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men should kiss each other with tongue.

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imagine walker approaches magneto with his taco shield in doomsday and says "i know you control metal"

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James Dean’s been shot dead in broad daylight, this is NOT a drill

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I do hate hate hate that my coworkers know I write fanfic. Like, yes, I used it as a jumping off point to actually tell them the comparatively less embarrassing fact that I'm cisn't but still.

I'll never recover from them knowing about my sordid written history. Like, yes, now people know not to call me she/her but at what cost?

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winteragent be like:

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Are you like. Okay

the character

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what are your headcanons on bucky/John walker

Oookay I've been sitting on this for a bit because the horrifying ordeal of being perceived got me good but I started this at 2am this morning so I'm finally gonna answer it.

General caveat of how this is all headcanon and I might not be the most articulate because again, started at 2am and thus I'm working onnnn less than ideal sleep.

So!! Here we go. Maybe I'll make a series of this if it gets too long (Note: It got too long 😔)

Affection and touch

John isn't big on pda and Bucky respects that. It's an insecurity thing--John has a lot of internalized homophobia to unlearn in the early days and it's easier to take it one step at a time. Avoid rocking the boat.

Bucky is subtle affection incarnate. Not overt gestures, just quiet reminders. Like a hand pressed to the small of John's back for a second or so when no one's looking, or standing shoulder-to-shoulder during a mission debriefing.

John actively seeks out affection more than Bucky does, but Bucky is a certified yearner with the puppy eyed awe to match.

John's affection does trend towards the more overt. Offering to cuddle with an open arm when they're both on the couch, coming up behind Bucky when he's in the middle of something to press a kiss to the back of his neck.

(John almost got decked once during the early days for doing that. He learned quickly to make his presence in the room stick before going for affection. Or coming up behind him.)

That being said, they both have a complex relationship with affection. It doesn't come natural to them--tenderness doesn't fit to the size of John's hands and he's very touch starved by the time they actually get together and regardless of what headcanons you have of Bucky's time as the winter soldier, I believe he probably has a weird relationship with touch because of it. (Might write more on this later but the post is getting long)

The most public affection they ever really take part in is when they're patching each other up after missions or sparring sessions. John kind of loves it. Makes him feel doted on, even if Bucky does it with dry wit and a half-serious frown, and he gives lip as good as he gets it.

Love languages

They don't really use the L-word. Bucky's lost too much to take that risk, and John actually wants to use it, there's just a million reasons why he doesn't. He doesn't feel like he's allowed to.

John might blurt it out in an argument one day. A bad one, maybe after doing something stupid or dangerous (both?). He wouldn't realise that he's said the quiet part out loud until Bucky's entirely stopped just to stare. (And if there's a bit of fear in the way Bucky looks at him, then, that's just something they'll both choose to ignore. If John regards him with fear of his own? Also ignored. At least, verbally.)

Bucky might say it. Once. If he thinks they might be dying or John really needs to hear it. It's an incredibly rare privilege. (Nevermind that the first time he says it it basically gives John ammo to give him shit about it later. Affectionately, of course.)

Both of their main love languages is Acts of Service, but John in particular needs words of affirmation to like. function. He needs to be told he's doing well, he needs to know he isn't just going to fuck it all up again.

Bucky struggles with this at first, the sharing. The gentle comfort without coddling. He's used to butting heads with John, he doesn't immediately realise how much it actually stings when John's at his worst and really just needs to be told it's okay. (They fight a lot early on because of this. John's just too proud to admit when he really needs something.)

Bucky on the other hand actually likes when John does things for him and hangs out. It's comforting when the man cooks, or helps clean up after training, or any number of things that aren't obvious. And John just. does it. Not because he knows what it does to Bucky, but because that's just how he is.

They don't really kiss much early on. Bucky doesn't like people getting that close to his face and John has to unpack a lot of things internally related to kissing a man now so it doesn't come natural to the relationship.

Pet names

They don't do pet names. Bucky keeps calling John by his last name and it drives him nuts. (Secretly, that's partially why Bucky still does it.)

John kind of does like the idea of pet names but nothing really sticks. 'Buck' feels reserved for someone else even if he does use it when he's being an ass, and traditional terms of endearment like 'Babe' don't feel right, either. 'Asshole' doesn't count.

When Bucky actually uses the name 'John' it's either an emergency or it makes him melt on the spot. No in-between. Either way, it's a private thing. Special. Reserved for those quiet moments between fights or when John needs reassurance the most.

One time Bucky called him 'Johnny' (maybe to rile him up or tease him) and Walker just about combusted. John won't ask Bucky to call him that, mainly because that means being vulnerable, but Bucky knows. He knows.

Aaaanyway, that's all I have for now. But I'll probs end up posting more in the future because these are really fun actually. Hope this answers at least some of the question.

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"Oh you like [x character] a lot!! What's their lore/your favorite thing about them/other questions to ramble about your fav? :)"

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Two kitties

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johnnayyyyyy

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That one meme that goes like "Why does X call you babygirl?" "Let's just stop talking for a while." But make it Winteragent where John calls Bucky that just to piss him off (and maybe because he has a big gay crush but who knows) and Bucky just has to ignore that they have this Thing going on where they both just sort of pretend there isn't any tension in the room with them when they're alone.

And then they fuck about it eventually i guess.

Anyway send tweet or whatever

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grown-ass divorced veteran has a gay awakening because the guy who fucking hates him is hot. winteragent wins funniest one-sided marvel ship for this lmao

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Okay but concept based on john being kinda the new tony stark (shipped with everyone and their mother)

john "living PR crisis" walker constantly convincing the public that he is dating each of his teammates:

It starts when the New Avengerz have like a really bad mission. A publicly bad mission. And they are trying to do damage control at a press conference. One of the more conservative-leaning reporters (who all only address their questions to John and maybe sometimes Bucky) starts asking questions like, "what has it been like going from being led by very decorated men in the military to being an Avenger under the leadership of Ms. Belova?" (basically implying Yelena is a bad leader because she is a woman). And John is. Just so tired and his body hurts and he is tired of being some weird pedestal for these annoying misogynistic racist people. So he just loses it. Starts ranting about how Yelena is the best leader he has ever had and that he would "follow her to hell and back without question you fucking losers."

And the press doesn't understand that John at his core really is that loyal when he trusts someone (and he has trusted Yelena since they got out of the vault together). So OF COURSE the press assumes that they are sleeping together.

None of the thunderbolts take it seriously--it's just some stupid gossip that will eventually pass on. (But Yelena does give John a hug when no one is around to thank him for supporting her).

Except.

It keeps happening.

Ava has a bad day spiraling about her childhood growing up in labs and John invites her to come with him during his visitation with his son. They all spend the day under the sun running around playing games before getting ice cream. The next day, the headlines read, "Current Avengers, John Walker and Ava Starr: Relationship Timeline (co-parenting?)."

And then, Bucky gets thrown into a wall during a mission, and John just freaks out, eyes glassy, and starts frantically petting him, making sure that he was okay. Someone takes a photo of John holding Bucky's face in his hands, looking terrified.

After that, during one of those PR "friendship test videos" (that all of them hate but Val forces them to do) Alexei and John are paired together and one of the questions is what is the other person's favorite food. And John's answer is not only right, but like insanely specific, i.e., the borscht from this shop in this random street in St. Petersburg, outside of which Alexei had his first kiss. Alexei talks alot, okay-and John had unfortunately asked what everyone's favorite food was as the resident cook and was plagued with a good enough memory even without the serum to remember every. single. word. Alexei said. (When this inevitably blows up, Yelena immediately makes fun of John for being such a whore that he goes for two generations in the same family).

Eventually, the press also start asking questions about who this random dude living with the team in the Avengerz tower is and John just immediately panics and say "he's my....guy?" (he had a blond moment and couldn't think of anything fast enough).

Bonus: John's old tweets resurface and it's just. Him fighting people on main during the height of civil war on how Sam Wilson is a great Avenger (He can fucking fly??) and just generally being kind of lowkey obsessed with Falcon (like c'mon Sam did some crazy missions for the military as Falcon, there were probably tons of military people who were kind of obsessed with him). And the public are just like...oop Captain America totally rejected Walker's ass lmao

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can we share a smoke together after homoerotically beating each other to a bloody mess

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These are hilarious