you turn to him. 

``It`s me… Thank you for tonight, for coming with me and walking me here. `` You smiled at him as you fidgeted your keys in your hands. 

Changbin gave you a hurt smile and ruffled his hair ``Yeah, it`s not a problem, I thought this was a date, but I understand why you wanted to leave after Seungmin. `` 

Shocked wouldn`t cover how you felt ``W-what? ``

Changbin almost laughed, he was trying to put on a brave face ``Your lipstick was smudged on his lips Y/N, I`m not stupid. `` He took a deep breath, this time his anger and hurt were more visible. `` I am happy for you, for being the valedictorian but I need some space. Good night, Y/N.`` He turned around and left you standing there, you couldn`t blame him. You did act like a bitch to him. 

You made your way inside your dorm as fast as possible and started to wait for tomorrow. 

Seungmin felt like the whole night was a dream. He lingered after you two ``talked`` and when he saw you and Changbin leaving, he felt a slight heartbreak and jealousy, but he also left. 

He couldn`t wait to see you tomorrow. But at the same time, he couldn`t shake his jealousy. He knew that you were not in a relationship or anything close to that but seeing you with other men made his blood boil. He felt almost like a switch was being turned on when he saw you with him. 

Was it a date? Did you like Changbin and not him? Did you want to talk about that? 

He felt more self-conscience as he continued to think about it. He decided to close his eyes and drift to sleep to stop himself from thinking. 

When you finally woke up, it was still earlier then you expected. You decided to start your day, getting out of the bed putting on a lounge set and brewing yourself a cup of tea. You took your usual place near your window and smoking as you start to wait. 

You didn`t know if you should text him or not but you decided that you have nothing to lose. So you take your phone out and start typing out:

``Morning Seungmin, I’m awake feel free to come whenever you want. `` You placed your phone down but a second later you heard a notification. You looked at your screen and when you saw Seungmin`s text ``Good morning, I`m on my way. `` 

You didn`t expect him to be awake at 9 am after a night of drinking but still didn`t really question it. 

You started to wait for him and finally have a conversation. Without holding anything back. Everything on the table. You decide you will make that clear to Seungmin. You are done with the games, what if`s.

When you hear a notification on your phone again, you look and see Seungmin`s text saying he`s there and asking you if you can open the door. 

You go to your dorm room and let him in, the tension between you two can be cut with a knife. But you walk over to your coach and pat the seat next to you, asking him to come sit next to you and clear your throat as you start to speak.

``No more games Seungmin, I want us to be honest for once. `` 

Seungmin nodded ``I want that too. `` He held your hand between his and looked at your eyes, with longing, with excitement. 

``And I want you. `` He continued. ``I want to be with you Y/N, I liked you for a while now and I feel like the luckiest men on earth to get to know you. ``

You didn`t have any words to say, when you opened your mouth to say something you heard Seungmin talk again. 

``Please, let me continue Y/N.`` You nodded and softly rubbed his hand. 

``All my life, I was told I was not enough, all my life I wanted something to work for. Something to fight for, something to hold on. And then you came to my life, your passion, your professionalism on everything you do, how you love everything you do. `` He took a deep breath ``I want you by my side. And I want to be by your side. I want to hold your hand every step we take. ``

You couldn’t stop yourself from smiling, you squeezed his hand with yours and looked at him, still smiling like an idiot. ``I want those things too, and I want some other things as well. `` You looked at him and fluttered your lashes. You could see how he blushed, and you giggled. 

``You are intoxicating Seungmin, everything about you enchants me. It`s like a dark magic that I don`t want to break free from. `` You leaned closer to him and pressed your forehead against his. ``I want you, and I want to be yours. ``  

The second you said that you felt Seungmin`s lips on yours. Finally, you were kissing him freely.

His hands found their place on your waist as he pulled you closer to him. Your hands flying to his nape, playing with the short hairs there. 

You start to kiss him with more passion now. You wanted to feel him. You wanted to almost prove that he was yours. 

He was yours, even thinking that felt odd, but amazing. 

You pulled him closer to yourself and your bodies almost touching, you felt his body heat radiating. His scent in your lungs. It was everything you dreamed for.

Kissing you was almost like a dream that Seungmin did not want to wake from. Finally letting everything out and you saying everything he needed to hear and more gave him a joy that he cannot explain. 

He felt your kiss getting more passionate, he pulled you closer to himself and pulled you over to his lap. Finally kissing and touching you like he dreamed about. 

He leaned back to the couch and pulled you closer to himself. Slowly parting from your lips but still staying close to them. He was addicted. Both of you were breathing heavily and he gave you a smirk. 

``You taste so good Y/N, I can`t get enough`` he kissed your lips again, his hands roaming on your back. Tasting your amazing lips, with the subtle taste of tea and cigarettes. Although he never got this close to you, you being on his lap, he felt so familiar. Comfortable. 

He roamed his hands on your body, feeling every inch of you. Trying to memorize everything. His hands found your hips, he caressed your hips and pulled you even closer. Feeling you on his length felt amazing. He wanted you for such a long time. 

When he felt your hips slowly rubbing on him, he pulled you even closer. Now your chests were pressed together. He let his hands roam your thighs and helped you wrap them along his torso. 

Now he could feel all of you. Your hips rubbing on him harder now, the friction making him get harder. 

He places one of his hands on your hip and the other on your thigh. As you pulled away, he saw your reddish lips. 

``I want you. `` in that second, something snapped inside of Seungmin. He almost went primal. 

He attacked your lips, giving them soft bites and guiding your hips to rub against him. He slowly moved to your neck from your lips. Kissing and biting the soft skin on your neck. Your moans and pants felt like music to his ears. 

He flipped you on the couch, making you lay on your back as he towered over you. 

His hands found their way to your chest, cupping you. He trailed his long fingers under your shirt. 

Feeling his hands on your skin was the best feeling you ever felt. You felt your body burning with desire. 

You placed your hands on his chest and feeling his muscular chest, dragged your hands down to the bottom of his shirt. You pulled his shirt over his head, revealing him. Your hands trailed on his shoulders and biceps. 

His hands found their way under your shirt and when you took his shirt off, he did the same. Your perfect body in front of him. Your skin looking smooth and waiting for him. Your nipples perked up with the cold air and Seungmin once again attacked your lips. 

Kissing him made your whole body burn with desire. 

Your hands trailed down his chest to his belt. You started to undo the belt and the buttons as you were kissing him. 

His pinkish lips now reddish. Looks like strawberries, you want to bite down to. 

You softly bit his bottom lip. You heard his heavenly moan, even hearing that made you moan as well. 

``I want you…`` you panted between his lips. ``Touch me Seungmin, make me yours. `` you whispered to his lips.  

In a matter of seconds, both of you were only in your underwear.

``You were not wearing a bra? `` Seungmin asked to you whilst smirking and you nodded as you pulled him closer to you.  

Your hands pushed his boxers down and when you saw his cock, your mouth almost watered. It was so pretty, just like him. It was a great size on the bigger side, and it was hard, waiting for you. 

Your hands wrapped around his length, and you started to pump it. 

``Can I? `` you asked innocently and with that question he groaned and got up from on top of you, pulling you up with him. 

He places his hands on your bottom and gave you a deep kiss. You finally broke the kiss and started to trail down to his neck, leaving kisses all over him. Kissing his neck, shoulder then his chest, his abs… You got on your knees and finally reached his length and without waiting you started to rub the red angry tip that was covered in delicious precum. 

You spread it with your thumb and started to suck on the tip at the same time your hands pumping him. 

You started to take more of him into your mouth. You felt his hand in your hair and you looked up towards him. He was biting his lip to cover his moans. With that sight you couldn`t stop yourself from moaning around him. That made him gasp and push your head toward his pubic bone. 

``I`m trying to be gentle but you`re not making it easy angel. You look amazing from here, I can`t get enough of this. `` With that he pushed your head further, he was almost touching your throat. 

``Your mouth feels so good, I can’t even imagine being inside of you. `` You let out a moan and looked at him, trying to act innocent. When he saw that he started to move his lips, holding you still by holding your head. 

After few minutes he pulled out from your lips and got you up from the floor. 

``You taste so good; I can blow you all day. `` You said while giggling. ``You can be as rough as you want, I am yours. `` You caressed his cheek. 

You saw his eyes darken and he once again attacked your lips, he placed you on the couch and started to travel down leaving kisses and small nibbles on your skin. You were giggling and moaning as he made his way towards your breasts. He placed his lips around your nipple and started to suck on it while playing with the other. 

With the stimulation you placed your hand in his hair as you moaned for him. You felt yourself getting soaked through your underwear and clenching on nothing.  

``Minnie please… please I need you. `` You panted between your moans. His lips formed into a smile, and he released your nipple from his lips and looked at you. ``Where do you need me baby? `` With his question you arched your back and rubbed yourself against his length. 

``Words baby. `` His fingertips traveled around your thighs. ``Where do you want me? ``

``Inside, please Minnie. `` A satisfied smile formed on his lips and started to make his way down your body. With his thumbs he took of your underwear, and you heard him moan at the sight. 

When he saw your clit, wet and glistening, clenching and needy for him he couldn`t help himself and let out a moan. He parted your legs and placed them on his shoulders, holding you from your hips and when his lips contacted you, you almost screamed. 

He was going feral from the second he started. His lips sucking and nibbling on your nerves, his tongue dipping inside you. 

``Oh my god, oh my-God. `` You panted while you moaned, you breath getting faster. 

He mumbled against your skin, and you felt his hands rubbing and teasing you. You arched your back with pleasure, closing your eyes, almost feeling like you were in euphoria. 

His tongue and his lips making you get wetter, his fingers rubbing the bundle of nerves and making you moan for him. 

He mumbles against your skin, ``You taste so sweet, just for me. `` He gives you cocky smile and slowly inserts his index finger inside of you. His long finger finally moving in and out, making you moan even louder. 

You bite down your lip to hush yourself, holding onto the couch with your one hand squeezing it tightly. 

You can see him still smirking while he pushes his second finger in. His fingers hitting you in the spots that make you squirm. 

``So pretty, so delicious and wet. All for me. `` He whispers to you and his lips connect to your skin again. Sucking and licking the sensitivity. 

You place one of your hands in his hair, playing with it and when his fingers find your sweet spot, your breath hitches. You pull his face closer to you, feeling the climax coming to you, you let your moan out. 

``Y-yes`` you exclaim. 

``Let it go for me baby. `` he whispers to your skin. Hearing that you nodded and let your pleasure take over you. Your body shake with the pleasure and moans escape your mouth and you finally reach your climax. Shutting your eyes, letting your moans out with the pleasure you are feeling. When you finally come down after few seconds, you open your eyes, looking at the handsome men standing between your legs with a smug smile. 

You smile back at him, and you feel his fingers exiting you, his fingers glistening with your essence. He pulls himself up and whilst looking at your eyes, you see him placing his fingers between his lips. Tasting you, savoring you.

You almost lose your mind on sight. ``You look so hot right now. `` you say laughing. ``I need you in me Seungmin, please. `` You look at him innocently and flutter your lashes. 

Hearing that made him get even harder, he let his fingers out of his mouth and came close to your face. You can see the glistening around his lips and chin, he kissed your lips while he held your legs and helping you wrap them around his torso. Rubbing his length on you. 

You felt your own taste on his lips. 

You felt him slipping inside of you. Feeling his length inside of you, made you almost scream in pleasure. Trying to compose yourself, you bit your lip and exhaled with pleasure. He slowly pushed himself further in you and you started to nod vigorously. 

``It feels so good Seungmin, I want to feel all of you... please`` you almost begged him. Opening your eyes and looking at his dark brown eyes. ``Please`` you pleaded once again. 

``I will give you everything you want baby. `` He smirked and pushed himself inside of you fully. You felt his every inch in your insides, making you feel full and almost whole. 

``You feel amazing, so tight and wet for me angel. `` he exhaled and placed your legs on his shoulders. The new angle making you excited you. He was still teasing you, you start to move your hips to get some kind of friction, to make him move. 

``So impatient`` he tsked. ``You want me to move baby? Do you want me to make you feel good, make you cum on my dick? ``

You once again nodded. 

``No angel, use your words. `` He said with authority.

``Y-yes Seungmin, I need you to move, please`` 

The second you said that he started to move. It was a normal pace, making you moan in pleasure, adjusting to him. You saw his body glistening with hints of sweat, the sun shining on his skin, making him look like a sculpture out of an art museum. 

After few minutes, he started to make his pace faster. Hitting your insides in every correct spot. Making you moan uncontrollably and your eyes rolling with pleasure. 

You felt his fingers rubbing on you. Making you moan even more, your insides knotted with pleasure. His hips and his fingers moving in the same pace and rhythm. 

He was panting on top of you and with your moans getting louder, indicating you were almost going to climax, he started to go feral. His hips hitting yours and the skin slapping noise and moans echoing inside the room. The pure erotic scent and feeling making you come in pleasure. Leaving you a mess. Seungmin riding you during your high and continuing to chase his. 

When he finally was close, he pulls out of you and spills his cum all over your stomach with a smile. 

``I`m sorry baby. I will clean it up, but you look amazing like this. `` he smiles proudly and letting your legs down from his shoulder. Your legs trembling, you give him a satisfied and sheepish smile. ``You can paint me like this any time you want Seungmin. You are amazing. `` 

He was like a fever dream, too good to be true. Intelligent, handsome, gentle, and horny. 

You see him running to your bathroom and cleaning himself up in a matter of seconds and running back to you with a warm wet towel, cleaning your stomach and between your legs, with delicacy. He looked happy and peaceful. You felt safe, happy, and peaceful with him too. You watch him with a smile on your face and when he sees you smile, he laughs. ``What`s up? ``

``Nothing… I can get used to this. `` you laugh and when he finally finishes cleaning you up, he lays down next to you and wraps his arm around you. ``You should because I`m not going anywhere. ``

Both of you smiling like idiots in love. Feeling of happiness, comfort, belonging lingering in the air you snuggle against him and both of you falling into a deep slumber. 

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PANDORA ~ Chapter 4: My Pace

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader (mentions of other members)

-Academic rivals au. University setting. 

-TW: Mentions of angst and jealousy, making out, drinking (alcohol), smoking, hint of depression (not directly but implied).

-Word count: 1.9k

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The second you saw Seungmin, you felt your body and mind went numb. You forgot how to act like a normal human being. His eyes were on you, you could feel his look. You had no idea Seungmin and Changbin would know each other. 

You literally met two of them in different circles and you had no idea how they met but you suspected the culprit as being the only men in the room you were not familiar with. 

Your mind turned to your body as soon as you felt Changbin`s hand on your waist, Changbin was very attractive but him touching your waist exactly where Seungmin did when he kissed you, send shivers down your spine. 

You saw Seungmin physically get stiffer, his eyes getting darker and his face getting serious. 

Seungmin was hanging around the studio before he went to the ball. When Chan told him that a friend would be there you didn`t mind the company since he also featured on the track. 

When he went there and saw a buff guy in a suit, he was confused at first. When the guy asked him if he was also going to the ball, he said he was and when Changbin told him that he was going as someone`s plus one he had no idea. 

After spending some time there, Changbin told everyone that his date was there, and she was coming to the studio and Seungmin did not intrude. He was focused on the track with Chan. 

The second studio`s door opened, and he saw you from the corner of his eye, his face took a shocked expression. You were Changbin`s date? 

Seungmin couldn`t take his eyes off you. He looked at you from head to toe. Your beautiful hair framing your face like an angel and styled, your red lipstick that could make him go crazy, your black dress in which you looked so angelic yet so sinful, your high heels that gave you some height but still short enough that Seungmin could tower over you. 

You looked incredible. You looked breathtaking and he could not take his eyes off you. 

But you seemed to also look at him the same way. 

The second Changbin held your waist, Seungmin couldn`t help himself and rolled his fingers into a fist, trying to contain himself from saying anything and he simply tried to ignore what was happening before him. 

Changbin started to introduce you to Chan and when he turned to Seungmin, you simply smiled and nodded. When both Chan and Seungmin continued to look at the screen in front of them you took the moment to get close to Changbin`s ear to tell him that Seungmin was the classmate you were talking about. Since Chan and Seungmin were having a conversation to themselves, and Changbin was your emotional support for tonight it was best to keep him in the loop. 

Changbin nodded and took your hand to his. You did not know how to react and simply took your hand back with a smile and pretending to look at your purse for your phone. 

``Do you want to head out? `` You asked Changbin. You saw Seungmin`s head turning towards you. 

``Actually before we do, do you want to hear this out? `` Changbin asked with a proud smile, and he got up to offer you the huge headphones that was next to Chan. You were intrigued, so you agreed. Taking the headphones and placing them on your head, Chan started the track.

The second you heard the rhythm, you felt like spiders were crawling on your skin. When the track officially started, you heard Changbin rapping, and you gave him a smile and a thumbs up. 

The next verse, when you heard Seungmin`s angelic voice you had no idea how to feel. Your heart beating in a pace you never knew could, you looked at Seungmin. Who was looking around the studio instead of you. 

`` No escape 忘れた感覚 can't feel my fingers 捕まる You got me wrapped up around your fingers``

That second Seungmin looked at your eyes and you tried to look away but couldn`t. You simply decided to close your eyes and feel the track that was playing in your ears. Feeling every beat in your veins. 

You never knew that music could make you feel like this, uncomfortable but at the same time making you want to listen to it in a loop. 

You also never heard Seungmin sing before, but his voice was unique, you could recognize it from anywhere. 

You listened to the track with your mind blown. You never heard anything like this, not even coming close. How the track made you feel almost scared and itchy one moment and, in another second, comforted you like a lullaby. 

You took the headphones out and all you could say was ``Wow… I have no words; this is the best song I ever heard. `` You stated to the three men standing in the room with you. Your eyes browsed them all. ``I don`t know how to describe it but it made have goosebumps. `` you gave them all a huge smile and pulled your arm out. ``Look at this! `` you pointed out your arm, covered in goosebumps and laughed. Chan held your arm and started to laugh.

After congratulating them for the millionth time, Changbin told them that they were heading out. You agreed to him and made your way out of the studio with him. You couldn`t help yourself and looked over your shoulder to see Seungmin, looking back at you. 

His gaze almost burned your skin. You turned around to make your way to the hall where the ball will be taking place. 

When you entered the hall, it looked like everything was sparkling. Everyone chatting and laughs filled the hall. 

You made your way to an available spot near the stage with Changbin. You were nervous and your palms were sweaty, heart beating with anticipation. 

Changbin grabbed two glasses of champagne for both of you and you thanked him as you took a sip from the champagne. The bubbles in contrast with your inner heat created a relief. 

The dean taking the stage, started giving his speech and making his announcements. You felt someone`s eyes on you, turning your head you saw Seungmin sipping his champagne and looking at you. He had a different look in his eyes. 

It was almost like a predator, waiting for his prey. Almost like he caught you doing something you shouldn`t have. 

You took a big gulp from the champagne and tried to focus on the dean as he was announcing the valedictorian for your department. He started the sentence with saying that ``this was a unique situation and usually does not happen. `` 

You were all ears, not understanding what was happening the Dean announces.

``Y/N Y/L/N…` ` Your eyes went wide and as you tried to react the Dean continued

``And the co-valedictorian Kim Seungmin. `` Your head snapped back at Seungmin who was smiling and taking the praises from people around him, you felt Changbin`s hug and you let out a relieved huff and hugged him as you laughed.  

This was a win no matter what. 

The Dean starts talking once again ``Both students had the exact GPA to the point. Congratulations to both. `` 

You smiled at the announcement, technically you achieved your goal, it was not ideal to share it with someone but nevertheless you did it. Everything you worked for now is a reality. A tear slipped down your eyes to your cheek and you turn your eyes to Seungmin and give him a warm smile and wiped your tear. 

After the announcements, everyone was chatting once again. After few champagnes you told Changbin that you would use the restroom and be back in few minutes.   

You made your way to the restrooms with a smile on your face thanks to your victory. You can`t wait to tell your family. As you made your way to the hallway where the restrooms were, you felt a hand on your arm. Turning you around. 

Seungmin standing in front of you. Towering around you. 

He looked at you with a smile and placed his hand on your waist. ``Congrats beautiful. `` He placed his other hand on your cheek. You could smell his scent under the smell of alcohol. You looked at him, couldn`t stop smiling ``Congrats Seungmin. `` 

He smirked as he kissed you, you knew that he was acting with the liquid encouragement, but you were too. The liquid encouragement and your happiness. You kiss him back, placing one of your hands on his shoulder and the other on his cheek. 

You lost track of the time, you two were kissing each other like it was the first time you were kissing. He pressed you against the wall and looked at your eyes. His eyes were glossy from the alcohol, and he caressed your cheek, came close to your ear, you felt his breath on your skin. Warm and familiar.

``I can`t hold myself away from you. `` Seungmin whispered. Your breath hitched, heart skipping a beat. ``I need you Y/N.`` He whispered, his nose touching your neck. 

``Seungmin…`` You couldn`t find anything to say, his face came close to yours once again. Waiting for you to continue. Your brain short circuited and you kissed him. 

His lips feeling so natural on yours. You nibbled on his lips, tasting him. Placing your hands on his shoulders and pulling him closer to yourself. Not leaving any room between your bodies. 

He was squeezing your sides. Kissing you with a passion you never knew you could experience. He was kissing you like he was starving. 

Two of you kissed each other until you ran out of breath. When he pulled away, you were both panting. The tension between you could be cut with a knife. 

``Tomorrow, come to my place and we will talk about it. `` You breathe on his lips. You tried to stop yourself from kissing him again but your body almost gravitating towards him like he was gravity. 

You kissed him again, this time it was hotter, heavier. His hands travelling all over your body and yours travelling amongst his hair. His tongue dominating yourself and exploring your lips and mouth. 

You couldn`t stop yourself from kissing his plum lips.

His strawberry pink lips tainted with a hint of red courtesy of your lipstick. Looking even more delicious. 

Like an addict you couldn`t stop anything but him. Everything about him. 

His strong hands, his biceps, his body radiating heat pressed to yours. His toned chest, his perfect face. 

When he ran out of breath, you pulled back and he nodded. ``I will see you tomorrow Y/N.`` He placed a peck on your cheek and gave you a warm smile, making his way inside. 

Your legs trembled as he left. You almost ran to the restroom, panting. You looked at your reflection on the mirror. You were glowing. 

Almost unable to recognize yourself, you fixed your hair, dress, and lipstick. Making your way back to the hall, to Changbin who was waiting for you.

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PANDORA ~ Chapter 3: Venom

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader (mentions of other members)

-Academic rivals au. University setting. 

-TW: Mentions of smoking, hint of depression (not directly but implied).

-Word count: 1.3k (sorry for the short chapter)

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Seungmin did not have the balls to ask you for a coffee. When he saw you walking out of the lecture, he tried to catch up but could not.

He hoped he would have a chance to talk to you in the Dean`s Ball in a few days. They were going to announce who was going to be valedictorian and he was hoping it was going to be you. He was perfectly fine being in second place if it means that you won.

So, he decided to wonder around the campus. He found himself in the music department building. He grabbed his coffee hanging around the building.

Noises of piano could be heard all over the building. He continued to wonder as he sipped his coffee and he took a look in one of the rooms, seeing his friend Chan in front of the piano almost having a meltdown. He knocked on the door and waved at him from the small window of the practice room. 

Chan ran to the door smiling and after chatting for a while, he found yourself in front of the piano. 

It has been years since he played but it almost was like riding a bike, came to him once you started. Playing your favourite piece by Chopin, Nocturnes, Op. 9: No. 1 in B-Flat major. His fingers almost playing the piano by itself. Not thinking about anything but just feeling the music and the notes. 

Thinking of your smile, the way you make him feel in peace even when you look at him. 

He did not need any notes for this piece. Knowing it by heart since he was 17. 

Although his father did not think he had any ``talent`` and it was just ``a hobby`` he felt notes in his veins. 

He almost did not feel anything but everything at the same time. 

When he finished the piece, he saw Chan looking at him weirdly. He raised his eyebrows and annoyingly said ``what? ``. 

Chan did not know his friend was this good with piano. He had no idea. But Seungmin could see the wheels in Chan`s head turning. He got up from the stool and walked to him, feeling almost vulnerable. He knew Chan was amazing at music and everything about it. He knew classical music, producing, writing, singing or rapping. He was good at all of it. 

He felt ashamed and out of place to tell him he was interested in music before. He thought just like his dad, Chan would also say he was not talented and Seungmin valued his opinions. Chan`s passion and talent was undeniable. Seungmin knew that he could not handle him saying he did not have talent and he should just keep his musical side as an interest, not as a career. 

Chan felt that something was wrong but did not want to ask directly. He placed his hand on Seungmin`s shoulder and gave him a huge smile. ``Dude you were amazing. If I ever knew you were this good, I would have taken some lessons from you. `` He laughed as he stretched. 

Seungmin was speechless to say the least, but he did not want to make the situation awkward, so he laughed as well. ``Thanks Chan hyung. I have been taking lessons since I was 6. ``

Chan was even more interested now, and he gave Seungmin a smile.  ``You know what, I need help with something, do you want to collaborate on a project with me? ``

Seungmin was speechless once again and nodded. 

After spending days in the library, you felt the need to take a break. Wondering around the library building and chain smoking. You felt stressed since the valedictorian will be announced shortly.

You were trying to sort out your applications for the universities for your master’s programme and talking about yourself was making you even more stressful. You know you must talk highly of yourself in those applications, but you were feeling much more stressed. 

As you were standing outside, you saw one of your friends Changbin. You knew him from the society you attended in your freshman year. It was to simply make friends, but you enjoyed hanging out with them occasionally. 

Changbin was minoring in music production, and you knew that he was very particular about his music choices. You chatted with him for a while and decided to ask him if he was interested in going to the Dean`s ball with you. You thought you were going to need a company if you lose the valedictorian position to Seungmin. Someone to keep you sane and probably stop you from having a meltdown. 

Changbin agreed to your request.

Seungmin spent days after days in the studio with Bang Chan. He wanted to see ``what could Seungmin do`` turned into making him sing for the first time after years. Bang Chan constantly praised him and giving him actual constructive comments made him feel better. 

Bang Chan was working on producing a song for his contemporary music class. The song he wrote called Venom was the perfect embodiment of that concept. 

The icky rhythm and the rap parts he made his other friends record made the whole thing amazing. Seungmin was singing the pre-chorus. The blend between the rhythm, rap parts and the parts he sang which were vocal based, created a perfect balance of imbalance.

Since he was classically trained in music, this project was different to anything he knew but he was enjoying in too much. 

He recorded back-up vocals, the pre-chorus and the chorus itself. Bang Chan used 8 people in the song, including Seungmin and himself. Seungmin does not remember feeling this good in years, except the time he kissed you. 

He wanted you to hear it, he didn`t know how but he felt the lyrics in his bones whilst he was singing it. Thinking about you. Wanting and needing you. 

When the day arrived for the Dean`s ball, Changbin asked you to meet at the studio places in the music department, since he was going to be there for a few hours, and it was closer to the building the ball was going to be held at. 

You agreed and got ready. You decided to wear something simple but elegant, so you choose a black dress, straightening your hair and to make it a bit more interesting, you decided to wear a red lipstick. 

You took your clutch and made your way to the department building. When you finally arrived, you gave Changbin a call to let him know you were there, and he told you to come to the studio. Since you had time to spare you agreed but a little annoyed that he didn`t even have the courtesy to walk you to the studio from the entrance. 

You made your way there and softly knock on the door since you didn`t know if they were recording or not. Changbin opened the door with a smile, and you smiled back at him and when he invited you in, you saw Seungmin. 

Kim Seungmin in a suit. The second you made eye contact; you felt your heart skipping a beat and made your way inside. 

He looked criminally good in a suit. The worst part was, he took his tie and jacket off, rolling the sleeves of his shirt to his elbows and his suspenders were visible.

He knew he looked good; you can understand it from the way he sits. 

This was going to be a long night.          

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PANDORA ~ Chapter 2: Playing With Fire

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader

-Academic rivals au. University setting. 

-Word count: 2,4k

-TW: Mentions of masturbation, smoking, hint of depression (not directly but implied).

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You almost ran to your dorm room after the kiss and couldn’t even make it to your bed and instead you sat on the floor in front of your door.

You had no idea how to feel or what to do. You kissed him back. But he kissed you first.

Why did he kiss you?

What was he thinking?

Was he playing with you? Was there another motive after his kiss?

Your mind was on overdrive, but you couldn’t stop your heart from beating like you ran a marathon. It was the best kiss you ever had. 

Feeling his silky hair under your hands, hearing his moan. Fuck… his moan was the sexiest thing you ever heard. You were sure that you cannot stop thinking about it, the second you remembered his moan, his lips, his hands on your waist. You were far too gone.

You felt like you had water for the first time in your life. Like you had your first meal ever. Like you heard your favorite song for the first time. 

Goosebumps covered your body. 

You felt your hands trembling, your body getting hotter. Remembering his soft lips on yours, his strong hands holding like he didn’t want you to run away. His tongue slipping in your mouth. How he tasted like coffee with a hint of sugar. 

How close he was to you. 

You closed your eyes, not wanting to forget any detail of the kiss. Your fingers touched your lips, still not believing his was there. Without even thinking you started to take your shirt off. While unbuttoning, you felt his scent on the shirt. 

He smelled manly but also like velvet. Soft that gives you a fuzzy feeling in your stomach. Your breath hitches as you replay the kiss over and over in your head. You took your clothes off in a frenzied state. Your body almost moving on its own. 

Your hands roamed your body as you imagined it was Seungmin`s strong hands. You wished he was the one touching you, the one that was exploring your body with his hands and lips. 

You imagined him first kissing your lips. Moving to your neck, your breasts. You imagined how his pink lips would look sucking on your nipples with need. Just like how much you needed him. 

His hands making their way to your hips, teasing you. How he would sneakily start to rub himself to your wetness. How he would roll his hips to get more friction. His hands taking off your underwear, him looking at you with pure hunger. The raw need just for you. 

You didn’t even notice yourself masturbating to the idea of him. If he had known, he would have probably hated you. You couldn’t stop now.

You placed your hands on yourself, wishing it was his. You started to touch yourself, trying to stop yourself from moaning you bit your lower lip. Like how he bit your lips when he was kissing you. You slid your fingers inside of yourself to finally relieve the pressure. 

You moved your fingers faster as you continued to dream everything about him. How he held your arm, how he bit his own lips, how he smirked when he knew he was making a good argument. You pressed your hand against your lips to stop your moaning. 

His biceps, his strong hands, his long fingers, his plum lips, his smell, his voice. 

Everything reliving in your mind again. 

How he had this cocky aura of himself. He knew he could have any person he wants but he kissed you.

You come back to the kiss in your mind. His smell alone making you dizzy. You felt knots forming under your belly. Making your fingers move faster inside of you, you let out a small moan. You wished you could moan his name to him and see how he reacts. You dreamed of him being inside of you, making you full. 

You dreamed how he would look when he was came inside of you, would he moan like he did. Would he spill his cum inside of you and how it would feel. You came like you never did before, panting against the door. That second you knew you were fucked. Royally fucked. 

Seungmin stood in that elevator what almost felt like an eternity. 

He left the elevator the second he realized that he was there for way too long. He made his way to his dorm as fast as he can. 

He felt guilty for a second, ambushing you in an elevator and kissing you without asking. Not giving you room to say no. But you kissed him back. How you pulled his hair, how you kissed him with more passion than he could ever imagine. 

He literally let himself fall to his bed. Sighing, remembering how you flushed, how you were shocked but also how your lips looked red thanks to the kiss. 

He closed his eyes, remembering your face, he already knew every detail memorized but remembering it made him feel so comforted. How your body felt pressed to his. How your tiny waist was screaming for him to hold it. How your hands ran through his hair. 

Being that close to you, he never imagined it would happen. He never imagined you would kiss him back. 

It was a spare of the moment of courage for him. He felt his bulge making him uncomfortable. He used his imagination many times to think of you with him but feeling you that close, feeling your breasts against his chest.

He gravitated towards you. Like the earth gravitated towards the sun, without any reason just pure instinct. 

He needed you so badly, he couldn’t find the words to describe it. He wanted to make your lips red again. He wanted to taste you, everywhere. 

He wanted to make you feel so good that he would ruin men for you. 

He wanted to be with you any second of any day. You ruined every woman for him. He could never even imagine himself with anyone else but you. 

He uncomfortably shifted. Fuck. He can’t stop himself now. He started to touch himself, rub his dick from his pants. 

How can he get this hard with just one kiss. His breath hitched again. He took his pants and boxers off. Imagining your smaller hands around him, rubbing him. Your red lips around him, sucking like your life depended on it. 

How you would look at you like you were so innocent but how you would beg for him. For him to touch you, kiss you, finger you and fuck you. 

And he would treat you so right. He would make you cum few times before he even fucked you. He would play with you, finger you and eat you out like there was no tomorrow. He would rail you until you begged him to stop. 

He would reward you for being such a good girl, play with your nipples, suck them and tease you. He felt another moan from his throat. He started to pump his fist faster. Wishing it was you around his dick.

He remembered your scent once again, even your smell was attractive. It was strong but not overpowering, a hint of spices, powder and vanilla mixed with a hint of cigarettes. A classy smell that still lingers around him.

He imagined that he would kiss you as he fucked you. He wanted to hear you scream and moan for him. Imagining his name coming out of your lips with need. That moment he couldn’t stop himself from spilling on his palm and stomach. 

A few days has passed since ``the kiss``. You like calling it ``the kiss`` since you were daydreaming about it ever since, and thankfully the weekend started right after that. You decided to study in your room instead of the library, which is where you usually work on weekends, but you felt like you needed to be alone and did not want to bump into Seungmin before you know how you`re going to react seeing him. 

You were talking your usual walk to the university building from your dorm room and still have not made up your mind about if you were going to say to him. But you think it is best to leave the first step to him. It feels a little odd not knowing how to act around him since you usually bicker in the lectures. But you didn`t feel like doing that today. 

Your mind and heart being in a constant battle made you tired and you didn`t want to do anything except for take your mind off of him. 

You walked into the class, a little early like you usually do. No one has arrived yet, so you decide to take a place in the front rows at a corner. Placing your earbuds in you decide to listen to music to relax yourself. This term is going to be a long one. 

Seungmin also did not know how to act towards you, he wished you would have visited the library on the weekend so he could see you. He missed you. He even missed looking at you. Yet still he did not know how to act. 

He did not know how you felt after the kiss. You were a puzzle to him, maybe that was the reason why he was intrigued with you. 

He was embarrassed of himself as well, that day he couldn’t resist his urges and made thing weird. 

He was swearing at himself, he fucked it up. 

He made his way to the classroom and seeing you in the corner made his heart skip a beat. 

After few seconds of him walking in the class, you two make eye contact and you both felt even more confusion. He tried to take his eyes off you, but he couldn`t. It felt like it has been years since he last saw you. 

His heart was skipping beats with every step he took. Still not being able to break the eye contact and you were the first one to break it. You were blushing and trying to cover your face with your sleeve. 

His adams apple bobbed and he immediately looked away, finding a spot in the class. It was not far nor close to you. He didn`t want to make you uncomfortable but he can’t stay away from you as well. 

When Seungmin walked into the room, he radiated an energy that demands to be looked at. You can’t help yourself but watch him. His confidence oozing from ever single pore. When you made eye contact, it felt like the time has stopped and there was no one else in the universe but the two of you. 

You feel the heat rushing to your cheeks. And you break the eye contact, pretending that an important text came to your phone, and you cover the lower half of your face with your sleeve. You used to do this when you got nervous, but ever since you were 17 you changed that habit into chain smoking. 

You knew it was a bad habit, but habits die hard. 

Smoking almost took the nervousness out of your mind, watching the smoke in the air flying away and the weirdly good tasting nicotine in your mouth made you feel good. 

You sigh as you try to distract yourself, but you could feel his gaze on you. You felt that he was looking at you. And you had no idea what to do. 

The tension you were feeling could be cut with a knife, your mind was trying to stop yourself from looking at him but without thinking you watched him. Taking notes, listening to the lecture, looking unlawfully cute while doing it. 

You started to daydream, what would it be like to be with him. Close to him. Watching him doing the most mundane things like cooking or cleaning. Studying and sun shining in his perfect face and how it would look like an artist created him with patience and attention. 

When you made eye contact again, he smiled softly and sent you a small wave, just like he did in the cafeteria. You decided to give him a small wave back. 

You thought to yourself he was probably being nice doing that, that doesn`t mean anything. 

You tried to convince yourself that he was just being nice, he probably thinks you are a creep now. You watch him for who knows how long, he probably felt like he had to do something to make you stop. 

Seungmin did notice you looking at him, he could feel your eyes on himself, and his heart was beating fast. He did not know what to do. 

He watched you, daydreaming and not even noticing him watching you back. 

When you start to smile to yourself, lost in your imagination he decided to shoot his shot. He seemed to be doing that more and more now. He gave you a small wave and seeing you do the same he continued watching you. Feeling victorious, you didn`t look like you were creeped out by him. 

It was awkward he admits that. But it is probably because he was making it that way. 

He did not know how to approach you. He didn`t feel the same way before for anyone. He wanted you so much, he knew he had to try his chances but he almost didn`t want to risk being rejected. 

You made it clear that you did not enjoy him. Your eye rolls and scoffs, he knew he was being a Mr. know-it-all in lectures. He couldn`t help himself sometimes. Hearing other students say ignorant and bigoted things made him furious. 

He wanted to have something with you, anything. He could beg you for that. 

Friendship, relationship, just physical he was okay with all of them. He wanted you in his life and getting so close to graduation lit a small fire under his ass. 

He can`t lose you, he had to try out his passion after his graduation and he had to have you in his life. You were the only thing keeping him sane at this point. 

Maybe he could ask you out to have a coffee, what could go wrong?

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PANDORA - Masterlist ~ complete

This story (and this blog) is strictly +18 minors do not interact.

-Kim Seungmin x female reader

-Academic rivals au. University setting.

-Trigger warnings are listed in every chapter.

PANDORA ~ Chapter 1: Anti-Romantic (2,4k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 2: Playing With Fire (2,4k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 3: Venom (1,3k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 4: My Pace (1.9k words)

PANDORA ~ Chapter 5: Love Poem (3.3k words)

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